 I've had times in the ministry where it would be just me listening and following and I would have some people helping me out but if they got involved in other things a lot of times people seem to get lured back into all the complexities of the world I would just get like another hat you know how they say wearing lots of hats doing lots of jobs and things so you know traveling and teaching and counseling and sharing come back oh I'd like to upload to the internet well there's no staff okay I'll do that too it feels like Jesus had me wearing like 25 hats you know okay I do this then this then this and but it's not like there's never a sense of overload with it because you know I can do all things with Christ Jesus who does it through me you know it's all things in Christ Jesus it was that thing of when you really give yourself over and you're linked with God you know if God is with you who can be against you if God is with you you can't really be overloaded because it's it cannot be difficult to do the task that Christ appointed you to do for it is He who does it Jesus says in the Course of Miracles you see how you can't get overload overloaded overwhelmed because it is Christ who does it through you it's Christ that's pulling the strings that's the easiest thing in the world to be in your Christ's mind and be done through by Christ Jesus there can't be anything easier than that and so that was my experience and occasionally I would get involved in collaborations and people say sorry can't do it can't do it can't can't gotta stop gotta drop out da da da da and it would almost be like Jesus was smiling like no problem we can handle we can handle anything I can do anything with you in alignment with you it's kind of an interesting feeling of not needing people suddenly you know you realize well we thought people were so important but through Christ I can do all things I don't even need the people you know we're so used to being dependent on other people how many of us have worked on projects and we get in the middle of the project of the collaboration and somebody says oh can't show up I got another gig gotta gotta do something else can't be there it's just an opportunity Jesus is like no problem we can handle this you know no matter what it is we can handle it we can handle it we can handle it and that's where you become so dependent on the Holy Spirit on Christ for everything you become emotionally dependent on that on that thought system and that beautiful emotion of love and joy and happiness it's the best kind of dependency that you can have because it's vertical you're lined up with your source that's safety that's security that's certainty you don't have it's not an interactive thing you're not waiting you're not saying okay I'm let's take a vote you know the vote is is gone it's not a democracy Christ runs the show it's like a beneficent instructor a loving instructor who who knows your best interest always and has just given it to you given it to you given it to you given it to you that's how to have an easy life it's holding on to the ego and trying to think against God you know I'll do it my way some of you remember this singer Frank Sinatra he had a song my way one time when he was elderly I was traveling somewhere and and I heard the report that he was I think on a Las Vegas stage and he was singing the song my way and he literally fell over face first his face just hit the stage singing my way you know some of you know the lyrics of that song yes there were times I'm sure you knew that I bit off more than I could chew but through it all when there was doubt I ate it up and spit it out you know it's a rough life and through it all I stood tall and did it my way right into the ground that's where it will take you