 See your name. I'm alpha alpha. Yeah, yeah, and I knew this is my first that some of you So I'm sorry if it's even addressed already But I have a question about I guess about purpose and life path and direction and I myself am at the point of my life where I feel as though I have quite a blunt canvas to create or Surrender to a life path and I was just wondering what your ideas and views were on Whether we have a cooling or a purpose or what can guide us and direct us to live a life that's fulfilling and In the best interests of ourselves and the world and those around us Well, very very technically seen There is no need for a purpose for this life. You just can live and listen to the grass grow That is the fundamental thing we have to accept The maximum purpose that we actually should have is to to feed this body and listen to the grass grow having accepted that in deep surrender we can speak about how purpose emerges and The thing is that when you live your life in the awareness That your actions come either from ego or from truth So it's very simple actually and you try to distinguish between the two and try to go with the truth You try to listen. Okay. What is this? What is this thing called truth actually? Okay, let me see. Do I feel Do I feel my soul? Do I feel this so-called antaratman? Do I actually can I pierce beyond the barrier of fear that I have inherited through my Abrahamic inheritance and pierce beyond that barrier of fear and guilt and anger and all of that and Actually feel the soul When I do that when I start to feel the soul Am I able to go with the impulse of the soul rather than the the demands of the ego if I'm able to do that and in surrender Gradually the purpose will emerge it will emerge and we've seen this quite interestingly experimentally amongst those Students who have taken up the sadhana very seriously as a real practice who have as the first step Simply taught themselves to go further and further into surrender and as that process has deepened What has emerged is the is the purpose? It's amazing how that happens When you say you're a empty page in a sense or a canvas on which anything can be painted That's the perfect moment to take up that practice of How do I recognize? What's coming from the soul and what perhaps? how do I differentiate between what you speak of and my ego or my Conditioning yeah, because I feel like I kind of have an understanding of what I've been conditioned to one and what my I feel like my Heart wants my ideology is more like following my passion and my joy And going that way is that something that is this a soul see the soul Alpha the soul doesn't Want anything the soul has no intent or will So when you say my soul wants to go on a holiday to Jamaica, it's not the soul It could be that the soul says It's okay to do it But the soul doesn't want anything it is not a yearning hoping wishing wanting thing That is the actually the the yearning of the ego The soul is a quiet entity. It's separate from the system and it Impulses so if you want to know you have to ask the question should I go on a holiday to Jamaica? Yes That's the answer you'll get at least I will certainly get that answer But it might very well be that it's a no and then I have to bend down to it. Okay No, it's no sit down and write. Okay So it's kind of like almost Question and exactly That is the very very tough aspect of this sadhana because it's not this This romantic thing about sitting back and detaching yourself from your from your Desires or from your pain or saying I am not that and in that moment you feel elated and free but it is a ego elation because that which is created by this system Belongs to this system until it's transformed. So it's Really a tough sadhana to actually sit there and say Okay, I Want to do this now is this an impulse from the soul? Is it does it even feel like a truth impulse or is it an ego impulse and in the beginning? It's going to be difficult to disown because every sadhana that is taking you into that kind of self-realization will be Will be challenging It's taken the ego so many years to make its presence, you know to nicely become healthy and fat and sit there How is one supposed to battle that? Unless that surrender is deepened every day every moment but the most important thing I feel is to know that Anyhow up until now until you knew this you were anyway doing what you had to do So even if you make a mistake, it's still Not going to be any much different from what has been till now But if you start to feel the soul and move from it then imagine how that master of your being that The Anter Guru Inner master the inner Guru is impulsing you into action imagine the joy That comes out of that because as a child you knew it already You knew that as a child When ego had not yet built up. What was making that child do what it did? It's that impulse. It's that It's the impulse of truth and as the child grows that impulse of truth is increasingly obscured It's a matter of surrendering Surrendering surrendering but being present not trying to detach yourself from what life is throwing up Just keep practicing it little bit little bit little bit and one day that purpose will start to emerge It will emerge if you practice the surrender like it has to emerge