 Like I said before, I had like major confidence issues because alongside that I was bullied and I had like a really abusive step-parent when I was a kid and it just kept mounting was like all of this stuff where it was literally beating me down at an incredibly formative point in my life. It led to me viewing the world in an extremely dangerous way. On TV, when I saw people have relationships like having a girlfriend and having alcohol and having these things that instantly made those characters happy. Like there was no sort of buildup. There wasn't any self-improvement. There wasn't looking in yourself. It was, I have a beer, I'm good now. And I became incredibly obsessed with a ton of things at an age that I shouldn't have been obsessed with them. I have vivid memories of being like really young and putting my mum's wine in like a Rabina bottle.