 If you can hear why I'm noisy flatmates, I'm sorry, there will be a video coming up soon regarding this drama. The underground's going past. Thank you for stopping going past underground. I'm just doing a little intro clip to this, even though you can see I technically did an intro to this video when we filmed it. The video itself is about eating disorders on that lovely subject. I decided to dedicate this like recovery vlog thing to eating in public. I filmed a mini clip the other day when I was on the underground and I was eating, which one? That's a thing that I did. I'm proud of myself. Eating in public, I don't like. I don't like eating in public. So the clip I'm about to play for you when I click my fingers is... I don't want to clip my fingers then, I'm not gonna play it now. The clip you're gonna see is from when I was on the underground eating a cheese on the impasse thing, because it's a big deal for me. It's a big thing. Big fucking thing. I also know you may not have just been shaking loads of yogurts, but that's not the point. We don't talk about that. That's another thing. That's another video. So this week's been okay since this whole little storytime happened and I just wanted to add this clip in here to say that things are okay, I'm still alive, everything's good. The Renny's got some storytimes coming out at some point within the next year. I don't know when. I'm gonna play you a little clip now. This is my vlog thing. Yeah. Are you here to play? It's alright. All that clip is, like I just said, me eating on the underground. Not a big deal for some of you, for me it's a big fucking deal. It means a lot, you know? I don't go in the kitchen when people are in there to cook because my flatmates are drunk. But that's a whole other video. If you have any questions about that, I'll still leave them down below because I'd love to answer. Also, while we're talking about this channel, if you're new here, hit the gold thumbs button. Give me a little subscribe and maybe turn the little notification bell while you're at it. So the next clip you're about to watch is the video that means the Renny film, talking like the storytime. How my family triggered me. Morning. My family triggered me. Shock. I know. Who would it guess? I'm not happy bunny about it. Actually, I don't want any hits first. I hate this top, it's too big and it's a small one. Torch on your phone, I can use. It's not very good. It's better than nothing. Yeah, I'm gonna blind you and I don't care. Hey, that's what the guy is. I've been filming for three solid minutes and I haven't said a word to you guys. So what's going on? I hope you're doing amazing. I've been speaking. They, we are doing a storytime. This story is not going to be fun to tell. I'm so sure I've been at my family's the entire weekend. Today, I was talking about some experiences I've had this weekend. Any regarding food. So this is eating a sort of recovery vlog storytime thing. It's episode four in the recovery series, but also storytime. Two birds one stone. Hey, I'm not gonna go and stone any birds. That'll be kind of legal and wrong. This weekend, there's been a lot of issues regarding food. Yes. As you guys know, I've been struggling a lot with binge eating and not eating and milkshakes. I haven't been able to have any milkshakes while I've been here because one, I couldn't carry them down here and two, my family are very, very judgmental when it comes to food. occasion from notice that this weekend. So we'll start with, for me, I'm going to start with, we'll start with Saturday, actually. Then on Saturday, we went to my mom. Then I had my medication in the morning. So I was a bit feeling like throwing up because that's what my medication does. It makes you feel sick and look up when the vaccine, like one of the first side effects that comes up. And they was really fully with me over it. Yeah. And then today has just been ridiculous. Yeah. How many times can we trigger Lydia? I don't want to point to say another thing actually. My mom gave me a birthday gift early, which didn't get me wrong. I'm very grateful for them all. She wore me some clothes. I always specify like eight, six or four. My jeans are four to six and my t-shirts are small slash extra small. She got me a 10 to 12 in the jumper. The skirts are 10. I don't even know what the other jumper is. I don't even check them. I don't want to. And she knows I struggle with all this. Like she's known, like, but he ended up in hospital because of it. She knows. So the fact that I don't know why that really like, you was down. I opened it and you, when you heard when she said it to me, what was you thinking? I was like, no, four, four, six is sort of crappy. These are all six. And jeans are six. I know your clothes sizes and stuff. But it's like, she does as well. I said that links to the item. And the size next to them. Yeah. And if you sent them a link for Amazon stuff. It wasn't Amazon. It was all on that e-sauce. But even that should turn around and do what Amazon does. I also said it as a size as well. That irritated me a lot. Then when we was in, we went to Frankie and Benny's as well, didn't we? The gym market, not so much, she kind of gave up after a bit. Though every 10 seconds, she was like, oh, do you want some interweave? Yeah. She can't see you as well. Interweave, interweave, interweave, interweave, interweave, interweave, interweave. And the answer was no. And when I did, you saw how annoyed I got with it all. So I just said, yeah. Then, oh, crap. My hand walked into place. Yeah. Half of them on the floor. I ate, like, what, five or six of them? Yeah. And I gave the rest to my sister. I was to trigger some. I'm down to make it even better. She took us through a meal. Yeah. But that we knew anyway was... I knew it was coming, but I didn't expect it to be Frankie and Benny's. Yeah. Because she knows I don't like it. But there's not many clips from in there. When you film a bit, you have to clip. Yeah. That's the only one I put in. I don't like it in there. So they have the calorie content next to the items on the menu. I didn't even eat much there either. But today has been the worst. So the rundown of today is, apparently you defended me. Yeah. I defended me. And I ended up pulling up my medication side effects on Google. Because I turned around and said, you eat much better than... You eat much better. Are you better than I used to? You eat much better than you used to. And my favorites just met me, yeah. And you eat more than what you used to as well. Yeah, a lot more than I used to. That's why the dress doesn't fit. If you're interested in that video, I already did a link in the description down below. And at the end of this video, I will be letting you probably won't remember to change it, but you get the idea. The rundown of what really went on, because we was talking about... What was we even talking about? I was talking about... Oh, no, no. I know what I was talking about. I was talking about the binge eating. Yeah. And she was like, oh, you just need to... You need to try and eat more than... Yeah. Me. I do. And I don't feel like throwing up. I was like, what's the option? I have something to eat and throw up. Or I have a milkshake that has the same in, then don't throw up. Obviously, I'd rather eat the food and not throw up, but that's not an option. So... As in, like, when I have my medicine, I feel sick. Yeah. So why did it have the answer to press until a just? Like, because obviously you'll pass history with ED. Yeah. And by the way, she was aware of that, because I lived a different life doing that. Yeah, that's what I'm... That's what I'm meaning is, like, I wouldn't have brought up any more. She probably went after me for it, though, I think. When I was like, oh, well, I asked, oh, yeah, because I'd rather not go into McDonald's with an egg as well. Mm. Like, what? I was wondering, I was like, what, 4M? What do you want me to do to go and cook a full meal? Not even going to say that one. With flatmates that get high and don't like me. I was just, that's what I'm about to say. And now I'm about using what it's like today. I've been a bit like... Yeah. Alright, I'll turn it around and try to fend for the best of food. Do you like... Yeah, I try to fend for the best of food. Yeah, I try to fend for the best of food. Yeah, I try to fend for the best of food. I didn't want to eat a large portion of chips. Um, but she's usually here when I'm sitting outside like, you're just like, I don't eat much. You've got so many to eat in this weekend. I'm trying to fend for you once in a while. I try to. She didn't go after me, though. She didn't go after me. So, um, tomorrow, I'm going back to milkshakes. Don't need, don't need, don't need another Chris baby at the moment. I'm not even going to buy them. I'm going to binge eat them. Done. Quit. I quit. I'm out. Peace. I've got very good looking stuff in the description actually, so I probably will actually do that. Also, in the book that is coming out at the end of the year, there's a whole, like two chapters talking about my story and everything and all that juicy gossip and what caused like the whole relapsey trigger stuff thing. I'm going to let this thing get asleep and then I'm going to film another video because I need someone to edit on the training. Yeah. So, if you're new here, hit the subscribe button. I'm not going to say the last part because it's the run-in voucher. If you enjoyed this video, leave a like. Make sure you leave a comment down below with any requests or Q&A questions you may have to the notifications on. Stop trying to look for miles. It's kind of blinding me. That's why I'm like that. Ah. So I'm going to be doing more story time videos. I'm also doing video every day in December at the moment. I'm kind of doing a few videos a day at the moment. I'm sticking to my normal like uploads as well, as well as doing like vlogs every day. Just because my vlogs are not the most interesting, I do not have an exciting life, especially in Tertlford. I'm going to be doing many of my YouTube videos and it's going to be returning very soon. Leave me down and be fair, you would. I'll film you while you're asleep and you can upload that. Please sign. Sleep with me. Hashtag sleep with me. No, no, no. You can not get what I'm doing. Is that drive with me? I'm trying to be funny and I'm not. That is more I thought that was going. Do you have anything I'm going to put it fucking for a knob? Anyway, with that in mind, I will catch you guys in a new video single day. I still don't like that I'm uploading every day, but hey, here we are. It's 2018 and not much longer. Thank fuck. It's been a horrible year. I think I've promote everything I can. I was going to say she's had to put up with this thing more. Oh, follow me on my social media. I thought to say that in the last video. Follow me on my social media. I have Instagram and I have Twitter. I don't really use Snapchat, but if you want to follow me on Snapchat, I don't have it on my go on. Tiktok. That's the app Sir, you know why I pulled you over? No, I don't. My friend, you were speeding. So now I have to give you a ticket, but you were speeding too because you caught up to me. So now I have to give you a ticket. I do a lot of stupid shit on that, and I do it pretty much every day. It's quite entertaining and I have a lot of fun doing it. And I'm also trying to get more followers and viewers than Savannah does, so it would mean a lot if you could go and check me out on that. Yes, I do it for the end of this video. Like I said, if you're new here, hit the subscribe button. I'm not loading every day at the moment. I upload every day pretty much from all the time anyway. Thank you for watching and I'll catch you guys soon. I might be 21 when this video comes out. Who knows? I'm only 20 for another two days. Let's hit you in the hand. I don't have anything to hit you with other than Savannah is not enjoying. What could I do that?