 Hello, hello everybody welcome back to the walk podcast if you're new here. My name is Sam I post all things lifestyle faith Travel vlogs this channel is essentially a video diary of my life And whenever I have something on my heart that I want to share with you guys or just something fun that I want to share with You guys then I will post it on here. So if you're new here, I would love for you to subscribe I have a lot of actually really exciting things that I want to share on this channel coming in the next few months So if you're here, and you are not subscribed, it would mean the world to me if you did And I hope that you enjoy your time here This podcast has essentially kind of turned itself into a faith-based podcast where I do talk about other things But I have just been such on on in such a journey in the last year. I've been on a walk so to speak And I just feel like I'm learning so much that I just Have it on my heart to share it. And so that's kind of what this podcast has turned into And so as long as you guys are coming back and watching these episodes, I'm gonna continue making them I I have really been enjoying it And as much as I'm like speaking to you I never want you guys to think that I am preaching just at you where I'm like I know better and you guys have to follow what I'm doing. That is never my intention at all I want you guys to know that this is a safe space. I welcome everybody here This is very You know, whatever I say to you I'm also preaching to myself because I'm learning as I go. I'm constantly learning new things And I have learned that I love learning new things. I love seeing my faith grow and The things that I go through to make my faith grow and it's just really cool and so I have seen through Comments and DMs that I get that a lot of you have been going through similar things that I have and I just feel like we're kind of in this together. We're on this walk together And now you're kind of seeing where I got the name for the podcast It just kind of makes sense I really feel like we're on this walk together on this journey together and we're just learning together So that's always that's just my that's my intention with the podcast episode. So Anyway, before we get into the meat and potatoes of what I want to talk about I just wanted to do a check-in. I hope you guys are doing well. I am doing okay I'm actually doing something cool that I wanted to share with you guys I've never done this before. I am doing a fast with my church If you don't know what a fast is it essentially represents like an act of submission Or like surrender to God and it's meant to have your focus be more on him and kind of growing your faith and seeing your relationship with God grow and I've always seen people do it and I was always very intimidated by it I'd never really done it before And so I'm doing my first one. You can fast really whatever you want. I know people that are Fasting a certain type of music. Some people are fasting social media Some people are fasting meals and so I was going back and forth and I was like I really want to do this It was 21 days of prayer and fasting that my church is doing it So we're doing it as a church body together and I was like I really want to do it, but I don't know what to give up I've never done this before like who's to say what's good to give up and what's not You know, I just I didn't know and so I learned that it's essentially supposed to be Giving up what your flesh craves what your body craves and that way when you are praying for whatever you're believing for Either you're asking for direction You have to make a decision. You don't know what to do, you know, whatever whatever you're praying for the act of submission and like Surrendering whatever you want to God and be like I'm gonna give this up to honor you It's supposed to make way for that clarity in the decisions that you're asking God to help you make if that makes any sense So I was like, okay, what my flesh craves? What do I like to indulge in? That's how it started for me So for me, I'm giving up foods that I like to indulge in so like Chocolate sweets anything like processed sugar refined sugar artificial sugars So, you know, like my truefru if you know me well, you know, I love my truefru my little frozen fruits dipped in chocolate It's one of my favorite things that for example things like that I'm also giving up Cheese and that's a weird one, but I love to put cheese on like everything. So no cheese And I also gave up my dating app Yeah, which to be honest, I wasn't really liking anyway, and I was thinking of getting rid of it anyway And so I added that in there for like extra measure And so those are some of the things that I'm giving up I think with every fast that I do because now I know a little bit more about it. I know what it is I know what the purpose of it is how to do it Things to accompany it with so you can't just fast You have to also spend time now in prayer and in the word and and all that so I'm learning more about it So now every time I do it like I'll know like like next time. I think maybe I'll fast like breakfast You know, I'll fast a meal. I have a friend that the last fast he did he only had one meal a day for like a month and then I Think like the last day of the last two days He just had water like he didn't eat anything and honestly like truth be told I can't even imagine like I feel like I would pass out. I would faint But the point is, you know, he had to rely on You know, he would pray and ask for strength to get through it I'm so not there yet not even close, but I think the next one I I will do I'll like fast breakfast So That's what I'm doing right now, but I will be honest with you guys and I'm not just saying this I'm on day 12 out of 21 days and Already, I've learned so much the things that I have been praying for the direction that I've been praying for You know for my next job for just things that are going on in my life. I have already learned so much I feel like so much has been revealed to me already. It's crazy So it's been it's been really really cool So anyway, if you've never fasted before I Think it's something to look into it's cool. It's very new to me like I said, but I'm learning and It's been really cool so far and I look forward to The next one I do and the cool thing is that you can you can fast something different every time So it's really cool. So if you have any experiences with fasting I'd love to hear what you have fasted in the past and and how that worked for you And if you want to share what was revealed to you through that, I would be very interested to hear About your experience. All right, but let's get into what I actually wanted to talk about in this episode and It's all about the things that I don't want to do anymore things in my life that were once Attractive to me that were desirable to me that no longer are and You know when I said I went and I looked back On that first episode that I posted 10 months ago You know, I was really reflecting on like what has changed in me since then because I feel so different But what exactly like has changed and I've noticed like as time goes on that Like I said certain things that I used to love to do Have absolutely no hold on me anymore And I feel like my mind has just completely been renewed And I feel like it happened first And then as time went on I understood why so we're gonna unpack that today and we're gonna go through I have a list of a couple things like specifically that I'm gonna talk about that like I used to do that now I don't want to do anymore But before we get into those things like I really was sitting down and I was like Why why do those things change? How does your mind get renewed to where what was once attractive to you no longer is and honestly I'm learning that as you learn more about God and you're more you're reading the bible And you're focusing more on your faith and how your faith is growing and your relationship with god It kind of happened automatically like it was I never had a moment where I sat down and I was like I'm never going to do this anymore because I'm not allowed to I'm not going to do this anymore because a christian shouldn't do that It wasn't that intentional. It really wasn't it just happened And so as your relationship with god grows or at least I'm gonna speak I'm gonna speak for me I'm not gonna speak it over you. I'm gonna speak for me As my relationship with god grew I wanted to honor him in Every aspect of my life I wanted to make him proud. I wanted to make him happy I wanted to live a life that was pleasing to him because if I had a moment where I was like If I'm gonna sit here and I'm gonna say that I'm a christian I don't want to be a hippo a hypocritical christian. I don't want to sit here and go to church Every sunday But then monday through saturday I'm living a completely different life because the truth is there's a big difference between being a christian and going to church And completely submitting your life to god and following him I learned that and I was at this one for a long time I was the first one or I was just going to church for years And going through the motions and I spoke about that in my testimony video a little bit Which was that was a couple months ago, but I spoke about that a lot in that video And now I feel like I've kind of transitioned to this side where I'm like if I'm gonna say I'm a christian I'm gonna do it right And I remember over the summer I was literally sitting right here on this couch I was making a bible reading video for my main channel and I believe I was reading the book of romans And this this moment was captured on camera Um, you can't see it because I hit it really well But I was reading the book of romans and it says, you know, you should not do this and you should not do this And you should not do this and I was like, okay. Yeah, I'm not gonna do that. I'm not gonna do that I'm not gonna do that cool. And then I got to one part Where I read over it and it was like that she'll not do this And it was something that I liked to do and I was like And I just kind of skimmed over it and I was like, I'm not gonna pay attention to that And then later on I was thinking about it and I was like Well, that doesn't make sense because if I'm gonna sit here and I'm gonna say I am a christian and I believe everything that the bible says is true I can't just cherry pick The parts that I think are true and the parts that I think I should follow And then ignore the parts that I don't want to follow Because again, that's not that's not sincere. That's not how it works If you're turning your life over to him and you're saying I'm gonna follow him Then you have to abide by everything. He says not just the parts that are easy for you Okay, so that's something that I had to learn So I think that's kind of how that just kind of sums up how and why Things in my life changed and how things that were once desirable to me no longer are and I think as I started to get Closer to him too and I'm reading the bible and I'm I I've learned to not read the bible To see what I can get out of it I'm reading the bible to actually learn about my creator and learn who he is and as your relationship with him gets closer Your Your will kind of aligns with his will if that makes sense So the way you live your life just kind of automatically starts to align with his will It's like now your buddies and now you're like now you're walking together and now it all makes sense So let's go through a couple of things. I think I have like four things that I wrote down that That just are no longer appealing to me anymore And it's cool You'll see a theme in all of these that I talk about is that it naturally started to happen where I didn't really Want to do these things anymore and then later on As I read more of the bible I would find verses that completely Summarized Why that thing that I used to do is not good for you or it was not good for me I'm speaking over myself not you speaking over myself Um, and I wrote those verses down too. So it's all gonna make sense I wrote really thorough notes for this video. Okay. I wrote. I went to a coffee shop to work Uh and answer emails and do stuff and I planned this podcast there in the coffee shop And I was actually very productive. I was like that was speed typing. It was cool. Okay. Anyway So the first thing and I've talked about this before Um, the biggest thing that I noticed change in me was getting drunk I for years Up until recently up until Last well last year mostly And then even this past summer we'll get into it But for years I was in the bars in the clubs Every friday every saturday without fail pretty much And I was getting drunk. I was get I would wake up hung over. I would you know And I would still sometimes Wake up sunday morning go to church. I'd be hung over but I'd be there and I'd be like look at me Got so proud of me Look at me making time for the lord, but I was hung over and I felt horrible And I wasn't living with integrity. I was being a hypocrite. I would go to church and I would put on a show for people Not proud of it But that's what I used to do just to give you a little little vision the last time I got drunk was this past summer out of concert Did not eat enough. Excuse me. Did not eat enough food drink a little too much wine And there are parts of that concert. I don't remember And my anxiety and my like conviction that I felt the next day was so strong that I have not gotten drunk since I have drank don't get me wrong. I still like my wine I still like some white claw by the pool in the summer I love a whiskey sour At a wedding I will be going to the bar to get a cocktail or two But I think the how and the why when you drink is what is important And so my desire to be out at a bar With sweaty bodies pressed up against me everywhere Until 2 a.m Sleeping in until 1 p.m. The next day. It's just not appealing to me anymore personally And that just happened automatically. It just happened naturally. I just didn't want to do it anymore And I think I started to outgrow that Last year or like the end the end of 2022 is when I really started to grow out of it And I think that that was one of the first signs that I was Outgrowing where I was in life in the relationship that I was in That was like the first sign of like, okay, my mind is starting to change What I want is starting to change um And I noticed that really not a lot of good came out of that nightlife for me when I drank I told you in my testimony video I fainted in front of my whole church the next morning because I was dehydrated because I was drinking the day before it was St. Patrick's Day weekend And I went to church I was volunteering so I was up standing on camera on a pedestal in front of the whole church to see And I blacked out and I fainted so embarrassing I Drank and I think was also dehydrated and just got really sick And I fainted in a bathroom Uh fun fact, maybe you didn't know this about me. My front tooth is fake 75 fake I Was so dehydrated and so out of it. It was at like three four in the morning Got out of bed felt sick went to the bathroom And I was as I was walking into the bathroom I fainted and I fell face first into a bathtub So my tooth is fake Is there all things that would not have happened probably had I not That just for me personally things just nothing really good came out of it I was in a relationship where a lot of fights happened when drinking happened because that's when your true feelings and true emotions come out And a lot of fights happened, especially towards the end of that relationship Due to I'm not going to totally blame it on the alcohol, but the alcohol is a big part of it Um just you know and I don't want to go into too much detail because you know It's all other people's business that you know that I'm thinking of of instances where good not a lot of good things happened but I have done it. I have done the going out. I have done the hangovers I have done the doing stupid things losing your balance because you're drunk and I can honestly say that I am having so much more fun now than I was then and society tells you that that's what's more fun I for me personally I improve that that's not the case always and I'm just gonna say it I think people glorify alcohol and that's where it becomes dangerous How many times have you heard people say, you know when they have a bad day? I need a drink I need two drinks. I need 10 drinks. You know if they're joking around I need 10 drinks right now It's because a lot of people I'm just gonna say it and I can say it because I have done it a lot of people Even people that I know in the past They glorify alcohol and they use it as a crutch to overcompensate for things that they're not even aware of How many times I've said it where I'm like, oh, I'm going out I'm hanging out with a group of people that I don't know really well But once I have a drink or two in me, then I'll feel comfortable It's overcompensation and when you glorify it too much That's when it becomes dangerous and when you start to rely on it. It becomes dangerous That's why I always said now going forward based on everything that I've learned so far that my next relationship one of the things I'm looking for is someone who Doesn't turn to alcohol when they have a bad day, but we'll turn to talking it out praying about it That's really I'm so passionate about it now because I've seen how it is when it works the other way and it doesn't work I tried for years It doesn't work and it creates a lot of anxiety in people. I have friends who get anxious when they drink I have friends who get anxious when they're in those social situations But they think that that's normal so that they continue to do it And then they don't understand why they're anxious I can honestly say that I have I have been enjoying life so much more this way I wake up saturday mornings. I'm ready to go. I wake up 9 a.m I could work out if I want to I'm productive. I don't feel like crap. I'm not fainting this past year Or I'm sorry this time last year. I went out with co-workers This is when I was still really not really walking with the lord like too much And I went out drinking with them drank a lot The next morning I woke up. I knew I was hung over but I thought I was okay. I go to the bathroom I'm brushing my teeth And I fainted in my bathroom by myself at that point. I kind of knew I mean I am prone to fainting also It's just that the drinking doesn't help Get it from my dad. Thanks dad He's a fainter as well Not that often I'm okay. I don't want to scare you. I'm fine, but it's just like when we get dehydrated That's usually our body's first resort is to just faint um And so at that point I knew the signs So I was like, okay. I'm about to faint. So I tried to sit on the floor because that's what you're supposed to do and And I wasn't even fully on the floor yet when I just passed out And I remember I I woke up sitting in so pathetic like it feels so pathetic to me I was sitting in the corner of my bathroom With my head against the wall. I had a little like bruise here because I guess my face hit the wall My butt was bruised I come to the water still running The water I don't know how long I was out. I don't know. Um And it was all because I was hung over and because I was dehydrated and just It was my body telling me you don't need to be doing this. This is not for you This is not for you. Maybe some people can handle it better It's not for you So I'm at a point now where yeah, like I said, I like my wine. I like my white clothes You know, but it's it's the why I'm drinking it. I drink it because I like this drink. I think it tastes good I'm not drinking to mask something. I'm not drinking to get drunk and it's all about knowing your limits I've known people none of my close friends because I'm saying that because I don't want any of my close friends I think I'm talking about you. I'm not but I've known people who Grown people and don't know their limits And can't control themselves and one of my biggest pet peeves is when people Act like they can't control how many they have Now some people have a problem. My grandpa was an alcoholic. I get that. I'm not talking about that. That's something totally different But like I'm at a point where I'm an adult. I know my limits. I know my body I know that I'm like, okay, if I have one more Then I'm gonna be I'm gonna be at a level that I don't want to be so I'm gonna stop and I've learned how to say You know what? I don't need another one Whereas, you know a while ago, I didn't really know how to say that So that's just something that has changed within me. And again, it happened automatically It wasn't like I was like, I'm never gonna get drunk again. Obviously the concert this summer proves that that's that wasn't the case um I wrote down a scripture because Later on when I was, you know, reading the word I saw this verse and I was like, oh that makes so much sense It literally says proverbs 20 verse 1 those letters stray by alcohol cannot be wise It's proverbs 20 verse 1. So let me let me get to it. I want to read it From here and actually what I read in proverbs today I always read a proverb a day. So like today is january 23rd. So I read proverbs 23 I do that every day um But what did I say proverbs 20 verse 1 Okay, ash bats all done Wine produces mockers alcohol leads to brawls those let astray by drink cannot be wise And I literally I read that and I was like, that's so true because I have experienced it myself I was not wise when I was drinking I was making stupid decisions And I was anxious and I just was not feeling I was not feeling myself Because you're not yourself when you're at that level and I read something today too I didn't even write this in my notes, but I was reading proverbs this morning And I was like, wow, I want to mention this in the podcast proverbs 23 It starts in 23 29 I'm gonna read you the whole thing. It says who has anguish who has sorrow who is always fighting who is always complaining Who has unnecessary bruises who has bloodshot eyes? It is the one who spends long hours in the taverns trying out new drinks Don't gaze at the wine seeing how red it is how it sparkles in a cup How smoothly it goes down for it ends for in the end it bites like a poisonous snake It stings like a viper you will see hallucinations. You will say crazy things You will stagger like a sailor tossed at sea clinging to a swaying mast You will say they hit me, but I didn't even feel it. I didn't even know it when they beat me up When will I wake up so I can look for another drink? I have seen it and I feel like I'm spending a lot of time on this topic, but I'm so passionate about it I have seen it people that are just That that just it consumes their life there's oh they're always in the bar They're always like I need a drink in my hand. It's friday night. I need a drink in my hand And it doesn't lead to anything good. It doesn't lead to anything good So I'm just I'm so passionate about it because I I I see People all the time that like like that like that verse that I just read says like society paints it as it's such a beautiful glorified thing to like go out and get drunk and and do all these things But in the end it's gonna it bites you and I have seen it. It has taken a physical toll on my body multiple times And it's just not appealing to me anymore. So sorry. I got really passionate. I'm not sorry. I'm not sorry but I got really passionate about that because I just Uh, I've just seen it and I've lived it and I know the effect that it can have on you Okay, the next thing I stopped Is I stopped saying I manifested this or I am manifesting this I feel like our society is very like rooted lately and like Do things yourself be your own peace be your own hope Which I understand where that's coming from in the sense like the things that I say on this podcast all the time That it has to start from you the good things have to start within you However, when you're saying Or when I realized that when I was saying I'm manifesting this it was that I was relying on my own power That I can make these things happen You're saying I made it happen myself And what I think is very interesting obviously everybody believes different things, right? I'm very open to that. I respect that, you know, I get it But I just think it's interesting that manifesting is very very very similar to prayer It's just the source of the power is different But the mentality behind both is the same, you know when you say you're like you're I'm manifesting this It's like you're speaking it out loud. You're you're putting it out into the universe So whatever you say is going to happen It's so similar to prayer and that the bible says that when you confess something with your tongue And you say it out loud and you say it and you pray it in jesus's name It will it will come to pass it will happen. It's so similar It's just the source of what we're looking for Is different so me personally because of my own personal convictions I've stopped relying on my own power Because I believe personally that God is placing my steps He tells his word says that he will guide me down the best path for my life And then he will point me in the direction and tell me the best road to take So when I say I'm manifesting this I'm relying on my own power and you're essentially saying I keep saying you I am essentially was saying that I was willing to step out of his will Because I was relying on my own power Not his But I do think it's so interesting how similar like everyone is looking for the same thing We're all looking for the same thing. We're all craving the same thing. We're just going about it in different ways Which I think is really interesting But I personally I didn't want to leave God out of it. I want to involve God in everything I do every decision I make with a job every decision I make with I don't know where I'm gonna live like I'm just thinking random things that decisions that we have to make throughout our life I want God involved in all of it. So if I say I'm manifesting it I don't want it to just be coming from myself Because I want what I do to be in alignment with his will and so I wrote down one scripture that again I read later I came across and I was like that makes sense That's why my mentality changed James 117 every good and perfect gift is from above Coming down from the father of heavenly lights who does not change Change like shifting shadows So I want every good and perfect gift To be from God not from myself and I want when I pray for something and it comes to pass I want it to be for his glory not for mine So that's another thing A big one. This one actually started a lot earlier. Maybe even before the alcohol one actually gossiping I don't know about you guys. I have seen that gossiping like In the workplace as an adult is almost like worse than high school Like adults are no better And it's so easy to get sucked into gossiping with people because it kind of feels good or like, you know, you say something funny About someone and then you get a laugh at everybody else and it makes you feel good, right? It gives you it gives you a rush and you're like my flesh craves it My flesh craves it. That's that was very appealing for me even now. Sometimes I struggle with it And I have to really check myself and I ask God to check me all the time that if I'm going to say something that is not favorable about somebody who is not present Shut my mouth don't say it Because I I have slipped into that many times And as I started growing my walk with God, it really just it didn't sit right in here I was like, um, this doesn't feel good When I just said that about so and so it didn't feel good Because I would think The person that I'm talking about whether they know God or not God loves them very much. That's a child of God too So how am I why am I going to disrespect? Somebody that God loves so much. I know how much he loves me and how much he loves me. He loves them just the same So I don't want to disrespect him like that. So even to this day I I prayed about it this morning. I pray about it every day I don't want to slip into that, but it's very easy to so I have to constantly check myself Um, so I have two two verses here that kind of sum up kind of I guess my mentality of how it changed Proverbs 20 19 a lot of proverbs in here proverbs is I recommend that book so much. It's the book of wisdom It tells you how how to live your life in a pleasing way So proverbs 2019 he who goes about as a slander reveals secrets therefore do not associate with a gossip So I would think about am I a gossip so God would tell people not to associate with me then Right imagine that imagine God was like, you know, see that girl Sam right there No, don't go don't go talk to her Humiliating I don't want that Proverbs 11 13 a gossip goes around telling many secrets, but those who are trustworthy can keep a confidence And I was like, okay. I want to be trustworthy I want to have again integrity. I want to be the same person When you're here watching me then when you're not I think the way somebody acts In your presence as well as your absence tells you all you need to know about a person Are they the same when you're there and when you're not? And just a side note too Always be cautious about the people in your life that come to you and tell you other people's secrets Because when I start to see that and someone so-and-so comes and tells me about Mary, I don't even know a Mary. Oh, yeah, I do, but I'm not talking about that Mary. I just used it as an example If they come and tell me marry secrets I know that if I tell this person my secrets, they're going to go tell other people So just be very cautious about who you tell what and pay attention to the way people act When other certain people aren't there because that'll tell you everything you need to know So I don't want to be seen as one of those people. I want to be seen as trustworthy. I want to be seen as Okay, I've said it a couple times already in this video. I want to be seen as somebody with integrity So Gossiping was a big one and then on that similar note This is like a branch and I'm not going to spend too much time on this because I think I've talked about it before a little bit But I have made it my mission to stop ghosting Guys, I don't want to ghost people anymore because I have been ghosted And I have ghosted others, but I have been ghosted. It's not a good feeling. It sucks You know, it's it's things or you're like, you're not heartbroken, but you're like well depends on the situation, but In in my experience, I haven't been heartbroken by it, but it definitely stings a little bit and of course the natural feeling is to think What did I do wrong or what what was it about me that they didn't like? You know, like if something wrong with me, you know Um, so I don't want to make people feel like that because again on a similar note to like the gossiping thing The guy that I'm talking to or was talking to that I don't want to talk to anymore is a child of god Whether he knows it or not And I don't want to disrespect gods child like that, you know And it also goes back to the do on to others as you would have What is it? What are the words? I don't know why words are not coming to me Do on to others as you would have them do on to you. There you go Um and proverbs 11 17 says your kindness will reward you, but your cruelty Will destroy you So I just want to be kind I just want to be kind to everybody and I remember the first time I like really did it There was a guy who was he was nice took me out on a date And I just wasn't feeling it and I think he was and asked if he could take me out on the date And my instinct was to just run And I had people tell me you don't know him anything. It was only one day, you know, you don't have to answer And I was like, no, it just doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel right So I sent him a nice thing, you know, I personally just don't see us as a good fit But I wish you all the best, you know, I don't want to waste your time I really hope you find what you're looking for smiley face and he responded and he said Well, I actually really appreciate that Like thank you. It's like you're welcome, you know, I just want to be kind to people So that was a big thing that I changed to in the last one. This was a big one I don't think I've talked about it too too much. Maybe at my other channel. I did but I have Really wanted to not curse anymore Not use foul language anymore Um, there's a verse I didn't I wrote I wrote another verse down But there's another verse it says I don't know where it is in the bible But it basically just says like no foul language should pass your lips And I never I always remembered that and I was a big like I had a potty mouth You know or like texting my friends or like You know, I had a potty mouth and little by little I was just I just didn't feel right and I was like No, you know, and I find little way like little alternative Curse words or they're not curse words, but it still like gets my aggression out, you know Um But yeah, that just is another thing that really just didn't didn't feel right to me anymore And that might sound so stupid like say I'm you're an adult You know who cares and I get it Because I know how good it feels especially if you like stub your toe and you just let out You know, it just feels good. It like makes you feel good But I learned I didn't want to do that anymore Um, I literally wrote down for no other reason other than it felt wrong And I wrote down it surprisingly wasn't as hard as I expected it to be And I still slip up every once in a while. I'm not perfect something goes wrong The other day I dropped I was getting ready to leave for work I dropped my Tupperware of lunch and my food went all over the floor and you best believe colorful language came out of my mouth I'm not perfect. It still slips up But it really wasn't as hard as I expected it to be and I just ask God to help me You know The verse I did write down was Colossians 3 8 But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these anger rage malice slander and filthy language from your lips Okay, actually, maybe that was the verse I was talking about regardless Um, and so I learned in all these things not even just the cursing But all these things the drinking the manifesting the gossiping the the ghosting all these things What I learned as I started learning more about the bible and something called the fruits of the spirit I learned that as I was getting closer to God I was aligning myself with his will and his intentions for me And I was developing the fruits of the spirit and the fruits of the spirit are peace love joy faithfulness self-control gentleness long suffering and kindness and those are the qualities that God wants every person to have and so I found that it was just naturally happening to me Which is so cool. I think it's so cool. It like blows my mind how God can shape you and mold you and he changed my heart. He changed my mind. He changed my vocabulary my desires And I wasn't even fully aware that it was happening while it was happening And then you get to the point where like I am now and I look back and I'm like, oh it all makes sense He was working the whole time. Even if I didn't feel it And so That's what I when I say that I didn't plan it. It just happened automatically. That's that's what I mean So I think it's really cool So I'll leave you with the question and you don't have to answer you can answer it in the comments if you want but If you have been on a similar journey to me or as me How have you felt yourself Change if at all maybe you haven't maybe what I went through not everybody went not everybody goes through. I don't know but I'm just curious. How have you guys felt? God changed you Because he really works when even when we don't realize it, which I think is really really cool. So I feel like I talked a mile a minute for the past I don't even know 45 minutes. However long that was But I think this was a really good conversation. I was so excited to film this episode As always, please let me know What else do you guys want to hear and and talk about like I said like I'm making these videos at you But I really want this to just be like a discussion. So I would love to hear how you guys You know have seen these differences in your life and I'd love to know What else you want to talk about? So With that being said, thank you so much for being here. I pray that God shines his light upon you and shows his face to you and and touches you in whatever way that you need And I will be right back here soon for another episode. I think I might have a vlog for you In between this episode and the next one. No promises though But I think that might be a thing that's going to happen So we'll see but um, yeah, thank you guys so much for being here and I will see you next time. Bye guys