 I'm son of first-class horse. I work at the NTOA of Hawaii. I'm a senior facilitator and I'm here to share my experiences of resiliency with you. So where I had a moment of lack or not prepared to deal with situation where I've required resiliency so I currently have up to like six deployments. I was 17 when I joined the Army and on my first deployment was 15 months. I lost several very close friends of mine. I didn't know how to deal with it. I wasn't prepared and when I was in the Army at the time there weren't big on behavioral health. So I mean I stuck with my my team. We just kept pushing through it but sometimes I would have moments where it would it would flood my emotions. How I pushed through it that adversity I would say just realizing that I can't change the what-ifs and what happened. It's uncontrollable but what I can do is try to live my way of life and how would he would want it or they would want it and be the best version of myself. So yeah I had a lot of battle buddies that I can depend on that time. My best friend Max from your shop it's been like 17 years in the Army. He was part of ways you know or captain but him and I would just listen to music together do things and you know when I was going through a hard time he was always there for me so like that's one thing about the Army the camaraderie we have it's nothing like anything you can ever expect so if you're ever going through something just reach out and talk to a good friend of yours or something. When you're going through something hard you know it's good to have someone beside you. Growing up I grew up in foster care and group homes and I really didn't have extended family when I joined the military. I would say the first family that I ended up having would be the Army but I've learned quickly like you can't do it all by yourself whether it be through financial stress or not knowing how to do your tasks because no one taught you just so many things can be a factor and try to take you down but there's always someone that you can talk to even a leader so they're not all bad some of them do care. If you can't find that there's always someone that you could just find within your squad your team anywhere you know they're out there.