 Yeah, it's kind of like it's like kind of like the Pinocchio story like Pinocchio there's Gepetto the puppet maker the marionette maker and then and then Pinocchio it starts off as a puppet and then the whole thing is where Pinocchio wants to become a real boy and it's a drama you know he gets taken off into Pleasure Island and you know it's a nasty things happen just from wanting to be a real boy I had a friend of mine who after studying the course for like 15 years she would she was more and more aware that the body was like a puppet and her prayer to the Holy Spirit was get me back on the strings get me back on the strings it was the authority problem I don't want to be an autonomous person with an individual separate will and struggling to try to survive and make a living and you know try to fight off disease and death I get me back on the strings and oh great you know puppet master spirit you move the string you know like that old song you know if you want to see me do my thing pull my strings if you can sing that to the Holy Spirit you know get me back on the strings and you pull the strings and and let me live a life you know like St. Francis said make me an instrument you know let that be used that makes all the difference now the ego made up time and space it made up the puppets and it made up the concept of the doer you know in fact people have said why don't we call ourselves human beings we should call ourselves human doings that's a much greater description human beings we don't being what do we get a few moments of meditation here and alming and then we go oh there's the being but now let's get back to the important rat race and you know and doing doing doing do be do be do do do do do do shooby do be do you know it's it's everywhere even Sinatra just do do do you know he Sinatra one time he was he was singing I did it my way which is the most autonomous song ever and and he collapsed on the stage just went down with doing that when I heard that I went yeah isn't that typical I did it my way you know yes there were times I'm sure you knew when I bit off more than I could chew but through it all when there was doubt I ate it up and spit it out you know oh come on it's like boom ego had to go down he had to go down on the stage you know it's just not the way you know if there's no there's no surrender in it there's no humility in it there's no humbleness there's no put me back on the strings it's more like I am an autonomous being and I'm gonna do it my way I'm gonna die you know and I'm gonna die doing it my way and that's that's what the human condition it just enacts that now I need to do nothing is more is coming into that state of stillness where it's not so much that the body does something or doesn't do something but the identification with the doer dissolves away you merge what Sadari was talking about that simultaneous merging with everyone and everything and it's glorious because there is no sense of a doer there's no sense of individual responsibility what is our responsibility we're to be happy our creator created us to be happy and when we try to take on responsibility and duties and obligations that are based on this false self-concept of being a doer that of course we feel guilt we feel shame we feel inadequacy we feel like it's never enough we don't feel worthy of love we feel very unworthy we feel shameful because we've misidentified with the doer and we've forgotten about the beer the being so this is about being done through you have to go through a phase where you're done through where you're back on the strings for the spirits you know laughing through you and smiling through you and hugging through you and singing through you and dancing through you ah that's being done through in a way that just every time that it happens you become more aligned more aligned with with the the creator with with the source with coming back to that pure sense of being this so you know we we have believed that we are personally responsibility for our survival you know and the spirits like saying well you can change your mind about that you know you need to be nearer neither careful carefree you can cast your cares upon him for he cares for you you can open up to that divine inspiration and take away the the burden of being a human being trying to struggle and survive and make it I for example I always thought you know like when when we were in preschool they they taught us in kindergarten they taught us to share that's that's a spiritual value sharing you know we're here sharing this evening together you know June has opened up her home to share her home with us and her dogs with us and and then John brought food and sky showed up with some pizzas and that there's a spirit of sharing when I would do these talks and gatherings the only reason we have lights or that we record these things is for one reason to share it you know to put it out and to share it and then I've had a few people already here tonight they say oh I just love I watch watch your YouTube every day and I enjoy it and and sometimes I've heard people well I yeah before I go to sleep at night I just put on some of the mp3s and I listen my husband's like come on get that things off your ear but no I'm now know what I mean what world are you in I'm in the world I want to be in you know it's like you know it's like they just it's like giving your mind over and aligning with these ideas and feeling the resonance in your heart with these ideas and then and strengthening them in awareness and then practicing them in your daily life and the more you give them away the more they become your own you know they become truly your your spiritual reality so that's what's been fun for me is just trusting that everything that I need would be provided I didn't have some kind of a master plan for traveling the world I in fact talk about traveling the world on a shoestring budget that I didn't have CDs money markets things to invest in and this and this to go out and kind of do the hotel motel route it was more just going and okay place opens up here or somebody takes me in there or this or that just traveling more like Jesus and the apostles and then that just has continued and even you know people will say well you can do that you know in your local neighborhood or whatever but you can't do it overseas but then that started happening donated frequent flyer miles okay spirit apparently it's just props you know it's like we've all been raised with the mentality is you can't do anything in this world without having the resources ahead of time that they would call somebody a fool who started to go out to try to do something or travel or do something without having the resources already but it's like they show up they materialize as you go along if you're being guided by the spirit the spirit like no problem you need some props here's this it's only ego pride that says oh no I can't couldn't accept that couldn't accept that that's what I was doing at the early years oh thank you but I couldn't I am my own provider and no I couldn't all pride pride pride pride and then the spirits like would you stop that I you asked me to help you you know like the old story of you know the the one that guys in the boat and they said it was I had to face the same thing you know and no no no I couldn't no absolutely no no and it's just like just stop it get over yourself you know just would you accept help if you're given sharing and shining happiness and joy that's an important function so don't cut yourself short you know if there are things involved with that that would be helpful then then do that so that's why I've had fun doing all these talks and gatherings but I it's even more fun when you get back and you've got the recordings a little digital video tapes or the in the early days camcorders and recorders and then you put it up on the web and you share it it's fun to share it you know people do write emails back thank you thank you for sharing that it really touched my heart and you know it's like oh I it touched my heart it touched my heart to give it and extend it and you don't you know people have said David you just don't get how marketing works you know what you should do is you know stop doing things on donations and put out of start getting some products I remember the first time I went to Australia my friend Raj down there I stated is how he said of the gathering was great this was great this and this but where's your product and I said product what do you mean where's your product said you can't keep this up and go around without a product you've got to have a product you know you got to have something to sell and I was like no I don't really feel like I mean there's this joy in the moment like I've done it for just like 15 20 years where I went around and I didn't have product for 20 years it was fun it's working well you know you really should have a product you know or you know you put some but don't put too much free stuff on the web because if you put all free stuff then you can't eat and I said what do you mean I've been eating all along if I am starting to lose my appetite but but I'm getting into the divine mana but it's like but no I don't I don't really believe that that's the way that it has to go I think if if everything you know freely you have received now freely give if that was what the way show are taught us then why not try that out and you know all that I give is given to myself the course says you know if you keep getting into the joy of giving wouldn't you be blessed by receiving the gift of giving and I'm not talking so much material things because the joy is in the attitude you know that's priceless you know if somebody came up and said I can give you an enlightened mind for 1995 or something like that and it really worked you know it would be a good investment borrow the twenty dollars you know would do something you know to get it but but actually it's not that we can purchase it or that we can bottle it or we can take a pill for it or anything like that it's that we have to actually exercise it give it away you know just in the friendliness just in the good old wholesome honest friendliness we just keep giving it away and it feels good and we do more of it and even when the naysayers come and say yeah but you're not you know this is not going to sustain it's just going to be a flash and it's going to be gone and those people say no in this world it doesn't work maybe even had an economics I was in university for 10 years and I remember this man CA Helmolde the economics professor and he would write on the blackboard there is no free lunch and my whole life I've had thousands of free lunches just going and being happy or the you know you shine your happiness and people roll out their love and hospitality everyone wants to have a happy guest for lunch who doesn't want to have a happy lunch you know all of us would love to have a happy lunch so you know it just disproves there is no free lunch it's like when you're happy they're all they all feel free like free lunches and it just turns the whole thing around from from what it was before