 It's Tuesday, I'm on my way to lectures, I've got lectures 9 till 5 and I think it's evidence-based practice all day so I'm hoping it's going to be a really fun day and it's not going to be a little bit long, like the research one, so let's see what today brings. I've got a new student at the university, hey Mr. Doc, enjoying the course so far, great. Today is Thursday, I'm a little bit late of vlogging, I have another chance to do any vlogs this week, I'm really sorry so I'm going to just give you the low down of what's happened so far, just briefly, I'm not going to go into too much detail because it's probably a little bit boring just watching someone talk so let's get to it. So as you know I was back at uni on Tuesday and we had a day of research, again I just, I can't get on with it, I just, I'm really sorry and I feel guilty for saying this but sitting and listening to someone talk about research bores me to tears and I just want to sleep and I feel bad because it's not the lecturers fault, it's not the university's fault, we have to be taught this, we have to do this as nurses, it's just not something that stimulates my brain I'm a hands-on person, I don't like to just sit and listen, I'd rather be doing it than nothing but saying that, pushing that aside, the lectures, the lectures we had, we had four hours of research and they were really informative so we went through the step-by-step tools and how to research effectively and work out whether evidence-based practice article is actually a genuine really good article or if it's a bit meh choose something else, that was really good to actually go through that so it's been really good for our poster presentation, we know what we're going to do now but Tuesday was just a really sleepy day for me, I wanted to go home and I wanted to sleep, I just, yeah that's all I can say about Tuesday, I'm really sorry, well actually in the morning we had nursing in care so we were talking all about the way that we care for patients, holistically, spiritually, all of that so that was a really interesting lecture, I love doing that sort of thing, it's just a shame that I don't enjoy research but we can't love everything about nursing, there are going to be things that you come across that you don't enjoy so it's not for everybody, there's no harm in that and we shouldn't feel guilty but yeah I do feel guilty because I think I should love everything but I don't so yeah you'll find out if you haven't done your research part whether you enjoy it or not because everyone's unique, everyone's individual and some students absolutely love the research, they really found them interesting and then Wednesday I had the day off so I chilled for the morning, my partner was off so we spent the day together, I had to go back to the hairdressers and have my hair corrected and toned again which I've had done so it does sit nicer now, it blends in a lot better than it did before so I'm really happy with it now, getting used to the colour, I'm happy with the colour overall, it blends in nicely now so I'm chuffed with that and then today, so today we had a day of lectures, so our first lecture of the day was we had two newly qualified nurses come in and speak to us all about general practice nursing which you all know I love general practice nursing, I was so chuffed that they were coming in to promote general practice nursing, it was lovely to see and I was just chuffed, I just sat there in amazement because I just love it and I knew, I understood where they were coming from and the things they were saying about patients and the interaction that you get and it's just amazing, it just reminded me how much I love general practicing so and then we had a break and then we come back and we had public health with Lee who's fantastic, he's so good, he's so knowledgeable, he's interactive with us all, he keeps us all awake, he puts on a quiz to get us more interactive, get our brains working a little bit, keep us awake, he's just fabulous, he's a really good lecture but that was our last session with him for the rest of my career as a nurse, well not ever because we'll see him around in the university which is quite nice, so then after Lee's session, Lee did all about public health, determinants to health, all of that, it was fantastic, after that we had our two other lecturers who are also fantastic and they're brilliant, they get us really involved, they do this acting scenario so they act things out for us and she's a fantastic actress, she's so good, she's missed her calling in life, she should have gone into acting but that was all about health promotion so as nurses we should be doing health promotion every single day, all day every day as a nurse and it's part of the NMC code that we should be involved in health promotion in our career and our profession, something that really good come from this session, so we were given a scenario, so the lecturer was a patient, the first scenario was based around sexual health, it was a patient that's just had a chlamydia diagnosis, a male patient, he goes off and he sleeps with a lot of women and he doesn't know who he's got it from so someone had to sort of volunteer to talk him through and give him health promotion surrounding this topic so I sat there and I was like this is my topic, I love sexual health, I can do this and I thought no no I can't do this, me and public speaking do not get on, I get very anxious and it genuinely I have fears and I start shaking, I have heart palpitations, I go bright red, I start sweating, I really have a tough time with public speaking, even just putting my hand up and speaking out in class, I just it really it gets to me so it's something I've always built on and I always push myself with, I always think do you know what I need to do this so I'm very aware of it, something I'm overcoming, something aim and goal by the time I qualify is to successfully stand up without any of those anxieties and issues, okay nerves is fine, good nerves is fine but the amount of anxiety needs to be gone and I need to stand up comfortably speak as a good public speaker by the end of my nurse and that's one of my goals so today put my hand up, I was the first person to volunteer and I was and then I sort of doubted it so I put my hand down really quickly and then the lecturer sort of caught me I was like oh yeah come on then so you can speak blah blah blah and I was like oh oh I've done it now I'm gonna have to go through with it so I was there like come on then and then just went through the whole health promotion spiel but I did it despite shaking afterwards I didn't realise I was shaking but I was there like afterwards like whatever I just did this was horrendous I went bright red I was sweating I could feel my heartbeat it was scary but I did it I got through it nothing bad happened to me from it and I think I did okay I could have done better but I did okay and I actually did it so that's a really good start so I'm really proud of that I'm proud that I've achieved something today that's been really good and let's just hope it continues tomorrow we're back on the research we're back on our poster topic I'm not too sure what we're going to speak about tomorrow I'm going to guess they're going to move on to the assignment part of the research because we haven't done that part of it so I think it's going to be the assignment part so hopefully that'll be a good lesson tomorrow I'm only in nine till one I think tomorrow so it's a short day so I've got a long weekend I've got Saturday to Monday off so that's it that's it for now I'll be back tomorrow I'll tell you all about my day tomorrow and just one last thing to end on if you've watched my previous vlogs I spoke about gardening so I've started gardening and I tend to kill plants and lately they've all been growing they've all been growing they've all been blooming something else that's happened is I've revived a plant from death how does that even happen so I had this aloe vera plant I don't know if it got over watered or whatever whatever I did to it I killed it it was green when I got it it was brown within days but it suddenly it started going green I've managed to revived it I've left it to itself I haven't watered it I haven't touched it I've put it on the window ledge in the sunshine and it's revived it's going green again look I hope you can see that but look here's where the um the little brown bits were you can see at the ends they're brown still but look how green it's going these were all dark brown plants like to come back from the dead also I've got a sunflower outside I put a sunflower seed in a pot just for the lolls I'll show you because you're gonna have to see this now that I've started speaking about it and it's growing it's growing look at him I hope you can see that here he is I've put him in with this plant because I thought he can grow up it and then he'll be tall he'll be a tall plant like the tree so he's just miraculously miraculously I need something to speak so he's just miraculously grown it's fantastic so now I'm gonna go and have some dinner I'm gonna eat chill out watch some Nashville anyone that washes Nashville I'm on season five why why Nashville why have you done this to me why have you created me into a an emotional wreck why have you done this anyone I'm not gonna spoil it for people that doesn't watch Nashville that's going to wash Nashville but a character is dead I'm not happy about this it's emotional it's terrible I'm traumatized but I'm hoping I've got a whole season left to go and then I'm done hoping it's gonna get nicer wishing praying for some positivity to end the season with so that's it that's from now that's it from me for now I shall see you all tomorrow can anyone guess what this is amazing and the weather has just turned beautiful after a couple of days of storms the weather's absolutely beautiful so I'm sat in my garden I'm just going through some books that I found at uni from a breastfeeding leaflet so today I've had a great day the lectures that we had today were all about dementia so it was all relating back to our assignment that we've got to write around Jeremy and he's got dementia and I think it's coming from a health promotion point of view so we've got to think of Jeremy holistically as well not just focusing on his dementia as such but the issues around that I think they haven't really said much about the assignment yet but we've had our dementia case study today and it's just lovely it was really nice really informative session and I've learned I've actually learned quite a bit even though I've worked in care homes for the elderly and that involved dementia patients I've actually learned quite a bit about dementia and more to the reasons why certain behaviors might be displayed with dementia patients and how to manage that and how to work that out so that's really interesting it's given me a really good insight and something that I can use next time when I'm out on placement so that's fabulous but for now I'm going to go and read my books that I have got from the library I'm so glad I found some books there's a couple of journals there's three journals and there's two evidence-based practice books that I found on breastfeeding so I've done well today so I'm back on it and back on the rationale I'm going to finish the rationale definitely by this weekend 100% I've only got 500 words left 500 or 400 words left and then I'm done and that's one module complete out the way I'm so excited but yeah that's my little spot my little sun spot next to Vera and I'll see you all next week 14 words I've done my rationale I've got it I've had a break bro