 CHAPTER IX ART HELLEN'S RECEPTIE Dear Mesa Bill, not in bed yet, and tears, great big tears, tell me what is the cause of them? It was Aunt Helen's voice, she had entered and lit the lamp. There was something beautifully sincere and real about Aunt Helen. She never fussed over anyone or pretended to sympathize just to make out how nice she was. She was real, and you felt that no matter what wild or awful rubbish you told to her, you would never be retailed for anyone's amusement. And better than all, she never lectured. She sat down beside me, and I impulsively threw my arms around her neck, and sobbed forth my troubles in the string. How there was no good in the world, no use for me there. No one loved me or ever could on account of my hideousness. She heard me to the end, and then said quietly, When you are fit to listen I will talk to you. I controlled myself instantly, and waited expectantly. What would she say? Surely not that tame old yarn and dent to this world being merely a place of probation, wherein we were allowed time to fit ourselves for a beautiful world to come. That old tune may be all very well for old codges, tottering on the brink of the grave, but to young persons with youth and romance and good health surging through their veins it is most boresome. Would you preach that it was flying in the face of Providence to moan about my appearance? It being one of the greatest blessings I had, it would save me from countless temptations to which pretty girls are born. That was another piece of old croaking of the Job's comfort order, of which I was sick unto death, as I am sure there is not an ugly person in the world who thinks her lack of beauty or blessing to her. I need not have feared Aunt Helen holding forth in that strain. She always said something brave and comforting, which made me ashamed myself, and my selfish conceited egotism. I understand you, Silbilla, she said slowly and distinctly, but you must not be a coward. There is any amount of love and good in the world, but you must search for it. Being misunderstood is one of the trials we all must bear. I think that even the most common-minded person in the land has inner thoughts and feelings which no one can share with him, and the higher one's organization, the more one must suffer in that respect. I am acquainted with a great number of young girls, some of them good and true, but you have a character containing more than any three of them put together. With this power, if properly managed, you can gain the almost universal love of your fellows. But you are wild and wayward. You must curb and strain your spirit and bring it into subjection, else you will be worse than a person with the emptiest of characters. You will find that plain looks will not prevent you from gaining the friendship love of your fellows, the only real love there is. As for the hot-fleeting passion of the man for the maid, which is wrongfully designated love, I will not tell you not to think of it, knowing that it is human nature to demand it when arriving at a certain age. But take this comfort. It as frequently passes by on the other side of those with well-chisoured features as those with faces of plain emolled. She turned her face away, sighed, and forgetful of my presence lapsed into silence. I knew she was thinking of herself. Love, not friendship love, for anyone knowing her must give her love and respect. But the other sort of love had passed her by. Twelve years before I went to Katagat, when Helen Bossier had been eighteen, and one of the most beautiful and lovable girls in Australia, they had come to Katagat on a visit at Dashing Colonel of the name of Bell, in the enjoyment of a most extended furlough for the benefit of his health. He married Aunt Helen and took her to some part of America where his regiment was stationed. I have heard them say she worshipped Colonel Bell, but in less than a twelve month he tired of his lovely bride, and becoming a numb of another woman he tried to obtain a divorce. On account of his wife's spotless character he was unable to do this. She therefore deserted her and openly lived with the other woman as his mistress. This forced Aunt Helen to return to Katagat, and her mother had induced her to sue for a judicial separation which was easily obtained. When a woman is separated from her husband it is the religion of the world at large to cast the whole blame on the wife. By reason of her youth and purity Mrs. Bell had not as much to suffer in this way as some others, but comparatively speaking her life was wrecked. She had been humiliated and outraged in the cruelest way by the man whom she loved and trusted. He had turned her adrift, neither a wife, widow, nor maid, and here she was, one of the most estimably lovely and noble women I had ever met. "'Come, Zabel," she said, starting up brightly, "'I have a plan, will you agree to it? Come and take one good long look at yourself in the glass. Then I will turn to the wall, and you must promise me that for three or four weeks you will not look in a mirror. I will put as many as I can out of your way, and you must avoid the remainder. During this time I will take you in hand, and you must follow in my directions implicitly. Will you agree? You will be surprised what a nice-looking little girl I will make of you.'" Of course I agreed. I took a long and critical survey of myself in the glass. There was reflected a pair of hands, red and coarsen with rough work, a round face, shiny and swollen from crying, and a small round figure shrouded in masses of hair falling in thick waves to within an inch or two of the knees. A very ugly spectacle, I thought. Aunt Helen turned the face of the large mirror flat against the wall, while I remarked despondently, "'You can make me only middling ugly. You must be a magician.'" "'Come now, part of my recipe is that you must not think of yourself at all. I will take you in hand in the morning. I hope you will like your room. I have arranged it on purpose to suit you. And now good night, and happy dreams.'" I woke next morning in very fine spirits, and slithering out of my bed with alacrity, reveled, literally wallowed in the appointments of my room. My poor old room at Possum Gully was lacking in barest necessaries. We could not afford even a wash-hand basin and jug. Gertie, the boys, and myself had to perform our morning ablutions in a leaky tin dish on the stool outside the kitchen door, which on cold frosty mornings with a pretty peppery performance. But this room contained everything dear to the heart of girlhood. A lovely bed, pretty slippers, dainty white china matting, and many soft skins on the floor. And in one corner a most artistic toilet set, and a wash-stand liberally supplied with a great variety of soaps. Some of it so exquisitely perfumed that I felt tempted to taste it. There were pretty pictures on the walls, and on a commodious dressing table a big mirror and large hand glasses, with their faces to the wall at present. Their pins, fancy combs, ribbons galore, and a pretty work-bast get greeted my sight. And with delight I swooped down upon the most excruciatingly lovely little writing desk. It was stuffed full with all kinds of paper of good quality, fancy, all colors, sizes, and shapes, plain, foreign note, pens, ink, and a generous supply of stamps. I felt like writing a dozen letters there and then, and was on the point of giving way to my inclination, my attention was arrested by what I considered the gem of the whole turnout. I referred to a nice little bookcase containing copies of all our Australian poets, and two or three dozen novels, which I had often longed to read. I read the first chapters of four of them, and then lost myself and Gordon, and sat on my dressing table in my nightgown, regardless of cold, until brought to my senses by the breakfast bell. I made great pace, scrambled into my clothes, held to the skilter, and appeared at table when the others had been seated and unfolded their serviettes. Aunt Helen's treatment for making me presentable was the wearing of gloves and a shady hat every time I went outside, and she insisted upon me spending a proper time of my toilet, and would not allow me to encroach upon it with the contents of my bookshelf. Rub off some of your gloomy pessimism and cultivate a little more healthy girlish vanity, and you will do very well, she would say. I observed these rites most religiously for three days. Then I contracted a slight attack of influenza, and in poking around the kitchen, doing one of the things I oughtn't at the time I shouldn't, a servant girl tipped a pot of boiling pot liquor over my right foot, scolding it rather severely. Aunt Helen and Granny put me to bed where I yelled with pain for hours like a mad red Indian, despite their applying every alleviative possible. The combined forces of the burner influenza made me a trifle-dicky, so a decree went forth that I must stay in bed until recovered from both complaints. This effectually prevented me from running in the way of any-looking glasses. I was not sufficiently ill to be miserable, and being a pampered invalid was therefore fine fun. Aunt Helen was a wonderful nurse. She dressed my foot splendidly every morning, and put it in a comfortable position many times throughout the day. Granny brought me every dainty in the house and sent special messages to gul-gul for more. Had I been a professional glutton, I would have been in paradise. Even Mr. Horden condescended so far as to express his regret concerning the accident, and favoured me with visits throughout each day, and one Sunday his gallantry carried him to a gully where he plucked a bouquet of maiden hair fern, the first of the season, and put them in a bowl beside my bed. My Uncle Julius, the only other member of the family beside the servants, was away up the country on some business or another, and was not expected home for a month or so. The bossy years in Beecham's were leaders of Sweldham among the squautocracy of the country, and firm and intimate friends. The Beecham's resided at Five Bob Downs, twelve miles from Categette, and were a family composed of two maiden ladies and their nephew Harold. One of these ladies was Aunt Helen's particular friend, and the other had stood on the same capacity to my mother in days gone by, but of late years, on account of her poverty, mother had been too proud to keep up communication with her. As for Harold Beecham, he was nearly as much at home at Categette as at Five Bob Downs. He came and went with that pleasant familiarity practised between congenial spirits among squatterdom. The bossy years in Beecham's were congenial spirits in every way. They lived in the one sphere, and held the one set of ideas. The only difference between them, and that an unknowable one, being that the bossy years, though in comfortable circumstances, were not at all rich, while Harold Beecham was immensely wealthy. When my installation in the role of invalid took place, one missed Beecham was away in Melbourne, and the other not well enough to come and see me, but Harold came regularly to inquire how I was progressing. He always brought me a number of beautiful apples. This kindness was because the Categette orchard had been too infested with codland moth for Granny to save any last season. Aunt Helen used to mischievously tease me about this attention. Here comes Harold Beecham with some more apples, she would say. No doubt he is far more calculating and artful than I thought he was capable of being. He is taking time by the forelock and wooing you ear he sees you, and so will take the lead. Young ladies are in the minority of this way, and everyone is snapped up as soon as she arrives. You'd better tell him how ugly I am, auntie, so that he will carry apples twelve miles on his own responsibility, and when he sees me won't be vexed that all his work has been for nothing. Perhaps, though, it would be better not to describe me, or I will get no more apples, I would reply. Aunt Helen was a clever needle-woman. She made all Granny's dresses and her own. Now she was making some for me, which, however, I was not to see until I wore them. Aunt Helen had this as a pleasant surprise, and went to the trouble of blindfolding me while I was being fitted. While in bed, Granny and auntie being busy, I was often left hours alone, and during this time devoured the contents of my bookshelf. The pleasure, so exquisite as to be almost pain in which I derive from the books, and especially the Australian poets, is beyond description. In the narrow peasant life of Possum Gully, I had been deprived of companionship with people of refinement and education who would talk of the things I loved. But, at last here was congeniality, here was companionship. The weird witchery of mighty bush, the breath of wide sunlit plains, the sound of campbells and jingle of hobble chains floating on the soft twilight breezes, had come to these men, and had written a tale on their hearts, as had been written on mine. The glory of the starlit heavens, the mighty wonder of the sea, and the majesty of thunder had come home to them, and the breathless fullness of the sunset hour had whispered of something more than the humour of tomorrow's weather. The wind and rain had a voice which spoke to Kendall, and he too had endured the misery of lack of companionship. Gordon, with his sad, sad humanism and bitter disappointment, held out his hand and took me with him. The regret of it all was I could never meet them, Byron, Thackeray, Dickens, Longfellow, Gordon, Kendall, the men I loved all were dead. But blissful thought, Cain, Patterson and Lawson were still living, breathing human beings, two of them actually countrymen, fellow Australians. I poured with renewed zeal over the terse realism and pathos of Lawson, and enjoyed Patterson's redolence of the rollicking side of the wholesome life beneath these sunny skies, which he depicted with grand touches of power flashing here and there. I learned them by heart, and in that gloriously blue receptacle, by and by, where many pleasant youthful dreams are stowed, I put the hope that one day I would clasp hands with them and feel and know the unspeakable comfort and heartrest of congenial companionship. End of Chapter 9 Chapter 10 of my brilliant career. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information, auto-volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. My Brilliant Career by Miles Franklin Chapter 10 Everard Gray Uncle Julius had taken a run down to Sydney before returning to Cadagat, and was to be home during the first week in September, bringing with him Everard Gray. This young gentleman always spent Christmas at Cadagat, but as he had just recovered from an illness he was coming up for a change now instead. Having heard much of him, I was curious to see him. He was grandma's adopted son, and was the orphan of a very aristocratic English parents who had left him to the guardianship of distant relatives. They had proved criminally unscrupulous. By finding a flaw in deeds, or something which none but lawyers understand, they had deprived him of all his property, and left him to sink or swim. Granny had discovered, reared, and educated him. Among professions he had chosen the bar, and was now one of Sydney's most promising young barristers. His foster mother was no end proud of him, and loved him as her own son. In due time a telegram arrived from Uncle Julius, containing instructions for the buggy to be sent to gul-gul to meet him in Everard Gray. By this time I had quite recovered from influenza and my accident, and as they were not arrived till near nightfall, for their edification I was to be dressed in full-blown dinner costume. Also I was to be favoured with a look at my reflection in a mirror for the first time since my arrival. During the afternoon I was dispatched by Granny on a message some miles away, and meeting Mr. Horden some distance from the house, he took it upon himself to accompany me. Everywhere I went he followed after, much to my annoyance, because Granny gave me many and serious talkings to, about the crime of encouraging young men. Frank Horden had changed his tune, and told me now that it mattered not that I was not pretty, as pretty or not I was the greatest brick of a girl he had met. His idea for this opinion was that I was able to talk theatres with him, and was the only girl there, and because he had arrived at that overflowing age where young men have to be part of to some female, where they should be ugly or pretty, fat or lean, old or young. That I should be the object of these pure-rile emotions in a fellow like Frank Horden, filled me with loathing and disgust. It was late in the afternoon when Horden and I returned, and the buggy was to be seen a long way down the road, approaching at the going for the doctor-pace at which Uncle Julius always drove. Aunt Helen hustled me off to dress, but I was only half-rigged when they arrived, and so I was unable to go out and meet them. Uncle Julius inquired for that youngster of Lucy's, and Aunt Helen replied that she would be forthcoming when they were dressed for dinner. The two gentlemen took a nip to put a little heart in them, Uncle Julius said, and Auntie Helen came to finish my toilet while they were making theirs. There now you have nothing to complain of in the way of looks, she remarked at the completion of the ceremony. Come and have a good look at yourself. I was decked in my first evening dress, as it was a great occasion. It was only on the rarest occasions that we'd donned full-wall paint at Cadagat. I think that evening dress is one of the prettiest and most idiotic costumes extant. What can be more foolish than to endanger one's health by exposing it like the chest and arms, to the most vital spots of the body, which have been covered all day? On the other hand, what can be more beautiful than a soft white bosom rising and falling amid a dainty nest of silk and lace? Every woman looks more soft and feminine in a decollette gown. And is there any of the animal lines known pleasant to the eye than the contour of shapely arms? Some there are who cry down evening dresses being immodest and indecent. These will be found among those whose chest and arms will not admit of being displayed, or among those who, not having been reared to the custom, dislike it with many other things from want of use. Aunt Helen took me into the wide old drawing room, now brilliantly lighted. A heavy lamp was on each of the four brackets in the corners, and another swung from the centre of the ceiling, and candelabra through many lights from the piano. Never before had I seen this room in such a blaze of light. During the last week or two, Aunt Helen and I had occupied it every night, but we never lighted more than a single candle on the piano. This had been ample light for our purpose. Aunt Helen would sing, in her sweet sad voice, all the beautiful old songs I loved. While I curled myself on a mat at her side and read books, the music often compelling me to forget the reading, and the reading occasionally rendering me deaf to the music. But through both ever came the solemn rush of the stream outside in its weird melancholy, like a wind ceaselessly endeavouring to outstrip a wild vein regret which relentlessly pursued. Your Uncle Julius always has the drawing-room lighted like this. He does not believe in shadowy half-light, calls it sentimental-bosh, said Aunt Helen, in explanation. Is Uncle like that? are remarked. But my question remained unanswered. Leaving a hand-mirror with me, Aunt Helen had slipped away. One wall of the drawing-room was monopolised by a door, a big bookcase, and a heavy bevelled-edged old-fashioned mirror. The two last-mentioned articles reaching from floor to ceiling. Since my arrival the face of the mirror had been covered, but this evening the blue silk incursions were looped up, and it was before this that I stood. I looked, and looked again in pleased surprise. I beheld a young girl with eyes and skin of the clearest and brightest, and lips of brilliant scarlet, and a chest and pair of arms which would pass muster with the best. If nature had been in bad humour when moulding my face, she had used her tools craftily in forming my figure. Aunt Helen had proved to the clever maid and dressmaker. My pale blue cashmere dress fitted my fully-developed yet girlish figure-to-perfection. Some of my hair fell in cunning little curls on my forehead. The remainder tied simply with a piece of ribbon, hung in thick waves nearly to my knees. My toilet had altered me almost beyond recognition. It made me look my age, sixteen years and ten months, whereas before, when dressed carelessly and with my hair plastered in a tight coil, people not knowing me would not believe that I was under twenty. Joy and merriment lit up my face which glowed with youth, health, and happiness, which rippled my lips and smiles, which displayed a splendid set of teeth, and I really believed that on that night I did not look out of the way ugly. I was still admiring my reflection when Aunt Helen returned to say that Everard and Uncle Julius were smoking on the veranda and asking for me. What do you think of yourself, Cebilla? Oh, Aunt Helen, tell me that there is something about me not completely hideous. She took my face between her hands, saying, Silly child, there are some faces with faultless features, which would receive nothing more than an indifferent glance, while beside other faces which might have few of any pretensions to beauty. Yours is one of those last mentioned. But that does not say I am not ugly. No one would dream of calling you plain, let alone ugly. Brilliant is the word which best describes you. Uncle Julius had the upper part of his ponderous figure arrayed in a frot coat. He did not take kindly to what he termed those skittish, barrow-tailed affairs. Frot coats suited him, but I am not part of them on everyone. They look well enough in a podgy, fat, or broad man, but on a skinny one they hang with such a flawn, dying duck expression that they invariably make me laugh. Julius John Bossier, better known as J.J. Bossier, and better still as J.J., big, fat, burly, broad, a jovial bachelor of forty, too fond of all the opposite sex ever to have settled his affections on one in particular, was well known, respected, and liked, from wogga-wogga to Albury, Forbes to Dandalu, Burke to Hay, from Tumut to Monaro, and back again to Peek Hill, as a generous man, a straight-goer in business matters, and a jolly good fellow all round. I was very proud to call him Uncle. So this is yourself, is it, he exclaimed, giving me a tremendous hug. Oh, Uncle, I apostylated, wipe your old kisses off, your breath smells horribly of whiskey and tobacco. Gaman has not made my kisses so nice, he answered, and after holding me at arm's length for inspection. By George, you're a wonderful-looking girl. You're surely not done growing yet, though. You are such a little nipper. I could put you in my pocket with ease. You aren't a scrap like your mother. I'll give the next sheriff who passes the shilling to cut that hair off. It would kill a dog in the hot weather. Everard, this is my niece, Sabilla. Mount Helen was introducing us. We have to arrange yourselves, what relation you are, and how to address each other. The admiration expressed in his clear, sharp eyes gave me a sensation different to any I had ever experienced previously. I suppose I'm a kind of uncle and brother in one, and as either relationship entitles me to a kiss, I'm going to take one, he said, in a very gallant manner. You may take one if you can, I said, with mischievous defiance, sprinting off the veranda into the flower garden. He accepted my challenge, and being light as a cat, a tremendous scamper ensued. Round and round the flowerbeds we ran. Uncle J.J.'s beard opened in a broad smile, which ended in a loud laugh. Everard graced coat-tails, glued in the breezy, mate, and his collar was too high for athletic purposes. I laughed, too, and was lost, and we returned to the veranda. Everard in triumph, and I feeling very red and uncomfortable. Granny had arrived upon the scene, looking the essence of brisk respectability in a black silk gown and white lace cap. She cast on me a glance of severe disapproval, and denounced my conduct as shameful, but Uncle J.J.'s eyes twinkled as he's dexterously turned the subject. Gaman, mother, I bet you will often kiss when that youngster's age. I bet my boots now that you can't count the times you did the same thing yourself. Now, confess. Granny's face melted in a smile as she commenced a little anecdote, with that pathetic beginning, when I was young. Aunt Helen sent me inside lest I took catch cold, and I stationed myself immediately inside the window, so that I should not miss the conversation. I should think your niece is very excitable, Mr. Gray was saying to Aunt Helen. Oh, very. Yes, I have never seen any but very highly strong temperaments have that transparent brilliance of expression. She is very variable, one moment all joy, and the next the reverse. She has a very striking face. I don't know what it is that makes it so. It may be her complexion, said Aunt Helen. Her skin is whiter than the ferris blonde, and her eyebrows and lashes very dark. Be very careful you do not say anything that would let her know you think her not nice-looking. She broods over her appearance in such a morbid manner. It is a weak point with her, so be careful not to sting her sensitiveness in that respect. Plain-looking? Why, I think she has one of the most fascinating faces I've seen for some time, and her eyes are simply magnificent. What color are they? The grass is not bad about Sydney. I think I will send a truck of fat weathers away next week, said Uncle JJ to Granny. It is getting quite dark. Let's get into dinner at once, said Granny. During the meal I took an opportunity of studying the appearance of Everard Gray. He had a typically aristocratic English face, even to the cold, rather heartless expression, which is, as established, a point of an English blue blood, as an arch-neck is of a thoroughbred horse. A ringer whose wife had been unexpectedly confined came for Granny when dinner was over, and the rest of us had a delightful musical evening. Uncle JJ bowled with a vicar of bray, and drank puppy drink, in a centaurian bass voice holding me on his knee, pinching, tickling, pulling my hair, and shaking me up and down between wiles. Mr. Horton favored us by rendering The Holy City. Everard Gray sang several new songs, which was a great treat, as he had a well-trained and musical baritone voice. He was a veritable carpet knight, and though not a phop, was exclusively dressed in full evening costume, and showed his long, pedigreed blood in every lie of his clean shaven face and tall, slight figure. He was quite a champion on the piano, and played Aunt Helen's accompaniments while he made her sing song after song. When she was weary, Uncle JJ said to me, Now it's your turn, me fine lady. We've all done something to keep the things rolling but you. Can you sing? No. Can this youngster sing, Helen? She sings very nicely to herself sometimes, but I do not know how she would manage before company. Will you try something, Sabilla? Uncle JJ waited to hear no more, but carrying me to the music stool and depositing me thereon, warned me not to attempt to leave it before singing something. To get away to myself, where I was sure no one could hear me, and sing and sing until I made the echoes ring, was one of the chief joys of my existence, but I had never made a success in singing to company. Besides losing all nerve, I had a very queer voice, which everyone remarked. However, tonight I made an effort in my old favourite, Three Fishes Went Sailing. The beauty of the full tone, ronish piano, and Everard's clever and sympathetic accompanying, caused me to forget my audience, and sing as though to myself alone, forgetting that my voice was odd. When the song ceased, Mr. Gray wheeled abruptly on the stool and said, Do you know that you have one of the most wonderful natural voices I have heard? Why, there was a fortune in such a voice, if it were trained. Such chest notes, such feeling, such rarity of tone. Don't be sarcastic, Mr. Gray, I said surely. Upon my word as a man, I mean every word I say, he returned enthusiastically. Everard Gray's opinion on artistic manners was considered worth having. He dabbled in all the arts, writing, music, acting, and sketching, and went to every good concert and play in Sydney. Though he was clever at law, it was whispered by some that he would wind up on the stage, as he had great leaning that way. I walked away from the piano treading on air. Would I really make a singer? I would the voice which had often been ridiculed. I, who had often blasphemously said that I would sell my soul to be able to sing just passably. Everard Gray's opinion gave me an intoxicated sensation of joy. Can you recite, he inquired. Yes, I answered firmly. Give us something, said Uncle J.J. I recited Longfellow's The Slave's Dream. Everard Gray was quite enthusiastic over this, as he had been about my singing. Such a voice, such depth and width, why she could fill the centennial hall without an effort, all she requires is training. By George is a regular dab, but I wish she would give us something not quite so glum, said Uncle J.J. I let myself go, carried away by I don't know what sort of spirit, I exclaimed. Very well I will, if you will wait till I make up and will help me. I disappeared for a few minutes, and returned made up with a fat old Irish woman with a smudge of dirt on my face. There was a general laugh. Would Mr. Horden assist me? Of course he was only too delighted and flattered that I had called upon him in preference to the others. What would he do? I sat him on a footstool, so that I might with facility put my hand on his sandy hair, and turning to Uncle commenced. Sure of sir, sing it was a good boy as well after Dronarons, it's myself that has brought this youngster for your inspection. So, Julia, having him, sure I read him himself, and he says his prayers every morning. Keep still, honey. Faith, you're not afraid of your poor old mama pulling your beautiful curls. Uncle J.J. was laughing like fun. Even Aunt Helen dained to smile, and Everud was looking on with critical interest. Go on, said Uncle. But Mr. Horden got huffy at the ridicule, which he suspected I was calling down upon him, and jumped up, looking fit to eat me. I acted several more impromptu scenes with the other occupants of the drawing-room. Mr. Horden emitted huff from the corner where he grumply sat. But Mr. Gray was full of praise. Splendid, splendid, he exclaimed, you say you have not an hour's training and never saw a play. Such versatility! Your fortune will be made on the stage. It is a sin to have such an exceptional talent wasting in the bush. I must take her to Sydney and put her under a good master. Indeed, you'll do no such thing, said Uncle. I'll keep her here to liven up the old barracks. You've got enough puppets on the stage without a niece of mine ever being there. I went to bed that night, greatly elated. Flattery is sweet to youth. I felt pleased with myself, and imagined, as I peeped in looking glass, that I was not half bad looking after all. Librox.org My brilliant career by Miles Frankton Chapter 11 Ya Bar, you hideous animal. Your peerless conceit does you credit. So you actually imagine that by one or two out of every hundred, you might be considered passable. You are the most uninteresting person in the world. You are small and nasty and bad, at every other thing that's abominable. That's what you are. This address I delivered to my reflection in the glass next morning. My elation of the previous night was as flat as a pancake. Dear, O dear, what a fool I had been to softly swallow the flattery of Mr Gray without a single snub in return. To make up for my laxity, if he continued to amuse himself by plastering my vanity with the ointment of flattery, I determined to serve up my replies to him red-hot and well-seasoned with pepper. I finished my toilet in a very what's-the-good-of-anything mood. Took a last glance in the glass to say, You're ugly, you're ugly and useless, so don't forget that and make a fool of yourself again. I was in the habit of doing this, as it had long ago taken the place of a morning prayer. I said this that by familiarity it might lose a little of its sting, when I heard it from other lips. But somehow it failed in efficacy. I was late for breakfast that morning, all the others were half through the meal when I sat down. Granny had not come home till after twelve, but was looking as brisk as usual. Come, Cibela, I suppose this comes of sitting up too late, as I was not here to hunt you to bed. You're always very lively at night, but it's a different tune in the morning, she said, when giving me the usual morning hug. When I was a nipper of your age, if I didn't turn out like Grease Lightning every morning, I was assisted by a little strap oil, remarked Uncle JoJo. Cibela should be excused this morning, in the post, Mr Gray. She entertained us for hours last night. Little wonder if she feels languid this morning. Entertained you? What did she do? Queering Granny. Many things. Do you know, Granny, that you are robbing the world of an artist by keeping Cibela hidden away in the bush? I must persuade you to let me take her to Sydney, and have her put under the best masters in Sydney. Under masters for what? Elocution and singing. I couldn't afford it. But I'll bear the expense myself. It would only be returning a trifle of all you have done for me. What nonsense! What would you have her do when she was taught? Go on the stage, of course. With her talent in here, she would cause quite a sensation. Now, Granny's notions read the stage were very tight laced. All actors and actresses, from the lowest circus man up to the most glorious canotrace, were people defiled in the sight of God, and utterly outside the pale of all respectability when measured with her code of morals. She turned energetically in her chair, and her keen eyes flashed with scorn and anger as she spoke. Go on the stage, a granddaughter of mine, Lucy's oldest child, an actress of vile, low, brazen, huddy. Use the gifts God had given her with which to do good in showing off to a crowd of vile, bad men. I would rather see her struck dead at my feet this instant. I would rather see her shear off her hair and enter a convent this very hour. Child, promise me, you will never be a bold, bad actress. I will never be a bold, bad actress, Granny, I said, putting great stress on the adjectives, and bringing out the actress very faintly. Yes, she continued, calming down, I'm sure you have not got enough bad in you. You may be boisterous and not behave with sufficient propriety sometimes, but I don't think you're wicked enough to ever make an actress. Everett attempted to defend his case. Look here, grand, that's a very exploded old notion about the stage being a lowly profession. It might have been once, but it's quite the reverse nowadays. There are, of course, low people on the stage, as there are in all walks of life. I'll grant you that. But if people are good, they can be good on the stage as well as anywhere else. On account of a little prejudice, it would be a sin to rob Sebella of the brilliant career she might have. Courier, exclaimed his sposter mother catching at the word, Courier, that's all the girls think of now, instead of being good wives and mothers, and attending to their homes and doing what God intended, all they think of is getting about and being fast, and ruining themselves body and soul. And the men are as bad to encounter and the men are as bad to encourage them, looking severely at Everard. There's a great deal of truth in what you say, grand, I must admit. You can apply it to many of our girls, I'm sorry to confess, but Sebella could not be bought under that classification. You must look at her in a different way if… Now look at her as a child of respectable people, and will not have the stage mentioned in connection with her. Her granny thumped her fist down on the table, and there was silence complete profound. Few dared argue with Mrs Bozier. Dear old lady, she was never angry long, and in a minute or two she proceeded with her breakfast, saying quite pleasantly, never mention such a subject to me again, but I'll tell you what you can do. Next autumn, sometime in March or April, when the fruit preserving and jam making are done with, Helen can take the child to Sydney for a month or so, and you can show them round. It will be a great treat for Sebella as she's never been to Sydney. That's right, let's strike a bargain on that grand, said Everett. Yes, it's a bargain if I hear no more about the stage. God intends his creatures for a better life than that. After breakfast I was left to entertain Everett for some while. We had a fine time. He was a perfect gentleman and a clever conversationalist. I was always desirous of enjoying the company of society people who were well bred and lived according to etiquette, and possessed of leisure and culture sufficient to fill their minds with something more than the price of farm produce and the hard struggle for existence. Everett too, I had only read such or seen them in pictures, but here was a real live one, and I seized my opportunity with him. I had my questioning and evident interest in his talk, he told me of all the latexed plays, actors and actresses with whom he was acquainted, and described the fashionable balls, dinners and garden parties he attended. Having exhausted this subject, we felt a discussing books, and I recited snatches of poems dear to me. Everett placed his hands upon my shoulders and said, Sebella, do you know you are a most wonderful girl? Your figure is perfect, your star refreshing, and you have a most interesting face. It is ever changing as a kaleidoscope, sometimes married, then stern, often sympathetic, and almost sad when at rest, one would think you had had some sorrow in your life. Lifting my skirt at either side, I bowed several times very low in what I call my stage bow, and called into requisition my stage smile, which displayed two rows of teeth as white and perfect as any twenty-genny set turned out on a gold plate by a fashionable dentist. The handsome gentleman is very kind to amuse himself at the expense of a little country bumpkin, but he would do well to ascertain if his flattery would go down before administering it next time, I said sarcastically, and I heard him calling to me as I abruptly went off to shut myself in my room. How dare anyone ridicule me by paying idle brainless compliments! I knew I was ugly and did not want anyone to perjure his soul pretending they thought differently. What right had I to be small? Why wasn't I possessed of a big acolyne nose and tall commanding figure? Thus I sat in burning discontent and illuma until soothed by the centre roses, and the gleam of soft spring sunshine which streamed in through my open window. Some of the flowerbeds in the garden were completely carpeted with pansy blossoms, all colours, and violets blue and white, single and double. The centre minionette, John Quills and Nussus I filled the air. I reveled in rich perfumes and these tempters me forth. My ruffled feelings gave way before the delights of the old garden. I collected a number of vases and filling in with water, set them on a table in the veranda near one of the drawing-room windows. I gathered lapfuls of the lovely blossoms and commenced arranging them in vases. Part of the old catechord house was built of slabs, and one of the wooden malls ran along the horrendous side of the drawing-room. So the songs Aunt Ellen and Everett Gray were trying on the piano came as a sweet accompaniment to my congenial task. Presently they left off singing and commenced talking. Under the same circumstances a heroine of a story would have slipped away, or if that were impossible without discovery, she would have put her fingers in her ears and would have been in a terrible state of agitation, lest she should hear something not intended for her. I did not come there with a view to eavesdropping. It is a degradation to which I never stoop. I thought they were aware of my presence on the veranda, but it appears they were not, as they began to disgust me. Wonderful, interesting subject to myself. And I stayed there without one word of disapproval from my conscience, to listen to their conversation. My word didn't grand make a to-do this morning when I proposed to train Cibela for the stage. Do you know that girl is simply reeking with talent I must have her trained? I will keep bringing the idea before Grant till she gets used to it. I'll work that we should use the gifts God has given us record for all it's worth. And you might use your influence too, Helen. No, Everett, there are very few who succeed on the stage. I would not use my influence, as it is a life of which I do not approve. But Cibela would succeed. I am a personal friend of the leading managers. And my influence would help her greatly. Yes, but what would you do with her? A young gentleman couldn't take charge of a girl and bring her out without ruining her reputation. There would be no end of scandal, as the sister theory would only be nonsense. There is another way I could easily stop scandal. Everett, what do you mean? I mean marriage, he replied deliberately. Surely, boy, you must be dreaming. You have only seen her for an hour or two. I don't believe in these sudden attachments. Perhaps here she thought of one her own as sudden, which had not ended happily. Everett, don't do anything rashly. You know you are very fickle and consider the lady killer. Be merciful to my poor little Cibela, I pray. It is just one of your passing fancies. Don't wild her passionate young heart away and then leave it a pine and die. I don't think she is that sort, he replied, laughingly. No, she would not die, but would grow into a cynic and sceptic, which is the worst of fates. Let her alone. Flirt as much as you will with society-bills who understand the game, but leave my country maiden alone. I hope to mould her into a splendid character yet. But Helen, suppose I am an earnest at last. You don't think I'd make her a bad old hubby, do you? She is not the girl for you. You are not the man who could ever control her. What I say may not be complementary, but it is true. Besides, she is not seventeen yet, and I do not approve of romantic young girls throwing themselves into matrimony. Let them develop their womanhood first. Then I expect I had better hide my attractions under a bushel during the remainder of my stay at Caligate. Yes, be nice to the child as you like, but mine, none of these little ladies' man-attentions, with which it is so easy to steal. I waited to hear no more, but brimming over with a mixture of emotions, tore through the garden and into the old orchard. These were busy and countless bright-coloured butterflies flittered hither and bither, sipping from hundreds of trees, white or pink with bloom. Their beauty was lost upon me. I stood ankle-deep in violets, where they had run wild under a mild old apple tree, and gave way to my wounded vanity. Little country maiden indeed. There's no need for him to bag his attractions up. If he exerted himself to the utmost of his ability, he could not make me love him. I'm not a child. I saw through him in the first hour. There's not enough in him to win my love. I'll show him, I think, no more of him than of the caterpillars in the old tree. I'm not a booby that will fall in love with every guzzly I see. Bah, there's no fear of that. I hate and detest men. I suppose you were rehearsing some more ears to show us this tonight. It's near the voice behind me. No, I'm realisticking. And how dare you thrust your obnoxious presence before me when I wish to be alone. Haven't I often shown? When a girl is disengaged, any man who is her equal has the right to pay his addresses to her if he is in earnest. Interrupted Mr. Horden. It was he who stood before me. I am well aware of that, I replied, but it is a woman's privilege to repel those attentions if distasteful to her. You seem disinclined to accord me that privilege. Having delivered this retort, I returned to the house, leaving him standing there looking the fool he was. I do not believe in spurning the love of a Blackfellow if it behaves in a manly way. But Frank Horden was such a driveling, mortgish style of sweet-out that I had no patience with him. Aunt Ellen, an Everett, advocated the drawing room. So I plumped down on the piano stool and dashed into Kolauescu's gallop from that gay decor until I made the piano dance and tremble like a thing possessed. My annoyance faded and I slowly played that saddest of all waltzes, Weber's last. I became aware of a presence in the room and facing about confronted Everett Gray. How long have you been here, I demanded sharply. Since you began to play, where on earth did you learn to play? Your execution is splendid. Do sing three fishes, please. Excuse me, I haven't time now. Besides, I'm not competent to sing to you, I said brusquely, and made my exit. Mr. Horden wants you, Savilla, called Aunt Helen. See what he wants and let him get away to his work, or your granny will be vexed to see him loitering about all morning. Mrs. Savilla, he began when we were left alone. I want to apologise to you. I had no right to plague you, but it all comes of the way I love you. I feel like it's jealous at the least little thing you know. Bore me with no more such trash, I said, turning away and disgust. But Mrs. Savilla, what am I to do with it? Do with what? My love. Love? I recited scarcely. There is no such thing. But there is, and I have found it. Well, you stick to it. That's my advice to you. It will be a treasure. If you send it to my father, he will get it bottled up and put in Goldman Museum. He has sent several things there already. Don't make such a game of a poor fellow. You know I can't do that. Bag it up, then. Put a big stone to make it sink and pitch it in the river. You'll rue this, he said savagely. I may or may not, I sang over my shoulder. As I departed. End of Chapter 11. I had not the opportunity of any more private interviews with Everard Gray to one morning near his departure when we happened to be alone on the veranda. Well, Mrs. Savilla, he began. When I arrived I thought you and I would have been great friends, but we have not progressed at all. How do you account for that? As he spoke he laid his slender shapely hand kindly upon my head. He was very handsome and winning, and moved in literary, musical, and artistic society, a man from my world, a world away. Oh, what pleasure I might have derived from companionship with him! I bit my lip to keep back the tears. Why did not social arrangements allow a man and a maid to be chums? Chums is two men or two maids maybe to each other, enjoying each other without thought beyond pure platonic friendship. But no, it could not be. I understood the conceit of men. Should I be very affable, I fear Everard Gray would imagine he had made a conquest of me. On the other hand, where I glum, he would think the same, and that I was trying to hide my feelings behind a mask of brusquery. I therefore steered in a beeline between the two manners, and remarked with the greatest of indifference. I was not aware that you expected us to be such cronies. In fact, I have never given the matter a thought. He turned away in a peaked style, such a bow of bow, no doubt he was annoyed that an insignificant little country bumpkin should not be flattered by his patronage, or probably he thought me rude or ill-humored. Two mornings later Uncle J.J. took him to Goulgoul, en-route for Sydney. When departing he bade me a kindly goodbye, made me promise to write to him, and announced his intention of obtaining the opinion of some good masters, re-my dramatic talent and voice, when I came to Sydney as promised by my grandmother. I stood on the garden fence waving my handkerchief until the buggy passed out of sight among the messmate trees about half a mile from the house. Well, I hope, as that dandified ape is gone, and good riddance to him, that you will pay more heed to my attention now, said Mr. Harden's voice as I was in the act of descending from the fence. What do you mean by your attentions? I demanded. What do I mean? That is something like coming to business. I'll soon explain. You know what my intentions are very well. When I am twenty-four I will come into my property in England. It is considerable, and at the end of that time I want to marry you and take you home. By Jove I would just like to take you home. You'd surprise some English girls, I know. There would be more than one person surprised if I married you, I thought to myself, and laughed till I ached with the motion. You infernal little vixen. What are you laughing at? You've got no more sense than a bat if such a solemn thing only provokes your mirth. Solemn? Why, it's a screaming farce. I laughed more and more. What's a farce? he demanded fiercely. The bare idea of you proposing to me. Why, have I not as much right to propose as any other man? Man? I laughed. That's where the absurdity arises. My child, if you were a man, certainly you could propose, but you think I'd look at a boy, a child? If ever I perpetrate matrimony, the participant in my degradation will be a fully developed man, not a hobbledy-hoi who falls in love, as he terms it, on an average about twice a week. Love? Ho! I moved in the direction of the house. He barred my path. You are not going to escape me like that, my fine lady. I will make you listen to me this time or you will hear more about it. And he seized me angrily by the wrist. I cannot bear the touch of any one. It is one of my idiosyncrasies. With my disengaged hand I struck him a vigorous blow on the nose, and wrenching myself free, sprang away, saying, How dare you lay a finger on me? If you attempt such a thing again, I'll make short work of you. Mark my words or you'll get something more than a bleeding nose next time, I promise you. You'll hear more of this. You'll hear more of this, you fierce wild touch-me-not thing, he roared. Yes, my motto with men is touch-me-not, and it is your own fault if I'm fierce. If children attempt to act the role of a man with adult tools, they are sure to cut themselves. Hold hard a bit, honey, till your whiskers grow. I retorted, as I departed, taking flying leaps over the blossom-burden flower beds. At tea that night, after gazing interestingly at Mr. Hodden's nose for some time, Uncle Julius inquired, In the name of all that's mysterious, what the devil have you been doing to your nose? You look as though you had been on the spree. I was quaking lest he would get me into a fine scrape, but he only muttered, By Joe, with great energy, and glowered menacingly across the table at me. After tea he requested an interview with Granny, which aroused my curiosity greatly. I was destined to hear all about it next morning. When breakfast was over, Granny called me into her room and interviewed me about Mr. Hodden's interview. She began without any preliminaries. Mr. Hodden has complained of your conduct. It grieves me that any young man should have to speak to me of the behavior of my own granddaughter. He says you have been flirting with him. Cebilla I scarcely thought you would be so immodest and unwomanly. On hearing this my thoughts of Frank Hodden were the reverse of flattering. He had persecuted me beyond measure, yet I had not deigned to complain of him to either Uncle, Granny, or Auntie, as I might reasonably have done, and have obtained immediate redress. He had been the one to blame in the case, yet for the rebuffs he had brought upon himself went taddling to my grandmother. Is that all you have to say, Granny? No. He wants to marry you and has asked my consent. I told him it all rested with yourself and parents. What do you say? Say, I exclaimed. Granny, you were only joking. Are you not? No, my child. This is not a matter to joke about. Marry that creature? A boy? I uttered in consternation. He is no boy. He has attained his majority some months. He is as old as your grandfather was when we married. In three years you will be almost twenty, and by that time he will be in possession of his property which is very good. In fact he will be quite rich. If you care for him there is nothing against him as I can see. He is healthy, has a good character and comes of high family. Being a bit wild won't matter. Very often after they sew their wild oats some of those scampy young fellows settle down and marry a nice young girl and turn out very good husbands. It is disgusting and you ought to be downright ashamed of yourself, Granny. A man can live a life of bestiality and then be considered a fit husband for the youngest and purest girl. It is shameful. Frank Hodden is not wild. He hasn't got enough in him to be so. I hate him. No, he hasn't enough in him to hate. I lo then despise him. I would not marry him or anyone like him though he were King of England. The idea of marriage even with the best man in the world seems to me a lowering thing. I raged. But with him it would be pollution, the lowest degradation that could be heaped upon me. I will never come down to marry anyone. Here I fell a victim to a flood of excited tears. I felt there was no good in the world, especially in men, the hateful creatures, and never would be while it was not expected of them, even by rigidly pure true Christians such as my grandmother. Granny, dear old Granny, thought I should marry any man who, from a financial point of view, was a good match for me. That is where the sting came in. No, I would never marry. I would procure some occupation in which I could tread my life out, independent of the degradation of marriage. Dear me, child, said Granny, concernedly. There is no need to distress yourself so. I remember you were always fearfully passionate. When I had you with me as a tiny toddler you would fret a whole day about a thing an ordinary child would forget inside an hour. I will tell Hodden to go about his business. I would not want you to consider marriage for an instant with anyone distasteful to you. But tell me truly, have you ever flirted with him? I will take your word for I thank God you have never yet told me a falsehood. Granny, I exclaimed emphatically, I have discouraged him all I could. I would scorn to flirt with any man. Well, well, that is all I want to hear about it. Wash your eyes and we will get our horses and go over to see Mrs. Hickey and her baby and take her something good to eat. I did not encounter Frank Hodden again until the afternoon when he leered at me in a very triumphant manner. I stiffened myself and drew out of his way as though he had been some vile animal. At this treatment he whined, so I agreed to talk the matter over with him and have done with it once and for all. He was on his way to water some dogs, so I accompanied him out to the stables near the kennels to be out of hearing of the household. I opened fire without any beating about the bush. I ask you, Mr. Hodden, if you have any sense of manliness from this hour to cease persecuting me with your idiotic professions of love. I have two sentiments regarding it and in either you disgust me. Sometimes I don't believe there is such a thing as love at all, that is love between men and women. While in this frame of mind I would not listen to professions of love from an angel. Other times I believe in love and look upon it as a sacred and solemn thing. When in that humor it seems to me a desecration to hear you twaddling about the holy theme for you are only a boy and don't know how to feel. I would not have spoken thus harshly to you, but by your unmanly conduct you have brought it upon yourself. I have told you straight all that I will ever deign to tell you on the subject and take much pleasure in wishing you good afternoon. I walked away quickly, heedless of his expostulations. My appeal to his manliness had no effect. Did I go for a ride or a walk in the afternoon to enjoy the glory of the sunset or a stroll to drink in the pleasures of the old garden? There would I find Frank Hodden by my side, ya, ya, yaing about the way I treated him until I wished him at the bottom of the Red Sea. However, in those glorious spring days, the sense of life was too pleasant to be much clouded by the trifling annoyance Frank Hodden occasioned me. The graceful wild climates festooned the shrubbery along the creeks with great reeds of magnificent white bloom, which loaded every breeze with perfume. The pretty bright green sunnish shrubs along the river banks were decked in blossoms which rivaled the deep blue of the sky in brilliance. The magpies built their nests in the tall gum-trees and savagely attacked unwary travelers who ventured too near their domain. The horses were rolling fat and invited one to get on their satin backs and have a gallop. The cry of the leather heads was heard in the orchard as the cherry season approached. Oh, it was good to be alive. At Catagat I was as much out of the full flood of life for which I craved as at Possum Gully, but here there were sufficient pleasant little ripples on the stream of existence to act as a stop-gap for the present. Chapter 13 of My Brilliant Career This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Leanne Howlett. My Brilliant Career by Miles Franklin. Chapter 13. He Here goes for a full account of my first, my last, my only real sweetheart, for I considered the professions of that Pistiferous Jackaroo as merely a grotesque caricature on the genuine article. On making my first appearance before my lover I looked quite the reverse of a heroin. My lovely hair was not conveniently escaping from the comb at the right moment to catch him hard in the eye. Neither was my thrillingly low, sweet voice floating out on the scented air in a manner which went straight to his heart, like the girls I had read of. On the contrary, I much resembled a female clown. It was on a day towards the end of September, and I had been up the creek making a collection of ferns. I had on a pair of men's boots with which to walk in the water, and was garbed in a most dilapidated old dress, which I had borrowed from one of the servants for the purpose. A pair of gloves made of basil and a big hat, much torn and struggling through the undergrowth, completed my makeup. My hair was most unbecomingly screwed up, the short ends sticking out like a hurrah's nest. It was late in the day when, returning from my ramble, I was met on the doorstep by Aunt Helen. While you were in that trim, I wish you would pluck some lemons for me. I'm sure there is no danger of you ruining your turnout. A sketch of you would make a good item for the bulletin, she said. I went readily to do her bidding, and fetching a ladder with rungs about two feet six apart, placed it against a lemon tree at the back of the house, and climbed up. Holding a number of lemons in my skirt, I was making a most ungraceful descent, when I heard an unknown footstep approaching towards my back. People came to Kedaget at all hours of the day, so I was not in the least disconcerted. Only a tramp, an agent, or a hawker, I bet, I thought, as I reached my big boot down for another rung of the ladder, without turning my head to see whom it might be. A pair of strong, brown hands encircled my waist. I was tossed up a foot or so, and then deposited lightly on the ground, a masculine voice saying, You're a mighty well-shaped young filly, a waist rather small but a quarter superb. How dare anyone speak to me like that, I thought, as I faced about to see who was parodying Gordon. There stood a man I had never before set eyes on, smiling mischievously at me. He was a young man, a very young man, a bushman tremendously tall and big and sun-burnt, with an open pleasant face and chestnut moustache. Not at all an awe-inspiring fellow, in spite of his unusual, though well-proportioned and carried height. I knew it must be Harold Beecham of five Bob Downs, as I had heard he stood six feet three-and-a-half in his socks. I hurriedly let down my dress, the lemons rolling in a dozen directions, and turned to flee, with that well-formed figure bounded before me with the agility of a cat and barred my way. Now, not a step do you go, my fine young blood, until you pick up every jolly lemon and put them away tidily, or I'll tell the misses on you as sure as eggs. It dawned on me that he had mistaken me for one of the servant-girls. That wasn't bad fun. I determined not to undeceive but to have a lark with him. I summed him up as conceited, but not with a disgusting conceit with which some were afflicted or perhaps blessed. It was rather an error of, I've always got what I desire and believe, if people fail it is all their own fault, which surrounded him. If you please, sir, I said humbly, I've gathered them all up. Will you let me go now? Yes, when you've given me a kiss. Oh, sir, I couldn't do that. Go on, I won't poison you. Come now, I'll make you. Oh, the misses might catch me. No jolly fear. I'll take all the blame if she does. Oh, don't, sir, let me go, please. I said in such unfaigned distress, for I feared he was going to execute his threat, that he laughed and said, Don't be frightened, Sissy. I never kiss girls, and I'm not going to start at this time of day and against their will to boot. You haven't been here long, have you? I haven't seen you before. Stand out there till I see if you've got any grit in you and then I am done with you. I stood in the middle of the yard, the spot he indicated, while he uncurled his long, heavy stock whip with its big lash and scented mild handle. He cracked it round and round my head and arms, but I did not feel the least afraid, as I saw at a glance that he was exceedingly dexterous in the Bushman's art of handling a stock whip, and knew, if I kept perfectly still, I was quite safe. It was thanks to Uncle JJ that I was able to bear the operation with unruffled equanimity, as he was in the habit of testing my nerves in this way. Well, I never—not so much as blinked an eyelash—thoroughbred, he said after a minute or so. Where's the boss? In ghoul ghoul, he won't be home till late. Is Mrs. Bossier in? No, she's not, but Mrs. Bell is somewhere around in front. Thanks. I watched him as he walked away with an easy swinging stride, which spoke of many long, long days in the saddle. I felt certain as I watched him that he had quite forgotten the incident of the little girl with the lemons. Sibylla, hurry up and get dressed. Put on your best bib and tucker, and I will leave Harry Beachham in your charge, as I want to superintend the making of some of the dishes myself this evening. It's too early to put on my evening dress, isn't it, Auntie? It is rather early, but you can't spare time to change twice. Dress yourself completely. You don't know what minute your uncle and his worship will arrive. I had taken a dip in the creek, so had not to bathe, and it took me but a short time to don full war paint—blue evening dress, satin slippers, and all. I wore my hair flowing, simply tied with a ribbon. I slipped out into the passage and called Aunt Helen. She came. I'm ready, Auntie. Where is he? In the dining-room. Come into the drawing-room and call him. I will take charge of him to Eure at Leisure. But, Auntie, it will be a long time till dinner. How on earth will I manage him? Manage him! she laughed. He is not at all an obstreperous character. We had reached the drawing-room by this, and I looked at myself in the looking-glass while Aunt Helen went to summon Harold Augustus Beecham, bachelor, owner of five Bob Downs, Wyam Beach, Wallerang West, Cotcota, and a couple more stations in New South Wales, besides an extensive one in Queensland. I noticed as he entered the door that since I had seen him he had washed, combed his stiff black hair, and divested himself of his hat, spurs, and whip. His leggings had perforced to remain, as his nether garment was a pair of closely fitting gray cloth writing-reaches, which clearly defined the shapely contour of his lower limbs. Harry, this is Sibylla. I'm sure you need no further introduction. Excuse me, I have something on the fire which is likely to burn. And Aunt Helen hurried off, leaving us facing each other. He stared down at me with undisguised surprise. I looked up at him and laughed merrily. The fun was all on my side. He was a great big man, rich and important. I was a chit, an insignificant non-entity. Yet, despite his sex, size, and importance, I was complete master of that situation and knew it. Thus I laughed. I saw that he recognized me again by the dusky red he flushed beneath his sun-darkened skin. No doubt he regretted having called me a filly above all things. He bowed stiffly, but I held out my hands, saying, Do shake hands? When introduced I always shake hands with any one I think I'll like. Besides, I seem to know you well. Just think of all the apples you brought me. He acceded to my request, holding my hand a deal longer than necessary, and looking at me helplessly. It amused me greatly, for I saw that it was he who did not know how to manage me, and not I that couldn't manage him. Upon my honour, Miss Melvin, I had no idea it was you when I said—here he boggled completely, which had the effect of reviving my laughter. You had no right to be dressed like that, deceiving a fellow. It wasn't fair. That's the best of it. It shows what a lyrical Don Juan sort of character you are. You can't deceive me now if you pretend to be a virtuous, well-behaved member of society. That is the first time I've ever meddled with any of the kitchen fry, and by Jove it will be the last, he said energetically. I've got myself into a pretty mess. What nonsense you talk, I replied. If you say another word about it I'll write a full account of it and paste it in my scrapbook, but if you don't worry about it, neither will I. You said nothing very uncomplimentary. In fact, I was quite flattered. I was perched on the high end of a couch, and he was leaning with big careless ease on the piano. Had Granny seen me, I would have been lectured about unladylike behaviour. What is your uncle at today? he inquired. He's not at anything. He went to Google yesterday on the jury. Court finishes up to-day, and he is going to bring the judge home to-night. That's why I am dressed so carefully, I answered. Good gracious! I never thought of court this time, as I wasn't called on the jury, and for a wonder hadn't so much as a case against a Chinaman. I was going to stay to-night, but can't if his worship is going to die in here. Why? You're surely not afraid of Judge Fosselt. He's a very simple old customer. He's been dining with a judge in this togery, and he glanced down his great figure at his riding-gear. That doesn't matter. He's nearsighted. I'll get you put at the far end of the table under my wing. Men don't notice dress. If you weren't so big, Uncle or Frank Hoddon could oblige you. Do you think I could pass muster? Yes, after I brush you down you'll look as spruce as a brass penny. I did brush myself, he answered. You brush yourself, I retorted. There's a big splash of mud on your shoulder. You couldn't expect to do anything decently for your only a man, and men are the uselessest, good-for-nothingest, clumsiest animals in the world. All they're good for is to smoke and swear. I fetch to close, brush. You'll have to stand on the table to reach me, he said, looking down with amused indulgence. As you are so impertinent you can go dusty, and I toss the brush away. The evening was balmy, so I invited him into the garden. He threw his handkerchief over my chest, saying I might catch cold, but I scouted the idea. We wandered into an arbor covered with wisteria, baxia, and marishal neal roses, and I made him a buttonhole. A traveller pulled rain in the roadway and dismounting through his bridle over a pailing of the garden fence while he went inside to try and buy a loaf of bread. I jumped up, frightening the horse so that it broke away, pulling off the pailing in the bridle rain. I ran to bring a hammer to repair the damage. Mr. Beecham caught the horse while I attempted to drive the nail into the fence. It was a futile attempt. I bruised my fingers. He took the hammer from me in fixing the pailing in its place with a couple of well-aimed blows, said laughingly. You drive a nail. You couldn't expect to do anything. You're only a girl. Girls are the helplessest, uselessest, troublesomeest little creatures in the world. All they're good for is to torment and pester a fellow. I had to laugh. At this juncture we heard Uncle J. J.'s voice, so Mr. Beecham went towards the back, once it proceeded, after he left me at the front door. Oh, Auntie, we got on splendidly. He's not a bit of trouble. We're as chummy as though we had been reared together, I exclaimed. Did you get him to talk? Oh, yes. Did you really? In surprise. When I came to review the matter I was forced to confess that I had done all the talking, and young Beecham the listening. Moreover I described him as the quietest man I had ever seen or heard of. The judge did not come home with Uncle J. J. as expected, so it was not necessary for me to shelter Harold Beecham under my wing. Granny greeted him cordially as, Harold, my boy. He was a great favorite with her. She and Uncle Julius monopolized him for the evening. There was great talk of trucking sheep, the bad outlook as regarded the season, the state of the grass in the triangle, the lease spring, the bimbalong, and several other paddocks, and of the condition of the London wool market. It did not interest me, so I dived into a book, only occasionally emerging there from to smile at Mr. Beecham. He had come to Godaget for a pair of bullocks which had been fattening in Granny's home paddock. Uncle gave him a start with them next morning. When they came out on the road I was standing in a bed of violets in a tangled corner of the garden where roses climbed to kiss the lilacs and spurious stoop to rest upon the wall-flowers and where two tall curajongs stood like centuries over all. Harold Beecham dismounted and leaning over the fence lingered with me, leaving the bullocks to Uncle J. J. Uncle raved vigorously. Women, he asserted, were the bane of society and the ruination of all men. But he had always considered Harold as too sensible to neglect his business to stand grinning at a pesky youngster in short skirts and a pigtail, which was the greatest idiot of the two he didn't know. His grumbling did not affect Harold in the least. Complementary to both of us, he remarked as he leisurely threw himself across his great horse, and smiled his pleasant quiet smile, disclosing two rows of magnificent teeth, untainted by contamination with beer or tobacco. Raising his Panama hat with the green fly-vale around it, he cantered off. I wondered as I watched him if anything ever disturbed his serenity and desire to try. He looked too big and quiet to be ruffled by such emotions as rage, worry, jealousy, or even love. Returning to the house, I put Aunt Helen through an exhaustive catechism concerning him. ANTI. What age is Harold Beecham? ANSWER. 25. LAST DEC. QUESTION. Did he ever have any brothers or sisters? ANSWER. NO. His birth caused his mother's death. QUESTION. How long has his father been dead? ANSWER. Since Harold could crawl. QUESTION. WHO REARED HIM? ANSWER. HIS ANTS. QUESTION. Does he ever talk any more than that? ANSWER. Often a great deal less. QUESTION. Is he really very rich? ANSWER. If he manages to pull through these seasons, he will be second to none but Tyson in Point of Wealth. QUESTION. Is fine Bob a very pretty place? ANSWER. Yes, one of the show places of the district. QUESTION. Does he often come to cadaget? ANSWER. Yes, he often drops in. QUESTION. What makes his hair so black and his moustache that light color? ANSWER. You'll have to study science to find that out. I'm sure I can't tell you. QUESTION. Does he— NELSA BILLA. QUESTION. Is he a goodúdeer? NELSA. QUESTION. NELSA. Is he sort of a adjuster? NELSA. Is he a roofer of the Little Kennel? NELSA. QUESTION. Has she ever gotta work outside? NELSA. QUESTION. NO. only advice I can tender you." This was a Thursday, and on the following Sunday Harold Beecham reappeared at Cadagat, and remained from three in the afternoon until nine at night. Uncle Julius and Frank Hodden were absent. The weather had taken a sudden backward lurch into winter again, so we had a fire. Harold sat beside it all the time and interposed yes and no at the proper intervals in Granny's brisk business conversation, but he never addressed one word to me beyond, Good Afternoon, Miss Melvin, on his arrival, and Good Night, Miss Melvin, when leaving. I studied him attentively all the while. What were his ideas and sentiments that were hard to tell? He never expressed any. He was fearfully and wonderfully quiet. Yet his was an intelligent silence, not of that wooden brainless description which casts a damper on company. Neither was it of the morose or dreaming order. End of Chapter 13. Recording by Leanne Howlett. Chapter 14 of My Brilliant Career. This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Recording by Leanne Howlett. My Brilliant Career. By Miles Franklin. Chapter 14. Principally Letters. Cadaget, 29th September, 1896. My dearest Gertie, I have started to write no less than seven letters to you, but something always interrupted me and I did not finish them. However, I'll finish this one in the teeth of Father Peter himself. I will parenthesize all the interruptions. A traveller just asked me for a rose. I had to get up and give him one. Living here is lovely. Another man inquired the way to summing the gap and I've just finished directing him. Granny is terribly nice. You could not believe. She is always giving me something and takes me wherever she goes. Auntie is an angel. I wish you could hear the piano. It is a beauty. There are dozens of papers and books to read. Uncle is a dear old fellow. You should hear him rave and swear sometimes when he gets in a rage. It is great fun. He brings me lollies, gloves, ribbons, or something every time he comes from town. Two Indian hawkers have arrived and I am going out to see their goods. There were 19 hawkers here last week. I am sitting on a squatter's chair and writing on a table in the veranda and the road goes right by the flower garden. That is how I see everyone. Have you had rain down there this week? They have great squawking about the drought up here. I wish they could see Goldburn and then they'd know what drought means. I don't know what sort of a bobbery they would kick up. It's pretty dry out on the run but everyone calls the paddocks about the house an oasis. You see there are such splendid facilities for irrigation here. Uncle has put on a lot of men. They have cut races between the two creeks between which the house is situated. Every now and again they let the water from these over the orchard gardens and about a hundred acres of paddock land around the house. The grass therein is up to the horse's fetlocks. There is any amount of rhubarb and early vegetables in the garden. Granny says there is a splendid promise of fruit in the orchard and the flower garden is a perfect dream. This is the dearest old place in the world. Dozens of people plague Granny to be let put their horses in the grass, especially shears. There are droves of them going home now, but she won't let them. Wants all the grass for her own stock. Uncle has had to put another man on to mind it, or at night all the wires are cut and the horses put in. An agent I think by the cut of him is asking for Granny. I'll have to run and find her. It is very lively here, never a night but we have the house full of agents or travelers of one sort or another and there are often a dozen swaggies in the one day. Harold Beecham is my favorite of all the men here away. He is delightfully big and quiet. He isn't good looking but I like his face. Been attending to the demands of a couple of impudent swaggies, being off the road at Possum Gully you escape them. For the love of life, next time you write, fire into the news at once and don't half-fill your letter telling me about the pen and your bad writing. I am scribbling at the rate of 365 miles an hour and don't care a jot whether it is good writing or not. Auntie, Uncle, Frank Hodden and I are going to ride to Yabtree Church next Sunday. It is four miles beyond five Bob Downs, so that is 16 miles. It is the nearest church. I expect it will be rare fun. There will be such a crowd coming home and that always makes the horses delightfully frisky. A man wants to put his horses in the paddock for the night so I will have to find Uncle. I never saw such a place for men. It is all men, men, men. You cannot go anywhere outside the house but you see men coming and going in all directions. It wouldn't do to undress without bothering to drop the window-blind like we used at Possum Gully. Granny and Uncle say it is a curse to be living beside the road as it costs them a tremendous lot a year. There are seven lemon trees here, loaded, another hawker. I hope you think of me sometimes. I am just as ugly as ever. A traveler wants to buy a loaf of bread. With stacks of love to all at home and a whole dray load for yourself from your loving sister, Sibylla. Remember me to the Gulburn, drowsing lazily in its dreamy graceful hollow in the blue distance. Cadagat, 29th September, 1896. Dear Everard, thank you very much for the magazines and on Australian bush-track. I suppose you have quite forgotten us and Cadagat by this time. The sun has sunk behind the gum-trees and the blue evening mists are hanging lazily in the hollows of the hills. I expect you are dawning your swallow-tail preparatory to leading some besattened fair lady into a gorgeous dinner, thence to the play, then to a dance probably. No doubt all around you is bustle, glare of lights, noise and fun. It is such a different scene here. From down the road comes the tinkle of campbells and jingle of hobble chains. From down in that sheltered angle where the creek meets the river comes the gleam of campfires through the gathering twilight, and I can see several tents rigged for the night, looking like white specks in the distance. I long for the time to come when I shall get to Sydney. I'm going to lead you and Aunt Helen a pretty dance. You'll have to keep going night and day. It will be great. I must get up and dance a jig on the veranda when I think of it. You'll have to show me everything, slums and all. I want to find out the truth of heaps of things for myself. Give for the weird rush of the stream and the cookaburra's good night, all is still, with a mighty far-reaching stillness which can be felt. Now the curlews are beginning their wild moaning cry. From the rifts and the dark lone ranges, far down the river, it comes like a hunted spirit until it makes me feel— At this point I said, Bah! I'm mad to write to Everett Gray like this. He would laugh and call me a poor little fool. I tore the half-finished letter to shreds and consigned it to the kitchen fire. I substituted a prim formal note merely thanking him for the books and magazine he had sent me. To this I never received an answer. I heard through his letters to Granny that he was much occupied, had been to Brisbane and Melbourne on important cases, so very likely had not time to be bothered with me. Or he might have been like the majority of his fellows who make a great parade of friendship while with one, then go away and forget one's existence in an hour. While at Cadagat there were a few duties allotted to me. One of these was to attend to the drawing-room. Another was to find Uncle J.J.'s hat when he mis-lated—often ten times per day. I assisted my grandmother to make up her accounts and write business letters, and I attended to tramps. A man was never refused a bit to eat at Cadagat. This necessitated the purchase of an extra ton of flour per year, also nearly a ton of sugar, to say nothing of tea, potatoes, beef, and all broken meats which went thus. This was not reckoning the consumption of victuals by the other class of travelers with which the house was generally full year in and year out. Had there been any charge for their board in lodging, the bossiers would surely have made a fortune. I interviewed on an average fifty tramps a week and seldom saw the same man twice. What a great army they were—hopeless, homeless, aimless, shameless souls, tramping on from north to south and east to west, never relinquishing their heart-sickening, futile quest for work—some of them so long on the tramp that the ambitions of manhood had been ground out of them, and they wished for nothing more than this. There were all shapes, sizes, ages, kinds, and conditions of men. The shame-faced boy in the butt of his youth, showing by the way he begged that the humiliation of the situation had not yet worn off, and poor old creatures tottering on the brink of the grave, with nothing left in life but the enjoyment of beer and tobacco. There were strong men in their prime who really desired work when they asked for it, and skulking cowards who hoped they would not get it. There were the diseased, the educated, the ignorant, the deformed, the blind, the evil, the honest, the mad, and the sane. Some in real professional beggars' style called down blessings on me. Others were morose and glum, while some were impudent and thankless, and said to supply them with food was just what I should do, for the swagmen kept the squatters, as had the squatters not monopolized the land the swagmen would have had plenty. A moiety of the last mentioned, dirty, besotted, ragged creatures, had a glare in their eyes which made one shudder to look at them. And, while spasmodically twirling their billies or clenching their fists, talked wildly of making one to bust up the damn banks, or to drive all the present squatters out of the country and put the people on the land, clearly showing that, because they had failed for one reason or another, it had maddened them to see others succeed. In a wide young country of boundless resources, why is this thing? This question worried me. Our legislators are unable or unwilling to cope with it. They trouble not to be patriots and statesmen. Australia can bring forth writers, orators, financiers, singers, musicians, actors, and athletes, which are second to none of any nation under the sun. Why can she not bear sons, men of soul, mind, truth, godliness, and patriotism, sufficient to rise and cast off the grim shackles which widen round us day by day? I was the only one at Cadagat who held these silly ideas. Harold Beecham, Uncle Julius, Granny, and Frank Hodden did not worry about the cause of tramps. They simply termed them a lazy lot of sneaking creatures, fed them, and thought no more of the matter. I broached the subject to Uncle JJ once simply to discover his ideas thereon. I was sitting on a chair in the verandah sowing. He, with his head on a cushion, was comfortably stretched on a rug on the floor. Uncle Boss, why can't something be done for tramps? How done for him? Couldn't some means of employing them be arrived at? Work, he ejaculated. That's the very thing the crawling divils are terrified they might get. Yes, but couldn't some law be made to help them? A law to make me cut up Cadagat and give ten of them each a piece, and go on the wallaby myself, I suppose? No, Uncle. But there was a poor young fellow here this morning who I feel sure was in earnest when he asked for work. Helen, bald Uncle JJ. Well, what is it? She inquired, appearing in the doorway. Next time Sabilla is giving a tramp some tucker, you keep a sharp eye on her or she will be sloping one of these days. There was a young fellow here today with a scarlet moustache and green eyes, and she's deemed gone on him, and has been bullying me to give him half Cadagat. What a disgusting thing to say. Uncle, you ought to be ashamed of yourself, I exclaimed. Very well, I'll be careful, said Aunt Helen, departing. What would the damned flies and the tramps and a pesky thing called Sabilla a man's life ain't worth a penny to him, said Uncle. We fell into silence, which was broken presently by a dirty red bearded face appearing over the garden gate and a man's voice. Good day, boss. Give us a chew of tobacco. I'm not the boss, said Uncle with assumed fierceness. Then who is? inquired the man. Uncle pointed his thumb at me and rolling out on the floor again as though very sleepy began to snore. The tramp grinned and made his request of me. I took him round to the back, served him with flour, beef, and an inch or two of ranked tobacco out of a keg which had been bought for the purpose. Refusing a drink of milk which I offered, he resumed his endless tramp with a, so long, little missy, God bless your pleasant face. I watched him out of sight. One of my brothers, one of God's children under the southern cross, did these old fellows really believe in the God whose name they mentioned so glibly? I wondered. But I am thankful that while at Cadagat it was only rarely that my old top-heavy thoughts troubled me. Life was so pleasant that I was content merely to be young. A chit in the first flush of teens, health, hope, happiness, youth. A heedless creature wrecking not for the morrow. End of Chapter 14. Recording by Leanne Howlett. Chapter 15. When the heart is young. About a week or so after I first met Harold Beecham, Aunt Ivy Helen allowed me to read a letter she had received from the elder of the two, Mrs Beecham. It ran as follows. My dearest Helen, this is a begging letter, and I am writing another to your mother at the same time. I am asking her to allow her granddaughter to spend a few weeks with me, and I want you to use your influence in the matter. Sarah has not been well lately, and is going to Melbourne for a change. And as I will be lonely while she is away, Harold insists upon me having someone to keep me company. You know how considerate the dear boy is. I hardly like to ask you to spare your little girl to me. It must be a great comfort to have her. I could have got Miss Benson to stay with me, but Harold will not hear of her. He says she is too slow, and would give us both the mopes. But he says your little niece will keep us all alive. Julius was telling me the other day that he could not part with her. As she makes the old barracks, as he always calls Categet, echo with fun and noise. I am so looking forward to seeing her as she is dear Lucy's child. Give her my love, etc, etc. And as a post-cript, the letter had. Harold will go up for Sibylla on Wednesday afternoon. I do hope you will be able to spare her to me for a while. Oh Aunty, how lovely I exclaimed. What are you laughing at? For whom do you think Harry wants the companion? It is nice to have an old Aunty, as a blind, is it not? Well, all is fair in love and war. You have permission to use me in any way you like. I pretended to miss her meaning. Granny consented to Miss Beecham's proposal. An early day arrived. I had a trunk packed with some lovely new dresses. And was looking forward with great glee to my visit to five Bob Downs. One o'clock on Wednesday afternoon arrived. Two o'clock struck. And I was beginning to fear no one was coming for me. When turning to look out the window for the 18th time, I saw the straight blunt nose of Harold Beecham passing. Granny was serving afternoon tea on the veranda. I did not want any, so got ready while my escort was having his. It was rather late when we bowled away at a tremendous pace in a red sulky. My portman too strapped on at the back. And a thoroughbred American trotter which had taken prizes at Sydney shows harnessed to the front. We just whizzed. It was splendid. The stones and dust rose in a thick cloud from the whirling wheels and flying hooves. And the posts of the wire fence on our left passed like magic as we went. Mr. Beecham allowed me to drive after a time while he sat ready to take the reins should an emergency arise. It was sunset most majestic hour of the 24 when we drove up to the great white gates which opened into the avenue leading to the main homestead of Five Bob Downs station. Beautiful far reaching Five Bob Downs. Greeny blue hills rose behind and white rich flats stretched before through which the Yarangang River glows with sunset could be seen like a silver snake winding between shrubberied banks. The odor of the six-acid flower garden was overpowering and delightful. A breeze gently swayed the crowded trees amid the houses and swept over the great orchard which sloped down from the south side of the houses. In the fading sunlight thirty iron roofs gleamed and glared and seemed like a little town and the yelp of many dogs went up at the sound of our wheels. Ah beautiful, beautiful Five Bob Downs. It seemed as though a hundred dogs leapt forth to Gretis when the gate flew open but I subsequently discovered there were but twenty three. Two female figures came out to meet us one nearly six feet high the other a tiny creature seemed about eighteen inches though of course was more than that. I brought her Aunt Gussie said Harold jumping out of the sulky though not relinquishing the reins while he kissed the taller figure and the small one attached itself to his leg saying dimmy wide hello possum why wasn't old spanker let go I see he's not among the dogs and my host picked the tiny individual up in his arms and got into the sulky to give her the desired ride while after being embraced by Miss Beecham and lifted to the ground by her nephew I went with the former over an asphalted tennis court through the wide garden then across a broad veranda into the great spreading one storied house from which gleamed many lights I am so glad you have come my dear I must have a good look at you when we get into the light I hope you are like your mother this prospect discomforted me I knew she would find a very ugly girl with not the least resemblance to a pretty mother and I cursed my appearance under my breath your name is Sibylla Miss Beecham continued Sibylla Penelope your mother used to be very dear to me but I don't know why she doesn't write to me now I have never seen her since her marriage it seems strange to think of her as the mother of eight five boys and three girls is it not Miss Beecham had piloted me through a wide hall and along an extended passage out of which a row of bedrooms opened into one of which we went I hope you will be comfortable here child you need not dress for dinner while you are here we never do only on very special occasions neither do we at Categette I replied now child let me have a good look at you without your hat oh please don't I exclaimed covering my face with my hands I am so dreadfully ugly that I cannot bear to have anyone look at me what a silly little girl you are not like your mother that you are not at all plain looking Harold says you are the best style of girl he has seen yet and sing beautifully he got a tuner up from Sydney last week so we will expect you to entertain us every night I learnt that what Harold pronounced good no one dared going say at five bump downs we proceeded direct to the dining room and had not been there long when Mr Beecham entered with the little girl on his shoulder Miss Beecham had told me she was Minnie Benson daughter of Harold's married overseer on Wyam Beat he's a joining station Miss Beecham considered it would have been more seemingly for her nephew to have selected a little boy as a plain thing but his sentiments regarding boys were that they were machines invented for the torment of adults well oh Dulan what sort of a day has it been Harold inquired setting his human toy upon the floor fine ways of her and Dutz she promptly replied Harold it is shameful to teach a little innocent child such abominable slang and you might give her a decent nickname said Miss Beecham oh Dulan this is Miss Melbourne and you have to do the same to her as you do to me the little thing held out her arms to me I took her up and she hugged and kissed me saying I love you I love you and turning to Mr Beecham sad enough yes that will do he said and she struggled to be put down three jacaruzes an overseer and two other young men came in were introduced to me and then we began dinner oh Dulan sat on a high chair beside Mr Beecham and he attended to all her wants she did everything he did even taken mustard and was very brave at quilling the tears that rose to the doll like blue eyes when Mr Beecham wiped his mustache it was amusing to see her also wipe an imaginary one after dinner the jacaruzes and the three other men repaired to a sitting room in the backyard which was specially set apart for them and where they amused themselves as they liked my host and hostess myself and the child spent the evening in a tiny sitting room adjoining the dining room Miss Beecham entertained me with conversation and the family albums and Harold amused himself entirely with the child once when they were absent for a few minutes Miss Beecham told me it was ridiculous the way he fussed with the child and that he had her with him more than half his time she also asked me what I thought of her nephew I evaded the question by queering if he was always so quiet and good tempered oh dear no he is considered a particularly bad tempered man not one of the snarling nasty tempers but here the re-entry of the owner of the temper put a stop to this conversation Harold gave Odulan rides on his back going on all fours she shouted in childish glee and wound up by curling her small proportions on his broad chest and going to sleep there Mrs Benson had sent the little Odulan and Harold took her home next day he invited me to accompany him so we set out in the sulky with Odulan on my lap it was the pleasant drive of 12 miles to and from Wyam beat Odulan was much distressed at parting from Mr Beecham but he promised to come for her again shortly one little girl at a time is enough for me to care for properly he said to me in the winning manner with which and his wealth unintentionally and unconsciously modes slaughter among the hearts of the fair sex end of chapter 15