 XVI. The ship that brought Theodore Brandeis to America was the last of its kind to leave German ports for years. The day after he sailed from Bremen came the war. Theodore Brandeis was only one of the millions of Americans who refused to accept the idea of war. She took it as a personal affront. It was uncivilized, it was old-fashioned, it was inconvenient, especially inconvenient. She had just come from Europe where she had negotiated a million-dollar deal. War would mean that she could not get the goods ordered. Consequently there could be no war. Theodore landed the first week in August. Fanny stole two days from the ravenous bins to meet him in New York. I think she must have been a very love-hungry woman in the years since her mother's death. She had never admitted it, but only emotions denied to the point of starvation could have been so shaken now at the thought of the feast before them. She had trained herself to think of him as Theodore the Selfish, Theodore the Callous, Theodore the Veracious. An unsuccessful genius, she told herself, he'll be impossible. They're bad enough when they're successful. But now her eyes, her thoughts, her longings, her long pent emotions were straining toward the boat whose great prow was looming toward her, a terrifying bulk. The crowd awaiting the ship was enormous. A dramatic enough scene at any time, the great hoboken pier this morning was filled with an unrehearsed mob, anxious, thrilled, hysterical. The morning papers had carried wireless news that the ship had been chased by a French gunboat and had escaped only through the timely warning of the Dresden, a German gunboat. That had added the last fill-up to an already tense situation. Tears were streaming down half the faces upturned toward the crowded decks, and from every side, do you see her? That's Jesse, there she is! Jesse! Heh, Jim-old boy, come on down! Fanny's eyes were searching the packed rails. Ted, she called, and choked back a sob. Teddy! Still she did not see him. She was searching, woman-like, for a tall, blondish boy, with a sulky mouth and humorous eyes, and an unruly lock of hair that would insist on escaping from the rest and straggling down over his forehead. I think she was even looking for a boy with a violin in his arms, a boy in knickers. Women lose all sense of time and proportion at such times. Still she did not see him. The passengers were filing down the gangplank now, rushing down as quickly as the careful hands of the crew would allow them, and hurling themselves into the arms of friends and family crowded below. Fanny strained her eyes toward that narrow passageway, anxious, hopeful, fearful, heart-sick, for the moment Olga and the baby did not exist for her, and then she saw him. She saw him through an unimaginable disguise. She saw him and knew him in spite of the fact that the fair-haired, sulky, handsome boy had vanished, and in his place walked a man. His hair was close-cropped, German fashion, his face careworn and older than she had ever thought possible. His bearing, his features, his whole personality stamped with an unmistakable distinction, and his clothes were appallingly, inconceivably German. So she saw him, and he was her brother, and she was his sister, and she stretched out her arms to him. "'Teddy!' she hugged him close, her face buried in his shoulder. "'Teddy, you, you spits-boob-you!' she laughed at that a little hysterically. "'Not that I know what a spits-boob is, but it's the Germanist word I can think of. That shaven head, those trousers, that linen, the awful boots, the tie. "'Oh, Teddy, and you're the Germanist thing I ever saw!' she kissed him again, rapturously. He kissed her, too, wordlessly at first. They moved aside a little out of the crowd. Then he spoke for the first time. "'God, I'm glad to see you, Fanny!' there was tragedy, not profanation in his voice. His hand gripped hers. He turned, and now for the first time Fanny saw that at his elbow stood a buxom peasant woman, evidently a nurse, and in her arms a child. A child with Molly Brandeis' mouth, and Ferdinand Brandeis' forehead, and Fanny Brandeis' eyes, and Theodore Brandeis' rose-leaf skin, and over and above all these, weaving in and out through the hole, an expression or cast, a vague, undefinable thing which we call a resemblance, that could only have come from the woman of the picture, Theodore Brandeis' wife, Olga. "'Why, it's the baby!' cried Fanny, and swung her out of the nurse's protesting arms. Such a German-looking baby, such an adorably German-looking baby. "'Do, Kleine, do!' Fanny kissed the rose-leaf cheek. "'Do, Susus!' she turned suddenly to Theodore. "'Olga, where's Olga?' she did not come. Fanny tightened her hold of the squirming bundle in her arms. "'Didn't come?' Theodore shook his head, dumbly, and his eyes was an agony of pain, and suddenly all those inexplicable things in his face were made clear to Fanny. She placed a little missy in the nurse's arms again. "'Then we'll go, dear. They won't be a minute over your trunks, I'm sure. Just follow me.' Her arm was linked through Theodore's. Her hand was on his. Her head was up. Her chin was thrust out, and she never knew how startlingly she resembled the Molly Brandeis who used to march so bravely down Norris Street on her way to Brandeis's Bazaar. She was facing a situation and she recognized it. There was about her an assurance, a composure, a blithe capability that imparted itself to the three bewildered and helpless ones in her charge. Theodore felt it, and the strained look in his face began to lift just a little. The heavy-witted peasant woman felt it and trudged along cheerfully. The baby in her arms seemed to sense it, and began to converse volubly and unintelligibly with the blue-uniformed customs inspector. They were out of the great shed in an incredibly short time. Fanny seemed equal to every situation. She had taken the tube to Hoboken, but now she found a commodious, open car and drove a shrewd bargain with the chauffeur. She bundled the three into it. Of the three, perhaps Theodore seemed to be the most bewildered and helpless. He clung to his violin and Fanny. "'I feel like an immigrant,' he said. "'Fan, you're a wonder. You don't know how much you look and act like mother. I've been watching you. It's startling.'" Fanny laughed and took his hand, and held his hand up to her breast and crushed it there. "'And you look like an illustration out of the fligan bladder. It isn't only your clothes, your face is German. As for Missy here,' she gathered the child in her arms again. "'You've never explained that name to me. Why, by the way, Missy, of all the names in the world?' Theodore smiled a rye little smile. Missy is named after Olga's chum. You see, in Vienna, every other, well, chorus girl, I suppose you'd call them, is named Missy, like all the glattices and flossies here in America. Well, Olga's special friend Missy." "'I see,' said Fanny quietly. "'Well, anything's better than Fanny. Missy's did make me think of an old white horse. And at that, the small German person in her arms screwed her mouth into a fascinating bunch, and then unscrewed it, and having made these preparations said, "'Tanta Fanny, Chicago! Tanta Fanny! Why, Missy Brandeis, you darling! Teddy, did you hear that? She said Tanta Fanny and Chicago just as plainly. Did I hear it? Have I heard anything else for weeks?' The plump person on the opposite seat, who had been shaking her head violently all this time, here threatened to burst if not encouraged to speak. Fanny nodded to her, whereupon the flood broke. "'Wonderbar, Nicktoar! Ich küsste Hand, Genädiges Fräulein.' She actually did it to Fanny's consternation. "'Ik hab ihr das Gerliand, Genädige. Selbst. Ist es nicht ganz unsuchend? Tanta Fanny! Ach, Chicago!' Fanny nodded a number of times, first up and down, signifying ascent, then sideways, signifying unbounded wonder and admiration. She made a gigantic effort to summon her forgotten German. "'Was ist Iranama?' she managed to ask. "'Ati!' "'Oh, my!' exclaimed Fanny weakly. Missy and Ati. It sounds like the first act of the merry widow.' She turned to Theodore. "'I wish you'd sit back and relax, and if you must clutch that violin case, do it more comfortably. I don't want you to tell me a thing now. New York is ghastly in August. We'll get a train out of here to-morrow. My apartment in Chicago is cool and high and quiet, and the lake is in the front yard, practically. Tonight, perhaps, we'll talk about things. "'And, oh, Teddy, how glad I am to see you, to have you, to,' she put out a hand and patted his thin cheek, to touch you. And at that the man became a boy again. His face worked a moment painfully, and then his head came down in her lap that held the baby, and so she had them both for a moment, one arm about the child, one hand smoothing the boy's close-cropped hair. And in that moment she was more splendidly maternal than either of the women who had borne these whom she now comforted. It was Fanny who attended to the hotel rooms, to the baby's comfort, to the railroad tickets, to the ordering of the meals. Theater was like a stranger in a strange land. Not only that, he seemed dazed. "'We'll have it out tonight,' Fanny said to herself. He'll never get that look off his face until he has told it all. I knew she was a beast.' She made him lie down while she attended to schedules, tickets, bursts. She was gone for two hours. When she returned she found him looking amused, terrified, and helpless, all at once, while three men reporters and one woman's special writer bombarded him with questions. The woman had brought a staff artist with her, and he was now engaged in making a bungling sketch of Theodore's face with its ludicrous expression. Fanny sensed the situation and saved it. She hadn't sold goods all these years without learning the value of advertising. She came forward now, graciously, but not too graciously. Theodore looked relieved. Already he had learned that one might lean on this sister, who was so capable, so bountifully alive. "'Teddy, you're much too tired to talk. Let me talk for you.' My sister, Miss Brandeis, said Teddy, and waved a rather feeble hand in an inclusive gesture at the interrogatory five. Fanny smiled. "'Do sit down,' she said, all of you. Tell me, how did you happen to get on my brother's trail?' One of the men explained. We had a list of ship's passengers, of course, and we knew that Mr. Brandeis was a German violinist, and then the story of the ship being chased by a French boat, we just missed him down at the pier. "'But he isn't a German violinist,' interrupted Fanny. "'Please get that straight. He's American. He is THE American violinist, or will be, as soon as his concert tour here is well started. It was Chablitz himself who discovered my brother and predicted his brilliant career. Here. She had been glancing over the artist's shoulder. Will you let me make a sketch for you, just for the fun of the thing? I do that kind of thing rather decently. Did you see my picture called The Marcher in the Star at the time of the suffrage parade in May? Yes, that was mine. Just because he has what we call a butcher haircut, don't think he's German because he isn't. You wouldn't call Winnebago Wisconsin Germany, would you?' She was sketching him swiftly, daringly, masterfully. She was bringing out the distinction, the suffering, the boyishness in his face, and toning down the queer little foreign air he had, toning it but not omitting it altogether. She was too good a showman for that. As she sketched, she talked, and as she talked she drew Theodore into the conversation deftly, and just where he was needed. She gave them what they had come for, a story, and a good one. She brought in Missy and Otty for color, and she saw to it that they spelled those names as they should be spelled. She managed to gloss over the question of Olga, ill, detained, last minute, too brave to sacrifice her husband's American tour. She finished her sketch and gave it to the woman reporter. It was an amazingly compelling little piece of work, and yet not so amazing, perhaps, when you consider the thing that Fanny Brandeis had put into it. Then she sent them away tactfully. They left, knowing all that Fanny Brandeis had wanted them to know, guessing little that she had not wanted them to guess. More than that no human being can accomplish without the advice of his lawyer. Phew! from Fanny when the door had closed. Gotton, himmel, said Theodore, I had forgotten that America was like that. But America is like that, and Teddy we're going to make it sit up and take notice. At that Theodore drooped again. Fanny thought that he looked startlingly as she remembered her father had looked in those days of her childhood, when Brandeis' bazaar was slithering down hill. The sight of him moved her to a sudden resolve. She crossed swiftly to him and put one heartening hand on his shoulder. Come on, brother, out with it. Let's have it all now. He reached up for her hand and held it desperately. Oh, Fan! began Theodore. Fan, I've been through hell. Fanny said nothing. She only waited quietly, encouragingly. She had learned when not to talk. Presently he took up his story, plunging directly into it, as though sensing that she had already divined much. She married me for a living. You'll think that's a joke, knowing what I was earning there in Vienna, and how you and mother were denying yourselves everything to keep me. But in a city that circulates a coin valued at a twentieth of a cent, an American dollar looms up big. Besides, two of the other girls had got married, good for nothing officers. She was jealous, I suppose. I didn't know any of that. I was flattered to think she'd notice me. She was awfully popular. She has a kind of wit. I suppose you'd call it that. The other girls were just coarse and heavy and, well, animal. You can't know the rottenness of life there in Vienna. Olga could keep a whole supper table laughing all evening. I can see now that that isn't difficult when your audience is made up of musical girls and stupid, bullet-headed officers with their damned high collars and their gold braid and their silly swords and their corsets and their glittering shoes and their miserable petty poverty beneath all the show. I thought I was a lucky boy. I'd have pitied everybody in Winnebago, if I'd ever thought of anybody in Winnebago. I never did, except once in a while of you and mother when I needed money. I kept on with my music. I had sense enough left for that. Besides, it was a habit by that time. Well, we were married. He laughed an ugly abrupt little laugh that ended in a moan, and turned his head and buried his face in Fanny's breast, and Fanny's arm was there about his shoulder. Fanny, you don't—I can't—he stopped. Another silence. Fanny's arm tightened its hold. She bent and kissed the top of the stubbly head, bowed so low now. Fan, do you remember that woman in the three musketeers, the hellish woman that all men loved and loathed? Well, Olga's like that. I'm not whining. I'm not exaggerating. I'm just trying to make you understand. And yet I don't want you to understand. Only you don't know what it means to have you to talk to, to have someone who—he clutched her hand fearfully. You do love me, don't you, Fanny? You do, don't you, sis? More than anyone in the world, Fanny reassured him quietly the way mother would have if she had lived. A sigh escaped him at that, as though a load had lifted from him. He went on presently. It would have been all right if I could have earned just a little more money. Fanny shrank at that and shut her eyes for a sick moment. But I couldn't. I asked her to be patient, but you don't know the life there. There is no real home life. They live in the cafes. They go there to keep warm in the winter and to meet their friends and gossip and drink that eternal coffee. And every coffee-house there are thousands is a rendezvous. We had two rooms, comfortable ones for Vienna, and I tried to explain to her that if I could work hard and get into concert and keep at the composing, we'd be rich some day and famous and happy, and she'd have clothes and jewels. But she was too stupid or too bored. Olga is the kind of woman who only believes what she sees. Things got worse all the time. She had a temper. So have I, or I used to have. But when hers was aroused it was horrible. Words that—that unspeakable words. And one day she taunted me with being a—with my race. The first time she called me that, I felt that I must kill her. That was my mistake. I should have killed her, and I didn't. Teddy boy, don't, brother. You're tired. You're excited and worn out. No, I'm not. Just let me talk. I know what I'm saying. There's something clean about killing. He brooded a moment over that thought. Then he went on doggedly, not raising his voice. His hands were clasped loosely. You don't know about the intolerance and the anti-Semitism and pressure, I suppose, all through Germany for that matter. In Bavaria it's bitter. That's one reason why Olga loathed Munich so. The queer part of it is that all that opposition seemed to fan something in me, something that had been smoldering for a long time. His voice had lost its dull tone now. It had a new timber. And as he talked he began to interlard his English with bits of German, the language to which his tongue had accustomed itself in the past ten years. His sentences, too, took on a German construction from time to time. He was plainly excited now. My playing began to improve. There would be a ghastly scene with Olga, sickening, degrading. Then I would go to my work and I would play, but magnificently. I tell you it would be playing. I know. To fool myself I know better. One morning after a dreadful quarrel I got the idea for the Concerto and the Psalms, Jewish music, as Jewish as the Kul Nidra. I wanted to express the passion and fire and history of a people, my people. Why was that? Tell me. Zelps to Weisegnicht. I felt if I could put into it just a millionth part of their humiliation and their glory and their tragedy and their triumph and their sorrow and their grandeur, their persecution, their Weltsmerz, Volksmerz, and through it all weaving in and out one great underlying motif in destructibility, the great cry which says, We cannot be destroyed. He stood up uncertainly. His eyes were blazing. He began to walk up and down the luxurious little room. Fanny's eyes matched his. She was staring at him, fascinated, trembling. She moistened her lips a little with her tongue. And you've done it? Teddy, you've done that? Theater Brandeis stood up, very straight and tall. Yes, he said simply. Yes, I've done that. She came over to him then and put her two hands on his shoulders. Ted, dear, will you ever forgive me? I'll try to make up for it now. I didn't know. I've been blind. Worse than blind. Criminal. She was weeping now, broken heartedly, and he was patting her with little comforting love-pats and whispering words of tenderness. Forgive you. Forgive you what? The years of suffering, the years you've had to spend with her, with that horrible woman. Don't. He sucked his breath between his teeth. His face had gone haggard again. Fanny, direct as always, made up her mind that she would have it all, and now. There's something you haven't told me. Tell me all of it. You're my brother and I'm your sister, for all we have in the world. And at that, as though tined by some miraculous and supernatural stage manager, there came a cry from the next room, a sleepy, comfortable, imperious little cry. Missy had awakened. Fanny made a step in the direction of the door, then she turned back. Tell me why Olga didn't come. Why isn't she here with her husband and baby? Because she's with another man. Another? It had been going on for a long time. I was the last to know about it. It's that way always, isn't it? He's an officer, a fool. He'll have to take off his silly corsets now, and his velvet collar and his shiny boots and go to war. Damn him. I hope they'll kill him with a hundred bayonets one by one and leave him to rot on the field. She had been fooling me all the time, and they had been laughing at me, the two of them. I didn't find it out until just before this American trip. And when I confronted her with it, she laughed in my face. She said she hated me. She said she'd rather starve than leave him to come to America with me. She said I was a fiddling fool. She—he was trembling and sick with the shame of it. God, I can't tell you the things she said. She wanted to keep Missy. Isn't that strange? She loves the baby. She neglects her and spoils her, and once I saw her beat her in a rage. But she says she loves my Missy, and I believe she does in her own dreadful way. I promised her and lied to her, and then I ran away with Missy and her nurse. Oh, I thank God for that, Fanny cried. I thank God for that. And now, Teddy Boy, we'll forget all about those miserable years. We'll forget all about her and the life she led you. You're going to have your chance here. You're going to be repaid for every minute of suffering you've endured. I'll make it up to you. And when you see them applauding you, calling for you, adoring you, all those hideous years will fade from your mind, and you'll be Theodore Brandeis, the successful. Theodore Brandeis, the gifted. Theodore Brandeis, the great. You need never think of her again. You'll never see her again. That beast. That woman. And at that, Theodore's face became distorted and dreadful with pain. He raised two impotent, shaking arms high above his head. That's just it. That's just it. You don't know what love is. You don't know what hate is. You don't know how I hate myself. Lose myself. She's all that's miserable. All that's unspeakable. All that's vile. And if she called me to-day, I'd come. That's it. He covered his shamed face with his two hands, so that the words came from him slobberingly, sickeningly. I hate her. I hate her. And I want her. I want her. I want her. Chapter 17 If Fanny Brandeis, the deliberately selfish that calculatingly ambitious, was aghast at the trick fate had played her, she kept her thoughts to herself. Knowing her, I think she must have been grimly amused at finding herself saddled with a helpless baby, a bewildered peasant woman, and an artist's brother, both helpless and bewildered. It was out of the question to house them in her small apartment. She found a furnished apartment near her own and installed them there, with a working housekeeper in charge. She had a gift for management, and she arranged all these details with a brisk capability that swept everything before it. A sunny bedroom for Missy, but then a bright living room, too, for theaters' hours of practice. No noise. Chicago's roar maddened him. Auti shied at every new contrivance that met her eye. She had to be broken into elevators, electric switches, hot and cold faucets, radiators. No apartment ever built could cover all the requirements, Fanny confided to Fanger after the first harrowing week. What they really need is a combination palace, houseboat, sanatorium, and crash. Look here, said Fanger. If I can help, why? A sudden thought struck him. Why don't you bring them all down to my place in the country? We're not there half the time. It's too cool for my wife in September. Just the thing for the child, and your brother could fiddle his head off. The Fanger's had a roomy, wide verandet house near Lake Forest, one of the many places of its kind that dot the section known as the North Shore. Its lawn sloped gently down to the water's edge. The house was gay with striped awnings and scarlet geraniums and chins-covered chairs. The bright, sparkling, luxurious little place seemed to satisfy a certain beauty sense in Fanger, as did the etchings on the walls in his office. Fanny had spent a weekend there in July with three or four other guests, including fascinating facts. She had been charmed with it, and had announced that her energies thereafter would be directed solely toward the possession of just such a house as this, with a lawn that was lipped by the lake, awnings and geraniums to give it a French café air, books and magazines enough to belie that. And I'll always wear white, she promised gaily, and there'll be pictures on every table, frosty on the outside and minty on the inside, and you're all invited. They had laughed at that, and so had she, but she had been grimly and earnest just the same. She shook her head now at Fanger's suggestion. Imagine Mrs. Fanger's face, at sight of Missy and theater with his violin, and Ati with her shawls and paraphernalia, though, she added seriously, it's mighty kind of you and generous, and just like a man. It isn't kindness nor generosity that makes me want to do things for you. Modest, murmured Fanny wickedly, as always. Fanger bent his look upon her. Don't try the ingenue on me, Fanny. Theodore's manager, Kurt Stein, was to have followed him in ten days. The war changed that. The war was to change many things. Fanny seemed to sense the influx of musicians that was to burst upon the United States following the first weeks of the catastrophe, and she set about forstalling it. Advertising. That was what Theodore needed. She had faith enough in his genius, but her business sense told her that this genius must be enhanced by the proper setting. She set about creating this setting. She overlooked no chance to fix his personality in the kaleidoscopic mind of the American public, or as much of it as she could reach. His publicity man was a dignified German-American, whose methods were legitimate and uninspired. Fanny's enthusiasm and suburb confidence in Theodore's genius infected Fanger, fascinating facts, even Nathan Haines himself. Nathan Haines had never posed as a patron of the arts in spite of his fantastic millions. But by the middle of September there were few of his friends or his wife's friends who had not heard of this Theodore Brandeis. In Chicago, Illinois, no one lives in houses, it is said, except the city's old families and new millionaires. The rest of the vast population is flat-dwelling. To say that Nathan Haines' spoken praise reached the city's house-dwellers would carry with it a significance plain to any Chicagoan. As for Fanny's method, here is a typical example of her somewhat crude effectiveness in showmanship. Auti had brought with her from Vienna her native peasant costume. It is a costume seen daily in the Austrian capital, on the ring, in the Stodd Park, wherever Viennese nurses convene with their small charges. To the American eye it is a musical comedy costume, picturesque, bouffant, amazing. Your Austrian takes it quite for granted. Regardless of the age of the nurse, the skirt is short, coming a few inches below the knees, and built like a lampshade, in color usually a bright scarlet, with rows of black velvet ribbon at the bottom. Beneath it are worn skirts and skirts and skirts, so that the opera bouffée effect is complete. The bodice is black velvet laced over a chemise of white. The headgear is a sword winged affair of starchly stiffed white, that is a pass between the Breton peasant woman's cap and an aeroplane. Black stockings and slippers finish the costume. Auti and Missy spent the glorious September days in Lincoln Park. Auti garbed in staid American stripes and apron. Missy, resplendent and smartest of children's dresses, provided for her lavishly by her aunt. Her fat and dimpled hands smoothed the blue or pink or white folds with a complacency astonishing in one of her years. That's her mother in her, Fanny thought. One rainy autumn day Fanny entered her brother's apartment to find Auti resplendent in her Viennese nurse's costume. Missy had been cross and fretful, and the sight of the familiar scarlet and black and white and the great winged cap seemed to soothe her. Auti, Fanny exclaimed, you gorgeous creature, what is it? A dress rehearsal? Auti got the import, if not the English. Sokehen wir im Vienn, she explained, and struck a killing pose. Everybody, all the nurses, alla? Aber, sure. Auti displayed her half dozen English words wherever possible. Fanny stared a moment, her eyes narrowed thoughtfully. Tomorrow's Saturday, she said in German, if it's fair and warm you put on that costume and take Missy to the park. Certainly the animal cages, if you want to, if anyone annoys you, come home. If a policeman asks you why you are dressed that way, tell him it is the costume worn by nurses in Vienna. Give him your name. Tell him who your master is. If he doesn't speak German, and he won't in Chicago, someone will translate for you. Not a Sunday paper in Chicago that did not carry a startling picture of the resplendent Auti and the dimpled and smiling Missy. The omnipresent staff photographers seemed to sniff his victim from afar. He pounced on Theodore Brandeis' baby daughter, accompanied by her Viennese nurse in costume. And he played her up in a Sunday special that was worth thousands of dollars Fanny assured the bewildered and resentful Theodore, as he floundered wildly through the billowing waves of the Sunday newspaper flood. Theodore's first appearance was to be in Chicago as soloist with the Chicago Symphony Orchestra in the season's opening program in October. Any music-wise Chicagoan will tell you that the Chicago Symphony Orchestra is not only a musical organization functioning marvelously when playing Beethoven, it is an institution. Its patrons will admit the existence, but not the superiority of similar organizations in Boston, Philadelphia, and New York. On Friday afternoons during the season, Orchestra Hall, situate on Michigan Boulevard, holds more pretty girls and fewer men than one might expect to see at any one gathering other than, perhaps, a wholesale debutante teacrush. A Friday afternoon ticket is as impossible of attainment for one not a subscriber as a seat in heaven for a sinner. Saturday night's audience is stater, more masculine, less staccato. Gallery, balcony, parquet, it represents the city's best. Its men prefer Beethoven to Berlin. Its women could wear pearl necklaces and don't. Between the audience and the solemn black-and-white rows on the platform there exists an entente cordial. The concert meister vows to his friend in the third row as he tucks his violin under his chin. The fifth row aisle smiles and nods to the sausage-fingered cellist. Fritz is playing well tonight. In a rarefied form it is the atmosphere that existed between audience and players in the days of the old and famous Daily Stock Company. Such was the character of the audience Theodor was to face on his first appearance in America. Fanny explained its nature to him. He shrugged his shoulders in a gesture as German as it was expressive. Theodor seemed to have become irrevocably German during the years of his absence from America. He had a queer stock of little foreign tricks. He lifted his hat to men acquaintances on the street. He had learned to smack his heels sharply together and to bow stiffly from the waist and to kiss the hand of the matrons, and they adored him for it. He was quite innocent of pose in these things. He seemed to have imbibed them together with his queer German haircut and his incredibly German clothes. Fanny allowed him to retain the bow and the courtly hand-kiss, but she insisted that he changed the clothes and the haircut. You'll have to let it grow, Ted. I don't mean that I want you to have a mane like Issei, but I do think you ought to discard that convict cut. Besides, it isn't becoming, and if you're going to be an American violinist, you'll have to look it with a foreign finish. He let his hair grow. Fanny watched with interest for the appearance of the unruly lock which had been want to straggle over his white forehead in his schoolboy days. The new and well-cut American clothes affected surprisingly little change. Fanny, surveying him, shook her head. When you stepped off the ship, you looked like a German in German clothes. Now you look like a German in American clothes. I don't know. I do believe it's your face, Ted. I wouldn't have thought that ten years or so in any country could change the shape of one's nose and mouth and cheekbones. Do you suppose it's the umlats? Cut it out, laughed Ted, that being his idea of modern American slang. He was fascinated by these crisp phrases, but he was ten years or so behind the times, and he sometimes startled his hearers by an exhibition of slang so old as to be almost new. It was all the more startling in contrast with his conversational English, which was as carefully correct as a born Germans. As for the rest, it was plain that he was interested, but unhappy. He practiced for hours daily. He often took Missy to the park and came back storming about the dirt, the noise, the haste, the rudeness, the crowds, the mismanagement of the entire city. Doom-height, he called it. They profaned the lake. They allowed the people to trample the grass. They threw papers and banana skins about, and they wasted. His years in Germany had taught him to regard all these things as sacrilege, and the last as downright criminal. He was lonesome for his Germany, that was plain. He hated it and loved it, much as he hated and loved the woman who had so nearly spoiled his life. The male Strom, known as the southwest corner of State in Michigan streets, appalled him. Gott, he exclaimed, es ist englaublich, abergons englaublich, ich wird bald werkt. He somehow lapsed into German when excited. Fanny took him to the Haines Cooper plant one day, and it left him dazed and incredulous. She quoted millions at him. He was not interested. He looked at the office workers, the male room girls, and shook his head, dumbly. They were using bicycles now, with a bundle rack in the front in the vast stock rooms, and the roller skates had been discarded as too slow. The stock boys skimmed around corners on these lightweight bicycles, up one aisle and down the next, snatching bundles out of bins, shooting bundles into bins, as expertly as players in a gym conna. Theodore saw the uncanny rapidity with which the letter opening machines did their work. He watched the great presses that turned out the catalog, the catalog whose message meant millions. He sat in Fanger's office and stared at the etchings and said, certainly, with politeness, when Fanger excused himself in the midst of a conversation to pick up the telephone receiver and talk to their shoe factory in Maine. He ended up finally in Fanny's office, no longer a dingy and undesirable corner, but a quietly brisk center that sent out vibrations over the entire plant. Slosson, incidentally, was no longer of the infant's wear. He had been transferred to a subordinate position in the grocery section. Well, said Fanny, seating herself at her desk and smiling radiantly upon her brother, well, what do you think of us? And then Theodore Brandeis, the careless, the selfish, the blind, said a most amazing thing. Fanny, I'll work. I'll soon get some of these millions that are lying about everywhere in this country, and then I'll take you out of this, I promise. Fanny stared at him, a picture of ludicrous astonishment. Why, you talk as if you were sorry for me. I am, dear, God knows I am. I'll make it up to you somehow." It was the first time in all her dashing and successful career that Fanny Brandeis had felt the sting of pity. She resented it hotly, and from Theodore, the groper, the— But at any rate, something within her said, he has always been true to himself. Theodore's manager arrived in September on a Holland boat, on which he had been obliged to share a stuffy inside cabin with three others. Kirtstein was German-born, but American-bred, and he had the American love of luxurious travel. He was still testy when he reached Chicago and his charge. How goes the work? he demanded at once of Theodore. He eyed him sharply. That's better. You have lost some of the look you had when you left Vienne. The ladies would have liked that look here in America, but it is bad for the work. He took Fanny aside before he left. His face was serious. It was plain that he was disturbed. That woman—he began. Pardon me, Mrs. Brandeis. She came to me. She says she's starving. She is alone there in Vienna. Her—well, she is alone. The war is everywhere. They say it will last for years. She wept and pleaded with me to take her here. No! cried Fanny. Don't let him hear it. He mustn't know. He—yes, I know. She's a paradox, that woman. I tell you she almost prevailed on me. There is something about her, something that repels and compels. That struck him as being a very fine phrase, indeed, and he repeated it appreciatively. I'll send her money, somehow, said Fanny. Yes, but they say that money is not reaching them over there. I don't know what becomes of it. It vanishes. He turned to leave. Oh, a message for you! On my boat was Chablitz. It looks very much as if his great fortune, the accumulation of years, would be swept away by this war. Already they are tramping up and down his lands in Poland. His money, much of it, is invested in great hotels in Poland and Russia, and they are using them for barracks and hospitals. Chablitz! You mean a message for Theodore? From him? That's wonderful. For Theodore and for you, too. For me? I made a picture of him once when I was a little girl. I didn't see him again for years. When I heard him play, it was on his last tour here. I wanted to speak to him, but I was afraid, and my face was red with weeping. He remembers you, and he means to see Theodore and you. He can do much for Theodore in this country, and I think he will. His message for you was this. Tell her I still have the picture that she made for me, with the jack in the box in my hand, and that look on my face. Tell her I have often wondered about that little girl in the red cap and the black curls. I've wondered if she went on catching that look back of people's faces. If she did, she should be more famous than her brother. He said that about me? I am telling you as nearly as I can, he said. Tell her it was a woman who ruined Bauer's career, and caused him to end his days as a music teacher in... in... God! I can't remember the name of that town. Winnebago. Winnebago, that was it. Tell her not to let the brother spoil his life that way. So, that is the message he said you would understand. Theodore's face was ominous when she returned to him after Stein had left. I wish you and Stein wouldn't stand out there in the hall whispering about me as if I were an idiot patient. What were you saying? Nothing, Ted, really. He brooded a moment. Then his face lighted up with a flash of intuition. He flung an accusing finger at Fanny. He has seen her. Ted, you promised. She's in trouble, this war, and she hasn't any money. I know. Look here. We've got to send her money. Cable it. I will. Just leave it all to me. If she's here in this country and you're lying to me, she isn't my word of honor, Ted. He relaxed. Life was a very complicated thing for Fanny these days. Ted was leaning on her, Missy, Addy, and now Fenger. Nathan Haynes was poking a disturbing finger into that delicate and complicated mechanism of system which Fenger had built up in the Haynes Cooper plant, and Fenger, snarling, was trying to guard his treasure. He came to Fanny with his grievance. Fanny had always stimulated him, reassured him, given him the mental readjustment that he needed. He strode into her office one morning in late September, ordinarily he sent for her. He stood by her desk now, a sheaf of papers in his hand, palpably stage props, and lifted significant eyebrows in the direction of the stenographer busy at her typewriter in the corner. You may leave that, Miss Mayan, Fanny said. Miss Mayan, a comprehending young woman, left it, and the room as well. Fenger sat down. He was under great excitement, though he was quite controlled. Fanny, knowing him, waited quietly. His eyes held hers. It's come, Fenger began. You know that for the last year Haynes has been milling around with a herd of sociologists, philanthropists, and students of economics. He had some scheme in the back of his head, but I thought it was just another of his impractical ideas. It appears that it wasn't. Between the lot of them they've evolved a savings and profit sharing plan that's founded on a kind of practical, universal brotherhood dream. Haynes millions are bothering him. If they actually put this thing through, I'll get out. It'll mean that everything I've built up will be torn down. It'll mean that any $6 a week girl, as I understand it, interrupted Fanny, it will mean that there will be no more $6 a week girls. That's it. And let me tell you, once you get the ignorant unskilled type to be believing they're actually capable of earning decent money, actually worth something. They're worse than useless. They're dangerous. You don't believe that. I do. But it's a theory that belongs to the Dark Ages. We've disproved it. We've got beyond that. Yes, so was war. We'd got beyond it. But it's here. I tell you, there are only two classes, the governing and the governed. That has always been true. It always will be. Let the Socialist rave. It has never got them anywhere. I know. I come from the mucker class myself. I know what they stand for. Boost them and they'll turn on you. If there's anything in any of them, he'll pull himself up by his own bootstraps. They're not all potential fangers. Then let them stay where they are. Fanny's pencil was tracing and retracing a tortured and meaningless figure on the paper before her. Tell me, do you remember a girl named Sarah Sapinski? Never heard of her. That's fitting. Sarah Sapinski was a very pretty, very dissatisfied girl who was a slave to the bundle shoot. One day there was a period of two seconds when a bundle didn't pop out at her and she had time to think. Anyway, she left. I asked about her. She's on the streets. Well, thanks to you and your system. Look here, Fanny. I didn't come to you for that kind of talk. Don't, for heaven's sakes, give me any sociological drivel today. I'm not here just to tell you my troubles. You know what my contract is here with Haines Cooper, and you know the amount of stock I hold. If this scheme of Haines goes in, I go out voluntarily, but at my own price. The Haines Cooper plant is at the height of its efficiency now. He dropped his voice. But the mail order business is in its infancy. There's no limit to what can be done with it in the next few years. Understand? Do you get what I'm trying to tell you? He leaned forward tense and terribly in earnest. Fanny stared at him. Then her hand went to her head in a gesture of weariness. Not today, please, and not here. Don't think I'm ungrateful for your confidence. But this month has been a terrific strain. Just let me pass the 15th of October. Let me see Theodore on the way. Fanger's fingers closed upon her wrist. Fanny got to her feet angrily. They glared at each other a moment. Then the humor of the picture they must be making struck Fanny. She began to laugh. Fanger's glare became a frown. He turned abruptly and left the office. Fanny looked down at her wrist ruefully. Four circlets of red marked its smooth whiteness. She laughed again a little uncertainly this time. When she got home that night she found in her mail a letter for Theodore postmarked Vienna and stamped with the mark of the censor. Theodore had given her his word of honor that he would not write to Olga or give her his address. Olga was risking Fanny's address. She stood looking at the letter now. Theodore was coming in for dinner, as he did five nights out of the week. As she stood in the hallway, she heard the rattle of his key in the lock. She flew down the hall and into her bedroom, her letters in her hand. She opened her dressing table drawer and threw them into it, switched on the light and turned to face Theodore in the doorway. Lo, sis. Hello, Teddy. Kiss me. Phew! That pipe again. Have the work go to-day. So-so. Any mail for me? No. That night when he had gone, she took out the letter and stood turning it over and over in her hands. She had no thought of reading it. It was its destruction she was contemplating. Finally she tucked it away in her handkerchief box. Perhaps after the fifteenth of October, everything depended on that. End of Part 1 of Chapter 17. Chapter 17, Part 2 of Fanny Herself. This is a LibriVox recording, while LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Fanny Herself by Edna Ferber. Part 2 of Chapter 17. And the fifteenth of October came. It had dragged for weeks, and then at the end it galloped. By that time Fanny had got used to seeing Theodore's picture and name outside Orchestra Hall and in the musical columns of the papers. Brandeis. Theodore Brandeis, the violinist. The name sang in her ears. When she walked on Michigan Avenue during that last week, she would force herself to march straight on past Orchestra Hall, contenting herself with a furtive and oblique glance at the announcement board. The advanced programs hung, a little bundle of them, suspended by a string from a nail on the wall near the box office, so that ticket purchasers might rip one off and peruse the week's musical menu. Fanny longed to hear the comment of the little groups that were constantly forming and dispersing about the box office window. She never dreamed of allowing herself to hover near it. She thought sometimes of the woman in the business-like gray skirt and the black satine apron who had dredged so cheerfully in the little shop so that Theodore Brandeis's name might shine now from the very top of the program in heavy black letters. Soloist, Mr. Theodore Brandeis, violin. The injustice of it. Fanny had never ceased to rage at that. In the years to come, Theodore Brandeis was to have that adulation which the American public, temperamentally so cold, gives its favorite once the ice of its reserve is thawed. He was to look down on that surging, tempestuous crowd which sometimes packs itself about the foot of the platform in Carnegie Hall, demanding more, more, more, after a generous concert is concluded. He had to learn to protect himself from those hysterical and raptured, holy, feminine adorers who swarmed about him, scaling the platform itself. But of all this there was nothing on that Friday and Saturday in October. Orchestra Hall audiences are not, as a rule, wildly demonstrative. They were no exception. They listened attentively, appreciatively. They talked critically and favorably on the way home. They applauded generously. They behaved as an orchestra hall audience always behaves, and would behave even if it were confronted with a composite, Elman Chrysler, yese soloist. Theodore's playing was, as a whole, perhaps the worst of his career. Not that he did not rise to magnificent heights at times, but it was what is known as uneven playing. He was torn emotionally, nervously, mentally. His playing showed it. Fanny seated in the auditorium, her hands clasped tight, her heart hammering, had a sense of unreality as she waited for Theodore to appear from the little door at the left. He was to play after the intermission. Fanny had arrived late, with Theodore that Friday afternoon. She felt she could not sit through the first part of the program. They waited together in the enter room. Theodore, looking very slim and boyish in his frock coat, walked up and down, up and down. Fanny wanted to straighten his tie. She wanted to pick an imaginary thread off his lapel. She wanted to adjust the white flower in his buttonhole. He jerked it out presently, because it interfered with his violin, he said. She wanted to do any one of the foolish, feudal things that would have served to relieve her own surcharged feelings. But she had learned control in these years, and she yielded to none of them. The things they said and did were, perhaps, almost ludicrous. How do I look? Theodore demanded and stood up before her. Beautiful, said Fanny, and meant it. Theodore passed a hand over his cheek, cut myself shaving, damn it. It doesn't show. He resumed his pacing. Now and then he stopped, and rubbed his hands together with emotion we use in washing. Finally, I wish you'd go out front, he said almost petishly. Fanny rose without a word. She looked very handsome. Excitement had given her color. The pupils of her eyes were dilated, and they shone brilliantly. She looked at her brother. He stared at her. They swayed together. They kissed and clung together for a long moment. Then Fanny turned and walked swiftly away, and stumbled a little as she groped for the stairway. The bell in the foyer rang. The audience strolled to the auditorium. They lagged, Fanny thought. They crawled. She told herself that she must not allow her nerves to tease her like that. She looked about her with outward calm. Her eyes met fingers. He was seated alone. It was he who had got a subscription seat for her from a friend. She had said she preferred to be alone. She looked at him now, and he at her, and they did not nod nor smile. The house settled itself, flutteringly. A man behind Fanny spoke. Who's this Brandeis? I don't know. A new one. German, I guess. They say he's good. Chrysler's the boy who can play for me, though. The orchestra was seated now. Stock, the conductor, came out from the little side door. Behind him walked Theodore. There was a little impersonal burst of applause. Stock mounted his conductor's platform and glanced paternally down at Theodore, who stood at the left, violin and bow in hand, bowing. The audience seemed to warm to his boyishness. They applauded again, and he bowed in a little series of jerky bobs that waggled his coat tails. Heels close together, knees close together, a German bow, and then a polite series of bobs addressed to Stock and his orchestra. Stock's long, slim hands poised in air. His fingertips seemed to draw from the men before him the first poignant strains of Theodore's concerto. Theodore stood, slim and straight. Fanny's face lifted toward him was a prayerful thing. Theodore suddenly jerked back the left lapel of his coat in a little movement. Fanny remembered as typical in his boyish days, nuzzled his violin tenderly, and began to play. It's the most excruciating of instruments, the violin, or the most exquisite. I think Fanny actually heard very little of his playing. Her hands were icy, her cheeks were hot. The man before her was not Theodore Brandeis, the violinist, but Teddy, the bright hair-nickered schoolboy, who played to those people seated in the yellow wooden pews of the temple in Winnebago. The years seemed to fade away. He crouched over his violin to get the cellotones for which he was to become famous. And it was the same hunched, almost awkward pose that the boy had used. Fanny found herself watching his feet as he shifted his position. He was nervous, and he was not taken out of himself. She knew that because she saw the play of his muscles about the jawbone. It followed that he was not playing his best. She could not tell that from listening to him. Her music sense was dulled. She got it from these outward signs. The woman next to her was reading a program absorberly, turning the pages regularly and with care. Fanny could have killed her with her two hands. She tried to listen detachmentally. The music was familiar to her. Theodore had played it for her again and again. The last movement had never failed to shake her emotionally. It was the glorious and triumphant cry of a people tried and unafraid. She heard it now, unmoved. And then Theodore was bowing his little jerky bowels, and he was shaking hands with stock and with the first vial in. He was gone. Fanny sat with her hands in her lap. The applause continued. Theodore appeared again, bowed. He bent very low now with his arms hanging straight. There was something gracious and courtly about him, and foreign. He must keep that, Fanny thought. They like it. She saw him off again. More applause. Encore's were against the house rules. She knew that. Then it meant they were pleased. He was to play again. A group of Hungarian dances this time. They were wild gypsy things rising to frenzy at times. He played them with spirit and poetry. To listen sent the blood singing through the veins. Fanny found herself thinking clearly and exaltedly. This is what my mother judged for and died for, and it was worth it. And you must do the same if necessary. Nothing else matters. What he needs now is luxury. He's worn out with fighting. Ease, peace, leisure. You've got to give them to him. It's no use, Fanny. You lose. In that moment she reached a mark in her spiritual career that she was to out-distance but once. Theodore was bowing again. Fanny has scarcely realized that he had finished. The concert was over. The group of dances the man behind her was saying as he helped the girl next to him with her coat. But I didn't like that first thing. Church music, not concert. Fanny found her way back to the ante-room. Theodore was talking to the conductor and one or two others. He looked tired and his eyes found Fanny's with appeal and relief in them. She came over to him. There were introductions. Congratulations. Fanny slipped her hand over his with a firm pressure. Come, dear, you must be tired. At the door they found Fenger waiting. Theodore received his well-worded congratulations with an ill-concealed scowl. My car is waiting, said Fenger. Won't you let me take you home? A warning pressure from Theodore. Thanks, no. We have a car. Theodore is very tired. I can quite believe that. Not tired, growled Theodore like a great boy. I'm hungry, starved. I never eat before playing. Kurt Stein, Theodore's manager, had been hovering over him solicitously. You must remember to-morrow night. I should advise you to rest now as quickly as possible. He, too, glared at Fenger. Fenger fell back almost humbly. I have great news for you. I must see you Sunday, after this is over. I'll telephone you. Don't try to come to work to-morrow. All this in a hurried aside to Fanny. Fanny nodded and moved away with Theodore. Theodore leaned back in the car, but there was no hint of relaxation. He was as tense and vibrant as one of his own violin strings. It went, didn't it? They're like clods, these American audiences. It was on the tip of Fanny's tongue to say that he had professed indifference to audiences, but she wisely refrained. Gad, I'm hungry. What makes this Fenger hang around so? I'm going to tell him to keep away some day, the way he stares at you. Let's go somewhere to-night, fan, or have some people in. I can't sit about after I've played. Olga always used to have a supper party or something. All right, Ted, would you like to go to the theatre? For the first time in her life she felt a little whisper of sympathy for the despised Olga. Perhaps, after all, she had not been holy to blame. He was to leave Sunday morning for Cleveland, where he would play Monday. He had insisted on taking Missy with him, though Fanny had railed and stormed. Theodore had had his way. She's used to it. She likes to travel, don't you, Missy? You should have seen her in Russia and all over Germany and in Sweden. She's a better traveller than her dad. Saturday morning's papers were kind but cool. They used words such as promising, uneven, overambitious, gifted. Theodore crumbled the lot into a ball and hurled them across the room, swearing horribly. Then he smoothed them out, clipped them, and saved them carefully. His playing that night was tinge with bravado, and the Saturday evening audience rose to it. There was about his performance a glow, a spirit that had been lacking on the previous day. Inconsistently enough, he missed the antagonism of the European critics. He was puzzled and resentful. They hardly say a word about the meaning of the concerto. They accept it as a piece of music, Jewish and theme. It might as well have been entitled Springtime. This isn't France or Russia, said Fanny. Antagonism here isn't religious. It's personal, almost. You've been away so many years you've forgotten. They don't object to us as a sect or a race, but as a type. That's the trouble, Clarence Hale says. We're free to build as many synagogues as we like, and worship in them all day if we want to, but we don't want to. The struggle isn't racial any more, but individual. For some reason or other, one flashy, loud-talking Hebrew in a restaurant can cause more ill feeling than ten thousand of them holding a religious mass meeting in Union Square. Theodore pondered a moment. Then here each one of us is responsible, is that it? I suppose so. But look here. I've been here ten weeks, and I've met your friends, and one of them is a Jew. How's that? Fanny flushed a little. Oh, it just worked out that way. Theodore looked at her hard. You mean you worked it out that way? Yes. Then were a couple of weaklings, both of us, to have sprung from a mother like ours. I don't know which is worse, my selfishness or yours. Then at the hurt that showed in her face he was all contrition. Forgive me, sis. You've been wonderful to me, and to Missy, and to all of us. I'm a good for nothing fiddler, that's all. You're the strong one. Fanger had telephoned her on Saturday. He and his wife were at their place in the country. Fanny was to take the train out there Sunday morning. She looked forward to it with a certain relief. The weather had turned unseasonably warm, as Chicago October's sometimes do. Up to the last moment she had tried to shake Theodore's determination to take Missy and Otte with him, but he was stubborn. I've got to have her, he said. Michael Fanger's voice over the telephone had been as vibrant with suppressed excitement as Michael Fanger's dry hard tones could be. Fanny, it's done. Finished, he said. We had a meeting today. This is my last month with Haines Cooper. But you can't mean it. Why, you are Haines Cooper. How can they let you go? I can't tell you now. We'll go over it all to-morrow. I've new plans. They've bought me out, do you see? At a price that, well, I thought I'd got used to juggling millions at Haines Cooper, but this surprised even me. Will you come? Early? Take the A-10. That's too early. I'll get the ten. The mid-October country was a lovely thing. Fanny with the strains of Theodore's debut and leave-taking behind her, and the prospect of a high-tension business talk with Fanger ahead, rank in the beauty of the wayside woods, gratefully. Fanger met her at the station. She had never seen him so boyish, so exuberant, he almost pranced. Hop in, he said. He had driven down in a runabout. Brother, get off all right. Gad, he can play, and you've made the whole thing possible. He turned to look at her. You're a wonder. In your present frame of mind and state of being, laughed Fanny, you'd consider anyone a wonder. You're so pleased with yourself, you're fairly gummy. Fanger laughed softly and sped the car on. They turned in at the gate. There was Scarlet Salvia now to take the place of the Red Geraniums. The gay awnings, too, were gone. This is our last week, Fanger explained. It's too cold out here for Catherine. We're moving into town to-morrow. We're more or less camping out here with only the Jap to take care of us. Don't apologize, please. I'm just grateful to be here after the week I've had. Let's have the news now. We'll have lunch first. I'm afraid you'll have to excuse Catherine. She probably won't be down for lunch. The Jap had spread the luncheon table on the veranda, but a brisk lake breeze had sprung up, and he was busy now transferring his table from the porch to the dining-room. Would you have believed it, said Fanger, when you left town? Good old lake! Mrs. Fanger coming down? To the man. The Jap shook his head. Nossa! Their talk at luncheon was all about Theodore and his future. Fanger said that what Theodore needed was a firm and guiding hand, a sort of combination manager and slave-driver. An ambitious and intelligent wife would do it. That's what we all need, a woman to work for and to make us work. Fanny smiled. Missy will have to be woman enough, I'm afraid. Poor Ted. They rose. Now for the talk, said Fanger. But the telephone had sounded shrilly a moment before, and the omnipresent little Jap summoned Fanger. He was back in a minute, frowning. It's Haines. I'm sorry. I'm afraid it'll take a half-hour of telephoning. Don't you want to take a catnap or stroll down to the lake? Don't bother about me. I'll probably take a run outdoors. Be back in half an hour. But when she returned he was still at the telephone. She got a book and stretched luxuriously among the cushions of one of the great lounging chairs, and fell asleep. When she awoke Fanger was seated opposite her. He was not reading. He was not smoking. He evidently had been sitting there, looking at her. Oh! Gracious! Mouth open? No. Fanny foot down an impulse to look as cross as she felt. What time? Why didn't you wake me? The house was very quiet. She patted her hair deftly, straightened her collar. Where is everybody? Is it Mrs. Fanger down yet? No. Don't you want to hear about my plans now? Of course I do. That's what I came for. I don't see why you didn't tell me hours ago. Hear as slow an action as a Chinese play. Out with it! Fanger got up and began to pace the floor. Not excitedly, but with an air of repression. He looked very powerful and compelling. There in the low-ceilinged, luxurious room. I'll make it brief. We met yesterday in Haines's office. Of course we had discussed the thing before. You know that. Haines knew that I'd never run the plant under the new conditions. Why, it would kill every efficiency rule I've ever made. Here I had trimmed that enormous plant down to a fighting weight. There wasn't a useless inch or ounce about the whole enormous billionaire bulk of it, and then to have Haines come along with his burdensome notions and his socialistic slop. They'd cripple any business no matter how great a start it had. I told him all that. We didn't waste much time on argument, though. We knew we'd never get together. In half an hour we were talking terms. You know my contract and the amount of stock I hold. Well, we threshed that out, and Haines is settling for two million and a half. He came to a stop before Fanny's chair. Two million and a half, what? asked Fanny feebly. Dollars! he smiled rather grimly, in a check. One check. One check. Fanny digested that in her orderly mind. I thought I was used to thinking in millions, but this I'd like to touch the check just once. You shall. He drew up a chair near her. Now get this, Fanny. There's nothing that you and I can't do with two millions and a half. Nothing. We know this mail order game as no two people in the world know it, and it's in its infancy. I know the technical side of it. You know the human side of it. I tell you that in five years' time you and I can be a national power, not merely the heads of a prosperous mail order business, but figures in finance. See what's happened to Haines Cooper in the last five years. Why, it's incredible. It's grotesque. And it's nothing to what you and I can do, working together. You know people, somehow. You've a genius for sensing their wants or feelings or emotions. I don't know just what it is. And I know facts. And we have two million and a half, and I can make it nearly three millions to start with. Haines, fifteen years ago, had a couple of hundred thousand. In five years, we can make the Haines Cooper organization look as modern and competent as a crossroad store. This isn't a dream. These are facts. You know how my mind works, like a cold chisel. I can see this whole country, and Europe, too, after the war. God, yes. Stretched out before us like a patient before expert surgeons. You to attend to its heart, and I to its bones and ligaments. I can put you where no other woman has ever been. I have a hundred new plans this minute, and a hundred more waiting to be born. So have you. I tell you it's just a matter of buildings, of bricks and stone and machinery, and people to make the machinery go. Once we get those, and it's only a matter of months, we can accomplish things I dare not even dream of. What was Haines Cooper fifteen years ago? What was the North American Cloak and Suit Company? The Peter Johnston Stores of New York? Wells-Kaiser? Nothing. They didn't exist. And this year, Haines Cooper is declaring a twenty-five percent dividend. Do you get what that means? But of course you do. That's the wonder of it. I never need to explain things to you. You've a genius for understanding. Fanny had been sitting back in her chair, crouching almost, her eyes fixed upon the man's face, so terrible in its earnestness and indomitable strength. When he stopped talking now and stood looking down at her, she rose too, her eyes still on his face. She was twisting the fingers of one hand and the fingers of the other in a frightened sort of way. I'm not really a businesswoman. I—wait a minute, please. I have a knack of knowing what people are thinking and wanting, but that isn't business. It isn't, eh? It's the finest kind of business sense. It's the thing the bugs call psychology, and it's as necessary today as capital was yesterday. You can get along without the last. You can't without the first. One can be acquired. The other, you've got to be born with. But I—you know, of late, it's only the human side of it that has appealed to me. I don't know why. I seem to have lost interest in the actual mechanics of it. Fanger stood looking at her, his head lowered. A scarlet stripe that she had never noticed before seemed to stand out suddenly like a welt on his forehead. Then he came toward her. She raised her hand in a little futile gesture. She took an involuntary step backward, encountered the chair she had just left, and sank into it coweringly. She sat there, looking up at him, fascinated. His hand on the wing of the great chair was shaking. So, too, was his voice. Fanny. Catherine's not here. Fanny still looked up at him, wordlessly. Catherine left here yesterday. She's in town. Then at the look in her face. She was here when I telephoned you yesterday. Late yesterday afternoon she had one of her fantastic notions. She insisted that she must go into town. It was too cold for her here. Too damp. Too—well, she went. And I let her go. And I didn't telephone you again. I wanted you to come. Fanny Brandeis, knowing him, must have felt a great qualm of terror and helplessness. But she was angry, too, a wholesome ingredient in a situation such as this. The thing she said and did now was inspired. She laughed. A little uncertainly it is true, but still she laughed. And she said, in a matter of fact tone, well, I must say that's a rather shabby trick. Still I suppose the tired businessman has got to have his little melodrama. What do I do? Beat my breast and howl or pound on the door panel? Fanger stood looking at her. Don't laugh at me, Fanny. She stood up, still smiling. It was a rather brilliant piece of work. Fanger, taken out of himself though he was, still was artist enough to appreciate it. Why not laugh, she said, if I'm amused. And I am. Come now, Mr. Fanger. Be serious. And let's get back to the billions. I want to catch the five-fifteen. I am serious. Well, if you expect me to play the hunted heroine, I'm sorry. She pointed an accusing finger at him. I know now you're quitting Haynes Cooper for the movies, and this is a rehearsal for a vampire film. You nervy little devil you! He reached out with one great, irresistible hand and gripped her shoulder. You wonderful, glorious girl! The hand that gripped her shoulder swung her to him. She saw his face with veins she had never noticed before, standing out, in knots on his temples, and his eyes were fixed and queer. And he was talking rather incoherently and rapidly. He was saying the same thing over and over again. I'm crazy about you. I've been looking for a woman like you all my life. I'm crazy about you. I'm crazy. And then Vanny's fine composure and self-control fled, and she thought of her mother. She began to struggle, too, and to say, like any other girl, Let me go. Let me go. You're hurting me. Let me go. You. You. And then, quite clearly, from that part of her brain where it had been tucked away until she should need it, came Clarence Hale's whimsical bit of advice. Her mind released it now, complete. If you double your fist this way and tuck your thumb alongside like that, and aim for this spot right here, about two inches this side of the chin, bringing your arm back and up quickly like a piston, the person you hit will go down limp. There's a nerve right here that communicates with the brain. The blow makes you see stars and bright lights. She went limp in his arms. She shut her eyes, flutteringly. All men like you have a yellow streak, she whispered, and opened her eyes and looked up at him, smiling a little. He relaxed his hold in surprise and relief. And with her eyes on that spot, barely two inches to the side of the chin, she brought her right arm down slowly, slowly, fist doubled, and then up like a piston, snap. His teeth came together with a sharp little crack. His face in that second was a comic mask, surprised, stunned, almost idiotic. Then he went down, as Clarence Hale had predicted, limp, not with a crash, but slowly, crumpingly, so that he almost dragged her with him. Fanny stood looking down at him a moment, then she wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. She walked out of the room and down the hall. She saw the little jab dart suddenly back from a doorway, and she stamped her foot and said, as if he had been a rat. She gathered up her hat and bag from the hall table, and so out of the door and down the walk to the road. And then she began to run. She ran and ran and ran. It was the longest stretch to the pretty vine-covered station. She seemed unconscious of fatigue or distance. She must have been at least a half hour on the way. When she reached the station, the ticket agent told her there was no train until six, so she waited quietly. She put on her hat. She had carried it in her hand all the way, and patted her hair into place. When the train came, she found a seat quite alone, and sank into its corner and rested her head against her open palm. It was not until then that she felt a stab of pain. She looked at her hand and saw that the skin of her knuckles was bruised and bleeding. Well, if this, she said to herself, isn't the most idiotic thing that ever happened to a woman outside a near-novel. She looked at her knuckles critically, as though the hand belonged to someone else. Then she smiled, and even as she smiled a great lump came into her throat, and the bruise blurred before her eyes, and she was crying rackingly, relievedly huddled there in her red-plush corner. CHAPTER 18 It was eight o'clock when she let herself into her apartment. She had given the maid a whole holiday. When Fanny had turned on the light in her little hallway, she stood there a moment against the door, her hand spread flat against the panel. It was almost as though she patted it lovingly, gratefully. Then she went on into the living-room, and stood looking at its rosy lamp-light. Then, still as though seeing it all for the first time, into her own quiet, cleanly bedroom, with its cream enamel and the chaise lounge that she had cushioned in rose because it contrasted so becomingly with her black hair. And there on her dressing-table, propped up against the brushes and bottles, was the yellow oblong of a telegram. From Theodore, of course. She opened it with a rush of happiness. It was like a loving hand held out to her in need. It was a day-letter. We sail Monday on the St. Paul. Missy is with me. I broke my word to you, but you lie to me about the letters. I found them the week before the concert. I shall bring her back with me, or stay to fight for Germany. Forgive me, dear sister. Just fifty words, his thrifty German training. No! cried Fanny aloud. No, no! And the cry quavered and died away, and another took its place, and it, too, gave way to another, so that she was moaning as she stood there with the telegram in her shaking hand. She read it again, her lips moving, as old people sometimes read. Then she began to whimper, with her closed fist over her mouth, her whole body shaking. All her fine courage gone now, all her rigid self-discipline, all her iron determination. She was not a tearful woman, and she had wept much on the train. So the thing that wrenched and shook her now was all the more horrible because of its soundlessness. She walked up and down the room, pushing her hair back from her forehead with the flat of her hand. From time to time she smoothed out the crumpled yellow slip of paper, and read it again. Her mind, if you could have seen into it, would have presented a confused and motley picture. Something like this, but his concert engagements. That was what had happened to Bauer. How silly he had looked when her fist met his jaw. It had turned cold, why didn't they have steam on? The middle of October. Teddy, how could you do it? How could you do it? Was he still lying on a heap on the floor? But of course the sneaking little chap had found him. Somebody to talk to. That was what she wanted. Someone to talk to. Someone to talk to. She stood there in the middle of her lamp-lighted living-room, and she held out her hands in silent appeal. Someone to talk to. In her mind she went over the list of those whose lives had touched hers in the last few crowded years. Fanger, fascinating facts. Elemonahan. Nathan Haynes. All the gay, careless men and women she had met from time to time through Fanger and fascinating facts. Not one of them could she turn to now. Clarence Hale. She breathed a sigh of relief. Clarence Hale. He had helped her once, today, and now for the second time something that he had said long ago came from its hiding place in her subconscious mind. She had said, Some days I feel I've got to walk out of the office and down the street without a hat, and on and on, walking and walking, and running and running till I come to the horizon. And Hale had answered in his quiet, reassuring way. Some day that feeling will get too strong for you. When that time comes, get on a train, Mark Denver. From there, take another to Estes Park. That's the Rocky Mountains, where the horizon lives and has its being. Ask for Hale's place. They'll hand you from one to the other. I may be there, but more likely I shan't. The keys in the mailbox tie to a string. You'll find a fire laid with fat pine knots. My books are there, the beddings in the cedar chest, and the mountains will make you clean and whole again, and the pines— Fanny went to the telephone, trains for Denver. She found the road she wanted and asked for information. She was on her own ground here. All her life she had had to find her own trains, check her own trunks, plan her journeys. Sometimes she had envied the cotton wool woman who had had all these things done for them always. One half of her mind was working clearly and coolly. The other half was numb. There were things to be done. They would take a day. More than a day, but she would neglect most of them. She must notify the office. There were tickets to be got, reservations, money at the bank, packing. When the maid came in at eleven, Fanny had suitcases and bags out, and her bedroom was strewn with shoes, skirts, coats. Late Monday afternoon, Fanger telephoned. She did not answer. Then came a note from him, then a telegram. She did not read them. Tuesday found her on a train bound for Colorado. She remembered little of the first half of her journey. She had brought her books and magazines, and she must have read them, but her mind had evidently retained nothing of what she had read. She must have spent hours looking out of the window, for she remembered long afterward the endlessness and monotony of the Kansas prairies. They soothed her. She was glad there were no bits of autumn woodland, no tantalizing vistas, nothing to break the flat and boundless immensity of it. Here was something big and bountiful and real and primal, good Kansas dirt, miles of it, miles of it. She felt she would like to get out and tramp on it, hard. Pretty cold up there in Estes Park, the conductor had said, been snowing up in the mountains. She had arranged to stop in Denver only long enough to change trains. A puffy little branch line was to take her from Denver to Loveland, and there she had been told one of the big mountain road steam automobiles would take her up the mountains to her destination. For one as mentally alert as she normally was, the exact location of that destination was very hazy in her mind. Hale's place, that was all. Ordinarily she would have found the thought ridiculous, but she concentrated on it now, clung to it. At the first glimpse of the foothills, Fanae's listless gaze became interested. If you have ever traveled on the jerky, cleanly, meandering little road that runs between Denver and the park, you know that it winds and curves, so that the mountains seem to leap about friscally, first confronting you on one side of the car window, then disappearing and seeming to taunt you from the windows of the opposite side. Fanae laughed aloud. The mountain steam car was waiting at Loveland. There were few passengers at this time of year. The driver was a great, tanned, giant, hanji-colored from his hair to his bates and boots. Fanae was to learn later that in Estes Park the male tourist was likely to be puny, pallid and unattractive when compared to the tall, slim, straight, khaki-clad youth, brown by the sun and the wind and the dust, who drives his steamer up and down the perilous mountain roads with more dexterity than the charioteering gods ever displayed on Olympus. Fanae got the seat beside this glorious person. The steamer was a huge vehicle, boasting five rows of seats and looking very much like a small addition of the sight-seeing cars one finds in tourist-infested cities. Hale's place, said Fanae. Suppose it failed to work. Said the blonde god. Stopping at the inn overnight, I suppose. Why, I don't know, faltered Fanae. Can't I go right on to—to Hale's place? Can. Mountain steamer men are not loquacious. Sure. Better not. You will get to the inn till dark. Better stay there overnight and go on up to Hale's place in the morning. Then he leaned forward, clawed about expertly, among what appeared to Fanae's eyes to be a maze of handles, brakes, valves, and the great car glided smoothly off without a bump, without a jar. Fanae took a long breath. There is no describing a mountain. One uses words, and they are futile, and the Colorado Rockies in October when the Aspins are turning. Well, Aspins turn gold in October. People who have seen an aspen grove in October believe in fairies, and such people need no clumsy descriptive passages to aid their fancies. You others who have not seen it? There shall be no poor weaving together of words. There shall be no description of orange and mauve and flame-colored sunsets, no juggling with mists and clouds and sunrises and purple mountains. Mountain dwellers and mountain lovers are a laconic tribe. They know the futility of words. But the effect of the mountains on Fanae Brandeis, that is within our province. In the first place, they made her hungry. That was the crisp, heady air. The mountain road, to one who has never traveled it, is a thing of delicious thrills and near terror. A narrow, perilous ribbon of road cut in the side of the rock itself. A road all horseshoe curves and hairpin twists. Fanae found herself gasping, but that passed after a time. Big Thompson Canyon leaves no room for petty terror, and the Ponchy person was so competent, so quietly sure, so angrily graceful among his breaks and levers. Fanae stole a side glance at him now and then. He looked straight ahead. When you drive a mountain steamer, you do look straight ahead. A glance to right or left is so likely to mean death, or at best a sowsing in the Thompson that foams and rushes below. Fanae ventured a question. Do you know Mr. Hale? Hale took him down day before yesterday. Down? To the village he's gone back east. Fanae was not quite sure whether the pang she felt was relief or consternation. At Esty's village the blonde god handed her over to a twin charioteer, who would drive her up the mountain road to the inn that nestled in a valley nine thousand feet up the mountain. It was a drive Fanae never forgot. Fanger, Ted, Haynes Cooper, her work, her plans, her ambitions seemed to dwindle to puny insignificance beside the vast grandeur that unfolded before her at every fresh turn in the road. Up they went, and up and up, and the air was cold but without a sting in it. It was dark when the lights of the inn twinkled out of them. The door was thrown open as they swung up the curve to the porch, a great log fire glowed in the fireplace. The dining room held only a dozen people or thereabouts, a dozen weary, healthy people in corduroy's and sweaters and boots, whose cleanly talk was all about climbing and fishing and horseback rides and trails. And it was fried chicken night at the inn. Fanae thought she was too utterly tired to eat until she began to eat, and then she thought she was too hungry ever to stop. After dinner she sat for a moment before the log fire in the low-ceiling groom with its log walls, its rustic benches, and its soft-toned green and brown cushions. She forgot to be unhappy, she forgot to be anything but deliciously drowsy, and presently she climbed the winding stair whose newell post was a fire-marked tree-trunk richly colored and curiously twisted, and so to her lamplighted room, very small, very clean, very quiet. She opened her window and looked out at the towering mass that was Long's Peak, and at the stars, and she heard the busy little brook that scurries through the inn yard on its way from the mountain to the valley. She undressed quickly, and crept into bed, meaning to be very, very miserable indeed. And the next thing she knew it was morning, a blue and gold October morning, and the mountains. But there is no describing a mountain. One uses words, and they are futile. Fanny viewed them again from her window between pauses and dressing, and she meant privately to be miserable again. But she could only think, somehow, of bacon and eggs, and coffee and muffins. End of Chapter 18 Chapter 19 of Fanny herself This is a LibriVox recording. All LibriVox recordings are in the public domain. For more information or to volunteer, please visit LibriVox.org. Fanny herself by Edna Ferber Chapter 19 Hale's Place And the mountains are there, girl, to make you clean and whole again. She stepped up to the little log-pillared porch and turned the key in the lock. She opened the door wide and walked in. And then she shut her eyes for a moment, because, if it shouldn't be true, but there was a fire laid with fat pine knots. She walked straight over to it and took her box of matches from her bag, struck one, and held it to the wood. They blazed like a torch. Books, along the four walls, books. Fat, comfortable, used-looking books. Hundreds of them. A lamp on the table, and beside it a pipe, blackened from much use. Fanny picked it up, smiling. She held it a moment in her hand, as though she expected to find it still warm. It's like one of the fairy tales, she thought, the kind that repeats and repeats. The kind that says, and she went into the next room, and it was as the good fairy had said. There's tin stuff in the pantry. She went into the tiny kitchen and opened the pantry door cautiously, being wary of mice. But it met her eye in spotless array, orderly rows of tins, orderly rows of bottles, coffee, condensed milk, beans, spaghetti, flour, peaches, pears. Off the bedroom there was an absurdly adequate little bathroom, with a zinc tub, and an elaborate water-heating arrangement. Fanny threw back her head and laughed, as she hadn't laughed in months. Wild life in the Rockies, she said aloud. She went back to the book-lined living-room. The fire was crackling gloriously. It was a many-windowed room, and each window framed an enchanting glimpse of mountain, flaming with aspens up to the timber-line, and snow-capped at the top. Fanny decided to wait until the fire had died down to a coal-bed. Then she banked it carefully, put on a heavy sweater and a cap. And made for the outdoors. She struck out briskly, tenderfoot that she was. In five minutes she was panting. Her heart was hammering suffocatingly. Her lungs ached. She stopped trembling. Then she remembered. The altitude, of course. Hale had boasted that his cabin stood at an altitude of over nine thousand feet. Well, she would have to get used to it. But she was soon striding forward as briskly as before. She was a natural mountain-dweller. The air, the altitude, speeded up her heart, her lungs, sent the blood dancing through her veins. Figuratively, she was on tiptoe. They had warned her at the inn to take it slowly for the first few days. They had asked no questions. Fanny learned to heed their advice. She learned many more things in the next few days. She learned how to entice the chipmunks that crossed her path, streak a sunshine, streak a shadow. She learned to broil bacon over a fire with a fork-stick. She learned to ride trail-ponies and to bask in a sun-warm spot on a windswept hill, and to tell time by the sun, and to give thanks for the beauty of the world about her, and to leave the wildflowers unpicked. To put out her campfire with scrupulous care, and to destroy all rubbish, your true woodsman and mountaineer is as painstakingly neat as a French housewife. She was out of doors all day. At night she read for a while before the fire, but by night her eyelids were heavy. She walked down to the inn sometimes, but not often. One memorable night she went, with half a dozen others from the inn, to the tiny one-room cabin of Oscar, the handyman about the inn. And there she listened to one of Oscar's far-famed phonograph concerts. Oscar's phonograph had cost twenty-five dollars in Denver. It stood in one corner of his cabin, and its base was a tree stump just five hundred years old, as you could tell for yourself by counting its rings. His cabin-walls were gorgeous with pictures of Maxine Elliott in her palmy days, and blonde and sophisticated little girls on vinegar calendars, posing bare-legged and self-conscious in blue calico and sunbonnets. You sat in the warm yellow glow of Oscar's lamp, and were regaled with everything from the sweetest national anthem to Mishka Elman's tenderest crooning. And Oscar sat wrapped, his weather-beaten face a rich deep mahogany, his eyes bluer than any eyes could ever be except in contrast with that ruddy countenance, his teeth so white that you found yourself watching for his smile that was so gently sweet and childlike. So when Oscar put on his black pants and issued invitations for a musical evening, one was sure to find his cap unpacked. Eight did it with squeezing. This, then, was the atmosphere in which Fanny Brandeis found herself, as far from Haynes Cooper as anything could be. At the end of the first week she found herself able to think clearly and unemotionally about Theodore and about Fanger. She had even evolved a certain rather crude philosophy out of the ruins that had tumbled about her ears. It was so crude, so unformed in her mind, that it can hardly be set down. To justify one's own existence. That was all that life held or meant. But that included all the lives that touched on yours. It had nothing to do with success, as she had counted success here to fore. It was service, really. It was living as, well, as Molly Brandeis had lived, helpfully, self-effacingly, magnificently. Fanny gave up trying to form the thing that was growing in her mind. Perhaps, after all, it was too soon to expect a complete understanding of that which had worked this change in her from that afternoon in Fanger's library. After the first few days she found less and less difficulty in climbing. Her astonished heart and lungs ceased to object so strenuously to the unaccustomed work. The cabin rock trail, for example, whose summit found her panting and exhausted at first, now seemed a mere stroll. She grew more daring and ambitious. One day she climbed the longest peak trail to Timberline and had tea at Timberline Cabin with Albert Edward Cobbins. Albert Edward Cobbins, Englishman, erstwhile sailor, adventurer, and gentleman, was the keeper of Timberline Cabin and the loneliest man in the Rockies. It was his duty to house overnight climbers bound for the peak, sunrise parties, and sunset parties, all too few now in the chill October season end. Fanny was his first visitor in three days. He was pathetically glad to see her. I'll have tea for you, he said, in a jiffy, and I baked a pen of French rolls ten minutes ago. I had a feeling. A magnificent specimen of a man, over six feet tall, slim, broad-shouldered, long-headed, and scrub-looking, as only an Englishman can be. There was something almost pathetic in the sight of him bustling about the rickety little kitchen stove. Tomorrow, said Fanny over her tea, I'm going to get an early start, reach here by noon, and go on to Boulder Field, and maybe Keyhole. Better not, miss. Not in October, when there's likely to be a snowstorm up there in a minute's notice. You'd come and find me, wouldn't you? They always do in the books. Books are all very well, miss, but I'm not a mountain man. The truth is, I don't know my way fifty feet from this cabin. I got the job because I'm used to loneliness, and don't mind it, and because I can cook, do you see? Having shipped is cook for years, but I'm a seafaring man, miss. I wouldn't advise it, miss. Another cup of tea. But Long's peak, King of the Range, had fascinated her from the first. She knew that the climb to the summit would be impossible for her now, but she had an overwhelming desire to see the terrifying bulk of it from a point midway of the Range. It beckoned her and intrigued her, as the difficult always did. By noon of the following day she had left Albert Edward's cabin. He stood looking after her in the doorway until she disappeared around the bend, and was jauntily following the trail that led to Boulder Field, that sea of jagged rock a mile across. Soon she had left the tortured, wind-twisted timber-lined trees far behind. How pitiful Cabin Rock and Twin Sisters looked compared to this. She climbed easily and steadily, stopping for brief rest. Early in the week she had ridden down to the village, where she had bought climbing breeches and stout leggings. She laughed at Albert Edward and his fears. By one o'clock she had reached Boulder Field. She found the rocks glazed with ice. Just over Keyhole, that freakish vent in a wall of rock, the blue of the sky had changed to the gray of snow-clouds. Tenderfoot though she was, she knew that the climb over Boulder Field would be perilous, if not impossible. She went on from rock to rock for half an hour, then decided to turn back. A clap of thunder that roared and crashed, and cracked up and down the canyons and over the peaks, hastened her decision. She looked about her, peak on peak, purple and black and yellow masses fantastic in their hugeness, chasms, canyons, pyramids and minarets, and so near, so grim, so ghastly desolate, and yet so threatening. And then Fanny Brandeis was seized with mountain terror. It is a disease recognized by mountain men everywhere, and it is panic, pure and simple. It is fear brought on by the immensity and the silence of the mountains. A great horror of the vastness and ruggedness came upon her. It was colossal, it was crushing, it was nauseating. She began to run, a mistake that, when one is following a mountain trail, at best an elusive thing. In five minutes she had lost the trail. She stopped and scolded herself sternly, and looked about her. She saw the faint trail line again, or thought she saw it, and made toward it, and found it to be no trail at all. She knew that she must not be more than an hour's walk from Timberline Cabin and Albert Edward and his biscuits and tea. Why be frightened? It was absurd. But she was frightened, horribly, harrowingly. The great grim rock masses seemed to be shaking with silent laughter. She began to run again. She was very cold, and a piercing wind had sprung up. She kept on walking doggedly, reasoning with herself quite calmly and proud of her calmness, which proves how terrified she really was. Then the snow came, not slowly, not gradually, but a blanket of it, as it does come in the mountains, shutting off everything. And suddenly Fanny's terror vanished. She felt quite free from weariness. She was alive and tingling to her fingertips. The psychology of fear is a fascinating thing. Fanny had reached the second stage. She was quite taken out of herself. She forgot her stone bruised feet. She was no longer conscious of cold. She ran now fleetly, lightly, the ground seeming to spur her on. She had given up the trail completely now. She told herself that if she ran on, down, down, down, she must come to the valley some time. Unless she was turned about and headed in the direction of one of those hideous chasms. She stopped a moment, peering through the snow curtain, but she could see nothing. She ran on, lightly, laughing a little. Then her feet met a projection. She stumbled, and fell flat over a slab of wood that jutted out of the ground. She lay there a moment dazed. Then she sat up and bent down to look at this thing that had tripped her. Probably a tree trunk. Then she must be near Timberline. She bent closer. It was a rough, wooden slab. Closer still. There were words carved on it. She lay flat and managed to make them out painfully. Here lies Sarah Cannon, laid to rest and died alone, April 26, 1893. Fanny had heard the story of Sarah Cannon, a stern spinster who had achieved the climb to the peak and who had met with mishap on the down-trail. Her guide had left her to go for help, when the Relief Party returned hours later they had found her dead. Fanny sprang up, filled with a furious energy. She felt strangely light and clear-headed. She ran on, stopped, ran again. Now she was making little short runs here and there. It was snowing furiously, vindictively. It seemed to her that she had been running for hours. It probably was minutes. Suddenly she sank down, got to her feet again, stumbled on perhaps a dozen paces, and sank down again. It was as though her knees had turned liquid. She lay there with her eyes shut. I'm just resting, she told herself. In a minute I'll go on. In a minute, after I've rested. Hello! From somewhere on the other side of the snow blanket. Hello! Fanny sat up, hallowing shrilly hysterically. She got to her feet staggeringly, and Clarence Hale walked toward her. You ought to be spanked for this, he said. Fanny began to cry weakly. She felt no curiosity as to his being there. She wasn't at all sure that he actually was there, for that matter. At that thought she dug a frantic hand into his arm. He seemed to understand, for he said, It's all right, I'm real enough. Can you walk? Yes. But she tried it and found she could not. She decided that she was too tired to care. I stumbled over a thing. A horrible thing. A gravestone. And I must have hurt my leg. I didn't know. She leaned against him, a dead weight. Tell you what, said Hale cheerfully. You wait here. I'll go down to Timberline Cabin for help, and come back. You couldn't manage it alone, if I tried? If I tried to walk? Oh, impossible. His tone was brisk. Now you sit right down here. She sank down obediently. She felt a little sorry for herself, and glad, too, and queer, and not at all cold. She looked up at him dumbly. He was smiling. All right? She nodded. He turned abruptly. The snow hit him from sight at once. Here lies Sarah Cannon, laid to rest, and died alone, April 26, 1893. She sank down and pillowed her head on her arms. She knew that this was the end. She was very drowsy, and not at all sad. Happy, if anything. You didn't really think I'd leave you, did you, fan? She opened her eyes. Hale was there. He reached down and lifted her lightly to her feet. Timberline Cabin's not a hundred yards away. I just did it to try you. She had spirit enough left to say, Beast? Then he swung her up and carried her down the trail. He carried her not in his arms as they do in books and in the movies. He could not have gone a hundred feet that way. He carried her over his shoulder like a sack of meal by one arm and one leg I regret to say. Any Boy Scout knows that trick and will tell you what I mean. It is the most effectual carrying method known, though unromantic. And so they came to Timberline Cabin, and Albert Edward Cabin's was in the doorway. Hale put her down gently on the bench that ran alongside the table, the hospitable table that bore two smoking cups of tea. Fanny's lips were cracked and the skin was peeling from her nose, and her hair was straggling and her eyes red-rimmed. She drank the tea in great gulps, and then she went into the tiny bunk room and tumbled into one of the shelf-bunks and slept. When she awoke she sat up in terror and bumped her head against the bunk above and called, Clancy! Yep, from the next room. He came to the door. The accurate smell of their pipes was incense in her nostrils. Rested? What time is it? Seven o'clock. Dinner time. Ham and eggs. She got up stiffly and bathed her roughened face and produced a powder pad. They carried them in the face of danger, death, and dissolution and dusted it over her scaly nose. She did her hair, her vigorous, abundant hair that shone in the lamplight, pulled down her blouse, surveyed her torn shoes roofily, donned the khaki skirt that Albert Edward had magically produced from somewhere to take the place of her breeches. She dusted her shoes with a bit of rag, regarded herself steadily in the wavering mirror, and went in. The two men were talking quietly. Albert Edward was moving deathly from stove to table. They both looked up as she came in, and she looked at Hale. Their eyes held. Albert Edward was as sporting a gentleman as the late dear king whose name he bore. He went out to tend Hale's horse, he said. It was little he knew of horses, and he rather feared them as does a sailing man, but he went nevertheless. Hale still looked at Fanny and Fanny at him. It's absurd, said Fanny. It's the kind of thing that doesn't happen. It's simple enough, really, he answered. I saw Elemonahan in Chicago, and she told me all she knew, and something of what she had guessed. I waited a few days and came back. I had to. He smiled. A pretty job you've made of it trying to be selfish. At that she smiled, too, pitifully enough, for her lower lip trembled. She caught it between her teeth in a last sharp effort at self-control. Don't, she quavered. And then in a panic her two hands came up in a vain effort to hide the tears. She sank down on the rough bench by the table, and the proud head came down on her arms, so that there was a little clatter and tinkle among the supper things spread on the table. Then quiet. Clarence Hale stared. He stared helplessly, as does a man who has never, in all his life, been called upon to comfort a woman in tears. Then instinct came to his rescue. He made her side of the table in two strides. Your favorite film star couldn't have done it better. Put his two hands on her shoulders, and neatly shifted the bowed head from the cold, hard surface of the tabletop to the warm, rough, tobacco-scented comfort of his coat. It rested there quite naturally. Just as naturally Fanny's arm crept up and about his neck. So they remained for a moment, until he bent so that his lips touched her hair. Her head came up at that sharply so that it bumped his chin. They both laughed, looking into each other's eyes. But at what they saw there they stopped laughing and were serious. Dear, said Hale, dearest. The lids drooped over Fanny's eyes. Look at me, said Hale. So she tried to lift them again bravely and could not. At that he bent his head and kissed Fanny Brandeis in the way a woman wants to be kissed for the first time by the man she loves. It hurt her lips that kiss and her teeth and the back of her neck, and it left her breathless and set things whirling. When she opened her eyes they shut them at such times. He kissed her again, very tenderly this time and lightly and reassuringly. She returned that kiss and strangely enough it was the one that stayed in her memory long, long after the other had faded. Oh, Clancy, I've made such a mess of it all, such a miserable mess. The little girl in the red tan was worth ten of me. I don't see how you can care for me. You're the most wonderful woman in the world, said Hale, and the most beautiful and splendid. He must have meant it, for he was looking down at her as he said it, and we know that the skin had been peeled off her nose by the mountain winds and sun, that her lips were cracked and her cheeks rough, and that she was red-eyed and worn-looking. And she must have believed him, for she brought his cheek down to hers with such a sigh of content, though she said, but are we at all suited to each other? Probably not, Hale answered briskly. That's why we're going to be so terrifically happy. Someday I'll be passing the singer-building, and I'll glance up at it and think how pitiful it would look next to Long's Peak, and then I'll be off probably to these mountains. Or someday, Fanny returned, we'll be up here, and I'll remember suddenly how Fifth Avenue looks on a bright afternoon between four and five, and I'll be off, probably, to the Grand Central Station. And then began one of those beautiful and foolish conversations which all lovers have, whose love has been assured and steady growth, thus, when did you first begin to care, etc., and that day we spent at the dunes and you said so and so, did you mean this and that? Albert Edward Cobbins announced his approach by terrific stampings and scufflings, ostensibly for the purpose of ridding his boots of snow. He entered looking casual and very nipped. You're here for the night, he said, a regular blizzard, the greatest piece of luck I've had in a month. He busied himself with the ham and eggs and the teapot. Hungry? Not a bit, said Fanny and Hale, together. Hmm, said Albert Edward, and broke six eggs into the frying pan, just the same. After supper they aided Albert Edward in the process of washing up. When everything was tidy, he lighted his most malignant pipe and told them seafaring yarns, not necessarily true. Then he knocked the ashes out of his pipe and fell asleep there by the fire. He facing himself as effectually as one of three people can in a single room. They talked low-toned murmurings that they seemed to find exquisitely meaningful or witty by turn. Fanny, rubbing a forefinger, his, along her weather roughened nose, would say, at least you've seen me at my worst, or he, mock serious. I thought I ought to tell you I'm the kind of man who throws wet towels into the laundry hamper. But there was no mirth in Fanny's voice when she said, dear, do you think Lasker will give me that job? You know he said, when you want a job, come back? Do you think he meant it? Lasker always means it. But, fearfully, and shyly, too, you don't think I may have lost my drawing hand and my seeing eye, do you, as punishment? I do not. I think you've just found them for keeps. There wasn't a woman cartoonist in the country, or man either, for that matter, could touch you two years ago. In two more, I'll just be Fanny Brandeis's husband, that's all. They laughed together at that, so that Albert Edward Cobbins awoke with a start, and tried to look as if he had not been asleep, and failing, smiled benignly and drowsily upon them.