 The reality and then in the other state in a fearful state everything is fragmented scenes with boxes and compartments and levels Where levels such as emotions and behaviors and thoughts are all different and autonomous, right? See how fragmented it is? See there's no spontaneity. There's no There's no spirit in that Spirit wouldn't guide me through pain to go to joy it instantly It's bringing you into joy and it's the ego's interpretation that is painful You see so the consequence of listening to the ego is pain the consequence of listening to Holy Spirit is joy and it the spirit doesn't wouldn't guide you into situations that are difficult that you know in advance are difficult just to What is difficult? Well for example if I find it To use yesterday the example of the shoes. I find it difficult to go into situations where I have to Face people when I'm feeling guilty, so it wouldn't put me into that situation to go through it and somehow feel joyful The spirit is very graceful Spirit is not for shoe to do things so you can see things It knows the contrast that the teaching is in the contrast and it's all thought So if you gather in your right mind the thought the thought of God The Holy Spirit is the right mind or you're either in the wrong mind, which is the ego and you will experience Fear or love or pain or joy in those so The Holy Spirit is just calling you into joy and if there's pain and awareness, then that's just the ego's interpretation That's like Coming here you think wow be such great. I'm going in my purpose. I'm going deep and From a you know from a very naive point of view you would say oh, right? It's just happy and it's all perfect and right yeah, and then the stuff starts coming up and what happens? immediately There's all this darkness which which is unnecessary because the ego is judging what's coming up So there's like a second layer of judgments on top of Of the watching the ego is watching But to look at your mind you're going to have to go through the darkness to go through the light So you just have to keep things in mind in context That I'm waking up from a dream, and I'm going to be slowly brought in it can't be thrust upon me And why need the darkness take more than a second? Why does it seem to take? Days or hours or something like that if that's just the way it seems to be it's processed until as an instant So there's nothing you can do to accelerate that going through the darkness like what I mean it follow your problems It feels like why do I have to sit here in this darkness? Well, that's again. You just have to see that things are not as they appear Don't judge. Why do I have to sit here in this darkness be grateful that the darkness is being removed from your mind This question of why it's not it's not profitable What can I do to help this? Speed up is not judge it It was like you were telling me You know when I feel really deep it's when I'm waking up and sleep Feel this kind of happiness or whatever just to allow it not judge it. Well normally be like, okay Why is it how do I stop it? How do I get and then yesterday morning? And the instant I did that there's like this full of energy and I just got ready Can you just let things be as they are So you have judging and breaking them apart and fragmenting them So then next time I try to let things be and that doesn't work Actually, let it be just let it be It's just again it comes back to humbleness. I'm waking up from a dream of perception It was made not created So there's nothing to feel guilty over and you need to look at the ego and how it compares and bright fragments and judges things And you just need to withdraw allegiance to the ego Because your power of your mind is in the ego and you need to be convinced by the miracle otherwise You need to be convinced Because you have so much faith in it. That's all you know, and it's not even real knowing. That's why it's so shaky That's the art. It's just intuitive It's never about right and wrong and if someone does seem to say you've done something wrong Then you just have to go in your mind and forgive it take it in as a claim and say that's not true It's early in my awakening when I was following my prompts and I was teaching up in Ontario The biological sister Jody tried to make me wrong because I never came by But I wasn't guided and I was very honest. Am I guided to go there? No, do not go there I don't go against my prompts. So I was told I was wrong. I wasn't a good brother and all these things So I took it in my mind and said okay. I Don't have to adhere to those concepts and images Those are just unreal thoughts and I blessed my sister and that was it You see no one can make you feel guilty. No one can make you feel it's all a decision in your mind You just had to be determined to see things differently And you can't be You can't be determined if you're determined to destroy your mind watching You know, you can be the ego has a version of that determinism too. Yeah I'm gonna get in here on a witch hunt and a dig. I'm gonna get totally Look in my mind we get rid of this ego and someone comes along and they're trying to join with you And you're just often to like you're just totally whacked out of it in your mind. Oh But this is what happens to people in the awakening if they're not centered in the context of awakening You know what I mean when I say that the context is I am awakening from a dream of perception I'm being slowly awakened into my mind. Yes, the immediacy of salvation is now, but I'm fearful How do I know my resistance reflects what I believe? So I'm afraid of love I'm afraid of love So I need to be convinced through the miracle I need all the lacks of love to be collapsed and in that love is restored So there is no rate of awakening highly individual. Yeah, and it's always the instant anyway and The part that's being undone is not real. So it's not like Jason. You're becoming more enlightened You're atoning you're undoing Jason. You're awakening to what is Already established. What is reality? So you never have thoughts that? Jason isn't unraveling the bar ball of your infast enough Like that Never it's already done. I see that you believe in the ego, but that doesn't make it real So what really needs to be undone? And so the reason we're together It's just this falling problem. I'm following prompts. It's not about trying to make it We're not doing anything here But you can say In the following the prompts the Holy Spirit uses everything in the most constructive sense So everything is used for the higher good and purpose Everything everything gets used to point to reality. It's not special. It just gets pointed So the body of Jeffrey all these things this room teach only love sanctuary right here all these symbols The picture of Jesus on the wall and our movie collection all of it all these things are just Representative of God look it's God. So when we join together we watch movies. We look at how we feel, right? Wait, we get excited when we watch the Holy Spirit has a wonderful message for us and we just rejoice in it That's it. It just looks however it looks There's no model. There's no cookie cutter approach. It just is what it is teach only love sanctuary Is not a real sanctuary. It's just representative of the mind So, you know, it's just symbolic of the mind of the altar that it's cleared That's it. So the purpose of this symbol will reflect, you know The altar not a defiled altar That's it. So even the idea that certain shows are more helpful than others That's not really Yeah, there's no good or bad TV. There's no good or bad movies. There's no Everything works together for good. I keep thinking oh, this one's probably a waste because it's not metaphysical It's not drawing people don't right. There's nothing to get a lot of spiritual seekers go in and they go Yeah, I didn't get anything from that movie Why are you going in to get something see that's the seeker It's going in for an entertainment. It needs to be entertained either spiritually entertained or not You go because you're guided to go and then whatever is there you watch to something that comes up You what you look at that with the Holy Spirit? That's and that's for everything that you do That's everything you just be honest with yourself and there's never a reason to feel guilty if you catch yourself so to speak Just it's your call for love Just remind yourself. Oh Yes, I'm I'm calling this person right now and I'm lonely and I just want to connect with them because I feel I Don't feel alone when I'm talking to them and that would be That's misusing That's misusing there and that's where the guilt comes from because the guilt's made an idol and now is attempting to get salvation from an image So the image falls away. Oh, I'm alone So then the mind believes that the image or thought form image is Causative so it picks up the phone think which is a cause-and-effect relationship spurious It's not a real cause-and-effect, but it's the egos version of cause-and-effect picks up the phone Call someone oh See that there's all time involved in that. I feel better now. I'm talking to you There's a false cause-and-effect relationship there when the phone falls away or the person falls away. The loneliness is still there You see so Your purpose is to expose that Doesn't mean you're not going to call someone It just means that you're going to be very purposeful in what you do So the actions will flow from your thoughts Behaviors flow from thoughts Behavior is a reflection of your thinking so don't change your behavior change your thoughts and You can't change your mind when you believe in right and wrong behaviors It's level confusion You can only change your mind or change your behavior right When you change your thoughts and you can't change your thoughts when you believe in good and bad so you see Once you pull the Complication out of the way the ego then you can see then you can watch you can be left alone with your thought and see it in your awareness Instead of hiding or resisting you're able to look more directly at what you're doing and then that's where your joy comes from Because when you learn to be truly alone You are all one You start to feel naked You start to feel connected, but you must go through that first Actually the ego teaches you that by seeking outside of yourself will get you satisfaction Will soothe your loneliness will soothe the separation But it's learning to be alone that can actually to God and I don't mean alone in the body I mean just totally naked and not dependent on other people's opinions and decisions Totally following the prompts of this of the spirit Totally looking at your mind totally observing Looking at the ego and seeing its falsities seeing its games is trickery Without any judgment whatsoever Learning to look without any movement just a simple watching and then the body gets used through the watching The body of Jason the body of Jeffrey gets used through the watching and then all these previous Things that I did before calling people because I was afraid well I was afraid of the stillness all these things start to fall away and then what I was looking for Outside of me is given from my looking within So what I was looking for outside I was looking for salvation salvation comes from looking within Salvation is born within me Through the simple watching