 My name is Angela and I was molested as a little girl that brought a lot of insecurities fears Growing up. I just felt like I wasn't the same little girl anymore. I Was very young when I got with my husband now We were 17 years old when we got together There was just a lot of abuse emotionally Physically, I became a mom at a very very young age. Remember my dad Wanted me to stay as far away from as possible for him and he said, you know, you just need to stay away from him And he just didn't want me with him He said that I was gonna suffer and I was gonna go through a lot of things that I didn't need to that I didn't deserve and I didn't listen. I still stayed with him after we lost our first child I started drinking a lot I started drinking like heavy sometimes I would want to drink so much that it just kind of just pass out And and started smoking weed and things like that The the alcohol and smoking weed made it to where it was like it just became something that was part of my life Just drinking and thinking that that's the way I was supposed to be I got pregnant with my oldest child and I Could say that that's where things really started. I remember being afraid. I remember wanting to go back home. I Just didn't know how to the abuse continued Emotionally Physically it it it kind of got worse as it as we moved on after I had my kids and I saw Adrian I saw my husband and I saw Who he was as a father. I knew that that's what I wanted for my children Because the problem was it when he was sober. He was a good man when he was sober. It was when he was drunk It was like he had anger With the continuous use of alcohol it affected it affected the way I carried myself with my family it affected how much time I was drinking and and smoking and gambling and I was neglecting my wife. I was neglecting my children and and We as as I was drinking they were worrying about me whether I was going to come home whether I was going to get in an accident Whether I was going to be in jail They just didn't have peace as while I was drinking and while I was smoking weed and doing all these things so that affected my marriage it affected My mind said I wasn't I wasn't there sober I wasn't a good father and my daughter left my home and Had a lot to do with How I was drinking and treating people while I was drinking as I started coming to church I would come by myself and I would picture myself With my family sitting in the pews, you know picturing my husband and I With our children in church, you know, and I was saying I'm gonna have this one day I'm going to come and all of us are gonna be in church Genesis had asked us to be there with her for support for her the passing of her friend. We went to the funeral and Just the way that they held themselves after having such a great loss And being so sure and secure that they were going to see their son again in heaven, you know Just touched me. It touched me as a mother and it touched me. I wanted that same feeling, you know And so They did an altar call and they asked us if we wanted to give our life to christ and immediately, you know Without hesitation. I raised my hand And as I was going up and they asked us to go up. I saw that my husband had raised his hand too It came to a point where I had to surrender Everything To god in order for him to really do Something in my life every time I try to make a decision or to make a change on my own It wasn't it wasn't working So we both went together and we gave our life to christ there There's been no turning back since that day That's when that's when the change came in my life. That's when my family became to started to become more become restored is when that when when I started to to stop making To stop making choices for myself and allowed to be led by god and holy spirit and things like that That's when the true change in my life really came Because I tried doing it in my way and it didn't it didn't work And so god gave me the strength and he delivered me. He freed me from my alcohol Addictions might like my addictions to smoke a weed like it's different now that I I have a relationship with god and How the holy spirit feels me with such a of feeling That any alcohol or any weed would could do for me. I've been sober for two years now I started like just wanting more and more Um, I came to to the prayer line That's the first thing my husband and I after we gave our life to christ was we came through the prayer line And in my thought I always said, you know, I'm going to go to support my husband Like he needs deliverance. He needs it. He's he's the one that caused all this So he's the one that needs it But the deliverance was for me like as soon as I I came up for prayer line It I started, you know, I'm the one who got delivered. I was the one that started, you know, that got set free and so, um There was a lot of things that I was so, um Insecure in my in my marriage my intimacy. I just he set me free from so much of who I was You know, I I started to feel like I was a person again. Like I wasn't insecure I wasn't, you know, all those fears were just starting to shut away and so, um Yeah, we continued we continued to come to church ever since Recently we went and did a life class And that brought so much healing to both of us and you know individually And so that has made my relationship with God so much stronger I I feel him. I I know he's there when I pray when just everything in my life because if there's one thing that I Know I did right was surrendering my family my husband and my children After that everything has been Such a beautiful life that I get to enjoy with God at the center