 Hello welcome back to another vlog. It's currently Saturday I have spent the morning doing some laundry. I just finished editing a video. Just trying to Stay busy and be productive because I don't know the last couple of days I don't mean to like start this vlog off like as a total downer or like be negative or anything, but I've just felt kind of emotional and a lot of things have been on my mind and I've been kind of sad and just Lonely I guess and just now I started tearing up a little bit and I was like Let me pull out the camera because A. I know that will make me stop crying and B. I wanted to just share this and be vulnerable because I've been sharing this whole journey Moving away. If you're new here, I moved from Pennsylvania to North Carolina by myself I went through a breakup right before moving here That's kind of what like prompted me to finally just like make this decision now After wanting to do it for so long and I don't have any family or friends here And the whole experience has been so amazing so far and I've felt really good for the most part And I'm so happy to be here. I love my new town But I feel like I'd be doing a disservice and not being fully transparent if I didn't share these moments as well Because yes, everything has been great But I think I finally it's actually today. Whoops. What's today's date? Yeah, it's the eighth today is officially one full month since I moved in So it makes sense if you're wondering what that noise is by the way Then he's chewing on his bone. Anyway. Oh, it's not often that I cry. You're kind of emotional in general But especially not on the internet. So, oh My mom's calling me. Okay. Well, I'm gonna go talk to her and make something to eat and I'll talk to you guys later. Good morning This is a super flattering angle. I'm sure I'm feeling a lot better today Compared to yesterday. I just feel like anytime you're making a big change in your life like You're going to have a range of emotions, you know Like it's going to be really exciting and you're gonna have a lot of positive feelings But then there's also gonna be a little bit of negative that creeps in every now and then and that's just part of being human I'm sure that like the sadness and homesickness and all that is Gonna come back again at some point and you know, it'll it'll all be in waves But I mean for the most part Everything has been very positive and the good feelings have definitely outweighed the negative. Yeah I mean just know that I'm human and even though this is an exciting time in my life I still feel sad sometimes, but I'm just getting ready really quick Running behind a little bit. I'm actually meeting up with somebody That follows me on Instagram. She's a fellow hairstylist from North Carolina I love that social media has allowed me to connect with people that I otherwise Would have never known, you know, so yeah, I'm meeting up with her and her boyfriend for brunch Okay, here is my outfit. I just threw together real quick. I'm wearing these dad jeans from Abercrombie Little crop top from Urban Outfitters and this cardigan, which is super super old and I can't remember the brand But I doubt it's even available anymore. Anyway, because it's so old bag from Target and These shoes are from Aldo and I think for my perfume I'm going to Think I'll do this one Floral berries from dossier dossier is sponsoring this portion of the vlog. So thank you so much to them I've been working with them for Little over a year now. I love them I mean as you can see I have so many perfumes from them and I've purchased from them several times on my own With my own money what I'm not working with them just goes to show like how much I actually genuinely love this brand they have replicas of tons of Name brand designer fragrances for a fraction of the cost the perfumes on dossier start at $29 Which is crazy when you're comparing it to perfumes that are like a hundred dollars plus They smell exactly the same. They're just as high quality They last on me for a very very long time and I'm a big fragrance person I have to wear perfume every single time I leave the house even if I'm not leaving the house I like to spray it on myself because I just like to smell good And I like to change up my scent every now and then and just try something new But when you're buying the name brand, it's so expensive and I'm not trying to spend hundreds and hundreds of dollars Just on my perfume. So I love that I can go on dossier get myself a variety of different scents without having to break The bank and they also have a really great return policy So honestly I'll order perfumes on there that I've never even smelled in person before and I know that if I end up Not liking it or it just doesn't really smell good on me. I can return it for a full refund No questions asked or exchange it for a different scent So I will have a link and a discount code to dossier in my description Go ahead and check it out. If there's a certain perfume that you absolutely love go and see if they have it on dossier So you can get it for a cheaper price the one that I am gonna be wearing today is floral berries This one is inspired by a Joe Malone fragrance This is one of the ones that I've never smelled in person before so it was a little bit of a gamble, but oh my god It smells so Good, it's like a little bit sweet and a little bit florally, but like very fresh So thank you so much dossier for sponsoring this portion of the video now. Let's head out to brunch Just got back from brunch it was so good. We went to a place called brunch is so now I just did a quick outfit change because I'm about to take Benny to the park You excited Benny you excited to go to the park You can go play so I'm gonna let him play in the dog park for a little while and then just walk around and enjoy the nice weather It's been kind of cold here this past week But today it's sunny and in the low 70s and it's so beautiful So I want to take advantage of that and literally just be outside the whole rest of the day So change into some more comfy park appropriate clothes pants from Adidas Adidas sneakers same crop top and denim jacket from misguided It's a few hours later. The park was great The weather's so nice outside and now I've been sitting here jotting down some stuff in my notebook Journal whatever you want to call it. So one of the many things I learned from going to therapy is that I should really sit and Jot down a list of what I'm looking for in a partner Things that I know are absolute wants like non-negotiables like you must have these qualities Things that are like would be nice, you know, ideally I'd like these qualities But if you don't have them then that's fine too Like it's not necessarily a deal breaker and then things that are like absolute deal breakers Like if you have these things, it's an absolute no like I cannot deal with that And I just think that it's interesting like now being down here living alone being single I feel like in the past every time I've been single like I've only been in two serious relationships before and the first one I got into when I was still in high school The second one I got into when I was still in beauty school and I was still living at home with my parents You know, I like I wasn't financially supporting myself I'm still kind of like figuring out my life and my career and everything and I just haven't been in a place where like I really am stable in my life and Know what I want and like was ready for something serious, you know I was just kind of looking to have fun basically and It just ended up turning into a relationship, but it wasn't necessarily something that I went into knowing like oh my god Yes, this person is Is right for me and I think that I will be with this person forever, you know, so anyway, I don't know I like this has just kind of been on my mind recently. I think I've been like just reflecting a lot on like where I'm at in life and past relationships and all of that and I was like, you know, not that I am in a rush by any means to start dating or to get in another relationship But I think it's really important to sit down and be clearheaded Because I think sometimes once you start talking to somebody if you start getting feelings for them or you're like just really attracted to them or whatever Your judgment gets kind of clouded. So I'm like, you know, right now Fully fully single independent me not interested in anyone. Let me sit and like get a nonbiased list So that way I can always look back and reference my list and it can help keep me grounded Because I feel like at least for myself personally in past experiences. I And this honestly this happens with even with clients at the salon too. It's not even just with like Relationships. I'll see red flags But I ignore them Because I just want to give the person the benefit of the doubt and I want to try to be optimistic So I ignore those red flags But then my intuition ends up being right in the end anyway, and then I'm like, you know I knew this all along from the beginning I should have just listened to my gut and not saying that you should only look for somebody that like checks all your boxes but I think it is really important to sit down and reflect and Think like, okay, what things are really really important to me Like what do I really need out of a potential partner? And I think it's nice to have it written down so that if you are like really smitten by somebody you can go and Look at your list. Look what you wrote down and then be like, oh, you know what? There's some red flags here and there's a few dealbreakers that I know Realistically I'm not gonna want to have to put up with so some of my non-negotiables and They're pretty simple like I don't think I'm being too picky here. They need to be employed They need to be driven and hard-working Easygoing a sense of humor Helps out with things like around the house I don't want to feel like I'm being somebody's mom and that I have to be doing everything and taking care of them and all of that You know, like I want to feel like I have a true partner and we can be 50-50 on things like I can do stuff for them They can do stuff for me Etc. I don't want it to feel like the whole relationship is just like one way, you know They have to obviously be loyal trustworthy Honest make me feel loved and appreciated They have to have good hygiene. They have to love animals and we have to have sexual chemistry and smart I like I like intelligence and then my nice to haves like the things that I would ideally like tall Like a tall man likes to travel Has a nice family that I really like and connect with doesn't have kids has never been married has good style Like similar music and movies as me is outgoing and then my deal breakers Absolutely like will not tolerate any unhealthy abusive behaviors So if they like are very jealous if they seem very controlling if they're like constantly Questioning everything that I do and who I'm with and whatever it like that's a no absolute. No If they do drugs if they smoke if they have a short temper if they're too serious and can't take a joke If they're really insecure no small dick energy here. So those are those are a few examples That's not everything that's on my list, but those are just just to give you an idea I don't know. I think it's fun. I like doing stuff like this whether you believe in manifestation or not I do think that when you write something down I don't know that I believe that like the universe will give it to you But I do feel like it triggers something in your mind subconsciously that then you will do things That will help you get to that goal. So I do think that it's really effective to just keep like some kind of journal Just write things like that down Every so often and I don't know just like even just getting your thoughts down onto paper I really want to enter my 30s feeling like the best version of myself and just feeling like the most confident Securing who I am as a person knowing what I want Standing firm in my decisions and just being more decisive like making a decision and then just sticking to that and not second-guessing it being more intentional, I guess to With my life and with who I allow into my life. So yeah, just wanted to share that Hopefully that inspires you in some kind of way Good morning. My hair looks crazy Long time no see. I mean you just saw me like half a second ago But it's been a full week since I recorded the last clip you saw my parents were here this past week Visiting me and you know, I was just trying to be in the moment with them. They just left this morning and Now I am ready to get back to it get back to working Get my life together, but I'm trying to get ready kind of quickly because I have a nail appointment Very soon and I still need to get dressed and I have to take bunny out For a quick walk before I go and then after I get my nails done. I need to go Get a new earring for my conch. So this is called conch orbital Whatever this piercing right here because then he got all excited this morning when my parents were leaving and he jumped up On me and his nail got caught on this earring and it just completely stretched to the hoop out and pulled it Right out of my ear. Luckily it didn't like rip the skin or anything I mean, it's a little bit sore and hurt pretty bad in the moment But the earring is like all messed up now and there's usually like a little ball That hooks it closed and I cannot for life of me find it. I have no idea where it went So this is like barely hanging on for dear life But it's just as well because I have been meaning to replace this because all my other jewelry is gold And this is still the same Surgical steel that I got when I got this pierced years ago. I haven't changed it once since I got this pierced So it's kind of like forced me to do that Here's the before of my nails And here's the after oh Obsessed so beautiful. The name of this was after your beige From opi. It's like a nice sheer cloudy white and the shape that I get I usually ask for Something in between almond and oval now we're gonna go to the piercing shop and Hopefully find something to replace this busted earring Currently in line for the drive-thru at Starbucks This is a great angle by the way. I went and I got my jewelry. I want to Seven I got what was it called studio seven piercing the guy in there was super super nice very helpful He measured my ear for me and everything to make sure that I was getting the right sized jewelry. I decided to just get another Plain hoop similar to what I had but I got gold this time and I did get real gold because I figure I Don't want it to tarnish There we go Yeah So beautiful. I got a little nervous there for a second. So it was kind of tight But it's the perfect fit a little bit pricey, but it's worth it to get good quality, especially a piercing like that I never take it out, but this is what My earring looked like like totally just bent and stretched out and fucked up Hi, could I please do a grande brown sugar oat milk ice shake and espresso? Hi Hello. Hello. It's a few hours later. I Just got out of the shower. I'm getting ready for bed and last week. I have tried out the robe belt Heatless curls that was like super popular a couple years ago during quarantine I ended up loving the way that it came out and I didn't have high expectations at all Which is why I didn't record it when I have first did it but today I knew I needed to wash my hair So I was like, let me do it again tonight and vlog at this time So normally you want to just let your hair air dry a good amount Because you don't want to do this I'm soaking white hair because it's never gonna dry otherwise So you want it to be mostly dry and just have like a little bit of moisture left It's really late now and I am getting so exhausted and I just couldn't wait for it to air dry So I just rough dried it a little bit with my blow dryer. So you just take the belt of your robe take the piece of hair and twist it around the belt and then Grab some more hair Add them together and then twist that around And just keep doing that just keep Grabbing some more hair what I didn't do the first time was pay attention to how many Pieces I grabbed and how many times I was wrapping and one side of my head was Wrapped a little bit tighter than the other side and you could tell a difference in the curls So I'm gonna pay attention this time. So this is three and Then when you get to the end Just twist it around. I forgot to grab a rubber band You're right back. I couldn't find any of my small hair ties So I'm just gonna use scrunchies just something to tie this off. So It doesn't slip out of your hair while you're sleeping By the morning my hair should be 100% dry Then I'll take this out and I will show you The results honestly though I have tried so many different heatless curl Techniques some of them have like kind of worked out But it usually would be hit or miss and then most of the rest were just a total total fail This actually came out super cute And it was really comfortable to sleep because nothing is on the back of my head at all It's like all up around my face and I do sleep on my side sometimes But even still like this is just all so soft and it's not super bulky. I will show you in the morning How it looks nice that came out I'm gonna go get dressed now so we can take Benny for a walk. Oh, yeah, and Benny just threw up So gotta clean that up Just watch the first two episodes of how I met your father so cute how I met your mother is One of my favorite shows of all time So I was really excited when I saw that they were doing this and this is so good because it's like it's not a reboot They're not trying to like redo the show or bring the old characters back And it's just cool because it's like, you know a more modern take because it's taking place in 2022 and they're talking about dating apps and stuff I feel like it's a little bit more relatable to now because when how I met your mother came out I was in like high school and college and I loved the show But now I'm actually the same age as the characters in the new one So it's like more relatable, you know anyway now I am finally Going to organize this closet when my parents were here They brought me some of the things that I had to leave behind When I originally moved here because it just didn't fit in the car So I still had a couple of clothes and a lot of hangers I like still have some clothes that are just sitting down there because I didn't have all my hangers to put everything away So my closet has just been kind of a mess and this is the last area of the apartment that like I Haven't been able to fully unpack or organize So I finally want to do that now. I also have a shoe rack. So I want to finally organize my shoes Because they've just kind of been like laying around all over the place I have a bunch of them in this laundry basket over here Closet is finished put all of my clothes away. I feel so good Here's the shoe rack and then I had some extra shoes that didn't fit on there So I just put them on the ground down there Works for now. I'm currently washing my extra blanket And that's gonna go up there air mattress is tucked back there. I'm obviously not gonna leave that there I'm just waiting till I can put the blanket away. So let me show you like a little Apartment update. I am going to do a full apartment tour once it's all finished I'm just waiting on my couch and then like a few little final details So this is the living room those plants are actually going to normally live out on the balcony But it's been kind of cold these last few nights. So I don't want them to freeze and die But my couch Supposedly I checked in with the furniture company. They said that it's supposed to be coming this Saturday I'm waiting for them to reach out to me to schedule an actual delivery time So we will see fingers crossed that it actually comes this weekend. That would be amazing So once that comes I want to get some artwork for this wall and I have some ideas in mind But I'm waiting till the actual couch is here before I pull the trigger because I want to make sure that it's gonna look good I also ordered an area rug off of Wayfair That's supposed to be coming later this week So I'm excited about that and I think it'll just like make the whole room feel a little bit cozier I still need to organize the stuff that's on these shelves and not organize necessarily but just like style them a little bit better the kitchen is Basically all done. I'm I feel like I need something else right there like another taller thing To kind of balance it out up there. I love this little arrangement in the center I don't plan on keeping like all this stuff up here all the time just this and The paper towels and then I need to do this laundry bed is obviously not made so it's a little messy But I'm trying to decide if I want to just keep that as is or if I want to get something else Like maybe doing three frames or four frames or just getting like one big piece Because I feel like that just looks a little bit small on the wall up there But I'm not sure this all basically looks the same as Last time you saw it and then the bathroom not much has changed in here either I love the real eucalyptus in the shower. I am thinking about putting something up here I it just feels like something needs to be there, but yeah, that is how the apartment is looking so far I think in the next vlog hopefully my couch will come and we will style that bookshelf and Do some of the final touches I'll figure out the artwork for this wall I was doing a lot of research this morning trying to see like what would be the most cost-effective option because finding like big artwork is Expensive and I don't want to do a gallery wall like a whole bunch of little photos I just want something like big that just Fills that wall up nicely, but I need to wait for the rug and couch to come Just to like make sure what I'm picking works well So yeah, stay tuned for the next vlog to see all of that I'm just gonna be doing laundry for the rest of the day and eventually editing this video So I'm gonna wrap it up here. Thank you guys so much for watching Don't forget to check the description for the link and my discount code to dossier. I'll see you guys in the next one Bye