 Testing testing one two three. Okay. This is gonna be a one-take Wednesday for you today I don't have much to say other than this. I feel FOMO recently like a lot of FOMO I don't know how it happened. I was very content just doing what I normally do But I don't know if you know but I live in Winnipeg and in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada There's been a lockdown like we're in Code Red right now. So there's basically like a Desire from the government for you to stay in your home all the time like not to do anything Don't shop. Don't do don't do you don't go out anywhere That's how kind of how bad it is or how bad they say it is all that So basically my life is like Really one component right now. It's like work. I'm like working on stuff doing daily disciple stuff for shooting editing Creating reading all that stuff working on some like strategy and other life stuff and then other than that it's like okay hanging out with my family and That's pretty much it watching TV. It's not a good life balance at this point And I feel like I'm watching like just an example here. I gave I was like, hey, what are you on Instagram? I was like, hey, what are you excited about coming up in the future? And there are tons of people like you guys just went all out and you're sharing it Oh, man I got this coming up and this coming up and you know going out With my friends this place in this place in this place or whatever We're doing this with my family or friends and it just got me feeling left out of me feeling like I was like I'm missing out on all this stuff and this is not new for me Honestly, like the lockdown kind of amplified it But I've always felt that way like when I was in university I felt like I was missing out on what was outside of university and when I was outside of university Like now I'm like, oh man like that seems like I'm missing out on that So it's like you never get to a place where where you're like content really Or at least I haven't right, but it's like what does that say about me? What does that say about my heart position before God? I think it says that I'm I'm looking for something apart from God to satisfy me to bring me joy to bring me Purpose and and and and all that stuff. I'm looking for For exterior things to bring that to me because look Like I think it's a good desire to want to be with friends or to have cool experiences or to go cool places Like that's awesome, right? But God has called you to what? Like what you're doing now like what you're doing now is your mission like that is what your what your objective is right and and when we're constantly um Preoccupied with what we're not doing with where we're not going with what we're not saying or what we're not creating About oh what we're not accomplishing like when we're constantly consumed with with what whatever else is going on out there Then we never truly dedicate the time and the energy and the effort necessary to fulfill what God has called us to hear And so that's what i'm that's what i'm thinking about because i'm thinking okay Even in conversations with people recently was so weird Even in conversations with people I find myself getting spaced out thinking like oh, you know, I got to be Accomplishing this thing or I got to be doing this thing or I had this idea Let me flesh that out and I think it's just this overall posture like I got to Make it accomplish something make something of myself And and and so it's just kind of all this focused energy to finding out what that thing is that's going to bring me to that point of satisfaction and fulfillment But in turn what i'm actually doing is is Is looking over and and for forgetting about the things that are actually important like those relationships like those You know whatever those zoom calls with people like those Interactions like whatever God has called me to now like focusing in on that thing and being thankful that i'm able to do that and not being so anxious or Or have so much tension about what i'm not doing or fear of what i'm not doing or what i'm missing out on Because if we truly believe that God is sovereign over our sick or circumstance if we truly believe that God is with us Even in the mundane stuff of life Then we have to believe that that he That that's what he wants us in like he's in that right God is in those those things that may seem insignificant to us or may not seem like the the thing that we want to be doing Most right now like I just had this thought like I want to change the world like honestly I want to change the world and that may that might sound naive to you And you're like oh this idiotic or or he's such a kid or whatever but to me Like that's that when I think deep Within my soul. I'm like that's what I want to do but I just got to find out how to do it I just got to be able to impact enough people to make something happen to make something of myself But but that's all coming from me. That's not coming from like Like all that all that whatever um That's me trying to do it on my own is what I'm trying to say That's me trying to accomplish or figure out life or or help the world on my own In those moments. I'm not looking to God in what in his strength And so that's that's where the shift is happening when I get so preoccupied or fear of missing out or all that It's all Because I'm thinking about my own strength. I'm thinking about my own intellect I'm thinking about my own ability to to do something in this world or to accomplish something or to make something of my life But when I can look to christ and see he is sovereign over my circumstances He cares for me. He loves me. He is guiding me Then I can be Then I can establish some sense of rest Because I don't need to be constantly preoccupied with how to make that next step or how to you know You know do that next project or whatever that next thing is is that that I feel like is gonna Gonna get me somewhere No, I I can take that that conversation and pour all my focus and effort and and And heart into that conversation. That's meaningful And I can focus on what I'm doing right now on making this video and that's meaningful and Because God's in that Because that's what he's called me to right now And I don't need to be so stressed or anxious or fearful that there's something else out there that I should be doing right now because obviously God's led me to the point where this is what I'm doing so I'm gonna be content that I have this ability to do this I'm also gonna be excited and just Anticipatory if that's the right word of what God will lead me to In a couple minutes from now And um, and I don't need to be fearful. I don't need to let social media or I don't need to let You know, whatever else is going on the world whether it's you know more opened up and people are able to do fun things that I'd like to do Like that's okay because God's in control And and I want to trust him. I want to believe him in that Um, I think that's all I have to say. I think that's I just I wasn't sure if I was gonna put out a video today I just decided let's let's talk and I just want to let you guys know Thank you so much Honestly for joining patreon. There's 25 patrons right now. That means we're halfway to the goal of 50 patrons The goal is to get there by the end of the year. So that means we need 25 more patrons it's five bucks a month and uh, man it like honestly I can't explain to you how exciting it's been to see those of you who have already joined joined Because that just motivates me more to step into God's calling for my life It's kind of like answered prayers basically that i'm praying to God like Please God like provide for me in this way and God is faithful to rise up people that that are supporting So thank you for that. 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