 Hi, welcome to Sunday morning coffee. You're gonna hear me walking. I actually get to be outside. It is gorgeous It's like 68 degrees and it's overcast. So it's like perfect not too hot beautiful beautiful So I'm thinking about so many things. Oh my gosh, I have all the feels all the feels, you know when you go through something really profound life changing like Being at the bedside of someone when they take their last breath. Yes as a follow-up to my previous Sunday morning coffee podcast. I was with my grandma in hospice. She was 98 lived a very full full robust life very strong woman and I Was by her bedside for 40s and The fourth night into the next morning. I was there overnight and I was right there when she Left the earth and I had considered that very much a blessing and a privilege To have been in that space with her holding that space with her So on the heels of that I'm out for a walk and I'm oh I did sleep a little bit this morning, okay? and Trying to get my body back into a Self-care mode now today is like amplified self-care. I'm sure you can relate to this, right? And I'm just walking slept a lot and I'm walking and I'm just feeling so many things so much perspective is coming through right now about love and about life and about living Love life and living love. So there are so many different variations of love isn't isn't there and there's definitely this Feeling for me at least up to this point in my life about the imbalance of love when love is unbalanced Where someone loves you more than you love them or you love someone more than they love you and you know the the whole relationship thing and There's so many videos on Instagram and tiktok and Facebook and YouTube about this, right about how You can't make somebody love you and sometimes people just Stop loving you like how does that happen? Like I can't even imagine this woman who's 98 years old is leaving this planet 15 years after her husband her love of her life They met way back in the olden days at a dance hall and fell in love in three weeks later. They got married and Had a full life and were actually happy people together They were best friends side-by-side companions confidence and loves in In fact beside my grandma's bed was a beautiful very personal love letter from my grandfather that he wrote to her on one of their anniversaries and Reading it brings you to tears Because there's such heartfelt deep deep and profound love for her and I knew it because I witnessed it I actually lived with them for a while when I was in college I come home from the summers and work and I'd live with them and Spent a lot of time with my grandparents, especially later on in my life and so I was also at my grandpa's bedside when he took his last breaths and then now his beloved with her sending her off to him and Having this experience really gives me all the feels about love Like is there that kind of love? Does that actually exist anymore? Is that real anymore? Is that just a fantasy? Is that like the Disney princess movies, you know? And I think the answer to that is yes It exists inside of us and if we choose to partner with someone else and go into the depths of What is possible for us? They expanded depths of love I believe we can build a web of love in a relationship that is a grid of support of Confidence of strength of integrity of authenticity and alignment It doesn't mean we have to be the same and our grids have to look the same It means we overlap and we weave in The support we reflect to each other we help each other grow and expand and we Support one another on this walk through life through the difficulties the hardships the challenges But also through the joys and the triumphs and that is the person that you most want to share All the good ideas you have with all the great inspired quotes you find That's the person you want to read poetry for and you want to write poetry about This kind of love is the kind of love I want. I want it. I Want it and when I feel into this it makes me feel sad Makes me feel sad because I know that in this beautiful lifetime that I've been gifted 50 years of living I've had two marriages I've had a few loves And just maybe just maybe I may have already had the love of my life And if that's the case, I'll have to live out the rest of my days knowing that I've had that and Maybe I wasn't present enough for it or maybe I wanted it too much Or maybe it just wasn't a fit Maybe it was unbalanced. I can tell you one thing is that I really don't know what the future holds even though Yeah, I'm a psychic or I'm supposed to know this. I don't know how things will unfold for me I know that I will not and cannot settle for less than this beautiful Love That I saw and felt and knew from my grandparents Do I think it's possible? Hell, yes. I think it's possible. I know it is But is the timing right for me is it possible for me has it already happened I don't know I really I Don't know and maybe with the death of someone That has had such a profound love in their lives. Maybe that is the trigger for me to release my fears and doubts and And to open up to what is it's more more important to me and what is that? Life lived is it really truly lived if you're not sharing it It seems so unfair to speculate on the future Especially given this time this deeply emotional time, but this is when change happens This is when we have the opportunity to truly reflect and feel in deeper To really feel into our true selves and what we want. I don't want this to be a sad audio I want this to be a reflective audio and really truly sharing perspective because I am asking these deeper Profound questions and that is exactly what happens when you're brought to the edge of life and death You question things you should and you should change things You should change things So my question for you is What will you change? Given the renewed Perspective that you've received either through this podcast this morning through my sharing my story about my grandmother's passing Or through your own personal life experiences that you've had you know because you've felt into these profound Moments where you get such a depth of perspective You can't not do something With it So what will you change? And maybe a better question would be what would you change if you could if you really felt like you had the freedom to change and Literally do anything How would you change? What would you change? What would be different for you now after this after having gained this knowledge and wisdom this profound wisdom about life lived knowing that This is your chance. This is your time. Your time is now right now what Will you Change Thank you for listening as always. I So enjoy the podcast with you the Sunday morning coffee on a above-life channel. I Hope that I've inspired your spirit filled you with some hope Some perspective today and encouraged you as always to live your life This is your life after all nobody's gonna live it for you Nobody makes those choices for you You do It's on you So just live it for you live it Thanks for listening