 Hi guys, welcome back to my channel. Today's video is one that I've been wanting to make for quite a while. It is all about like confessions of a dancer and like things I experienced in competitive dance. So if you guys know what dance moms is like that's the type of dance I would do. I would also do ballet and modern at school and it was more like artsy and like meaning behind dance like I don't know. It's hard to explain. If you guys know you know if you don't just I'm gonna be talking more about like competitive dance. If you guys are new here make sure you are subscribed and also turn on the little bell. A lot of you guys have the notifications on which makes me so happy. So thank you guys so much and also follow me on Instagram because I don't know why. I'm actually quite mad at that app like the favorites the everything like oh why. Anyway um I guess without further ado let's just get right on into this video. So the first confession I sweat so much and I know that like a lot of other people do too but like I felt like mine was just like on a different level especially with doing anything like physical activity-esque. I don't know but um if I run if I do cycle if I don't know just sitting here like I already am light sweating like I don't know why I just sweat so easily. So let me know if you sweat a lot down below. There's just some people that like didn't sweat a lot and I was just so jealous because I felt like I was working my ass off and that's why I was sweating but who knows. The next confession that I want to make about dance is the false eyelashes like oh my gosh it was so funny because in competitive dance like you have to wear like glam makeup more like heavy makeup than just like normal makeup and I think that's why I always hated wearing makeup like I never wore makeup um like for pleasure kind of like how I do now like if I want to wear makeup if I want to get like you know dressed up and look nice like for myself I typically wear makeup now back then as you guys know like I never wore makeup because my dance makeup was always so uncomfortable and it wasn't pleasant and I'm not gonna like share the brand of makeup that I used really for dance but it was one of like the big names and I just found the foundation to be like really really heavy. I mean you have to have heavier foundation for dance and like certain other activities but it was just uncomfortable but the eyelashes oh my gosh so my mom had to put like false eyelashes on me and she would have to like glue them like like kind of up and they would just stay up I don't know if I have a picture I probably do but like you can't really tell because it's like kind of far away but she would have to like glue them up so like when I was dancing like I could see because most of the time when I was dancing and I had like these false eyelashes on like I couldn't really see that well like it was impeding vision a little bit so it was horrible I hated them um they weren't comfortable and like my mom didn't even like glue them on my lid because my lid is like a mono lid kind of so it was just horrible and it was looked really really funny but the best feeling was taking off the eyelashes I will say and putting them on was horrible too but my mom did a good job and she tried so that's all that matters and we had to wear them anyway so okay this is another one that I don't know if anyone can relate to me on but remembering combos was so hard for me like picking up choreography like took me a little bit and I don't know why because like now I can pick up TikTok dances but like then again like a TikTok dance is like 15 seconds not like a minute so I don't know it was just one of those things that like if you were doing like a combo like I can never remember that shit like I would be like looking at the other person I don't know it was just horrible and I liked learning combos like okay so if I liked the combo I would do really well and I would like remember it if I didn't like the combo ooh also was set up for failure because like I would not remember that and I would need to like look at the other person especially like modern class like I hated modern let's just be real like I did not like modern so like learning the choreography and everything was just really hard for me okay so tap was also extremely hard for me and it was like disappointing to my mom because my mom was like always like into tap and stuff but I just remember like when we would learn combos or like learn parts of our dance for our tap dances like no one like would remember and our teacher would get like kind of mad but it was just like so hard to remember at least for me definitely like combos for certain like genres of dance are just really hard for me to learn and remember so the next one is I did not really like hip hop and my parents always said I was like good at it but I just didn't really like it I don't know why I liked more like the jazz like dances to like pop music or like musical theater ish type dances I don't really know I should know because like I was in the field for so long but the field oh my gosh I was in the sport yes I consider dance a sport just so you know so I did not like hip hop and I don't know it was just one of those things and that's a confession that I can make now okay so I already touched on this but I wrote it down in my notes but it says never remember tap like I could never remember tap to save the life of me and I don't know why I liked tap all right it was fun but I just wasn't really about it I also hated doing solos like being on the stage alone was just not my thing and I feel so bad because my parents spent like so much money on solos for me and it was a good experience like having that like being on stage alone but I just remember not liking it and I remember talking with one of my friends and we both agreed like when the music would start like we'd be like oh it's almost over it's almost over and then like you get to a certain part and you're like yes it's almost over you're halfway there you can do it you can do it and then when it's finally over it's so like there's a relief and I don't know I feel bad and I liked my solos but I hated being on stage alone so I don't know about like dance now I'm sure it's like come a long way since like I've been in the industry in the field or whatnot but like I definitely did not have like a ballerina body like I've always been like obviously shorter I've been like thicker um I wasn't like long and lean like you know some of my friends were so that was always hard and I think that's part of the reason why like discouraged me from like doing professional dance even though like I didn't have a passion for it either like I love dancing now but like I dance or like fun like on tiktok you know but I mean to be like a professional and stuff and like remember the dance like for real like for an audience paying like I don't know if I could do that always had this like thing in the back of my mind that was like oh you don't have really like a ballerina body and like you know in certain circumstances like you're just not the vision they're looking for which is okay but that's just another thing that I wanted to bring bring up um but I'm sure that it's changed and hopefully it's changed by now also I wanted to say that like I'm so thankful that like my sport my studio my school like there was never a like a weight requirement which is so good because I feel like if there was like that could really spark like you know unhealthy behaviors but luckily like that's a really good thing that in my experience like we did not have like you know requirements that we would have to meet which is good so that's a positive and I didn't want to like mention that another thing that I wanted to confess was that at bar like I never could be on the end of the bar and the reason why is because I can never remember the bar combinations like I would need to look at the person in front of me so like you know when you're doing your like right leg and your left hands on the bar and you're like doing your tendus or whatever and then you'd have to like switch to the other side like I would need someone in front of me like at all times and when I was put on the end like I was suffering and then like trying to like look to see or if there was someone in front of me and I could see them then it was like fine but if I couldn't see anyone for a bar combination oh my gosh I was a lost cookie man I also wanted to confess the real reason why I like stuck with dance for so long I think not only was it like good form of exercise it was kind of artsy but also like I loved my friends and I really just like wanted to dance with my friends and have a good time like after dance and stuff I really did dance for like the community my teachers were cool and I just liked the community aspect of it so that's another main reason why I did dance it wasn't like necessarily for like deep passion I just wanted to include that in this video as well also some of you guys may be wondering like is a real competitive dance like dance moms and the answer to that question is yes and no so on dance moms everything was a little bit more like drama more dramatic obviously for tv but like in some instances like there were moms that didn't get along and then there were moms that like you know would try to speak for their kid and it was just like in an inappropriate time there were you know the people that were probably considered more negative there were moms that like did get into fights but it was never like physical I mean maybe it was I don't know but there was an instance where like a mom made a kid cry so there was like instances and you know there was like rivalries not like rivalries like as in like horrible but there were like high competitors within people like I mean I always felt like I had a competitor type person but we were not mean to each other and like we're still friends I mean I don't know we're not really friends but like we're still like cordial like if I were to see her she doesn't even live in the state anymore but like if I were to see her then like obviously like we would get along like I don't know I think it's just more of a personal thing like I don't know what that girl felt but anyway there's some instances and parallels to dance moms but it's like it's the same but different it's just like on a lesser scale and it's not being aired to like millions of people and it's not as dramatic as the tv show made it to be so I hope that answers any questions that you might have had about the show and everything also too I did not like wearing gel in my hair oh my gosh it was like that was also uncomfortable especially when you would like sweat I just don't know man oh my gosh another confession that just came to my mind point I loved point so much it was so much fun I hated ballet but like point was cool because you got to like stand on your tippy toes but like I know this is the correct way the point shoe was supposed to fit on your foot but I hated the fact that like the sole didn't go all the way to the heel like it it went like I don't know it just hurt like the bottom of my foot I don't even know if they still use paws or like those other types of shoes to dance like I don't even know what to people like wear the dance I don't know I should do some more like research on that on my studio's Instagram but like I don't know I I didn't like those like paw things because like I think it would like cut off the circulation to like my toes sometimes and jazz shoes were always like so hard to perform with on a stage especially when they were new don't get me started also too like wearing black leotards just I was always I loved wearing like halftops and booty shorts kind of like what cheerleaders wear um but then we were still allowed to wear that I think they're still allowed to wear that now but I don't know but like I hated like the one piece and tights ew tights are just like a no okay I'm gonna stop those are just like little side things but I just don't kind of want to tell like my own personal things about dance in this video so I hope you guys enjoyed this video make sure to give it a 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