 If you had a problem with your dad and you weren't loved in your childhood environment, you will spend the rest of your life trying to solve the puzzle box of love. How can I make people love me? What the f*** is wrong with me that stops people from loving me? But you won't choose an emotionally regulated normal person to do it with. You'll choose somebody who is cruel, distant, sadistic, sometimes loving, sometimes not, judgmental, shaming, so on and so forth, abusive effectively. So you'll try and win love in adulthood that you couldn't. You're trying to solve the box, the puzzle box, and in doing so you're summoning demons.