 Hey, you stay tuned to the end of this video to find who won the book giveaways I was gonna film outside, but it seems a little bit windy. Don't spill the tea. Definitely spilled it Oh, well, let's just set you on the coffee maker there. That looks stable You guys um I got recast it for a new prosthetic leg. Oh my god. I might actually be able to walk again I think for a while there was feeling like I would literally never walk without crutches ever again in my life But now I feel like I can kind of see the light Also yet again because I said this in the other video where I went to the prosthetics office I did not think this would happen so soon. I didn't think it would happen so soon I went up to Denver on Monday and met with a new prosthetist who I it's just lovely He's just a lovely human Zach. You're delightful and I'm really glad you're my prosthetist Glenn. All right, too So I went up there really hesitant if you followed kind of this whole journey You know that I got a little a little scared for a while there It's not gonna lie. I still am a little bit, but I just felt like there was so much contradicting information with my leg being too long My leg not being too long like this was the right prosthetic This was the wrong prosthetic like there was a lot of back and forth from from different sorts of people My leg is not too long. This is a third prosthetist that agrees. It is okay But when I went up there, I was definitely feeling kind of reserved like let's just talk today Let's not actually do anything But as we got kind of further into it It became clear that we really could go ahead and cast it and so we did so here is Monday I'm just gonna I'm just gonna roll footage I Too much camera shake. I know I'm head up to Denver all by myself answering the question that some of you had Yes, I can drive. I just don't drive for a few weeks after surgery Because of the meds I'm on because of how anesthesia affects me and because I'm just not super comfortable doing it But I'm good now I'm head to Denver to meet with my new prosthetics guy and to get that process started I'm actually sure what we'll do today because I'm still a little too close to surgery To like do the recasting but we're gonna get started. I'm gonna talk to him Ask some hard questions and kind of go from there. So you me and well, Christopher walk in Are gonna take a field trip. I just get a tall vanilla latte and some water So I am like 20 minutes late because I couldn't find parking and now I'm supposed to walk in In that door in like the basement of a creepy parking garage. We'll see if I survive My leg fell apart at the parking lot. This looks normal. Totally totally normal. I have no idea what I'm doing I'm getting a quick side note. So if you saw the other video I'll pop it up here on the screen of my other prosthetics casting day. It was really different So they used like this giant balloon the first time and did all different kinds of stuff But this time they just like wrapped it up in in plaster and saran wrap and different stuff So it was really interesting. I didn't realize that there were Different ways to get casting done I'm not sure how but I managed to find my car This parking garage is like like it might be an alternate universe. Well, I got recast it for a new prosthetic apprehensively excited Would be the best way to describe what I'm feeling. I hope that it works I hope I can walk soon and I will work as hard as I can safely to do so I talked to my new prosthetist about going back to jiu-jitsu and um, you know, it's been six months now and He thinks that it might be as tolerated Like I might be able to start drilling and going back to some classes. It'll be a while before I can actually Before like sensation wise I'll be okay to do so And I want to take things as slowly as slowly and safely as possible because I can't I don't want to have Anything else happen. I don't just don't want to have anything else happen But oh my god, if I could roll again, which is what going live in jiu-jitsu was called if I could that I feel like I would just so feel like myself again It's always been a point where I actually feel like myself like on the mats Everything else disappears like all the anxiety all the just crap in my head Melts away for a little while, you know And there's not been a lot of moments in the last couple months where I've been able to just sit And feel like myself but on the mats I do I know it'll be an adjustment going back because I'll be missing a leg now And so how I do jiu-jitsu will be very different, but oh my god I can't wait to figure that out I can't wait to learn and I'll have to make a decision about when I go back because I want to take it really carefully But I could actually be going back Sometime soon moving forward next week. I will be coming in to get the check socket done So they took the measurements today. They casted it and then next week I will be able to come in and kind of test out what they have built It's kind of like this big plastic looking leg It's what I had the first time as well, but we're going to take a little slower Have a few more check sockets first before moving on to any kind of final leg I really want to take this process slowly. I've said slowly a lot. I'm a little gun shy of everything I'm ready to work, but I don't want to mess anything up if that makes sense slow and steady and Next week it begins jiu-jitsu is like air to me I'm not one of those people who's like obsessed with it every second of the day when I'm not on the mats But when I'm on the mats it is who I am I love it. I actually used to compete in it years ago very briefly. I won a medal It was a bronze medal in like the beginners division at state But whatever it's still a medal the idea that I could actually get back to it Sometime soon makes me want to like sob and simultaneously like robs me of all emotion I don't want to let myself get excited about it if that makes sense So I'm not trying to set any time frames or deadlines. I want to take everything really slowly My leg still hurts just post surgery to touch and in jiu-jitsu There's a lot of pressure put on basically every part of your body all the time So if I did go back, I'd probably just go back and like drill lightly with people And I'll stop talking about this the details because it's probably not interesting to anyone who doesn't do jiu-jitsu But just know that I am really really excited and really hopeful And I will absolutely bring you guys along because that's like I feel like I've been able to introduce you guys To different sides of me throughout this journey But I cannot wait I cannot wait to introduce you to like active joe Because I love doing stuff like I love rock climbing and I love jiu-jitsu I love horseback riding and I love being outside and I love hiking and walking my dogs is like My favorite thing in the entire world almost love dancing suck at it Just terrible at it But I love dancing and god I cannot wait for you guys to be a part of it because you guys have been a part of Like so much of this so I'm gonna stop gushing now. So next week I'm going up to get fitted for like the the check socket, which is basically a test leg Internally, I'm like in a rush to walk But it's really important to me that things are done right and that we don't have any more problems come up If it can be avoided so slow and steady wins the race like we were all taught in elementary school And yeah, maybe I'll be standing in a leg next week. We'll see to be determined I also got new shrinkers and liners which was exciting because my leg has gotten so much smaller again That is great news because it means that things are going to fit better for longer Like it's not going to shrink so fast good news all around also side note That parking garage was like the death of me. It took me 20 minutes to like find a parking spot and like I might die down here another like 10 to get out of it and then like 15 to find my car If you see this video, it means I've made it out of this parking garage Maybe I'm just efficient when it comes to parking in parking garages If anyone has ever parked in the underground garage at st. Francis panther's hospital in denver tell me I'm not alone It's confusing moving on now. Anyways, I will talk to you guys in the next video I love you. I'm thinking about you and I'll see you soon. Wait, wait, wait before I roll that credit music Let's go into who won the book giveaway So a couple days ago I released a video talking about the sacra family and the opioid crisis and prudu pharma and you guys were awesome to Let me kind of branch out and do a different kind of video and their response was was really awesome So I appreciate that and as part of that video I wanted to do a book of a way of two super influential books on my life The first one was american pain and the second one was chasing the screen So, uh, there are two winners because there are two books did a random picking and our winners are Drum roll, please the first winner for american pain is annalisa morales and Sue Harris won chasing the screen like I said before either of those books are just fantastic I would recommend them to anyone. They're a really good read Like they tell a really good story and also a really important one So I'll put links to the description down below if you're interested in checking them out Thanks for sticking around. Thank you for everyone who entered the giveaway and who commented on that video I really appreciate it guys. Bye