 When you said all this with sickness and so it comes down to the guilt in the mind and the projection And I tried to work with this infection that I have I did it for like three weeks like going on looking what's happening Trusting being completely fearful Knowing medically what it is how we should be treated what it can be to an on and on joke to Janie with it and about it And so but it always popped up in my mind You said there was fear there too and Jesus says in the Course whenever the fear is Great like it's really strong in your mind He says a mixture of magic and miracle may be necessary in other words you were working with your mind with your thoughts But it's like you hit like a real deep Fearful point really frightening and then it was beautiful how you described how you you went and You went to this doctor who it was unlike Doctors that you've known and the doctor what the doctors Helped you with and and treatments and so on and so forth and that's the magic part You know where Jesus says when you're too fearful a mix of magic and miracle is necessary So you followed your prompts when the fear started to escalate You know because you like oh my gosh and and the prompts and the guidance guided you to that man That doctor having been a doctor yourself. This was a doctor. You see how the Holy Spirit works with the belief system He's not trying to snatch it away. It's not like you You're like a like a child with a blanket like a security blanket, and he's like ripping and tugging They're trying to pull it out of your fingernails. You know, it's not it's not the way the Holy Spirit works it's it's using the things that you still believe in and In this case it can be treatment medication in some cases people have worked with things for years and they they're not so much into The medical model, but they still are into alternative Therapies and they maybe go for some herbs or they go for some Reiki or they go for some Some The massage, you know or for for certain types of treatment rulfing or some kind of deep massage or something like that It's all magic All of that is magic Reiki is magic Rulfing is magic You know you had herbal Treatments like Gandhi used he used a lot of herbal treatments Instead of what we would call medicine is the world defines medicine It's all magic when the mind's too fearful Of the of the release of the entire self-concept, you know, that's what it's where we're heading with this then That's where the guidance comes in. So, you know, and it it is something that you're working with on a daily basis You know you were sharing that today when we were going through the introductions that You're feeling all this love and gratitude and there's like a healing occurring and and the gratitude pouring through you and then there's another part of your mind that just Feel sick, you know, and you're not trying to dress it up or pretend about it, you know That's what we've been talking about. That's what we were talking about with with Noel saying Allow yourself to feel what you're feeling without seeing it as It's a problem You know, that's the tormenting thought in your mind, but this is this is an opportunity Again day by day moment by moment. You're just following your guidance And the Holy Spirit is working with you what with what you believe To help loosen the whole thing So I've always told people, you know, be gentle with yourself, you know For some people that looks like some people will say well, you know what gentle for me would be is I need to go ahead surgery I need something I need a some cancerous tissue cut out Of my body and that's the way that it looks the prompts can be for just that You know go into the hospital have the surgery have it taken out or you know, uh, I've worked with people that you know, we're on heart medication and and diet regimens and exercise regimens and everything to treat things like Like heart problems and cholesterol and things like that You know they involve the body and the systems of the body and all of that comes back to following the prompts You know really tuning in and and doing what What's your guided to do? And in the end you start to You know, you start to realize that that magic is not evil You you keep doing the mind training you keep joining In purpose and lining up in function And the more you line up and line up and line up You just let the light just kind of pour through you and shine through you and everything But that's the process of it. It's not At no point does Jesus come out in the course and say, you know magic is He's evil. He just Doesn't do that. He it's more of a mixture kind of thing It's more just something using letting the spirit still use the symbols Of the world while they're still helpful And not holding yourself guilty Because of it, but I sense sometimes the ego comes in and wants to like try to torment you You know with something like ah, look at that or look at that still still not good enough Still guilty still human, you know, that's that's how the ego works. It's trying to make a case To try to torment the mind and you you could say Listen, I'm taking my steps I'm taking my steps here And and this is what I was guided to do To help minimize and loosen the fear because the fear level was getting too Intense You know, so it's practical Don't let the ego torment you with those tricks It's both relieving the fear so you can go on. Yes, exactly. It's just relieving the fear so you can go on And you're on a journey of following prompts and and you know, it's going to be a glorious journey It has been a glorious journey. Jesus is really not anti-medicine. He's just he's just saying You're going to have to unplug from all the concepts. So whichever concepts you believe in I'll use them I'm not going to steal them. I'm not going to I'm not going to try to take away from you The little that you hold on to, you know, I'm going to have you Start to gain more confidence and forgiveness and more confidence in in this inner freedom and healing and then as you do Things will slowly start to fall away, but I'm not going to to take it from you, you know As if like, oh, don't take this is the last things I believe in it's more like it's okay It will drop Like you were saying you don't even have to call it questioning It will drop when you're ready for it to drop And it's that simple, you know, you don't have to make it into such a struggle Jesus says in the Course you you don't If a baby has a pair of scissors In their hand and you know That the scissors could Do them harm and cut them, but you just don't try to rip The scissors away from the baby The baby will scream To the baby. It's just a A toy And all the baby perceives is You damn Whatever Taking my toy, you know, it has no concept of sharp or Of being cut or anything. There's nothing there all it's seeing is You're trying to take My toy Bloody murder, you know, bloody hell. You're not taking these scissors You know because it doesn't know that they're scissors, you know, it's just it's fun. It's shiny. It's smooth, you know, it's You know And it's mine It's in my fist, you know, and so, you know, that makes You know, so I think that's a really strong metaphor that Jesus uses in the Course You could say that with a lot of things, you know Holy Spirit Really doesn't take things from you. You you have to Release them. You have to outgrow them It's the Holy Spirit is not in in a in their time in a tug of war Say and give it You've got these idols and get to me back and forth, you know, it's not it doesn't work that way You have to voluntarily outgrow it, you know, that's the only way that it works I know that's how it's worked in my life I will renounce that For for lent I will give up Dot dot dot then you find it You're obsessing thinking about whatever, you know, after lent is over Like well, I don't know Still like I might want Yeah, you just go back and forth and then it just means you're not really ready to let it go Don't beat yourself up for that. Just go on Trust Don't go when You don't want it anymore