 Take one. I'm C.T. Erwin Bonnie McCammond. I'm originally from Scotts Valley, California, although I claim my hometown is Dixon, California. I joined the Navy when I was 17 while I was still a senior in high school. I originally was looking at it because after I did my ASFAB I got contacted by the NROTC folks and they were offering scholarships and I did my scholarship package, barely missed getting picked up and decided I was going to enlist and go that route and try again. And once I was in and enlisted I fell in love with it. I was out of the area, I was at a friend's house. We were having a celebration party, he was moving into a new house and it was a bunch of people I knew, it was a bunch of service members, a bunch of friends, you know these were all people, you're really friendly, you're trusting, you know everybody's having a great time and it seemed like it was a night like everything else until I drank, I ended up crashing out on a couch, I woke up, god I don't know, midnight, two o'clock in the morning, everybody was asleep. One of the other attendees from the party, another Navy person, was on top of me and was assaulting me and I remember just completely freezing. I was still, I will say, I was still intoxicated the other time, I was not fully conscious for all of what happened, it's like he was there, he was telling me, you know, like, oh you're really pretty, oh you should really like this, oh, you know, the things that I'm going to do to you the next time we get together and like in my brain I was just like what, I don't even get off of me and then he was done and then he crawled back over to the couch, he was sleeping on, went back to sleep and I just, all I wanted to do was be gone and ran up to my friend's room, locked myself in there for the night, you know, the next morning I'm trying to be really calm and get myself out of there as little drama as possible because I was freaked, like I had been a then savvy advocate for a while, you know, this is something I'm supposed to be able to handle in the moment, I couldn't handle it at all, you know, I didn't know what to do, I didn't want anybody to know, I wanted to go home, take a shower, bathe in bleach and just not have had any of it happen and I remember that morning, I was getting ready to leave and getting out of there as quickly as possible and he grabs me and he goes, hey, you know, can I get your number, I'd really like to see you again, sometime I really had fun last night, I was like, are you kidding me? You're joking, right? And then in that moment it's like you think this is okay, you think someone who is asleep anywhere, you know, whether intoxicated or not, it's like you didn't think there was a problem with this and I completely broke down, I couldn't tell anybody, I didn't tell the guy that I was seeing, I didn't tell my best friend, it was a year and a half before I would talk about it to anybody because, you know, it's like all the training in the world flew out the window because I was so violated, I fell apart and I don't have a right, sometimes I feel, to tell other people, you know, this is something that you need to bring forward if I'm not willing to tell my story. What I found as I started telling my story is that, you know, I expected to have some reaction from it. What I didn't expect is for in one week for three males that I had been stationed with to all come forward and say, you're so strong for telling this, I've never told anybody, some of them it had been years since their assault happened, never told anybody, but I want to tell you because you understand it. It was hard, you know, I went through a lot of these things, it's like, though what could I have done differently, you know, maybe I shouldn't have drank so much, maybe, you know, something, anything, like everything that people tell someone who has been raped that, oh, you know, shouldn't have worn that, you shouldn't have been drinking so much, you should have gone with a buddy, all these other things, but at the end of the day, it wasn't my fault. There wasn't anything I could have done that changed that this person, that this other sailor, decided that it was okay to violate me as I'm passed out on a couch. We have to challenge that every single day and say, no, that's not okay, that's not what we're gonna do here, you know, I'm not gonna let you take her home, she's drunk, you know, I'm not going to take you home, you're drunk. Personal change affects other people and once we speak out to other people, they speak to more people and we'll see it change at the fundamental level.