 Whew, if my eyes look swollen or tired, it's because I'm exhausted. Um, I... This is one of the weird parts about having a YouTube channel where you talk about your life because, um, there are just things that sometimes you're not really ready to talk about, but you kind of... Not that I feel like I have to, but just I can't, I can't move forward. Um, until I talk about this, but... Unfortunately... Move passed away. I waited a little bit longer to film this just because... When this happened with Layla a month and a half ago, it was really like fresh and raw, and I just didn't give myself, I don't think, enough time to like process, so... I'm exhausted, um, Emotionally, and I'm just like so deflated and sad. Moe was 16, so he was definitely a senior cat, and he had been struggling with IBD. It's like a bowel disease, slash, and or cancer. We're still not entirely sure which one, um, and I would say in the last three, four weeks, we definitely had seen like a little bit of a decline. We had just seen a lot more signs of age and, um, maybe that like things were progressing, and I'm not gonna go into like all the details, um, but... Over, over, I mean, it's been several days now, but over the, you know, last probably three, four days of his life, and then even in the last like 48 hours, and then even more in the last 24 hours, like he was a completely different cat. He just started declining a lot more rapidly, and he didn't have quality of life anymore. It was just so sad. It's just so sad. Drew and I went from having our two pets that we've had for most of our adult lives to no one, and like the house just feels so empty and quiet, and we were just starting to heal, you know, at least try to heal from losing Layla, and now this happened, and yeah, and I'm just exhausted, and I'm just so sad. I really, really don't want to cry. I'm trying so hard to just put one foot in front of the other and like keep going, but it's just really hard. Anyway, I'm not, I'm not gonna do that. Yeah, I know a lot of you cared for Mu a lot, just like you did with Layla, and that means so much to both Drew and me. It really does, and we appreciate so many of the kind words. By the time you're seeing this, I've already had it posted on Instagram for a few days, and I've just been getting non-stop comments and messages, and it's just so kind, and we appreciate it so much. Yeah, he was just the sweetest, sweetest little boy, and it's just so unexpected, but at the same time, it's like, I mean, I guess, I guess I could see, you know, that animals get older and they have to go, but it's just so unfair. It's just so unfair, so I feel comforted with the, you know, what I'm telling myself anyway to get through the days is that Layla and Mu are together on the Rainbow Bridge with all of our loved ones, and that they're not in pain anymore, either of them. I'm trying to remember something that I saw one of you say when Layla passed away, which is that, like, your pets give you so many of the best moments of your life and one of the worst, and that's so true, and if you could just have, if you would just have any extra, like, love in your heart or brain space or whatever, if you could just send some love to Drew, he's just really, really hurting. He had moved since he was 19 years old and he's about to turn 35 and that's just such a long time to spend with a companion, and I mean, I've known of Mu for 14 of those 16 years, you know, when Drew and I met, he'd only had Mu for two years and it's, I just, I love him, I love him and I miss him so much already and yeah, anyways, just kind of wanted to unfortunately let you know that news and I'm just trying my best. I've been really trying to, like, get back into work and getting back into the swing of things, but man, it's just, like, it feels so hard. I'm just so cried out, like, I'm so tired of crying, my eyes, like, genuinely hurt. I haven't even finished crying over Layla yet and now it's just compound and it just sucks, so I'm just gonna keep talking in circles if I keep this going, but just wanted to say thank you for everyone who has sent love and support our way, truly means a lot and yeah, I'm just kind of doing my best so is Drew and it's all we can do, but I'm just so grateful that so many of you got to know Mu was my hair sticking out this whole time, whatever. So many of you got to know Mu and see little glimpses of him when he, you know, chose to grace us with his presence and in the last couple of vlogs, I feel like he was just much more, like, demanding attention and center stage and I just love that. Being so cute and sweet, and we just had no idea what was coming, even though we kind of did. Anyway, I gotta go and turn this off and cry probably, but thank you for being here and yeah, we'll just do our best to kind of resume at a pace that feels okay for me, but I mean I also like, I have to work to like pay the bills and Drew has to work to pay the bills and we just kind of have to keep going, so thanks for watching this vlog. I'm really sorry about the real buzzkill. I'm still in a little bit of shock to be honest, but it's just how life goes, I suppose, so anyway, I'm tired of talking and looking at myself, so thanks for watching and we'll see you in the next vlog. Bye.