 So, we had a great morning. We got into a lot of just sharing the presence and everything and for me intertwined with all the love and joy and peace that comes from purpose. The presence is our calling, what Jesus calls our special function, which is just the way that it seems to look for us while we're following the Spirit. And this is a world of many different forms. So, the form looks different for everybody, but the content is the same. The purpose is the same. And so, for me, the most important thing was to come into a living experience of the joy and happiness and then watch what extended from that in a very natural way. So, some of you who've been following along, there's been lots of tools, resources, books, websites, retreats, many, many things that are really quite amazing in the sense that people can access these teachings and again, it's just to put it into practice. That's what we're all doing, practicing and so I think we may talk about some of those tools, we might sprinkle some of those things in, but actually we want to use this afternoon for a practical application just about, for some people, it's tuning in to the calling, getting clear about the calling, for some it's are there intuitive steps that are coming in or is there things that I'm feeling inspired by, but I still have these niggling doubts of these these fears that are holding me back in some way, just starting to get deeper into what is that, what's going on and many people seem to come to crossroads with their spiritual practice and want to have breakthroughs just like in this world there can be like certain things that you aim for, but when you're going for peace of mind, that's a very present goal and much of the work, of course, we know with the courses, removing the obstacles, but you have to be aware of those obstacles and then let them go. So I'll open it up here for everyone and we'll spend the afternoon just having a good talk on practical application because as Jesus says, everyone is called, few choose to listen and we're just wanting to be the ones that are like, here I am, Lord, I did have a, I mentioned some lunches recently with Judy Scotts and with her husband William Whitson and recently William was telling me the story of how he he had had such a beautiful full life working, he worked for the government, the Pentagon, many different jobs and really felt really grateful for his life, but he was diagnosed some quite a few years ago with cancer and then he they told him, they diagnosed him with cancer and said, you have six months to live and he had this opportunity come up to go to China, this was actually decades ago and he thought, wow, this is like, thank you, this is a whim, I'm diagnosed with cancer, six months to live, and I get a chance to take a trip to China to meet Mao and he was like, wow, that's a nice little whim, thank you. So the delegation he told me the story, we were at lunch, he said the delegation went over to China and indeed you know, he had his chance to meet Mao, Mao Zedong, and and then Mao died very quickly, like in a couple days he met, the whole delegation had gone over there from America, you know, me and Mao died and then there was a lot of political infighting of, you know, when the supreme leader you know, who's going to take charge and all this started to happen and everything, kind of a little bit of disturbance, political chaos, and as you might imagine, it wasn't like the prime minister, the premier dying or being shot, this was Mao and so it was a big deal and he said the Chinese, they just didn't really know what to do with this American delegation because with all this infighting and all this going on, so they just they sent them off to Tibet and dumped them out on the streets up to the bet and he was part of the delegation so I said, well, how did that go? And he said, well, we're up there and we didn't have a place to stay and we're out on the streets. We didn't know where to get food, where the culture we didn't know, I don't think the American delegation got there and so he was on the streets and he'd already been diagnosed with cancer and his health was going down living on the streets of Tibet, kind of cast away and unknown after this real kind of almost like a real revered kind of elegant life and working in politics and his elder statesmen and all this and this and so anyway, his health was going down and they have much to eat and his health keeps going down down down to the point where he says, oh looks like I'm dying reached this point and so he he said I just I just prayed to Jesus and I just said Jesus, thank you for my life. What a magnificent life I've had. What a full life. I didn't even got the whim to come to China because he was loved the Chinese culture and everything. So he was just in total gratitude just dying in the streets of Tibet somewhere and I think he gave this prayer of gratitude and then and then he says I put it at the end he said, oh and if there's anything at all you want me to do on earth while I'm still here I'm your man So his health started to improve radically, he made it back to the United States. He married Judas Scotch the publisher one of the original four with the course and he's helped oversee the translation of the course into 25 languages so I was recently I was just there with and the key that came with me to one of them I think he might have even been he was telling us this story one of the ones from it too with my friend Jia who was originally parents from China and and She was from Vietnam. She was with me this time and she just burst into tears at that story She just felt so much love. She's tears coming. She had to run into the bathroom and join us later on at lunch But it was just the story of this gratitude of we're just here to be at service And that story, you know, it's it's great because if you look at the conditions as the ego judges and it got kind of Dark there at the end and yet the gratitude just came shining through For everything and it just took over and then out of that gratitude came the prayer like I can help you out with anything I'm your man So here he is now. He's about 90 years old and he's still at it Still overseeing the translation of the course into all these different languages So there's a great parable of disservice that that's really the only reason we're here and then the ego tries to distract us with many other things here, but As I was having lunch and I remember to the key when you were with me I think the first two hours of our lunch You just had one word going through four-hour lunch and you had one word going through your mind during the first couple hours Behold just behold. It's all she heard the spirit saying very much. It's behold Behold the reverence of devotion the purpose of hanging in there with your test whatever your test is and We've had some interesting things that came through those because I Think at one point Judy was saying to me again Ken can what they kept saying to me, you know, actually he was saying to Judy What we're doing here with Teaching disseminating the course translating the course publishing the course and everything He would tell Judy he said all of this that we're doing is is plan B There is a plan A and Judy says she's a little bit Why are we playing B? Like I'm gonna be the plan a was more the sense of the mystery school the plan a is living it It's it's so embracing it. It's so aligning with it It's so fully experiencing it that it's it's simply a state of mind. It seems to look like it's in action Almost like the world as you perceive it is like a motion picture of your beliefs I mean you get so aligned with the last belief which is forgiveness That forgiveness unifies your mind and then however the picture looks is is forgiveness It's it's like a dance. It's a happy dance in which you're just living it. It's not like you're necessarily translating it for future generations or Disseminating it to reach more people, you know, those are the things that's how the ego can conceive of things But actually plan a is the living experience of it that a teacher of God can heal the world without a sound and That puts everything in the context. It goes beyond the words It goes beyond all the actions and all the clearings and everything that you've come to know as the spiritual journey kind of in a linear way and So it's beautiful because Judy said yeah, I think Helen I think had a vision of like a Greek temple and There were just a small group of happy people there It was like a vision in her mind of just living it out And so I feel that's that was very dear because that's been my feeling and I think for a lot of us we resonate with that not trying to Think of it and put it into linear conceptual terms But oh, yeah, that's right the state of mind of the attitudes in the Bible just living it and Getting into that involuntary state of miracles are involuntary. They should not be under conscious control where It's like Jesus says when you have learned to decide with God Every decision becomes as easy and as right as breathing And it will be as if you're carrying down a quiet path in summer It's poetic. It's simple. It's easy. It's soothing It's the presence of love. It's the presence of grace Where your life then becomes an involuntary expression of the divine Without having to figure things out without having to constantly keep weighing This decision or that decision we take this turn or that turn it can be very stressful and very weary trying to Keep choosing among alternatives, which Jesus says aren't real alternatives at all That within us is the real alternative There is a place in our mind where we start to We grow tired of trying to make decisions in form How do I live my life best? What do I do and we get more intuitive in line with our purpose and Then when we become in line with our purpose and we become very Stabilizing that purpose then everything else is just like a natural expression and outpouring of that purpose so that's why as We talked this afternoon. I think I can think of nothing more important than really tuning in to your gift to your God-given purpose so to speak the spirit's purpose for your life And letting that purpose orchestrate the form Almost like saying holy spirit Paint me a picture paint the picture Of my life that is the greatest gift for the good of all Let that be a painting and an expression And then coming into that quantum experience where you realize every day. That's your prayer You're just waking up and saying okay. Let's paint a great picture today for the good of the whole You know my skills and abilities. You know My circumstances. You know everything that I'm dealing with now Take of that all the colors and get that paintbrush out and just paint. Let's paint a beautiful picture That's requires trust because The struggles we get into is when we believe we know something and we believe we personally have to carve out our way Find our niche in life Measure up to something live up to some kind of standard Have some kind of agenda Or otherwise our lives are purposeless when actually This is saying no I want to open to the purpose And every day I want you to show me and lead the way and I do not know the way to you, but you do In a workbook of the Course in Miracles there's even a workbook lesson. I choose the second place to gain the first I need the humbleness to just show up every day and say I don't know I'm clueless, but I do not know the way to you, but be you in charge You are in charge I will follow As you get into that listen follow flow the rhythm Of just flowing with that intuition Emerge occurs where there isn't anymore a leader and a follower. You just see You are the light and that light is just radiating and expressing everything in the world is a dance That's expressing that love and that light everything the world becomes a reflection of your own pristine mind And how wonderful that is So that's what I want us to do this afternoon If there's anything that's heavy on your heart if there's anything that's weighing if you feel you're at a crossroads If you feel you're at a turning point if you feel that You have some glee and some joy and some passion in your heart And it's like it's just bursting to come out and then there's this wall Doubt that's just like Yeah, that would be nice but Let's look at that, but Let's look at that, but what is what is holding me back From that glorious cutting loose in that divine expression of love Because whatever we hold in our mind is a fear or a doubt thought or even a hesitation Our mind is so powerful that our slightest hesitating thoughts Can seem to keep us not in reality, but in awareness from the glory of that experience So that's what we want to come to is an opening to that experience without any ifs ands or buts You know tied in there So I just open it up. I'm so happy to join with everybody The body get healed and of course the miracles there's no emphasis on on on this Healing the body is it doesn't matter whether it gets healed or it goes or passes, you know But in the Christian science of very much is is the body will be harmonious You know The ideal of course is to be You know like enough or be translated or you know So why why can't why confused about of course the miracles not Having that manifestation Yeah, it's very good. I think Whether we call it symptom removal or however we would define That reflection of a of a healed mind It goes back to what I was talking about earlier about this form and content When you decide upon the form of what you want You lose the understanding of its purpose. So as long as there's any attention whatsoever placed on thinking Something can be known about the body or known about health in the world my health of the body I said it's like an oxymoron because health is inner peace and the body is A concept it's a projection As long as there's a focus on the form Then that takes away from the focus on the healing of the mind It reminds me years ago when I was I was traveling around I was in michigan and I went to a church Like a unity offs offshoot And I did a talk there and a woman Came to me afterwards and she said can I meet with you later in the week? I said sure we met we took a walk in the park And she confided in me that she was A hundred percent healer like people would come to her and in a hundred percent of cases Symptom removal of whatever they were going through it could be physical symptoms It could be mental issues and so forth. She she was a hundred percent healer So we had a nice walk as we were walking and She started off by by saying I had this one question She said I just I tune in I pray I listen and I follow What I'm guided to do and then the symptoms disappear every time hundred percent And she said now my first question is Somebody had a man had called in from oklahoma Was from terminal on us and made him cancer or something and and said I heard about you told the lady and and said I know I can join with you and be healed and everything and she tuned in her guidance and the guidance said Have him come to michigan And so She said okay, that's that's my first question Why would the holy spirit Have this man come To michigan So that's your question. She said yeah I said well your whole practice is based on listen and follow Why now are you questioning the holy spirit? You know if the whole all of healing is based on one thing listen and follow Why have a question about the holy spirit's direction? She said you're right. That's not a good question It's not a really a question at all. So we keep walking in the park And then she said well Here's my question. She said I pray people hear about me. I don't have to advertise wherever people I've got all these people calling and coming to me and everything and she said I I pray I listen I follow the symptoms leave and they leave they're happy to rejoice and just goes on over And over and over and over and over and she said a lot of them come back. They're repeat visitors and different different symptoms Pray they're gone. They come back again Pray listen symptoms disappear She says it just goes on and on So she looked at me and she said, uh, here's my question What is healing? And I said, well, there is a a workbook lesson in the course of miracles. It says only salvation can be said to cure She says, you know, I'm married. I have children. I do this healing ministry And I keep getting these prompts and everything from the holy spirit how deep this goes And and I'm starting to see that I have to keep questioning everything that I think I am everything I believe in I said exactly That's what salvation is salvation is emptying the mind of concepts Emptying the mind of identifications The healing is the healing of perception It's like when you look in a kaleidoscope and you turn it in all the colors You know, we when we perceive a world with size and shape and color different textures densities and so forth we're preceding a world of fragmentation And the sickness is the perception of a fragmented world It's like watching a cracked cosmos almost like a mirror that's cracked into zillions and zillions of pieces That's the sickness the sickness isn't in the pieces the sickness isn't in the body It's in preceding the pieces and not preceding the the whole exactly as it is and so This year I think I was down in Australia and um I was out with some friends which done in Australia that the steering wheel was on the right hand side So I was on the left hand side We were going down the street and there was a man who was cutting the grass with one of those powerful weed weed wacker things And we're driving along and I'm sitting there We're talking and as we drive by there's a guy with his headset on and he's doing professional weed wacking and apparently a Rock got hurled out right at the car right at the window where Next to where my head was and it just went boom like a bullet hitting it and then the windshield of the window just started to break and to look like thousands tens of thousands millions of little tiny pieces and just went And it continued on as we had here go It was like in motion like the same kept cracking as we'd sit there and go look at this one And it kept getting tiny and kept going and going going and I was talking I didn't even I was talking about Healing and I went now. That's a perfect example after fragmentation as uh, there was a boom and then I kept on talking I said no see how you listen to me because here it still seems to be Splintering and splintering you know and still going everything and we looked over at the guy who's cutting his headset It was totally Unaware of anything and it kept going and going and going and going until it covered the whole window It wasn't even a spot where the it just and you could still hear it It was still going and so that turned into a beautiful teaching episode of like the problem Is not specific the problem is the perception Is preceding a fragmented world to believe that one of the fragments like a body could have an illness or symptoms You're you're proceeding inside the fragments and trying to say oh This fragment has cancer this fragment has heart disease you know trying to Break it up and like label the problem inside the problem when the problem is you're seeing a distorted world It's just distorted perception So there's many many great lessons and of course workbook to address that Lesson 79. Let me recognize the problem So it can be solved and lesson 80. Let me recognize my problems have been solved Those are two powerful workbook lessons that say basically Even if you already have the answer Which we do The Holy Spirit the atonement it's already been solved Even if you have the answer already It won't do you any good as long as you miss to find the problem If you keep defining the problem out there among the specifics among the parts Even though you already have the answer that shows The whole is real and the parts are not it's not going to do you any good as long as you miss to find the problem So some of you might have seen uh That movie uh what the bleep do we know and then the sequel was down the rabbit hole And I think it was the second movie where there was a quantum physicist talking about um an idea of What is the marital status Of the number four or five whatever number four. What is the marital status of the number four? everyone laughs because You know the number four we live it doesn't have a marital status So you can't really ask what the marital status is But all of our questions in this world involving specifics around the body and why did this happen to me and why did this and why not that in this net To the spirit if that's how funny The human questions are because the questions Really are just ego statements. It's really like there's not really a question or Underneath the ego. It's like saying who am I who am I? Did you bring home the milk I asked for you know, that's not a real question Human questions that seem to be real questions on the timeline are all funny to the spirit the angels laugh At all the questions because the questions are nonsensical Questions like what is the marital status of the number four? All the questions are in fact, we're just asked to follow the guidance tune into spirit And let it flow through us and then it will dissolve away the questions because the ego Is the questioning mechanism of the mind? Now we can learn to start to question our consciousness. What do I believe and what am I identified with? Those are helpful questions because they start to loosen our identification From the concepts and beliefs, but when we start pointing our finger out Why did this happen and why did the country invade that country and Why are people this way and you know, we're we're just aiming our questions It's just the ego distracting us with a bunch of nonsensical questions That we believe are real questions, but really it's just puffs of nothingness Doing nothing and going nowhere So that's it helped me to start to understand that started I was going to question my consciousness And speaking of Mary Baker ready Because that's the core of what you're talking about There's no life truth substance intelligence and matter It's all divine mind So once we start to get out into The the mortal mind or the perceptual mind of fragmentation and separation All of our issues and struggles Are within the mortal mind And the whole teaching of christian science says there's no mind in matter Which means basically there is no mortal mind That's what heals but that's an awakening to our christ self Our christ principle our christ essence Who we are is an idea in the mind of god a pure abstract idea Might say that god thunk us into being And therefore we cannot make an image of ourselves we cannot make Something that's unlike our spiritual creation And every attempt to to make creation in form Which form is temporary Creation is eternal whenever we attempt to bring the eternity into form. It's just Trying to do the impossible So actually what healing is is healing is is Remembering our function all sickness is function unfulfilled when we come back to our healing of our mind Our forgiveness our divine Expression of how we're guided and how we're to shine and share. That's what the healing is And when we hold on to the belief that we can See causation in form Find sickness for health in form Find any type of causation in form That is an example of wrong-minded thinking Because form is not causative Form is an unreal effect from an unreal cause Unreal effect images unreal cause ego True cause of effect relation God the creator christ the creation In perfect harmony If you want a true cause of effect relationship you have to go back to heaven To find that And the way that we do that in this world is by simply realizing that Our mind is causative and when we line up with our purpose We see everything and everyone is is our mind. So everyone's a thought every person is a thought in our mind When we come back to that state of holistic unified field The forgiven world the happy dream the true perception, you know, that's what this is all about So also sickness is level confusion anytime we perceive a cause in form Or causes and effects in form then we that's simply a wrong-minded perception And in the end that has to give way to right-minded perception We have to start to realize that there's nothing outside of us He says mind reaches to itself. It does not go out It encompasses you entirely you within it and it within you I love the flavor Of his words. It's like it's describing a whole mind holistic perception Everything completely connected The scientists the quantum physicists are calling it the unified field Wow, they tap right in to the healed mind to the Unified experience that that is the highest thing that you can aim for in this world So that's kind of a long answer, but it's just kind of for you You're welcome Completely understand, you know, the spirit in your own body and that but basically, you know being The thing to be in need to or not heal your body but to be whole. What about the whole world? You know, this is where I get it on the animals because I you know, I spent a lot of time working with animals and I think well their consciousness isn't You know, they're not thinking well, maybe they are but I don't think they're sitting around Having negative thoughts that are created than to be ill. Now are we is the world doing that to them? You know, so where does that all fit into the picture? What can you insight can you give me that might make me not be like Yeah, well, it's like the body is part of your perception But so are the the trees and the mountains and the stars and the horses You know the perceptual world is everything of time and space the black holes blazards on and on and on so For let's use horses. You're bringing up horses as an example. So let's use something that you can really relate to Some of you might have seen Robert Bedford's movie the horse whisperer and that was based on he actually brought in a Real so to speak real life horse whisperer and buck to come in as a consultant for that movie and What's fascinating about his work with horses is he He would go and visit all these different horses and some of them were like seemingly Wild horses or problem horses, but he noticed the connection between the owners of the horses and the horses They simply were reflecting and acting out all the issues That the owners seem to have And a lot of this can relate to that, you know, we've had experiences with pets You know, even some people who raise their children and they're in the emptiness syndrome and they think okay That's true with that phase and then the animals start acting out All the things that the children were acting on it's like oh my god. Okay, you're it's consciousness so All the world is simply consciousness and to the extent that we hold on to the ego filter It seems like the person is apart from that external world And it seems like there's an inner world that the person has and an outer world Society and a cosmos outside there Because you work with the Course in Miracles He's going to teach you through the Course that that your thoughts And the external world that you see are actually identical Because one of his work with us is my thoughts or images I have made The ego would have us believe that We're a person with thoughts And there's an external world outside of the person But that seeming world and that body and everything is all just thoughts In fact, this is a whole world of ideas And it's purely a world of ideas And as soon as we just recognize that we're dealing with a world of ideas Then we're back to unified consciousness But as long as we believe there's something called consciousness that is is in the human or part of the human And then there's an external world we've got conflict Going on because we're not wanting to recognize we're all together. We're all in this together We're still this idea that I'm over here. You're over there that the inner and the outer are different People will even talk about that in spiritual circles. They'll say well my inner world is doing pretty good But the world's a mess Out there And there's still not Starting to really see that no the world is just a reflection Of my thoughts if I said with the war Or mistreatment of animals or All kinds of conflicts that seem to be out there or even inter-psychic conflicts. It's all it's all the same And that's where the mind training of of course the miracles comes in because As long as I perceive there's a world outside of me and that there's people outside of my mind That are not acting according to my will They seem to have minds of their own so do the animals People will say that cat's got a mind of its own Well and it goes without saying people seem to be have the mind of their own and everything Then there's still not an awareness that it's all just thoughts It's still a trick a mind game of like the inner opposed to the outer And it seems like an impossible situation, which is why What's the leading cause of death in the world? Suicide And and suicide it you know comes from this desperation It's like Everybody believes they got a riddle to solve and nobody's Solving the riddle and at some point people get so tired and so fatigued and so tortured By the riddle of the human condition that they just say I'm just going to end it thinking that that's like the solution, but that doesn't It doesn't get you anywhere. You don't rest in peace when you still have conflict And you believe death is an escape Part of us intuitively knows death isn't the way out We've got to come to forgiveness to come to eternal life We need a reflection of life to lead us to eternal life death is never going to take us To life r.i.p rest in peace, you know, it's not that you can simply die To be free of the ego In fact, jesus goes one step further. He says the ego will pursue you beyond the grave That doesn't sound good I don't know about you, but I'm like I'm going to do my forgiveness lessons right now. Thank you. What's the next step? If ego is going to pursue me beyond the grave, I'll give up ideas of Well, I'll finally make it old age and die. That's not Going to get it sounds like a problem That sounds like a a problem meaning I need to let go let go that ego You got to come back for the Yeah, yes And a following up on jules question of the about romantic relationship is this go a little deeper under the surface So those nine chapters on relationship from 15 to 24 jesus talks about special love Relationships and special hate relationships For most people when they're reading through that they can they have go Oh, I know what you mean by these special hate relationships Because they can think right off the bat, you know Who do I really hate? He's got to be talking about this one. We can name them off, you know, aha He's got a word for it special hate relationships. There they are The special love relationship is a little sneakier because it's it's the same hate, but it's dressed up in a disguise So instead of being just get away from me and get out of my face and good riddance to you Hope I never see you or speak to you again. It's more like it's coming back like a ghost It's dressed up in a very attractive form Now I fooled you Here I am It's the hatred showing up dressed up in the very attractive form because If if you can really recognize guilt at the core of it You wouldn't be fooled by any form the ghost takes. You would just go ha ha Sorry not biting on that one again. The ego is so clever that it dresses up guilt in attractive forms And it can be relationships. It could be chocolate, you know, you could have A special love relationship with chocolate Many people do, you know, they'll say that I'm through with relationships, but I'm not through with chocolate It doesn't have nearly the heartaches I'm not getting the chocolate You know, but they start this There's some sections in the course, you know during those chapters where he starts off and he's got three subsections in a row one's attraction to guilt The subsection when it when it's titled attraction to guilt, you know, you look at you go Attraction to guilt then the next one is attraction to pain Well, this book's not going to sell There are no one in the course is not selling and then what's the third one attraction to death when you put three Subsections try writing a book and putting those as three titles on there and see how well that one sells But Jesus is not really concerned with selling. He's concerned with giving to you straight So attraction to guilt attraction to the pain attraction to death are all the same the ego Will take some forms of the projected world and make them attractive And some forms make them very unattractive Love and hate and then you're you're attracted to the love and you're repelled by the hatred And yet it's still projecting out a world in which there seem to be differences differences witnesses of love and witnesses of hate As long as we're still seeing dualistic witnesses. What does that mean about our consciousness? It still means we have a split mind and we're still calling forth conflicting witnesses So in the end, you know, mother Teresa and Hitler are the same from a healed mind or Male and female become the same or to use the more extreme example birth and death Become the same And even have any of you ever seen the movie Solaris with George Clooney at the very end his wife Rhea His appears to him once again at the end of the movie and he's just Totally amazed that she's back there again on earth and he's got this look of Of wonderment and he said am I dead Or am I alive? And Rhea says we don't have to think like that anymore That's the answer to am I dead or alive in the end what the ego calls dead in the life seems to be a big deal That's why people get outraged with murder because Death seems to be real and life seems to be real and as long as Life and death are projected out to the world then there's It still means the mind is still conflicted And it's not really ready to open up to eternal life so In the end, that's the most that's the answer to the question is the sense that You practice with the relationships and anything That you judge positively or negatively About the form of the relationship is it is a forgiveness Opportunity to bring it back and go. Oh, that's my that's my thought I can't blame My partner neither do I want to blame the body Either has the partner of the body all of those things are are actually neutral to the holy spirit It's just that the ego is projecting all this meaning And when it projects the meaning it's also looking for its salvation You know looking for a better partner constantly Looking for a more peaceful environment constantly I want to find the right people The right this you know as if we can find the formula of just getting The rubik's cube of the world just getting the form just right and then I'll be happy And it's really no we need to purify our consciousness And then we'll see the whole world From a happy state of mind. You see how empowering that is What's that's empower health? Is that the name of it? We're here and empower health and now we've just Taking it all the way You know to what empower health is really all about Blessed are the pure of heart for they shall see god You you first look inside and then you look out on upon a world that just reflects what you found when you looked within So if you go for the purity the forgiveness then Suddenly the world is benign and the world is a blessing Everything is blessing Yes Oh, yeah, it's a very good deep question I mean you start to get into readiness and willingness. We're getting really deep now. We're getting down into the deeper chambers of the mind the Helen shuckman the scribe of the course one time was having lunch with Judy scutch and willis harman very famous transpersonal psychotherapist and Willis harman had to go off to catch a flight and and uh, so he's asking Helen shuckman to just summarize the course to summarize what what you feel about the course because he's got to go and catch an airport And and and so Helen goes. Oh, no, you know, I know it's true. I just don't believe it That's her Quick as he's ready ready to go out to the airport. That's her quick summer. I know it's true. I just don't believe it And here she was scribing she's already scribed it and done a great job because seven years of you know Really going through a lot of intensity And then Judy just recently at lunch. She told me she said well actually she said to Helen You know, that's not entirely true. She said you should have told him. I know it's true. I just don't want to believe it Judy kind of reminded Helen that one see the thing about it is You know, you've seen my I've got diagrams and levels of the mind. It's all there In books and on the internet. All you have to do is Just go avail yourself of all the stuff that's there and it's just as easy as one two three. You just have to see it and and Give yourself over to it and be shown them but the spirit bring it to you but in terms of readiness this is a quality of the mind that that is not Like in time and space like people will say what did I do in this lifetime To be so afraid of this or to be diagnosed with that Whatever the readiness to wake up is not something that's in time and space, you know There was a american president president. I was just Talking to helen about this. It was that abraham lincoln some of you have heard of abraham lincoln And abraham lincoln said a mind changed against its will Is of the same opinion still Profound from a president, you know, it's like he was praying a lot, you know the civil war and he was really diving deep so The course keeps saying, you know, you need to you need to keep practicing this little willingness This little willingness keep practicing your little willingness little willingness And eventually he says it takes great willingness to see that all events outcome circumstances are Are helpful Great willingness. He throws the grade in there finally after all the little willingness things throughout the course saying it's going to take Really a devotion to come to see all things work together for good and there's no exceptions except in the ego's judgment So whenever you say you beat yourself up, you're just still looking at the form And you're just making a conclusion It could be anything. Why am I not getting this? I can't apply the ideas. I'm never gonna, you know, the ego's got this whole litany of defenses and and yet It's another thing that uh, how on and I were talking about was this like the mind It's all for for the mind all the lessons, but but it's it's more of a vibrational thing like things Everything is working together for your good Everything that seems to be occurring and the ego is just defending against that and interpreting Interpreting and saying judging against it even though everything is always in this divine flow And it's all working together for the good. It's just the ego's interpretation. Oh, no, it's gone wrong Well, this proves this, you know, it's always trying to Defeat the mind. It's always trying to dismiss the miracles Dismiss the love and always come back with that darkness so I would just say, you know, come back to the what's the prayer of the heart is you keep hanging in this whole Interpretation of Lyme disease and the way that seems to be playing out This was all it's all part of a prearranged plan This was all selected At some point as you keep going into the healing, you're just going to have this burst of laughter and go My god, but I really tried to make it A rough case from the ego's point of view and the spirit was gently there at every turn. Did you get it? Oh, try this one. Did you get it? That's okay. You try this one. Did you get it? Like the angels are so playful. They keep like spinning the ruby skew Don't worry. You're gonna get it. It's like you work with a child when the child's taking its first steps You know and falls to its knees. You don't scold The child, you know, you're like, oh and you go and you're encouraging That child to go from crawling to walking always offering encouragement. We have to be the same with our mind Encouraging encouraging not quick to find fault and Shut down and judge and be critical. You know, we we need to be this the same kind of way That's it. Everything properly perceived is an opportunity from bringing love Back into awareness. So is that properly perceived? That's why we go so deeply into perception You know into seeing the healing perception because everything is against ego has its own Interpretation of that like yeah, I'm great, you know, it will say oh, thanks a lot, you know For this because it's already judged against but everything is is aimed at the same Same healing. Do you have a question? Yeah, I well just you asked about Direction and if you're going anyway, I've just come off of a major six-year stint of doing a job And I've given myself some time to what direction I'm going. This is kind of personal stuff. It's okay Well, uh, so where am I at, you know, I thought I had this idea I was going to create this children's game, which I've always wanted to do and it's been in Back in my mind and go back to school and create all this stuff. So I kind of let go of that And I'm just watching where I'm going and I've gotten involved in Some conservation work in house down in a biosphere with you know, and that's kind of exciting And then I've got this opportunity to work with a girlfriend into counseling if I want I also have grandchildren also this and that so I just I'm kind of excited, but it just feels overwhelming and I don't have the language Or maybe that's what I'm asking for the language to choose. How do I get in touch? Okay? What's the next step? Is this the right step? Uh fears come up You know, there seems to be a lot of exciting stuff happening. I'm not I'm not jumping in yet I'm not sure if I'm aligning myself And I am anxious that I've got all these responsibilities. Like I want to spend time with my grandchildren, but they're a balance, right? I'd like to do this be part of this group That looks at preserving this world heritage site I don't want to get into a fight or And then I wouldn't mind doing some more some counseling maybe part time. So I just didn't transition So you mentioned that and I thought this is a good place to bring it maybe Well sometimes when you're in a place of transition and cross roads It's good to understand a little bit of the dynamics or the How the spirit operates because remember the spirit wants you to bring the illusions to the truth He wants you to to expose any dark thoughts and dark beliefs bring them to the light and I don't know if you've heard of this movie the guy richie Madonna's ex-husband made called revolver It's a very healing movie and one of the lines In it is basically coming from the Holy Spirit Character in the movie saying where you don't want to go That's where you'll find him in other words Where you don't want to go In your life experience. That's where you're going to find the ego It's the master of hiding And that movie at the end you see David Hawkins and Deepak Chopra all these Amazing teachers kind of at the during the credits you've seen at the end But they're basically saying yeah where you don't want to go. That's where you'll find him the master trickster So if you're honest and you start to look at your life instead of like thinking Oh, I'm so and so years old and I've got some years up to my life What is it on my bucket list that I haven't done or what excites me in this and this You start to come inward more to a self honesty like what really terrifies me That's the kind of questions we need to be asking yourself what really scares me, you know And then where you don't want to go. That's where you'll find it That's where you'll expose The trickster You know by going to that now Helen shuckman was working with jesus and basically jesus said she was a psychologist And so she was used to working with clients and defense mechanisms and jesus did tell her Don't ever don't go for the jugular Depending of your clients, you know, don't work with the primary defense mechanism work with the secondary Defense missile mechanisms first build up trust Build up confidence and then you go in but but Revolver which is kind of more of an ultimate movie of healing Basically, some of you have seen the movie. No, there's the elevator scene When he's going down. What's his name? Jack green jake jake green and jake green's in that elevator in the movie. He's afraid of tiny spaces And so Where you don't want to go. That's where you'll find him. So he has to go into the elevator shaft instead of taking the stairs Which is just more of a detour resistance and when he gets in there Then the elevator stops, you know It gets between floors and it stops and then the electricity Goes off and everything so darkness and tiny spaces are jake green's Greatest fears and that's where he's going to find the ego. The ego just comes out of its hiding place You know, what are you without me? You're nothing without me and you know, it starts to really Come at him really hard and Basically the ego after it goes through its tirade of kicking screaming banging and everything Ego says you are me And then he's got to come into his space if you're not I'm not you I'm not an ego and I'm not you You are me. You'll be nothing without me. I'm not you and then he goes into the serene state Which is the enlightened state when he faces His greatest fear which is an unworthiness and an insufficiency around identity That's what we're we're zooming down to face You see how different that is from kind of like, oh, I'm a human being had a good life. I'm growing old What's on my bucket list and what is it that I can It'll bring me some excitement and interest to You know, maybe I at some point Bought into this idea of of worthiness and I played small what areas of my life Am I still playing small? What areas of my life am I still people pleasing still acting for approval or acting for somebody's response? In terms of responsibilities if if it seems like you're overwhelmed with responsibilities That's just a sign that oh, I need to take a close look at that And come back in and say where is my true responsibility? These things if the ego set things up to keep me in guilt And my responsibilities to be divinely happy And my responsibilities for the whole universe, too. It's not just a personal Responsibility I'm here as a in the matrix. You are the one You know, I'm here because I've been told I need to wake up and accept that I am the one Then you can start to face. Where am I compromising? Compromising where am I still playing small? And that's a tremendous opportunity. So those little Points of transition are really cracks of opening Where you can kind of really be true to your divine self and say, oh show me here What is it? What is it that is really calling me right now? Yeah, asking for that being worthy of asking for that because you deserve that that's your inheritance Yeah, that's a great prayer. Show me Spirit show me Yeah I can pull out and it should be child slavery human trafficking Child prostitution pornography and so this You know take that child Out of there put that child in front of me with all this devastation And I couldn't How could I mean this desire to like alleviate the suffering Someway and then the smallness Right, there's this smallness of how can I do this? I want to do this. I want to go, you know Relieve one or the thousands of children on this planet and yet It's my is that my perception? The child that is beaten and kept and chained and hungry and You know recently somewhere one that really impacted me was this child this in africa was crawling in the dirt and people were just looking and there's like I don't even know what to do with it because it was so There There to pick it up. Is it gonna break? It's like this way I could not I could not resist To alleviate that in any way with anything that I have and It's strong never goes away. Yeah, I can never it never goes away since I became You know aware of this and started to look even more so and recognize that it's everywhere Where do I start? I Even though the Lord's taking care of everything. How do I facilitate? I'm your man Take me there. Yeah, that's the that's the cracking open Because it's like when there's all these blinders that have been put over that there's layers and layers and trying to Trying to cover over the guilt cover over the pain cover over the suffering It's like layers and layers of a false world that's built up with many distractions Like look over here. Don't look there. Look over here And then you you start to open up to your calling It's that's really what you're describing is a good example of what I was just speaking about where you don't want to go That's where you'll find him in in the sense that you're being drawn In through this perception And this is literally the way it's designed in the plan for you to wake up To to reach that place of empowerment And for me, you know, it's what it does. I think experientially it just keeps popping you past comfort zones Whatever ego comfort zones we seem to have Boom, and then oh, oh, yeah, and just pop. It's huge. It's it's very powerful and I was very shy and I didn't like to travel and all these things everything that I didn't want to do Is the way the spirit says, okay, well, you'll be good for that. You don't like to travel We're gonna have mega travels for you You don't like to talk you're shy you're quiet you're a wallflower and everything. Oh, we'll we'll get it We'll fix that You know, it's like we'll use Use you when you're willing to be used. That's how the cracking open happens So for me going to third world countries Was a part of that as well because you had this almost like an altruism this deep love this deep desire to to alleviate And extend love. It's just a huge like a like a damn full full of Love that's ready to burst burst out And and how it's done is it's moment by moment You know for me taking me and taking me off the third world countries and putting me in situations Where I had this huge desire to be helpful, but I had to be shown Almost like I'm a novice And I'm saying show me lord. Teach me How can I extend this Draw into all corner. How can I be love in action? Like I was down in Colombia one time where The last majority of the country lives like on two dollars a day and So I'm out. I'm getting different talks and I go to the swan talk and I give the talk and this man's woman come and they said we're from An orphanage and we we heard your talk and we just please can you come with us to the orphanage? So I said sure. So there I go. I go to the orphanage and mostly This whole orphanage. It wasn't just an orphanage. It was an orphanage for hiv Children babies all the way up. You know that that would have been abandoned Left out there and so on and so forth. So it's basically what what so as I'm getting ready to go um a woman who also had done a group she comes to me and So she just says uh my teenage daughter. She's so lost and she's She's got all these marks all over a wrist from all the time. She's tried to kill herself just marks our arm and everything She's just a teenager and I brought her I brought her along to see you I I think if my daughter could just spend some time with you that could help her Break free from that and so I think this is perfect. Bring her along to the orphanage So we all go we stop by we read we read a movie pocahontas we buy candy All kinds of things and we go in with these hiv babies hiv children and we're there and we're They're just to extend love And we go in there with all our supplies to do it and we're with all these kids and I remember watching pocahontas and there was a little boy down on my lap I'm just holding him this little hiv That's boy. I'm holding him and loving him and cuddling him and loving him and at one point during pocahontas He just looks up at me with his big eyes and just goes In in Spanish it was you are my daddy And it was there was just the opportunities That when you have all this love to extend the spirit will Bring all the circumstances because everything's love or a call for love and We need to break out of those ego comfort zones And these constructs of identity and that's how the spirit does it. It's always stretching us past all these ego concepts and ideas Because it's got all this love that wants to just pour through so If you just it's like you follow your heart if things really call to you and there's a strong Feeling and almost like an urgency with it. That's like the spirit nudging you like good Good, I will go before you. I will set it up in a way that will keep expanding your perception Where your perception keeps expanding through these miracles and love keeps pouring through and that's how the cleansing A way of the of suffering because the ego perception is where the suffering Comes in It's always some kind of distorted lens God didn't create suffering. It's the ego that's distorting Something and the spirit sees that as a call for love Where like when I've been born as Sarah's going around and the kids are juggling and doing all those things To bring in money for their families so they can eat You know going around my friend and I giving little angels Little coins the spirit will use the symbols In order for it to be impactful and helpful in a way that that you feel your heart Expanding That's what we need to do. We're not there's no way that you come to spiritual enlightenment through concepts of Thinking i'm just going to learn this book and memorize it's you know, it's just it doesn't work that way The doing part Yeah, the action doing part. Yes the action part, right? Yes. It seems So large The there's so many. Yes so much opera. It's a constant like there's no question But what to do like can't get bored in this lifetime? It's so We're all miracle workers. You know, we're all being called into our miracle working functions And that's ego, right? That is not I need to save you because I couldn't say it's just like I just want to give you some rice Or whatever that's the involuntary Of nature the miracle when whenever I've heard teachers say well, you know, it's just an illusion Remember asking holy spirit and jesus about this is just an illusion stuff and it's interesting that jesus christ 2000 years ago never went around uh Talking about the world as an illusion. He just was going around in in love and gentleness and friendliness in extending I think it was only the gospel of thomas where thomas had Uh Said to him I'm not I'm going to tell you something but don't tell anyone because it'll bring fire down on our heads Well, that kind of language is basically jesus saying listen thomas. Let's use some discernment here We're supposed to be the living representation the demonstration of love I use my parables. I use my teachings, but Don't go telling people that this is a desert or this is An unreal planet Because that's trying to heal from the top down But the biggest problem the course of miracles teachers has is they try to take A primary teaching from the course and try to convince their spouses Their parents they try to get it into the Vatican get into the pope's hands I think you should hear some of the stories I hear honestly We've been a level confusion going on there because it's this idea that If I could only convince so and so that the world's an illusion who's trying to convince who You know if you come to that experience And in your state of mind reflects that you have nothing to defend that you're holding on to no values of the world Then your state of mind will be a tremendous teaching and healing Because that's true empathy But I've heard stories of people, you know going in somebody's in in the hospital and traction and banging on the The cast going it's an illusion Oh my god When you take something as deep as the course and it's metaphysical and you and the ego gets a hold of it You know, it will just try to use the words And it's not coming from a presence. It's not coming from that deep connection So I really feel this is your your inroad. You need to pay attention To that huge calling Every day I do every day We're just seemingly extending our word. It's very large And I'm just like I need some people with me because this is too much for all go no problem But it just seemingly so large that It's everywhere. Yeah The opportunity arises constantly present anywhere and everywhere I focus on the little ones because The thought breaks my heart open Well, that's great that you're expressing that too because I feel Jesus's miracles are a collaborative function and Collaborative expression and so that's the way it's gone in the parable of david where I go out I just love to join collaborate. It's the collaborative vibe You know where in one sense If you're in the miraculous state of mind and there is an action component Involved the holy spirit will will give it and actually do it through you He says it cannot be difficult to do the test that christ appointed you to do for it It's he who does it spirit will come rushing through you and there can be an action component to it Whereas a lot of times when people intellectualize the course It's just sitting around in groups going that war is not real That child suffering is not real, you know If if they would come into an actual experience of that it would change The person their whole perception of the world But the ego is so frightened of that love that it it will use intellectualizing And oftentimes just even studying the book. I haven't met people that studying the book for 20 25 30 years and it's like Do the workbook lessons over and over and and really he's calling us to live it You know to really live it So if you're calling out for connection and collaboration, it's great that you're making a public statement of that We're constantly doing that. We're always i'm always saying to people join me Come and join me You know, see how much fun this is. Let's do it I travel with different people go to different places Joining people in different cultures different languages It reminds me a little bit of Uh That documentary that they did on George Harrison of his life That was so touching to me that he He not only went over to india, but he got so involved. He had so many facets of his life Where he was connecting and collaborating with people. It just warped my heart to watch him going here or there forming a Rock band another rock band Tom Petty and different ones passing out ukuleles to people uh Even with his his first wife, I think I remember in the documentary she ran off with Eric Clapton Yeah, and and he was like is that really what you want then go, you know imagine having the kind of Love and presence if your partner came and said now i'm really interested in this other guy more than you They have the state of mind to say okay then go And then the main way in his life for the coliseum to come in and what a reflection As they went you see we make space when we are authentic when we We don't try to to to to keep up with the parents is keep up with the juniors be afraid of what other people would think but He was really into the collaborations using collaborations What that big thing he did to raise all that money The bang concert for bang like that concert for bang with us like groundbreaking kind of things he was doing Like you said there's lots of opportunities and he just was like, okay I'll take that one and I'll take that one too and that one and that one and that one he was jumping in beyond ego comfort levels and just Getting into the love and I think that was a great example for all humankind to see that My heart just lit up when I saw that documentary. I just was like wow what a life That's amazing Yes, did you have your hand up? No, okay I'm just wondering how you ever Well, it for me it's so much in the moment That that's that loosening of of time because all of us that had that experience with with loved ones or something where It's like that sarah brightman's song, you know It's time to say goodbye From the ego lens goodbye is one of the hardest That's why when people love ones even physically die. There's there's a lot of grief Almost like there's a belief that the communication is broken That touch that that care that close intimacy Somehow something's been lost And underneath all that is this belief in loss that Jesus says in the course you have many strange beliefs But perhaps the strangest of them all is the belief that you can lose the ones that you love That's interesting coming from jesus So for me how I was talking this morning about getting into a life of giving When you're into that giving mode giving giving giving Going round and round and just your whole life becomes a a symphony of giving You are filled up because that's our function our god-given function is to to give as god gives freely and I remember that movie called always the steelbird movie with holly hunter and richard drifus There was some kind of line in there in that movie where The only pain we carry with us is the love that we withhold When I heard that line in that movie I was like, oh my god, that just hit me like a ton of bricks like What's been my mind withholding? That is bringing the the pain the suffering the I need to get into this giving and That has been like a calling for me is to really get fully into that to not hold back in any way and in that sense You know it's been there isn't there isn't a separation anxiety. There isn't a sense of losing something Like even in my life I travel so much that probably the most common face That I saw in my life was my three-legged cat tripod, you know and So and I had this kind of telepathic Thing with this cat that it was like and the cat was like saying I'm with you I'm with you for the duration. I'm with you for your whole life I'm going to be here as a companion for you And then whatever that was a couple years ago or something when Tripods started to go down and passed away literally in my bed We had had a little Meditation of salt sign was so much love the whole house was just filled up with all this love and then And then I went off of my travels again and when I came back there's a kitten there It's almost like Like I'm back now I was female before but now I'm male I had three legs before but now I've got four watch me go And and I'm with you all the way I still I'm still here They're even saying the meow is a distinctive meow. It's almost like it's identical It's like I'm back the form has changed But I'm right with you As a companion here all the way through everything So you get more and more that feel that that you don't really lose anything In the giving you just feel that that connection that love In fact, what didn't we do it was a video recently that all addiction Is a call for connection Is a call for connection. Yeah, all addiction is a call for connection So whatever form the addiction takes it doesn't matter. It's really a call for us to connect and to extend the love And we're all capable. That's why we're here having this talk. We're we're ready We there's so many ways to connect so many ways The meanings that can I look around the room different places we've cross crisscrossed around the world and Richard and They said, you know, we've had all these different interconnections and it just keeps going on and on and growing and growing And to me, that's what this is all about. You know, you just keep going with that What what really lights your heart up what really brings you joy And and watch whatever those niggling doubt thoughts are that would hold you back from that collaborating and connecting because those are the ones that have to be Exposed, you know, they're being brought up by that that connection that flow That just hit me so strong. And that's the overt movie is Dreyfus Richard Dreyfus delivered that one Yes I can feel it. I really can feel it because I knowing you rick and In the years that I've known you from up in Vancouver Island and and down monastery and different things and and how you just opened your house up to community coming in there and We're just so willing to let those eager ego comfort Layers and zones just keep getting popped and popped and now with the diagnosis It's it's quite common when there's a diagnosis because it's there's a shift in the perspective of time It could be like an extreme slowing down and then noticing And a focusing that was never there, you know, you could start to feel the gift with that Course with all of our movies movie watchers guide to enlightenment But I think was robert redford's daughter made a film. Was it called the red guitar? Where she's The guitar just a guitar Where she's diagnosed with a terminal illness and she goes to work and She loses her job and then she goes into this the whole movie is this amazing phase of allowance The allowance that she hadn't given herself since she was like a little girl all kinds of things and trying to do You know and confine and she just gives herself such allowance and she starts to use her credit card to just She goes wild on this credit card And all the encounters and everything she draws into her from this diagnosis Kind of state to the point that she actually goes into remission You know because it's such a full turn and I come out of his last year or two years ago. Was that spain? In may yorka. Was that a couple years ago or last year last year around this time Six six weeks I was over there for the last four But a six week devotional that we have looked from time to time and there was a woman who came there and she waited until pretty far into it to say that she had been Diagnosed with cancer and terminal illness and so on and so forth But she came out of it in a total remission Of of just that six weeks of just giving herself over And all the dismantling and all the undoing all the release of guilt And I think that final month I was there. I would be doing like a metaphysical movie Every night like come on join me take we're going soaring forget ayahuasca and ecstasy a drug like that. I'll take you we're going on a trip every night A nightly movie session where I take them a deep metaphysical movie and we would just all go soaring together And then yeah by the end that was part of her testimony was that Yeah, she came in with cancer and she and she dropped that one Two on the way through I think the key word you said is allowance, you know, we really have to allow ourselves To the fullest to really come into what is the calling of our heart and and we're not going to be denied We're not going to be held back from that. We're not going to buy any of those ego excuses You know, we're going to fully go into that. I think that Is the gift what you're sharing is it's it's been a gift. It's whatever form the spirit knows the way whatever form That is used as a reflection or a way to assist us In it opening further and further into that allowance Is amazing and that I love how we can do that with relationships We can do that in all aspects of our life in terms of our jobs and vocation children We can we can just open up to what's possible like say spirit you show me you lead the way And it's just a beautiful testimony that you're you're seeing that you're experiencing that you're acknowledging That you're acknowledging the value of that. That's That's truly what it's all about And I've done that with people for years I Volunteered and Hospice I was actually training to work at a hospice many many many years ago and then this This minister was also training beside me But we went out to win these one day and we're having lunch and And he's yeah, I've been diagnosed with cancer and it's Lymph cancer and it's spread and the whole diagnosis thing and everything Let's be said they're eating our fries and our Wendy's burgers and just kind of looking in the eye and just saying Is there somebody in your life that was close to you that you're not talking to? and he's like How did you know about my sister? And I we had a nice lunch and I said well listen Your assignment is fairy the hatchet You call her you talk to her there's so much love there, but you have not Been communicating the love in your heart that someone is very dear to you and everything I told him I said, you know everything we experienced with the body is just a reflection of mine and this is Is what you need to do? Well, he I didn't see him for a couple weeks, but when he came back he went in and He went into total a hundred percent remission from kind of from extensive cancer just went boom just popped around like that because He he was willing to listen to what I had to say And he there was a grievance underneath everything in this world That seems to be any kind of discomfort or ill of ease there's a grievance That we still haven't raised up and he was so willing He just came up to that and he just stepped right into it and so I think that's what the opportunity is right now. You know, you're just giving yourself that allowance that show me That step-by-step show me and everything slows down Including I think there was a movie we have it's called insurrection or something Insurrection Star Trek movie Where Picard and the next generation they all come down to this place and it seems like there's these primitive people that don't have warp drive and all this and this and and basically Picard is kind of shocked when when this woman in the group basically says Why would we need warp drive? Where is there to go? Talk about the whole Star Trek is based on you know, the go galaxies where no man has gone before and everything And here's this woman in total grace and presence. Why would we need warp drive? Where is there to go? And then she slows down time in her mind and takes him Captain Picard into the holy instant. He's like, you know, he thought they were so primitive He's like, oh no no everything is backwards and upside down about this world And when she slows time down, he just feels all this love And you know, that's a there's so many great symbols throughout the movie that we're here for love and appreciation. We're not here to achieve and you know rejoicing technology and all kinds of things of the earth we're here to Rejoice in love divine love and wake up to it and then let love use use the symbols Yeah, it's beautiful Well there have been course teachers and Who have emphasized their entire life the exposure of the ego and that's because Of the denial, you know, even hella shucks and woke up one day with like blazing of letters, you know never underestimate the power of denial, but I will tell you that that actually Exposing the ego is not the whole story of forgiveness. In fact, that's just the preliminaries What forgiveness actually is is being so linked into the holy spirit The one the spirit that overlooks the error and sees the impossibility of the error That's what forgiveness is So I think with a lot of psychotherapies a lot of people who work with the course There it's it it's very important. Yes, but it's almost like at some point You have to spring to the actual forgiveness Which is do not see error He's even italicized that you have to reach a state of purity In innocence where your mind becomes so unified that you can't even perceive The error anymore Remember the definition of forgiveness is you forgive what has never occurred So, you know, there's got to be something beyond exposing so What I find is a lot of people all over the planet are when they really give themselves over the spirit All the darkness comes up and it's just like you're caught in this thing of like, oh, hell What have I done? What have I taken the lid off of this dark Cauldron and pits and what did I think I was doing life was better when I had to lid on So they're like praying help me put the lid back on And the spirit's like Oh, no, you're not going that way. That's not the direction So this is where we need to make it a priority to come together because what I'm really talking about when I talk about the quantum field When I you know, we've got these great books out quantum forgiveness movies to watch We've got all these spectacular tool mystical mind training and goes on and on and on Unwind your mind All of these are very direct routes to Coming to a state of mind that sees past the error entirely Because as long as you're still spotting it if you spot it you got it You perceive it you believe it You perceive drama you've got a major drama going on in consciousness and and I'm still saying it has to be allowed Like we were talking allowance you have to allow it to come up But you can't linger with it, you know, you have to really train your mind and be willing to choose again You know to do that and then I would say the more you get into your function the more you get into true empathy Where your whole focus becomes Extending giving lining up with spirit, you know, you're not doing it part time You know suddenly it's full time And when I say full time Over the years, I've worked with a lot of different people and they one of the common Dances that the early years when I was working with people in the early 1990s was David you can do that with your life and your lifestyle and your circumstances They I even had students would say if I had your circumstances, I could be as happy as you It's my circumstances that limit me and I say Did you ever listen to maryon williamson that happiness is not circumstance dependent? You know that you can't have happiness if it depends on your circumstances because That's just like saying the form is the cause And my mind is at the mercy Of the form that my life seems to take to talk about a victim That's just like putting yourself in the victim role and victim to the world victim to circumstances So I had many people that would say to me I have very unfavorable circumstances and I would say no in fact to prove it I would go right in the middle of their circumstances and And I would say just come and join me. I remember I think I was in oklahoma and this therapist Had invited me over To her house and I met her husband and he went off and then we were there. We were sitting there at her kitchen table and having a nice deep conversation and she had put her young child in one of those little Child little chairs was right there and and It's given the child a drink In a sipper cup There's a little sipper cup so they you don't have the stuff flying all over and she'd done the good mom things really Everything was really so he's sitting there and we're talking. We're totally engaged everything. He's just looking at us He's all excited and so he takes the sipper cup He wants to get involved in the scene a little bit and so he starts Putting as much liquid as he can get out of the sipper cup Onto is onto the table right in front of us And he's doing it and doing it and she's so engaged with me. We're talking and I could see him out of the club I'm going to get involved in this scene And more and more and more and more and then as he looks around he takes both hands in the air and he goes Pepsi the Pepsi was flying all over flew in her hair I think I had a beard at the time flew in my beard flew in my eyes and everything like this And I just continued on talking And she said this is what I'm talking about How can you be peaceful? For this kind of stuff and I was just saying What's wrong with this? I said a little Pepsi in the eye. I said, you know It was you you have to get to the point where you transcend The idea of judging That something's going wrong You know and and then also you start to follow your heart and you live by that integrity That flow which is your peace of mind you keep listening to the inner guidance you act and and all your behavior everything flows from that And that brings you into a peaceful perception of the world And when that happens, you're invulnerable. In fact, that's an actual teaching from A Course in Miracles. Jesus said make your invulnerability manifest Wow That's spectacular That's like a teacher of truth make your invulnerability manifest How many teachers have we heard and people that work with healing and everything where they're always emphasizing be vulnerable Be vulnerable be vulnerable and then here comes the teacher Of truth saying make your invulnerability manifest. So there's two parts one is don't Hide and protect and push those in those those vulnerabilities down And try to pretend all at all nice all sweet everything funky dory to 10 per 10 You do have to expose But also to keep in mind. Wow, I have a function here. My function is to join with my brothers and sisters My function is to extend this feeling of love that I have that wants to just expand and extend And let those situations and opportunities come in Because in the end life is not linear at all. It's This whole cosmos is holographic and this whole cosmos is a reflection of consciousness. So As jesus says if you want only love you will see nothing else It's back to that. What is my desire? Let thine i be single Let my heart be purified let my devotion be singular If you go for that Wing the whole universe is going to change Because it has to because the mind is that powerful You cannot be held back So it's like a two-part thing, you know, I when people are Talking, you know, I'm at the monastery. I mean a lot of groups I've led and sessions People have all kinds and emotions come up screaming shouting Yeah, one day at the monastery, you know, lisa and I were there and we heard all this screaming screaming blood curdling screaming screaming going on and Lisa looks at me. She said who died and it was this wife uh was on her browser of her computer and and All of a sudden she typed in you know, the browser fills in From memory type something and on the porn side came up It was her and her husband's computer and all of those. Oh, here we go. It's a porn day. Okay You didn't look for any thoughts today. Okay, you know, you you have to be aware that here we go You know, these kind of things are going to come up. Nothing's by accident. It's just you're you're ready You're calling it forth to let it go To not be personal with it, but to just see it from a higher perspective and just see it just thoughts Yeah, there aren't even real thoughts. You know, how can you get so caught up over thoughts that aren't even real uh I was mentioning that recently that example too. I was in Australia and I was like doing a a week long retreat. I think in nusa years ago and some man came I can't remember his name now, but he came in the middle of the week and He's like, can I please come in and I wanted to be part of your expression session and no people pleasing and I opened it up to the group because you know, they're all there for a week retreat and they said come on Let him in come on David. Let him in. Let him in. Okay, come on in He comes in he starts right in the next day with all this pedophile thoughts Exposing all this pedophile thoughts. Well, I had mothers and they're coming up for counseling and it was just You know again for the healing. It's just thoughts But when we give reality to those thoughts, that's where the guilt comes in God didn't create any of them God wants us to know our perfect innocence But we have to as long as we push thoughts out of awareness. We believe they're real We believe they're dark. We believe they have to be hidden But the atonement is underneath Those hidden dark thoughts. We're not going to get to the atonement unless we allow Those dark thoughts up too. So so it's again to use the word rick brought up allowance. There has to be a huge allowance in this healing process And when we have that huge allowance we we are with the spirit. We can handle anything We we cannot be stopped. We cannot be held back It's just totally amazing. I want to talk about studying, of course Is it something that we need to continue doing? I met people They said they started for 20 or 30 years And my training is more like an eastern philosophy I always think there should be a moment where I get it all Like a enlightenment like an epiphany. I'm not really clear about that. Is it something that we can't study for life? Is there core something that has different layers? Is it something that I the more you study it the more it uncovers The more it becomes The more you become aware I don't know you've been studying the course for a long time. I haven't I would say the course is like everything in form. It's just a reflection of of thought so it's more of I would say The grasping the core principle the core principle and the ideas and then Applying that with everything you've got So what I say is to me spiritual journey and course included is one percent principle And 99 percent practice Now the study of the course of miracles Is just mainly the the text will say is mainly to zoom in on that principle Because there have been legendary teachers of the course that has still struggled with that one percent They still got caught up in lawsuits. They still got caught up in attack and defense And lots of things because they didn't fully Grasp they still had a distortion of level confusion and some things that are very very important about the course And then the 99 percent is the transfer of training is taking that principle and applying it without exception That's what the workbook is so It's I think in terms of studying it You know, I've tried to share with all the teachings and writings and books and videos and audios to really Help everybody get a clear grasp of that one percent Even if people didn't read the course and they watched a bunch of my videos and they went Okay, I'm I'm zooming in on that one percent. That's a good start then Not make any exceptions To that principle that core principle is only the mind is causing It's all just Facing your thoughts. It's not really about trying to change the form or circumstances It's really transferring the training How has that gone in my life my life was yeah, right many years of studying and practicing the course lots of silence pretty much a solitary journey for much of it and so on and so forth, but Now that's just the way the parable of david went I find the people that I meet like nakita and lots of the ones that I meet They're just showing up as reflections of like, okay, this is it. I'm going to go for this It's not a matter of the book It's not a matter of Years of study In fact, I'll get indigos and crystal children and a lot of young people I had I had a young man that came to one of my course groups years ago and he I think maybe a teenager maybe 18 19 and he walked in the room I had heard about him because the people that were hosting him at their healing center were terrified of him Because he walked in as he walked through the store and he'd read everybody's mind in the store And and the owners were terrified and basically said come back for david's course of miracles group And they shooshed him out of there. He was terrified of the kid because he was reading thoughts like jesus Was doing with the Pharisees and scribe So then when he came to the group with my group and everything we went around and they went hit their course books He sat down with all of us. They never met him. I never met him I just gave a big hug welcome him to the group and he went around the whole group One by one and read everybody's thoughts You're thinking this now. You're thinking this was like a powder telepathic experience And the course group got frightened then He scared the course group and I went wait. Whoa. Whoa. This is the teaching Of one mind here. What's no private thoughts. It's what's going on So the course we don't post our projecting onto this And so yet they were all we know shaking and so he got up and he He went outside But I had to be back and then he came back with a with a photo album Of all these photos filling up the photo album of him sitting out in a field With hundreds of butterflies all over his body That's what the course group needed To know that he was okay. Anybody who sits out in a field with hundreds of butterflies on and it's like, okay This isn't spooky You see it's it doesn't really have anything to do ultimately with words It comes down to what is the prayer of your heart? And when you have the prayer of the heart for that the eastern symbols, you know, it can come You're just going to really let it come in the way that It can come And you don't Have to so much in the end identify with a particular path at some point You get into the very end of the workbook of the course, you know Which is basically this holy instant when I give to you be you in charge It's basically that's how the workbook ends Is saying Holy spirit you direct all subsequent Lessons for me The only thing the course is to do is to put you in touch with the internal teacher You're not meant to be like necessarily Locked into it You know in the sense that this is my path. This is my practice if you're really willing to go With that but with sharing and extending and being used and opening up in ways then That's the way it will be I can kind of understand a little bit more Like no private thoughts Is that like most people in our lives don't practice the course of miracles So it's no private thought something that we would be just practicing with the holy spirit Like exposing my private thoughts to the spirit or at some point is it valuable to join with brothers And expose private thoughts that way because I know you guys do that in community a lot Where you join together and the expression sessions and join and express so Practically to apply that What's the most helpful use of no private thoughts in our daily lives? Yes, yeah, it's good. So the the workbook is the place where Jesus says you have no private thoughts And yet that is all that you are aware of So he gives it these like Whoa And which means that I would say in typical Families and and typical settings work settings and With friends who aren't into the course or or spirituality or metaphysics. It's it's really a discernment Uh lesson And it's a version of that workbook lesson. I will step back and let him lead the way Because it's not there's no value in in trying to expose private thoughts Except to the holy spirit and when you have a symbol of a trusted friend someone who's Really connected with you in the mind training and you can feel the safety and trust of opening your heart up It's very much like the in the catholic church. They have the confessional, you know, you're supposed to you trust the priest You trust that you're not going to pour out everything and then the priest is like gets up the sofa. Oh my god I should There's a trust That's there and and yet there's also an allowance there when you allow That up and it's more of a symbol of doing it with somebody Of course, there's nothing special about the form But it is about opening up and giving it to the holy spirit when you would hide certain thoughts And hide them and protect them then that's really saying you don't want to give them to the holy spirit because The spirit will help It be seen that they're not real and that you're innocent but It's kind of a step. So I think um Oftentimes if there's not a sense of community around you like that then just with a trusted friend or Maybe yet like the unwind your mind group It could be open up more to an expression Instead of just study, but it actually gets into expressions and practical application and sharing the miracles Of how helpful that was But yeah, there's nothing special about doing it with a particular person It's more the intention is really to give it over to the holy spirit expression group But I would imagine that some of these expressions, you know, like the petafile one Would really trigger people. Yes, and then, you know, you need to know what to do with that Other than simply express. I'm really triggered You know, they may want to storm out or you never know. Yeah, so I'm just curious. How does that go? Yeah, it takes it takes a lot of The more that you have the depth of Witnessing of of holding the presence Of love in a non judgemental loving way. That's that's really where the healing power is is the power of witnessing and non judging So that's very helpful for people that maybe have hid and protected thoughts for years Or people i've done some long retreats sometimes where i'll just Open it up. I think I was in australia one time. I opened it up and there was a whole bunch of people wanted one-on-ones with me like 30 some People or whatever. I ended up having these short One-on-ones, but even in short 10 minute one-on-ones. They would feel safe enough comfortable enough Not judged and they would bring up all their deepest darkest secrets and kind of just give me a look right before Doing it like will you still love me after I tell you this and then feeling Oh, yeah, this guy is not going to not going to judge me He'll love me no matter what and then it's quite a powerful experience when something like that is exposed And and there's the presence of love There then there's like a release feeling So that's the intention behind it and I think You know for those that are in the course if you did a word search and you found Different parts in the course in the text where jesus talks about that that is he's basically saying You know, would you know what the experience of like is like where you hide nothing from any anyone where you you know, basically can give and extend the love Everywhere if to realize this you must have no thoughts that you would keep hidden and protected There's those key words again hidden and protected That's what we're undoing with our Guidance in our practice. We're we're learning not to hide and protect The thoughts anymore and through that experience Of of having witnesses that are loving accepting reflections that helps Change our mind. It's a very convincing experience But it it's it's highly individualized You know, I've had some people that have just attended One night of a two night session and I'm talking all about releasing and exposing private thoughts They go rushing off to their girlfriend Pour out every thought they've ever had to come back and say that didn't go very well Is there something I'm missing? Yes part two tonight. We're talking about discernment But you know It's it's all a learning. It's a learning and a growing experience because obviously The whole world is built on the belief in private minds and private thoughts That's why we have private houses private bodies private bank accounts Private anything sometimes even course groups. That's a closed group. What a closed course group is private You know, it's it just it just goes on and on but that's the ego's world It's just built a reflection of the belief in private minds and private thoughts Just one last part That say someone shares something That's outrageous and it triggers several people with the next step being that those people would Or could choose to say express it. They just been triggered and bring that in as part of what their expression is like that Yes, possible just sit with their judgments, you know, yeah, exactly Exactly sometimes just like with course groups occasionally a facilitator will emerge in a course group It'll kind of keep people on track and like, okay, let's let's come back to The text or so forth the same can happen where you have if you just even symbolically have one person Who's really there holding the presence? You know, it's very strong and it's almost like there's an allowance for people to say oh, I'm noticing I just reacted to what you said and but there's a presence That's underneath it. That's the most important thing is remembering the purpose for it is for forgiveness is For this witnessing this non-judgmental wince witnessing It reminds me I mean the way I got led into how powerful that was was just through guidance one time I was At home just sitting on the couch and Holy Spirit said okay get the remote and turn on the television and so I turned it on and He said now go to the Jerry Springer show so I go over the Jerry Springer show and and it was uh That particular one was it was a it was a show on polygamy And they had a husband up there with like 23 wives or something And all these children up there and they're all openly expressing how helpful and they're very serene the children are very serene The wives are serene and the husband is serene Jerry's getting The audience is furious They're all raging and I'm just a just mind watcher. Oh very interesting and then finally um Jerry Was reflective so why are we also angry here? and started to Look at what is the source of all this anger and jealousy and different things It was quite an interesting public show another time I I had the Holy Spirit to turn on Oprah and I turned it on and they chose to do a show on religion well they Got into different religions and and the emotions were high and the anger started to rise and you know Even the camera started to just shake, you know, is there like on Oprah disgusting religion and then finally Some lady stood up in the audience and said Jesus Christ is the only way to God and if you don't follow Jesus You're going to hell. Well then the camera It was like throwing gasoline on the whole discussion And it was camera was shaking and then All I could remember was doing a Oprah going Jesus if you're there help us and then they cut to a commercial Because the camera was shaking It's a good mind watcher then When I came back for the after that they brought in the panel of experts all these religious experts And they got into it. They were like arguing and screaming And shaking fists and everything but there was one man that was sitting in the middle of the panel Who didn't say a single word just smiled just going Like this while it while it was all going on and the Holy Spirit was like see this guy This is this is why you tuned this one. I'm showing you this is what it's all about It was about not taking a stand not taking a side Not getting caught up in theology You know all the things that happened with theologies and religions, you know, it was it was a huge demonstration a piece of mind Like the eye of the storm And so I that's how I got into all this the spirit would Jesus has been directing the show like doing this go here One time I went to vegas the first time I went to vegas because I was down there with Joel and some kind of recently I'm driving across with a friend towards california And I'm I'm just on the highway just right near vegas driving and then Jesus like pull off I'm like, oh, we got lost vegas pull off So off I go and I come come around and start heading Towards vegas and then I get a traffic light and I stopped there. There was one of these like hotels that had this huge like three-story high whatever two-story high big high digital screen TV there And so I'm sitting there looking at this and it's a wedding scene. It's a bride in a groom and they're throwing rice and It's all this and this and I'm just watching and then This course of miracles blue comes up over the they disappear And it's all just course of miracles like this royal blue. I'm like still waiting at the light Then one word rises up in white Huge mess word in the middle of the course of miracles blue illusion Okay first trip to vegas got it and then Jesus said now turn left I turn left and I'll turn left or like took me right on the highway back That's why I got lost vegas wedding illusion Out now here we go off of the rest of the so I've had a lot of experiences that have come just from listening following That's what I mean by practical application like staying in that show me Okay, I'm studying and I'm opening now as you show me you lead the way That's the way our life is meant to be just one lesson after the next where we're just shown Make it obvious make it obvious make it obvious, you know, that's how we're we're taken out of the perception of a distortion back into that unified Awareness it's just like that movie la story. Yeah It is that was that's in my movie watchers. Yeah, right there I think I'm thinking lately. I think I think I should do a music lovers guide to enlightenment Um, that's that before the course and before the movies And even my studies in metaphysics. I mean it was the music was like god's singing to me, you know just And then lately getting a an apple subscription where you can just go on there and you're in moon for a song Whatever it is 11 spoonful or you can go right and boom there you've got it but the way that it's gone with with the gatherings and then the movie watchers guide to enlightenment that I think it's getting so strong with our commentary of of movies and that it's kind of Like it started off for me with the course, but now it's evolved into all these things that are pouring through me all these gifts so that A lot of people around the world now have decided that they've looked at all the pathways meditation and and groups and And all different ways psychotherapy and psychodrama in all the different ways And they decided that they want movie watching as their pathway to god That they enjoy movies that much So basically with the commentary that's almost becoming like a new pathway to god Not very traditional most people don't think of watching movies to wake up They think of it as more as entertainment or distraction Which is the ego's use of movies, but we're using them with high commentary So we have people springing into mystical states and Having huge advances like I mentioned that one woman who went into remission with her cancer after we were just doing a movie at night and It's so mind altering and mind opening in the sense It's just willing this to let the the symbols of the world the parables of the world be used in a very focused Directed way So a lot of times people just go to mwege.org and then they they don't even know what they're in for the right of their life They They get in there and they go. Oh my god. What is this and they start watching these movies with setups with pauses and commentaries and afterwards and They have these huge awakenings So that's that's another way that you could we were talking about studying the book, but you could even have You could have little expression session groups. You could have movie groups where you come together And kind of all go into the experience together You know, you know, it's a very helpful use of time And most people find it very enjoyable too. They're very relaxed during the movies You know, they think This is a nice way Have trouble staying awake with meditation. I don't like to go to church the synagogue anymore I'm getting tired of my course group actually, but It's a little bland Movie watching guide to in my So you see how the spirit will use whatever It uses what your interests are and then takes those interests and uses it in a very helpful way So that's kind of an interesting thing about the spirit just using whatever you have an interest in To take you beyond well beyond those those ego interests And the people Yeah, that's a thick one people pleasing well, it's it's part of the the social kind of seeming interactions where The ego set up the world where it was shaky about its identity So you might say that the identity was completely blocked from awareness and then dispersed throughout the cosmos So it's like six billion aspects of yourself out there which can get pretty Confusing and there's oftentimes an ego sense of wanting to Use people and relationships as part of holding on this false concept So Jesus talks about that I think in lesson 50 Um I am sustained by the love of God. He says in this world you are You are believe you are sustained by everything but God and he mentions being liked In there and he mentions knowing the right people That's an interesting expression from Jesus as defenses against the light being liked And knowing the right people It seems like it has a common thing. Of course, I want to be liked well That believing that your identity is based on being liked by other people is is a part of the whole ego system And knowing the right people you can see with fame and different associations of money fame different sex appeal All these things the ego is trying to prop up an identity based on that as well So the answer is always getting deeper into your purpose and your function Which we were just talking about earlier your passion your calling Where there's that strong feeling of Of what it is that you have to give and to extend and then it draws the mind away from those other kind of affiliations and associations It's very freeing. So then your you notice It's it brings an end to self-deception. You know, you don't have to try to Distort the truth. You don't have to try to stretch anything. You don't have to Try to play to the crowd or you know How it gets in those seeming interdependent relationships where You're walking on a fine line Trying to keep the balance of give and take and wanting to get into that give that true giving Which is from your heart which washes away those other prompts. You don't need to Oh, I need this Affiliation with these people or these churches or these friends or whatever Then the fear that you could lose those associations When in fact when you get into your purpose lots of things may fall away It doesn't matter. It won't matter Do you look at your old facebook? You go, maybe I need a new facebook Or no facebook Maybe things have changed so much It comes from you know, the people pleasing is from that deep unworthiness Basically, I don't want conflict. I don't want you to know who I am Don't want you know what you know what I mean And so let me and everybody's so you know, you can juggle in front of everybody I've always got different needs and that that sense of like something is happening because I'm caring for yourself You know, I'm directly affecting somebody's life and ultimately it's Ultimately for myself it covers this incredible range Anger I'm choked and and that's what it seems to cover This kind of nicey-nicey stuff trying to stay the right thing the right person So nobody gets upset and I don't go away feeling like I you know And then the reality is I want to scream at the top of my lungs But I'm really upset that you know, and that that's not going anywhere No amount of like This has taken this rage out so far Right and somehow I use it in a creative sense Sometimes I use it for the right reason that rage is a you know, it's an energy. I don't even look at it as rage I just know it's there and I'm afraid of it coming out. I'm afraid of myself if that rage unleashes And I am and you know before it dissolves It's kind of Just keep it there Just hang on you're getting lightened and get lego of this stuff. You'll get in light before you get angry, you know I'll get light before you get angry so if I get angry, I don't know what's gonna happen Yeah, there's a lot of energy that It's It's this unconscious rage that's down there and it's so covered up and it's so buried and With layers and layers of keep it together keep control where the mask be nice It's just it's like conceptions. There's so many layers there But that it's almost a sign when you're giving yourself willingness to get in touch with it You're even allowing it to come into awareness is a great sign that it's on its way out It's on its way out and it's on its way out When it's out of awareness and covered and buried it's it's going nowhere fast so There's a movie that you all might enjoy in terms of that which came across my awareness of all called perfect sense and basically this is a fantastic movie because It's this thing where During the movie There's all these pent up emotions that have been pushed out of awareness and In the movie These emotions come the rage that all the different pent up emotions come up And not just it starts off with a few people and then it's global the whole planet Everyone on the planet experiences this intensity and then they lose a sense one of the five senses After it comes up Then they like they kind of adapt the whole world adapts and adjusts to life without that sense And then here comes again another wave of this intense bottled up emotion and they lose another sense And then it goes on a little bit adapted just then comes up again. They lose the third sense they're like Talking about letting go That you have this intensity that you can only deal with and followed by lost one of the senses So then the fourth then they have another way that comes up and the fourth sense is lost And then there's been so much clearing with those four things with all this intense love and joining just comes pouring up Just you know, which was blocked before now It's been cleared out by these three emotional releases globally worldwide And all these adaptations that the world tries to adjust the fourth one There's all this love like an immense urge for the miracle to go and shine and share and connect And then in the fourth sense it's lost and then and that's how the movie ends is is the fifth sense is lost fantastic Absolutely. Yeah perfect sense of fantastic movie. Talk about a mind watcher As the human race loses all of its senses And gets in the end cleared out of all of the darkness and guilt and fear And and burst forth into love and recognition After all five senses are gone Talk about the spirit turning the table on the ego where everything's backwards and upside down It's like flipping the whole world Right side up But those are things and there's another component to that movie with everything that's happening with all the waves of emotions after each one Just what it's like It's obvious that there's a shift in consciousness happening It almost like it feels like the whole world the whole consciousness is forced into giving so they couldn't even get Even if they wanted to so they have to everyone is forced to give give give give like if you have business What what are you using for to give to give you can't get money because everything is crashing down So like give a stand and support and that was like Like the key with that movie too and then even at some point it goes down two elements There's still the ones that resist this And the ones that go with that flow and they just get into that flow of giving and And like just saying like this is what it is And like and losing future like like what's going to happen in the future like the time Collapse like the linear collapses with that And the quote from the course that goes where Jesus says in the course Until you are willing to look at the full extent of your own self-hatred You will not be willing to let it go So it plays perfect into that because rage is something that's so Pushed out of awareness. That's not in our conditioning. You know Good little boys and girls don't rage Men and women aren't supposed to rage, you know years of suppression Yeah, we just project that out with a terrorist rage hitler You know, Mussolini. We just it's like oh them that wild crazy terrorists, but but to face the rage Within is what spiritual journey really is about and to me that's That's what through the use of music movies meditation and all these expression sessions. It's like Outlets for that sometimes too like like the kid was saying this past year where you just had Intense feelings coming up and nothing going on on the screen like no Like no reason no earthly reason for such it But but that was part of almost like perfect sense where you were like facing The deepest of the deep like almost like going where you don't want to go like feel like what I don't want to feel I don't want to know about this like all kind like sense of The latest ones Abuse deep abuse like a sense of cruelty abuse loss All of it and it's like and again it was felt like this is not not something personal like the Almost like the scariest part why why it was like no no no I don't want to know this because it felt like it's not just the personal. It's like that's all there is It's it's an experience. It's like it's a state of mind and it's kind of like and that's all there is There's no more like good and bad. It was like that's all there is Oh, you know now it's like in Lucy all you know now is pain. That's all you know And and so and so facing it all as it is and Almost like not knowing where like nothing even in the form nothing points to it like nothing like oh, I triggered like so and so looked at me wrong like none of that and and then And kind of like surrender and and somehow and somehow like the whole thing is almost like uh I don't know throughout the whole thing. I guess whatever I discovered somehow I like I didn't try it Let's like I didn't try to fix those feelings Like beliefs anymore like there's never not a way out like there's always a miracle, but it's a miracle And then through that something comes in in the way like a seeming like step like Um Steps out of it quick and a quick way out and so and as soon and the thing kind of like it came down like The sooner you base it The quicker you get to get out like and and it's obvious too like it's like the steps like you don't sit in there Like it's like now like take me out of it beyond like beyond away from these beliefs like away from these Uh thoughts and beliefs like there's got to be a different experience, but then it comes in also like Like there's any awareness it experientially and then of that those steps they just reflect that like Like and do only that from there like Do only that it's not like it could be this or that or me like do only that So yeah, and it's so yeah, it has been like perfect Like perfect sense like a lot. I've seen it. I don't know four times in the past couple of weeks You didn't have a bit too didn't you lose hearing or oh I'm I've been losing actual senses and I didn't even know that I think because uh because uh every time I would like Eat or something like I started noticing that I would get like looks like outraged looks and I didn't know why and I guess because Because I guess I was putting too much salt I would just like put salt and more and that's what they were doing in the movie or sugar like not like I eat sugar as it is but I guess it was even more and more because it didn't taste and then I guess like someone I don't know someone just mentioned that the other day. I think it was Emma. She's like, uh, you don't smell I guess it affects your taste too. I was like, oh my god That's what it is. Yeah, I I can barely taste too and then I was losing my Like I couldn't hear at all and I didn't know like maybe there's actually something wrong with my ears I thought like maybe there is because it's like first and one then not at all But throughout the whole thing the funny thing was like let's say if it was something about my area I would hear it like oh, I hear everything Or if it was something like a movie like a deep movie It's like oh, I would hear everything on the screen and then boom again. I'm deaf But uh, but the thing is I'm like, okay. Well, I'm in Canada. I'm gonna check in like just for me If something's wrong with my ears Nothing, of course nothing. I'm like He looked at me like but you know, I can do this and that But you already know the answer I was like, yeah, like there's she's like nothing wrong Like I knew that but it was like it was actually like I was losing actual sense I know like like human senses and I'm not even going to get into like identity not knowing like am I a girl or a boy it was like That was like, okay, forget about it Yeah, but it's great that you have the symbols that you need all along to just be sure you Your mind's going through a transformation, but it's safe. You know those little safe reminders. Yeah, it's safe Yeah, you know, it's making that transformation going through it and it's great to have those reflections coming back You know assuring you reminding you That's I'm gonna spend the way of of all way showers. They're here to remind us. It's okay. It's all going perfectly What is going on at a certain point I was wondering what is it that I don't want to hear maybe what is it that I don't know the second I went through that too or she thought she'd gone mind and Took her across the street and checked her all checked on the neurology out and Everything was fine. So it's it's just all pointing to how everything's in mind So we're winding down right now, but I would say that the the key point is is the more you can just focus on the mind training on on focus of pay attention to your thoughts and and your desire to To exchange the thoughts that you think you think for your real thoughts Is that gets stronger and stronger? You will see amazing reflections coming back to you about the power of the mind the true empowerment and then Yeah, it's been our joy sharing as we travel and these retreats and devotionals and everything And putting all this stuff online all these tools. There's just so many of them That could be something too. It's like you don't have to reinvent the wheel I had kind of a very individuals solo solitary journey Lots of quiet times and contemplation and facing things, but I realized the power of the miracle. It's it's a very interpersonal experience It's described that way in the course. It's it's something that you can feel a real shared collaboration with and and then Taking some of these tools and then using them things that resonate with you use what works Find something that really works for you extend the joy of that and call people in and invite people in to join you And that and watch how it just does it of itself. The spirit will just expand that as you move along And you know, it's fun not knowing I think we've got Next year, maybe a documentary coming in. We're having a a mystery school Four-week mystery school coming in at the monastery down there in like next may In a year in a year jimmy twyman. I'm just going to try to organize something with us in around park city and Maybe do something nearby in conjunction at the monastery. There's just all kinds of Fun things that are just coming in springing in just beautifully and and it's all based on A warm invitation to join. Let's all join in this together. Let's turn this into a celebration of our awakening And that's wherever there's any kind of heaviness or stuck spot. We don't have to we're not doing this alone You know, we're walking to the light hand in hand And it's glorious and we should be able to celebrate Every step of the way and and remember plan a is living it You know when you're watching your emotions if for some reason you feel heavy or unhappy Then just realize there's so much help available There's so much potential for joining And it feels so good to be connected and doing this all together like walking hand in hand doing it And we love that we just we love it when we get emails phone calls people say hey, I got an idea What about this? That's the way these last 25 years of travel have come for me. Oh come here Oh, you know group decided here. Oh, see if David can come up and I said, yeah, we do something on this weekend and I'll be able to fly in and it's just been really good. Makita had a Whole experience that got her up here. How many two weeks or I think it's been two and a half two and a half weeks They denied me my visa That was her. So I had to come that was her reason for coming and uh, I mean, I got it She used the power of her mind I I didn't know that you denied me. All I knew I as far as I knew as far as what I heard in my mind It's a yes. Just, you know, keep going. It's just one of the steps. Oh, I knew that I got approved That's what I heard. That's what I knew. So I just went with that And and I was like, yeah, like and they were interviewing me. I'm like, they're not supposed to interview me because like it's r1 It's not like a green card And I'm like, but I was just so open And and and and it's and then at some point they sent me a letter Like saying that they've originally denied me the visa And but I didn't know right. So I just went and I went with a yes. I'm like, yes. Yes. Yeah, I got it I was approved and here you go And uh, and I got it. I actually got it It was like it was quite easy, but it's like I'm like, oh wow, I didn't know I thought it was like I heard it was a yes It's like that movie uh, Scarlett Johansson Lucy You know, she just goes doesn't matter police immigration detectives or whatever who's kind of looking right I don't know what she's supposed to tell me is I'm waiting Yes, okay. That's good. You know, it's like in Lucy the movie Lucy. She basically You know, she sees that it's all consciousness and it's all her mind So everything is she's unaffected by everything and so Yeah, they're like you broke the rules, you know, like you broke the rules. I'm like, no, sir it's like Really explained like like just very thorough the way I heard everything like say it as like I was just like like hear it Just say it and and then it's something like, okay. That's enough and I'm like I don't even know if it's a good thing or it's a bad thing But in tune I feel it's a good thing because it was like I have no hook At you it's like there's nothing wrong So it's like, okay, it's a good excuse to get you up here. You had a marvelous time up here in Canada The spirit can wish you luck But thank you all for coming today. We have had a wonderful time And the beat goes on Love it up here in Vancouver