 Part 2 Chapter 10 of The Idiot. This Librivox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Martin Giesen. The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoyevsky. Translated by Eva M. Martin. Part 2 Chapter 10. After moistening his lips with the tea which Vera Lebedyev brought him, Ipolit set the cup down on the table and glanced round. He seemed confused and almost at a loss. Just look, Liza Vieta Prokofievna. He began with a kind of feverish haste. These china cups are supposed to be extremely valuable. Lebedyev always keeps them locked up in his china cupboard. They were part of his wife's dowry. Yet he has brought them out tonight, in your honour, of course. He is so pleased. He was about to add something else, but could not find the words. There he is feeling embarrassed. I expect it as much. Whispered Yevgeny Pavlovich suddenly in the prince's ear. It is a bad sign. What do you think? Now, out of spite, he will come out with something so outrageous that even Liza Vieta Prokofievna will not be able to stand it. Mishkin looked at him inquiringly. You do not care if he does, added Yevgeny Pavlovich. Neither do I. In fact, I should be glad merely as a proper punishment for our dear Liza Vieta Prokofievna. I am very anxious that she should get it without delay, and I shall state all she does. You seem feverish. Never mind. Buy and buy. Yes, I am not feeling well," said the prince, impatiently, partly listening. He had just heard Ipolit mention his own name. You don't believe it, said the invalid with a nervous laugh. I don't wonder, but the prince will have no difficulty in believing it. He will not be at all surprised. Do you hear, prince? Do you hear that? said Liza Vieta Prokofievna, turning towards him. There was laughter in the group around her, and Lebedev stood before her, gesticulating wildly. He declares that your humbug of a landlord revised this gentleman's article, the article that was read aloud just now, in which you got such a charming dressing down. The prince regarded Lebedev with astonishment. Why don't you say something? cried Liza Vieta Prokofievna, stamping her foot. Well! murmured the prince, with his eyes still fixed on Lebedev. I can see now that he did. Is it true? she asked eagerly. Absolutely your excellency, said Lebedev, without the least hesitation. Mrs. Yepanchin almost sprang up in amazement at his answer, and at the assurance of his tone. He actually seems to boast of it, she cried. I am base, base! muttered Lebedev, beating his breast and hanging his head. What do I care if you are base or not? He thinks he only has to say, I am base, and there is an end of it. As to you, prince, are you not ashamed? I repeat, are you not ashamed to mix with such riffraff? I will never forgive you. The prince will forgive me, said Lebedev, with emotional conviction. Keller suddenly left his seat and approached Liza Vieta Prokofievna. It was only out of generosity, madame, he said in a resonant voice, and because I would not betray a friend in an awkward position, that I did not mention this revision before. Though you hurt him yourself, threatening to kick us down the steps. To clear the matter up, I declare now that I did have recourse to his assistance, and that I paid him six rubles for it. But I did not ask him to correct my style. I simply went to him for information concerning the facts, of which I was ignorant to a great extent, and which he was competent to give. The story of the gators, the appetite in the Swiss professor's house, the substitution of fifty rubles for two hundred and fifty—all such details, in fact, were got from him. I paid him six rubles for them, but he did not correct the style. I must state that I only revised the first part of the article, into post-Lebedev with feverish impatience, while laughter rose from all around him. But we fell out in the middle over one idea, so I never corrected the second part. Therefore I cannot be held responsible for the numerous grammatical blunders in it. That is all he thinks of, cried Lisa Vietaprokofievna. May I ask when this article was revised? Said Yevgeny Pavlovich Tukhela. Yesterday morning, he replied, we had an interview which we all gave our word of honour to keep secret. The very time when he was cringing before you, and making protestations of devotion. Oh, them mean wretches! I will have nothing to do with your pushkin, and your daughter shall not set foot in my house. Lisa Vietaprokofievna was about to rise when she saw Ipolit laughing, and turned upon him with irritation. Well, sir, I suppose you wanted to make me look ridiculous. Heaven forbid! he answered with a forced smile, but I am more than ever struck by your eccentricity, Lisa Vietaprokofievna. I admit that I told you of Lebedev's duplicity on purpose. I knew the effect it would have on you, on you alone, for the Prince will forgive him. He has probably forgiven him already, and is racking his brains to find some excuse for him. Is that not the truth, Prince? He gasped as he spoke, and his strange agitation seemed to increase. Well, said Mrs. Yapanchin angrily, surprised at his tone. Well, what more? I have heard many things of the kind about you. They delighted me. I have learned to hold you in the highest esteem, continued Ipolit. His words seemed tinged with a kind of sarcastic mockery. Yet he was extremely agitated, casting suspicious glances around him, growing confused, and constantly losing the thread of his ideas. All this, together with his consumptive appearance, and the frenzied expression of his blazing eyes, naturally attracted the attention of everyone present. I might have been surprised, though I admit I know nothing of the world. Not only that you should have stayed on just now in the company of such people as myself and my friends, who are not of your class, but that you should let these young ladies listen to such a scandalous affair, though no doubt novel-reading has taught them all there is to know. I may be mistaken. I hardly know what I am saying, but surely no one but you would have stayed to please a whippersnapper. Yes, a whippersnapper, I admit it, to spend the evening and take part in everything, only to be ashamed of it tomorrow. I know I express myself badly. I admire and appreciate it all extremely, though the expression on the face of his Excellency, your husband, shows that he thinks it very improper. He burst out laughing, and was seized with a fit of coughing, which lasted for two minutes, and prevented him from speaking. He has lost his breath now, said Lisaveta Prokofievna coldly, looking at him with more curiosity than pity. Come, my dear boy, that is quite enough. Let us make an end of this. Ivan Fyodorovich, now quite out of patience, interrupted suddenly. Let me remark in my turn, sir, he said in tones of deep annoyance, that my wife is here as the guest of Prince Lyov Nikolayevich, our friend and neighbour, and that in any case, young man, it is not for you to pass judgment on the conduct of Lisaveta Prokofievna, or to make remarks aloud in my presence, concerning what feelings you think may be read in my face. Yes, my wife stayed here, continued the general with increasing irritation, more out of amazement than anything else. Everyone can understand that a collection of such strange young men would attract the attention of a person interested in contemporary life. I stayed myself, just as I sometimes stop to look on in the street when I see something that may be regarded as a curiosity, suggested Yevgeny Pavlovich, seeing his excellency involved in a comparison which he could not complete. That is exactly the word I wanted, said the general with satisfaction, a curiosity. However, the most astonishing, and if I may so express myself, the most painful thing in this matter, is that you cannot even understand, young man, that Lisaveta Prokofievna only stayed with you because you are ill, if you really are dying, moved by the pity awakened by your plaintive appeal, and that her name, character, and social position place her above all risk of contamination. Lisaveta Prokofievna, he continued, now crimson with rage, if you are coming, we will say good night to the prince, and thank you for the lesson, general. said Ipolit, with unexpected gravity, regarding him thoughtfully. Two minutes more, if you please, dear Ivan Fyodorovich, said Lisaveta Prokofievna, to her husband. It seems to me that he is in a fever, and delirious. You can see by his eyes what a state he is in. It is impossible to let him go back to Petersburg tonight. Can you put him up, Lyovnikolayevitch? I hope you are not bored, dear prince, she added suddenly to Prince S. Alexandra, my dear, come here, your hair is coming down. She arranged her daughter's hair, which was not in the least disordered, and gave her a kiss. This was all that she had called her for. I thought you were capable of development, said Ipolit, coming out of his fit of abstraction. Yes, that is what I meant to say, he added, with the satisfaction of one who suddenly remembers something he had forgotten. Here is Burdovsky. Sincerely anxious to protect his mother, is that not so? And he himself is the cause of her disgrace. The prince is anxious to help Burdovsky, and offers him friendship and a large sum of money, in the sincerity of his heart. And here they stand like two sworn enemies. You all hate Burdovsky, because his behaviour with regard to his mother is shocking and repugnant to you. Do you not? Is that not true? Is it not true? You all have a passion for beauty and distinction in outward forms. That is all you care for, isn't it? I have suspected for a long time that you cared for nothing else. Well, let me tell you that perhaps there is not one of you who loved your mother as Burdovsky loved his. As to you, prince, I know that you have sent money secretly to Burdovsky's mother through Gania. Well, I bet now he continued with a hysterical laugh that Burdovsky will accuse you of indelicacy, and reproach you with a want of respect for his mother. Yes, that is quite certain. He caught his breath and began to cough once more. Come, that is enough. That is all now. You have no more to say. Now go to bed. You are burning with fever," said Lisaveta Prokofievna impatiently. Her anxious eyes had never left the invalid. Good heavens, he is going to begin again. You are laughing, I think. Why do you keep laughing at me? said Ipolit irritably to Yevgeny Pavlovich, who certainly was laughing. I only want to know, Mr. Ipolit. Excuse me, I forget your surname. Mr. Terentyev said the prince. Oh yes, Mr. Terentyev. Thank you, prince. I heard it just now, but had forgotten it. I want to know, Mr. Terentyev, if what I have heard about you is true. It seems you are convinced that if you could speak to the people from a window for a quarter of an hour, you could make them all adopt your views and follow you. I may have said so," answered Ipolit, as if trying to remember. Yes, I certainly said so. He continued with sudden animation, fixing an unflinching glance on his questioner. What of it? Nothing! I was only seeking further information to put the finishing touch. Yevgeny Pavlovich was silent, but Ipolit kept his eyes fixed upon him, waiting impatiently for more. Well, have you finished? said Lisa Vieta Prokofievna to Yevgeny. Make haste, sir. It is time he went to bed. Have you more to say? She was very angry. Yes, I have a little more, said Yevgeny Pavlovich, with a smile. It seems to me that all you and your friends have said, Mr Terentiev, and all you have just put forward with such undeniable talent, may be summed up in the triumph of right above all, independent of everything else, to the exclusion of everything else, perhaps even before having discovered what constitutes the right. I may be mistaken. You are certainly mistaken. I do not even understand you. What else? Murmers arose in the neighbourhood of Brdovsky and his companions. Lebedev's nephew protested under his breath. I have nearly finished, replied Yevgeny Pavlovich. I will only remark that from these premises one could conclude that might is right. I mean the right of the clenched fist, and of personal inclination. Indeed, the world has often come to that conclusion. Proudhon appelled that might is right. In the American War some of the most advanced liberals took sides with the planters on the score that the blacks were an inferior race to the whites, and that might was the right of the white race. Well, you mean no doubt that you do not deny that might is right. What, then? You are at least logical. I would only point out that from the right of might to the right of tigers and crocodiles, or even Danilov and Godsky is but a step. I know nothing about that. What else? Ipolit was scarcely listening. He kept saying, well, and what else? Mechanically, without the least curiosity, and by mere force of habit. Why, nothing else, that is all. However, I bear you no grudge, said Ipolit suddenly, and hardly conscious of what he was doing, he held out his hand with a smile. The gesture took you again, you pavlovich, by surprise, but with the utmost gravity he touched the hand that was offered him in token of forgiveness. I can but thank you, he said, in a tone too respectful to be sincere, for your kindness in letting me speak, for I have often noticed that our liberals never allow other people to have an opinion of their own, and immediately answer their opponents with abuse, if they do not have recourse to arguments of a still more unpleasant nature. What you say is quite true, observes General Yepanchin, then clasping his hands behind his back, he returned to his place on the terrace steps, where he yawned with an air of boredom. Come, sir, that will do, you weary me, said Lisa Vieta Prokofievna, suddenly, to Yevgeny Pavlovich. Ipolit rose all at once, looking troubled and almost frightened. It is time for me to go, he said, glancing round in perplexity. I have detained you, I wanted to tell you everything. I thought you all, for the last time, it was a whim. He evidently had sudden fits of returning animation when he awoke from his semi delirium. Then, recovering full self-possession for a few moments, he would speak in disconnected phrases which had perhaps haunted him for a long while on his bed of suffering during weary, sleepless nights. Well, goodbye, he said abruptly. You think it is easy for me to say goodbye to you? Feeling that his question was somewhat gauche, he smiled angrily. Then as if vexed that he could not ever express what he really meant, he said irritably, in a loud voice, Excellency, I have the honour of inviting you to my funeral. That is, if you will deign to honour it with your presence, I invite you all, gentlemen, as well as the general. He burst out laughing again, but it was the laughter of a madman. Lisa Vieta Prokofievna approached him anxiously and seized his arm. He stared at her for a moment, still laughing, but soon his face grew serious. Do you know that I came here to see those trees, pointing to the trees in the park? It is not ridiculous, is it? Say that it is not ridiculous! He demanded urgently of Lisa Vieta Prokofievna. Then he seemed to be plunged in thought. A moment later he raised his head and his eyes sought for someone. He was looking for Yevgeny Pavlovich, who was close by on his right as before, but he had forgotten this, and his eyes ranged over the assembled company. Ah, you have not gone, he said, when he caught sight of him at last. You kept on laughing just now, because I thought of speaking to the people from the window for a quarter of an hour. But I am not a teen, you know, lying on that bed and looking out of that window. I have thought all sorts of things for such a long time that a dead man has no age, you know. I was saying that to myself only last week, when I was awake in the night. Do you know what you fear most? You fear our sincerity more than anything, although you despise us. The idea crossed my mind that night. You thought I was making fun of you just now, Lisa Vieta Prokofievna. No, the idea of mockery was far from me. I only meant to praise you. Kolia told me the prince called you a child. Very well, but let me see, I had something else to say. He covered his face with his hands and tried to collect his thoughts. Ah, yes, you were going away just now, and I thought to myself, I shall never see these people again, never again. This is the last time I shall see the trees, too. I shall see nothing after this but the red brick wall of Maya's house opposite my window. Tell them about it. Try to tell them, I thought. Here is a beautiful young girl. You are a dead man. Make them understand that. Tell them that a dead man may save anything, and Mrs. Grundy will not be angry. You are not laughing. He looked anxiously around. But you know I get so many queer ideas, lying there in bed. I have just grown convinced that nature is full of mockery. You call to be an atheist just now, but you know this nature. Why are you laughing again? You are very cruel. He added suddenly, regarding them all with mournful reproach. I have not corrupted Kolia. He concluded in a different and very serious tone, as if remembering something again. Nobody here is laughing at you. Calm yourself, said Lisa Vieta Prokofievna, much moved. You shall see a new doctor tomorrow. The other was mistaken. But sit down. Do not stand like that. You are delirious. Oh, what shall we do with him? She cried in anguish, as she made him sit down again in the armchair. A tear glistened on her cheek. At the sight of it, Ypollit seemed amazed. He lifted his hand timidly, and touched the tear with his finger, smiling like a child. I—you—he began joyfully. You cannot tell how—I—he always spoke so enthusiastically of you. Kolia here—I liked his enthusiasm. I was not corrupting him. But I must leave him, too. I wanted to leave them all. There was not one of them, not one. I wanted to be a man of action. I had a right to be. Oh, what a lot of things I wanted. Now I want nothing. I renounce all my wants. I swore to myself that I would want nothing. Let them seek the truth without me. Yes, nature is full of mockery. Why, he continued with sudden warmth, does she create the choicest beings only to mock at them? The only human being who is recognised as perfect, when nature showed him to mankind, was given the mission to say things which have caused the shedding of so much blood that it would have drowned mankind if it had all been shed at once. Oh, it is better for me to die. I should tell some dreadful lie, too. Nature would so contrive it. I have corrupted nobody. I wanted to live for the happiness of all men, to find and spread the truth. I used to look out of my window, at the wall of Maya's house, and say to myself that if I could speak for a quarter of an hour I would convince the whole world. And now for once in my life I have come into contact with you, if not with the others. And what is the result? Nothing. The sole result is that you despise me. Therefore I must be a fool. I am useless. It is time I disappeared. And I shall leave not even a memory, not a sound, not a trace, not a single deed. I have not spread a single truth. Do not laugh at the fool. Forget him. Forget him forever. I beseech you. Do not be so cruel as to remember. Do you know that if I were not consumptive I would kill myself?" Though he seemed to wish to say much more, he became silent. He fell back into his chair, and covering his face with his hands began to sob like a little child. Oh, what on earth are we to do with him? cried Lisa Vieta Prokofievna. She hastened to him and pressed his head against her bosom, while he sobbed convulsively. Come, come, come. There you must not cry, that will do. You are a good child. God will forgive you, because you knew no better. Come now, be a man. You know presently you will be ashamed." Ipolit raised his head with an effort, saying, I have little brothers and sisters over there, poor and innocent. She will corrupt them. You are a saint. You are a child yourself. Save them. Snatch them from that. She is— It is shameful. Oh, help them. God will repay you a hundredfold. For the love of God. For the love of Christ. Speak, Ivan Fyodorovich, what are we to do? cried Lisa Vieta Prokofievna, irritably. Please break your majestic silence. I tell you, if you cannot come to some decision, I will stay here all night, myself. You have tyrannized over me enough, you autocrat. She spoke angrily and in great excitement, and expected an immediate reply. But in such a case, no matter how many are present, all prefer to keep silence. No one will take the initiative, but all reserve their comments till afterwards. There were some present, Varvara Ardalyanovna, for instance, who would have willingly sat there till morning, without saying a word. Varvara had sat apart all the evening, without opening her lips. But she listened to everything with the closest attention. Perhaps she had her reasons for so doing. My dear, said the general, it seems to me that a sick nurse would be of more use here than an excitable person like you. Perhaps it would be as well to get some sober, reliable man for the night. In any case, we must consult the prince, and leave the patient to rest at once. Tomorrow we can see what can be done for him. It is nearly midnight. We are going. Will he come with us, or is he to stay here? Dr. Enko asked crossly of the prince. You can stay with him if you like, said Mwishkin. There is plenty of room here. Suddenly, to the astonishment of all, Keller went quickly up to the general. Excellency, he said impulsively. If you want a reliable man for the night, I am ready to sacrifice myself for my friend, such a soul as he has. I have long thought him a great man, Excellency. My article showed my lack of education. But when he criticizes, he scatters pearls. Ivan Fyodorovich turned from the boxer with a gesture of despair. I shall be delighted if he will stay. It would certainly be difficult for him to get back to Petersburg, said the prince, in answer to the eager questions of Lisaveta Prokofievna. But you are half asleep, are you not? If you don't want him, I will take him back to my house. My good gracious, he can hardly stand up himself. What is it? Are you ill? Not finding the prince on his deathbed, Lisaveta Prokofievna had been misled by his appearance to think him much better than he was. But his recent illness, the painful memories attached to it, the fatigue of this evening, the incident with Pavlychev's son, and now this scene with Ipolit had also worked on his oversensitive nature that he was now almost in a fever. Moreover, a new trouble, almost a fear, showed itself in his eyes. He watched Ipolit anxiously, as if expecting something further. Suddenly Ipolit arose. His face, shockingly pale, was that of a man overwhelmed with shame and despair. This was shown chiefly in the look of fear and hatred which he cast upon the assembled company, and in the wild smile upon his trembling lips. Then he cast down his eyes, and with the same smile staggered towards Burdovsky and Dr. Enko, who stood at the entrance to the veranda. He had decided to go with them. There, that is what I feared, cried the prince. It was inevitable. Ipolit turned upon him, a prey to maniacal rage, which settled the muscles of his face quivering. Ah, this is what you feared. It was inevitable, you say. Well, let me tell you that if I hate anyone here, I hate you all. He cried in a hoarse, strained voice. But you, you with your Jesuitical soul, your soul of sickly sweetness, idiot, beneficent millionaire, I hate you worse than anything or anyone on earth. I saw through you and hated you long ago, from the day I first heard of you. I hated you with my whole heart. You have contrived all this. You have driven me into this state. You have made a dying man disgrace himself. You, you, you are the cause of my abject cowardice. I would kill you if I remained alive. I do not want your benefits. I will accept none from anyone, do you hear? Not from anyone. I want nothing. I was delirious. Do not dare to triumph. I curse every one of you, once for all. Breath failed him here, and he was obliged to stop. He is ashamed of his tears, whispered Lebergev to Lisa Vieta Prokofievna. It was inevitable. Oh, what a wonderful man the Prince is. He read his very soul. But Mrs. Yeppanchin would not dane to look at Lebergev. Drawn up haughtily, with her head held high, she gazed at the riff-ruff, with scornful curiosity. When Ipolit had finished, Ivan Fyodorovich shrugged his shoulders, and his wife looked him angrily up and down, as if to demand the meaning of this movement. Then she turned to the Prince. Thanks, Prince, many thanks, eccentric friend of the family, for the pleasant evening you have provided for us. I am sure you are quite pleased that you have managed to mix us up with your extraordinary affairs. It is quite enough, dear family friend, thank you for giving us an opportunity of getting to know you so well. She arranged her cloak, with hands that trembled with anger, as she waited for the riff-ruff to go. The cab which Lebergev's son had gone to fetch a quarter of an hour ago, by Dr. Enko's order, arrived at that moment. The general thought fit to put in a word after his wife. Really, Prince, I hardly expected, after all, our friendly intercourse, and you see, Lisa Vieta procofievna. Papa, how can you? cried Adelaida, walking quickly up to the Prince and holding out her hand. He smiled absently at her. Then suddenly he felt a burning sensation in his ear, as an angry voice whispered. If you do not turn those dreadful people out of the house this very instant, I shall hate you all my life, all my life. It was a glire. She seemed almost in a frenzy, but she turned away before the Prince could look at her. However, there was no one left to turn out of the house, for they had managed, meanwhile, to get Ipolite into the cab, and it had driven off. Well, how much longer is this going to last, Ivan Fyodorovich? What do you think, shall I soon be delivered from these odious youths? My dear, I am quite ready, naturally, the Prince. Ivan Fyodorovich held out his hand to Mishkin, but ran after his wife, who was leaving with every sign of violent indignation before he had time to shake it. Adelaida, her fiancee, and Alexandra, said goodbye to their host with sincere friendliness. Yevgeny Pavlovich did the same, and he alone seemed in good spirits. What I expected has happened, but I am sorry, poor fellow, that you should have had to suffer for it, he murmured, with a most charming smile. Aglaya left without saying goodbye, but the evening was not to end without a last adventure. An unexpected meeting was yet in store for Lisaveta Prokofievna. She had scarcely descended the terrace steps leading to the high road that skirts the park at Pavlovsk, when suddenly they're dashed by a smart open carriage drawn by a pair of beautiful white horses. Having passed some ten yards beyond the house, the carriage suddenly drew up, and one of the two ladies seated in it turned sharp round as though she had just caught sight of some acquaintance whom she particularly wished to see. Yevgeny Pavlovich, is that you, cried a clear sweet voice, which caused the prince, and perhaps someone else, to tremble. Well, I am glad I found you at last. I've sent to town for you twice to-day myself. My messengers have been searching for you everywhere. Yevgeny Pavlovich stood on the steps like one struck by lightning. Mrs. Yepanchin stood still too, but not with the petrified expression of Yevgeny. She gazed haughtily at the audacious person who had addressed her companion, and then turned a look of astonishment upon Yevgeny himself. There's news, continued the clear voice. You need not be anxious about Kupferov's IOUs. Rogojin has bought them up. I persuaded him to. I dare say we shall settle bis-cup too, so it's all right, you see. Au revoir, to-morrow, and don't worry. The carriage moved on and disappeared. The woman's mad, cried Yevgeny at last, crimson with anger, and looking confusedly around. I don't know what she's talking about. What IOUs? Who is she? Mrs. Yepanchin continued to watch his face for a couple of seconds. Then she marched briskly and haughtily away towards her own house, the rest following her. A minute afterwards Yevgeny Pavlovich reappeared on the terrace in great agitation. Prince, he said, tell me the truth. Do you know what all this means? I know nothing whatever about it, replied the latter, who was himself in a state of nervous excitement. No. No. Well, nor do I, said Yevgeny Pavlovich, laughing suddenly. I haven't the slightest knowledge of any such IOUs, as she mentioned. I swear I haven't. What's the matter? Are you fainting? Oh, no, no. I'm all right. I assure you. End of Part 2, Chapter 10. Recording by Martin Giesen in Hazelmere Surrey. Part 2, Chapter 11 of The Idiot. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Martin Giesen. The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoevsky, translated by Eva M. Martin. Part 2, Chapter 11. The anger of the Yepanchin family was unappeased for three days. As usual, the Prince reproached himself and had expected punishment, but he was inwardly convinced that Lisa Vieta Prokofievna could not be seriously angry with him, and that she probably was more angry with herself. He was painfully surprised, therefore, when three days passed with no word from her. Other things also troubled and perplexed him, and one of these grew more important in his eyes as the days went by. He had begun to blame himself for two opposite tendencies, on the one hand to extreme, almost senseless confidence in his fellows, on the other to a vile, gloomy suspiciousness. By the end of the third day, the incident of the eccentric lady and Yevgeny Pavlovich had attained enormous and mysterious proportions in his mind. He sorrowfully asked himself whether he had been the cause of this new monstrosity, or was it, but he refrained from saying who else might be in fault. As for the letter's NPB, he looked on that as a harmless joke, a mere childish piece of mischief, so childish that he felt it would be shameful, almost dishonourable, to attach any importance to it. The day after these scandalous events, however, the Prince had the honour of receiving a visit from Adelaide and her fiancee, Prince S. They came ostensibly to inquire after his health. They had wandered out for a walk, and called in by accident, and talked for almost the whole of the time they were with him about a certain most lovely tree in the park, which Adelaide had set her heart upon for a picture. This and a little amiable conversation on Prince S's part occupied the time, and not a word was said about last evening's episodes. At length Adelaide burst out laughing, apologised, and explained that they had come incognito, from which, and from the circumstance that they said nothing about the Prince's either walking back with them, or coming to see them later on, the latter inferred that he was in Mrs. Jepanchine's black books. Adelaide mentioned a water-colour that she would much like to show him, and explained that she would either send it by Collier, or bring it herself the next day, which to the Prince seemed very suggestive. At length, however, just as the visitors were on the point of departing, Prince S seemed suddenly to recollect himself. Oh yes, by the by, he said, do you happen to know, my dear Lyov Nikolayevitch, who that lady was, who called out to Yevgeny Pavlovitch last night from the carriage? It was Nastasya Filipovna, said the Prince. Didn't you know that? I cannot tell you who her companion was. But what on earth did she mean? I assure you it is a real riddle to me, to me and to others, too. Prince S seemed to be under the influence of sincere astonishment. She spoke of some bills of Yevgeny Pavlovitch's, said the Prince, simply, which Rogozhin had bought up from someone, and implied that Rogozhin would not press him. Oh, I heard that much, my dear fellow, but the thing is so impossibly absurd. A man of property, like Yevgeny, to give IOUs to a moneylender, and to be worried about them. It is ridiculous. Besides, he cannot possibly be on such intimate terms with Nastasya Filipovna, as she gave us to understand. That's the principal part of the mystery. He has given me his word that he knows nothing whatever about the matter, and of course I believe him. Well, the question is, my dear Prince, do you know anything about it? Has any sort of suspicion of the meaning of it come across you? No, I know nothing whatever about it. I assure you I had nothing at all to do with it. Oh, Prince, how strange you have become. I assure you, I hardly know you for your old self. How can you suppose that I ever suggested you could have had a finger in such a business? But you are not quite yourself to-day, I can see. He embraced the Prince and kissed him. What do you mean, though, asked Mushkin, by such a business? I don't see any particular business about it at all. Oh, undoubtedly this person wished somehow, and for some reason, to do Yevgeny Pavlovich a bad turn, by attributing to him before witnesses qualities which he neither has nor can have, replied Princess, dryly enough. Mushkin looked disturbed, but continued to gaze intently and questioningly into Princess's face. The latter, however, remained silent. Then it was not simply a matter of bills, Mushkin said at last, with some impatience. It was not, as she said. But I ask you, my dear sir, how can there be anything in common between Yevgeny Pavlovich and her, and again Rogorjin? I tell you he is a man of immense wealth, as I know for a fact, and he has further expectations from his uncle. Simply, Nastasia Philipovna, Princess paused, as though unwilling to continue talking about Nastasia Philipovna. Then at all events he knows her, remarked the Prince after a moment's silence. Oh, that may be! He may have known her some time ago, two or three years at least. He used to know Totsky. But it is impossible that there should be any intimacy between them. She has not even been in the place. Many people don't even know that she has returned from Moscow. I have only observed her carriage about for the last three days or so. It's a lovely carriage, said Adelaida. Yet it was a beautiful turnout, certainly. The visitors left the house, however, on no less friendly terms than before. But the visit was of the greatest importance to the Prince, from his own point of view. Admitting that he had his suspicions from the moment of the occurrence of last night, perhaps even before, that Nastasia had some mysterious end in view, yet this visit confirmed his suspicions and justified his fears. It was all clear to him. Prince S was wrong, perhaps, in his view of the matter, but he was somewhere near the truth, and was right in so far as that he understood there to be an intrigue of some sort going on. Perhaps Prince S saw it all more clearly than he had allowed his hearers to understand. At all events, nothing could be plainer than that he and Adelaida had come for the express purpose of obtaining explanations, and that they suspected him of being concerned in the affair. And if all this was so, then she must have some terrible object in view. What was it? There was no stopping her, as Muskin knew from experience, in the performance of anything she had set her mind on. Oh, she is mad, mad, thought the poor Prince. But there were many other puzzling occurrences that day, which required immediate explanation, and the Prince felt very sad. A visit from Vera Lebedev distracted him a little. She brought the infant Lubochka with her as usual, and talked chairfully for some time. Then came her younger sister, and later the brother who attended a school close by. He informed Muskin that his father had lately found a new interpretation of the star called Wormwood which fell upon the water springs, as described in the Apocalypse. He had decided that it meant the network of railroads spread over the face of Europe at the present time. The Prince refused to believe that Lebedev could have given such an interpretation, and they decided to ask him about it at the earliest opportunity. Vera related how Keller had taken up his abode with them on the previous evening. She thought he would remain for some time, as he was greatly pleased with the society of General Evolgin and of the whole family. But he declared that he had only come to them in order to complete his education. The Prince always enjoyed the company of Lebedev's children, and today it was especially welcome, for Collier did not appear all day. Early that morning he had started for Petersburg. Lebedev also was away on business, but Gavrila Ardalyonovich had promised to visit Mushkin, who eagerly awaited his coming. About seven in the evening, soon after dinner, he arrived. At the first glance it struck the Prince that he at any rate must know all the details of last night's affair. Indeed it would have been impossible for him to remain in ignorance, considering the intimate relationship between him, Varvara Ardalyonovna, and Ptitsin. But although he and the Prince were intimate, in a sense, and although the latter had placed the Borovsky affair in his hands, and this was not the only mark of confidence he had received, it seemed curious how many matters there were that were tacitly avoided in their conversations. Mushkin thought that Gania at times appeared to desire more cordiality and frankness. It was apparent now, when he entered, that he was convinced that the moment for breaking the ice between them had come at last. But all the same Gania was in haste, for his sister was waiting at Lebedev's to consult him on an urgent matter of business. If he had anticipated impatient questions or impulsive confidences, he was soon undeceived. The Prince was thoughtful, reserved, even a little absent-minded, and asked none of the questions, one in particular that Gania had expected. So he imitated the Prince's demeanour, and talked fast and brilliantly upon all subjects but the one on which their thoughts were engaged. Among other things, Gania told his host that Nastasia Philipovna had been only four days in Pavlovsk, and that everyone was talking about her already. She was staying with Darya Alexeyevna in an ugly little house in Matrosky Street, but drove about in the smartest carriage in the place. A crowd of followers had pursued her from the first, young and old. Some escorted her on horseback when she took the air in her carriage. She was as capricious as ever in the choice of her acquaintances, and admitted few into her narrow circle, yet she already had a numerous following, and many champions on whom she could depend in time of need. One gentleman on his holiday had broken off his engagement on her account, and an old general had quarrelled with his only son for the same reason. She was accompanied sometimes in her carriage by a girl of sixteen, a distant relative of her hostess. This young lady sang very well. In fact, her music had given a kind of notoriety to their little house. Nastasia, however, was behaving with great discretion on the whole. She dressed quietly, though with such taste as to drive all the ladies in Pavlovsk mad with envy, of that as well as of her beauty and her carriage and horses. As for yesterday's episode, continued Gania, of course it was prearranged. Here he paused, as though expecting to be asked how he knew that. But the prince did not inquire. Concerning Yevgeny Pavlovich, Gania stated, without being asked, that he believed the former had not known Nastasia Philipovna in past years, but that he had probably been introduced to her by somebody in the park during these four days. As to the question of the IOUs she had spoken of, there might easily be something in that. For though Yevgeny was undoubtedly a man of wealth, yet certain of his affairs were equally undoubtedly in disorder. Arrived at this interesting point, Gania suddenly broke off and said no more about Nastasia's prank of the previous evening. At last Varvara Ardalionovna came in search of her brother, and remained for a few minutes. Without Mushkin's asking her, she informed him that Yevgeny Pavlovich was spending the day in Petersburg, and perhaps would remain there over tomorrow, and that her husband had also gone to town, probably in connection with Yevgeny Pavlovich's affairs. While Fiev knows in a really fiendish temper today, she added as she went out, but the most curious thing is that Aglaya has quarrelled with her whole family. Not only with her father and mother, but with her sisters also. It is not a good sign. She said all this quite casually, though it was extremely important in the eyes of the prince, and went off with her brother. Regarding the episode of Pavlovich's son, Gania had been absolutely silent, partly from a kind of false modesty, partly perhaps to spare the prince's feelings. The latter, however, thanked him again for the trouble he had taken in the affair. Mushkin was glad enough to be left alone. He went out of the garden, crossed the road, and entered the park. He wished to reflect and to make up his mind as to a certain step. This step was one of those things, however, which are not thought out as a rule, but decided for or against hastily and without much reflection. The fact is, he felt a longing to leave all this and go away, go anywhere, if only it were far enough, and at once without bidding farewell to anyone. He felt a presentiment that if he remained but a few days more in this place, and among these people, he would be fixed there irrevocably and permanently. However, in a very few minutes he decided that to run away was impossible. But it would be cowardly that great problems lay before him, and that he had no right to leave them unsolved, or at least to refuse to give all his energy and strength to the attempt to solve them. Having come to this determination, he turned and went home, his walk having lasted less than a quarter of an hour. At that moment he was thoroughly unhappy. Lebedev had not returned, so towards evening Keller managed to penetrate into the prince's apartments. He was not drunk, but in a confidential and talkative mood. He announced that he had come to tell the story of his life to Mushkin, and had only remained at Pavlovsk for that purpose. There was no means of turning him out. Nothing short of an earthquake would have removed him. In the manner of one with long hours before him, he began his history. But after a few incoherent words, he jumped to the conclusion which was that having ceased to believe in God Almighty, he had lost every vestige of morality and had gone so far as to commit a theft. Could you imagine such a thing? said he. Listen to me, Keller, returned the prince. If I were in your place, I should not acknowledge that, unless it were absolutely necessary for some reason. But perhaps you are making yourself out to be worse than you are, purposely. I should tell it to no one but yourself, Prince, and I only name it now as a help to my soul's evolution. When I die, that secret will die with me. But, Excellency, if you knew, if you only had the least idea, how difficult it is to get money nowadays. Where to find it is the question. Ask for a loan. The answer is always the same. Give us gold, jewels, or diamonds, and it will be quite easy. Exactly what one has not got. Can you picture that to yourself? I got angry at last and said, I suppose you would accept emeralds. Certainly we accept emeralds with pleasure, yes. Well, that's all right, said I. Go to the devil, you den of thieves. And with that I seized my hat and walked out. Had you any emeralds? asked the Prince. What? I have emeralds. Oh, Prince, with what simplicity, with what almost pastoral simplicity you look upon life. Could not something be made of this man under good influences? asked the Prince of himself, for he began to feel a kind of pity for his visitor. He thought little of the value of his own personal influence, not from a sense of humility, but from his peculiar way of looking at things in general. Imperceptibly the conversation grew more animated and more interesting, so that neither of the two felt anxious to bring it to a close. Keller confessed, with apparent sincerity, to having been guilty of many acts of such a nature, that it astonished the Prince that he could mention them, even to him. At every fresh avowal he professed the deepest repentance, and described himself as being bathed in tears. But this did not prevent him from putting on a boastful air at times, and some of his stories were so absurdly comical that both he and the Prince laughed like madmen. One point in your favour is that you seem to have a childlike mind, and extreme truthfulness, said the Prince at last. Do you know that that atones for much? I am assuredly noble-minded and chivalrous to a degree, said Keller, much softened. But do you know this nobility of mind exists in a dream, if one may put it so. It never appears in practice or deed. Now why is that? I can never understand. Do not despair. I think we may say without fear of deceiving ourselves that you have now given a fairly exact account of your life. I at least think it would be impossible to add much to what you have just told me. Impossible! cried Keller almost pittingly. Oh, Prince, how little you really seem to understand human nature. Is there really much more to be added? asked the Prince with mild surprise. Well, what is it you really want of me? Speak out. Tell me why you came to make your confession to me. What did I want? Well, to begin with, it is good to meet a man like you. It is a pleasure to talk over my faults with you. I know you for one of the best of men. And then, then he hesitated, and appeared so much embarrassed that the Prince helped him out. Then you wanted me to lend you money. The words were spoken in a grave tone, and even somewhat shyly. Keller started, gave an astonished look at the speaker, and thumped the table with his fist. Well, Prince, that's enough to knock me down. It astounds me. Here you are as simple and innocent as a knight of the Golden Age. And yet, yet, you read a man so like a psychologist. Now, do explain it to me, Prince, because I really do not understand. Of course, my aim was to borrow money all along. And you, you asked the question, as if there was nothing blamable in it, as if you thought it quite natural. Yes, from you it is quite natural. And you are not offended. Why should I be offended? Well, just listen, Prince. I remained here last evening, partly because I have a great admiration for the French archbishop Bourdeleu. I enjoyed a discussion over him till three o'clock in the morning with Lebedief. And then, then, I swear by all I hold sacred that I'm telling you the truth. Then I wished to develop my soul in this frankened heartfelt confession to you. This was my thought as I was sobbing myself to sleep at dawn. Just as I was losing consciousness, tears in my soul, tears on my face, I remember how I lay there sobbing. An idea from hell struck me. Why not, after confessing, borrow money from him? You see, this confession was a kind of master-stroke. I intended to use it as a means to your good grace and favour. And then, then I meant to walk off with a hundred and fifty roubles. Now, do not call that base. It is hardly an exact statement of the case, said the Prince in reply. You have confused your motives and ideas, as I need scarcely say too often happens to myself. I can assure you, Keller, I reproach myself bitterly for it sometimes. When you were talking just now, I seemed to be listening to something about myself. At times I have imagined that all men were the same, he continued earnestly, for he appeared to be much interested in the conversation. And that consoled me in a certain degree, for a double motive is a thing most difficult to fight against. I have tried and I know. God knows, whence they arise, these ideas that you speak of as base. I fear these double motives more than ever just now, but I am not your judge, and in my opinion it is going too far to give the name of baseness to it. What do you think? You are going to employ your tears as a ruse in order to borrow money. But you also say, in fact you have sworn to the fact that independently of this, your confession was made with an honourable motive. As for the money, you want it for drink, do you not? After your confession that is weakness, of course, but after all how can anyone give up a bad habit at a moment's notice? It is impossible. What can we do? It is best, I think, to leave the matter to your own conscience. How does it seem to you? As he concluded, the prince looked curiously at Keller. Evidently this problem of double motives had often been considered by him before. Well, how anybody can call you an idiot after that is more than I can understand, cried the boxer. The prince reddened slightly. Bordelou, the archbishop, would not have spared a man like me. Keller continued, but you, you have judged me with humanity. To show how grateful I am, and as a punishment, I will not accept a hundred and fifty roubles. Give me twenty-five. That will be enough. It is all I really need for a fortnight at least. I will not ask you for more for a fortnight. I should like to have given Agata a present, but she does not really deserve it. Oh, my dear prince, God bless you. At this moment Lebergeff appeared, having just arrived from Petersburg. He frowned when he saw the twenty-five ruble note in Keller's hand, but the latter, having got the money, went away at once. Lebergeff began to abuse him. You are unjust. I found him sincerely repentant, observed the prince after listening for a time. What is the good of repentance like that? It is the same exactly as mine yesterday, when I said, I am base, I am base. Words and nothing more. Then they were only words on your part. I thought on the contrary. Well, I don't mind telling you the truth, you only, because you see through a man somehow. Words and actions, truth and falsehood, are all jumbled up together in me, and yet I am perfectly sincere. I feel the deepest repentance, believe it or not, as you choose, but words and lies come out in the infernal craving to get the better of other people. It is always there, the notion of cheating people, and of using my repentant tears to my own advantage. I assure you this is the truth, Prince. I would not tell any other man for the world. He would laugh and jeer at me. But you, you judge a man humanely. Why, Keller said the same thing to me nearly word for word a few minutes ago, cried Muishkin, and you both seem inclined to boast about it. You astonish me, but I think he is more sincere than you, for you make a regular trade of it. Oh, don't put on that pathetic expression, and don't put your hand on your heart. Have you anything to say to me, and you have not come for nothing? Lebedev grinned and wriggled. I have been waiting all day for you, because I want to ask you a question, and for once in your life please tell me the truth at once. Had you anything to do with that affair of the carriage yesterday? Lebedev began to grin again, rubbed his hands, sneezed, but spoke not a word in reply. I see you had something to do with it. Indirectly, quite indirectly, I am speaking the truth, I am indeed. I merely told a certain person that I had people in my house, and that such and such personages might be found among them. I am aware that you sent your son to that house. He told me so himself just now, but what is this intrigue? said the Prince impatiently. It is not my intrigue, cried Lebedev, waving his hand. It was engineered by other people, and is properly speaking rather a fantasy than an intrigue. But what is it all about? Tell me, for heaven's sake, cannot you understand how nearly it touches me? Why are they blackening Evgeny Pavlovich's reputation? Lebedev grimaced and wriggled again. Prince, said he, Excellency, you won't let me tell you the whole truth. I have tried to explain. More than once I have begun, but you have not allowed me to go on. The Prince gave no answer, and sat deep in thought. Evidently he was struggling to decide. Very well, tell me the truth, he said dejectedly. Aglaya Ivanovna began Lebedev promptly. Be silent at once, interrupted the Prince, read with indignation, and perhaps with shame too. It is impossible and absurd. All that has been invented by you, or fools like you. Let me never hear you say a word again on that subject. Late in the evening, Aglaya came in with a whole budget of Petersburg and Pavlovsk news. He did not dwell much on the Petersburg part of it, which consisted chiefly of intelligence about his friend Ipolit, but passed quickly to the Pavlovsk tidings. He had gone straight to the Panchines from the station. There's the deuce and all going on there, he said. First of all about the row last night, and I think there must be something new as well, though I didn't like to ask. Not a word about you, Prince, the whole time. The most interesting fact was that Aglaya had been quarrelling with her people about Gania. Kolya did not know any details, except that it had been a terrible quarrel. Also Yevgeny Pavlovich had called, and met with an excellent reception all round. And another curious thing. Mrs. Yepanchine was so angry that she called Varya to her. Varya was talking to the girls, and turned her out of the house, once for all, she said. I heard it from Varya herself. Mrs. Yepanchine was quite polite, but firm. And when Varya said goodbye to the girls, she told them nothing about it, and they didn't know they were saying goodbye for the last time. I'm sorry for Varya, and for Gania too. He isn't half a bad fellow, in spite of his faults, and I shall never forgive myself for not liking him before. I don't know whether I ought to continue to go to the Yepanchines now, concluded Kolya. I like to be quite independent of others, and of other people's quarrels, if I can. But I must think over it. I don't think you need break your heart over Gania, said the Prince. For if what you say is true, he must be considered dangerous in the Yepanchine household, and if so, certain hopes of his must have been encouraged. What? What hopes? cried Kolya. He surely don't mean a glire. Oh, no! You're a dreadful skeptic, Prince! he continued, after a moment's silence. I have observed of late that you have grown skeptical about everything. You don't seem to believe in people as you did, and are always attributing motives and so on. Am I using the word skeptic in its proper sense? I believe so, but I'm not sure. Well, I'll change it, right or wrong. I'll say that you are not skeptical, but jealous. There, you are deadly jealous of Gania over a certain proud damsel. Come! Kolya jumped up with these words and burst out laughing. He laughed as he had perhaps never laughed before, and still more when he saw the Prince flushing up to his temples. He was delighted that the Prince should be jealous about a glire. However, he stopped immediately on seeing that the other was really hurt, and the conversation continued very earnestly for an hour or more. Next day the Prince had to go to town on business. Returning in the afternoon, he happened upon General Yepanchin at the station. The latter seized his hand, glancing around nervously as if he were afraid of being caught in wrongdoing, and dragged him into a first-class compartment. He was burning to speak about something of importance. In the first place, my dear Prince, don't be angry with me. I would have come to see you yesterday, but I didn't know how Lisa Vieta Prokofievna would take it. My dear fellow, my house is simply a hell just now. A sort of sphinx has taken up its abode there. We live in an atmosphere of riddles. I can't make head or tail of anything. As for you, I feel sure you are the least to blame of any of us, though you certainly have been the cause of a good deal of trouble. You see, it's all very pleasant to be a philanthropist, but it can be carried too far. Of course I admire kind-heartedness, and I esteem my wife, but the General wandered on in this disconnected way for a long time. It was clear that he was much disturbed by some circumstance which he could make nothing of. It is plain to me that you are not in it at all, he continued at last, a little less vaguely. But perhaps you had better not come to our house for a little while. I ask you in the friendliest manner, mind. Just till the wind changes again. As for Yevgeny Pavlovich, he continued with some excitement. The whole thing is a calumny, a datty calumny. It is simply a plot, an intrigue, to upset our plans and to stir up a quarrel. You see, Prince, I'll tell you privately. Yevgeny and ourselves have not said a word yet. We have no formal understanding. We are in no way bound on either side, but the word may be said very soon. Don't you see? Very soon. And all this is most injurious, and is meant to be so. Why? I'm sure I can't tell you. She's an extraordinary woman, you see, an eccentric woman. I tell you, I am so frightened of that woman that I can't sleep. What a carriage that was, and where did it come from, hey? I declare, I was baseless enough to suspect Yevgeny at first. But it seems certain that that cannot be the case. And if so, why is she interfering here? That's the riddle. What does she want? Is it to keep Yevgeny to herself? But, my dear fellow, I swear to you, I swear he doesn't even know her. And as for those bills, the whole thing is an invention, and the familiarity of the woman. It's quite clear we must treat the impudent creature's attempt with disdain, and redouble our courtesy towards Yevgeny. I told my wife so. Now I'll tell you my secret conviction. I'm certain that she's doing this to revenge herself on me, on account of the past, though I assure you that all the time I was blameless, I blushed the very idea. And now she turns up again like this, when I thought she had finally disappeared. Where's Rogorjin all this time? I thought she was Mrs. Rogorjin, long ago. The old man was in a state of great mental perturbation. The whole of the journey which occupied nearly an hour, he continued in this strain, putting questions and answering them himself, shrugging his shoulders, pressing the prince's hand, and assuring the latter that at all events he had no suspicion whatever of him. This last assurance was satisfactory at all events. The general finished by informing him that Yevgeny's uncle was head of one of the civil service departments, and rich, very rich, and a gourmand. And while heaven preserve him, of course, but Yevgeny gets his money, don't you see? But for all this I'm uncomfortable. I don't know why. There's something in the air. I feel there's something nasty in the air, like a bat, and I'm by no means comfortable. And it was not until the third day that the formal reconciliation between the prince and the Yepanchins took place, as said before. End of Part 2, Chapter 11. Recording by Martin Geeson in Hazelmere Surrey. Part 2, Chapter 12 of The Idiot. This LibriVox recording is in the public domain. Recording by Martin Geeson. The Idiot by Fyodor Dostoevsky, translated by Eva M. Martin. Part 2, Chapter 12. It was seven in the evening, and the prince was just preparing to go out for a walk in the park, when suddenly Mrs. Yepanchin appeared on the terrace. In the first place, don't dare to suppose, she began, that I am going to apologize. Nonsense! You were entirely to blame. The prince remained silent. Were you to blame or not? No, certainly not, no more than yourself, though at first I thought I was. Oh, very well, let's sit down at all events, for I don't intend to stand up all day. And remember, if you say one word about mischievous urchins, I shall go away and break with you altogether. Now, then, did you or did you not send a letter to Aglaya, a couple of months or so ago, about Easter-tide? Yes. What for? What was your object? Show me the letter. Mrs. Yepanchin's eyes flashed. She was almost trembling with impatience. I have not got the letter, said the prince timidly, extremely surprised at the turn the conversation had taken. If any one has it, if it still exists, Aglaya Ivanovna must have it. No finessing, please! What did you write about? I am not finessing, and I am not in the least afraid of telling you, but I don't see the slightest reason why I should not have written. Be quiet! You couldn't talk afterwards. What was the letter about? Why are you blushing? The prince was silent. At last he spoke. I don't understand your thoughts, Lisa Vieta Prokofievna, but I can see that the fact of my having written is for some reason repugnant to you. You must admit that I have a perfect right to refuse to answer your questions, but in order to show you that I am neither ashamed of the letter, nor sorry that I wrote it, and that I am not in the least inclined to blush about it. Here the prince's blushes redoubled. I will repeat the substance of my letter, for I think I know it almost by heart. So saying, the prince repeated the letter, almost word for word, as he had written it. My goodness! What utter twaddle! And what may all this nonsense of signified pray, if it had any meaning at all, said Mrs. Yepanchin cuttingly, after having listened with great attention. I really don't absolutely know myself. I know my feeling was very sincere. I had moments at that time full of life and hope. What sort of hope? It is difficult to explain, but certainly not the hopes you have in your mind. Hopes, in a word, hopes for the future, and a feeling of joy that there, at all events, I was not entirely a stranger and a foreigner. I felt an ecstasy in being in my native land once more, and one sunny morning I took up a pen and wrote her that letter. But why to her I don't quite know. Sometimes one longs to have a friend near, and I evidently felt the need of one then, added the prince, and paused. Are you in love with her? No, I wrote to her as to a sister. I signed myself her brother. Oh, yes, of course, on purpose. I quite understand. It is very painful to me to answer these questions, Lisabietta Prokofievna. I dare say it is, but that's no affair of mine. Now then, assure me truly, as before heaven, are you lying to me or not? No, I am not lying. Are you telling the truth when you say you are not in love? I believe it is the absolute truth. I believe, indeed, did that mischievous urchin give it to her. I asked Nikolaj Ardalionovich, the urchin, the urchin, interrupted Lisabietta Prokofievna in an angry voice. I do not want to know if it went Nikolaj Ardalionovich, the urchin. Nikolaj Ardalionovich, the urchin, I tell you. No, it was not the urchin, it was Nikolaj Ardalionovich, said the prince very firmly, but without raising his voice. Well, all right, all right, my dear, I shall put that down to your account. She was silent a moment to get breath and to recover her composure. Well, and what's the meaning of the poor night, hey? I don't know in the least. I wasn't present when the joke was made. It is a joke, I suppose, and that's all. Well, that's a comfort at all events. You don't suppose she could take any interest in you, do you? Why, she called you an idiot herself. I think you might have spared me that, murmured the prince reproachfully, almost in a whisper. Don't be angry. She is a willful, mad, spoiled girl. If she likes a person, she will pitch into him and chaff him. I used to be just such another. But for all that, you needn't flatter yourself, my boy. She is not for you. I don't believe it, and it is not to be. I tell you so at once, so that you may take proper precautions. Now, I want to hear you swear that you are not married to that woman. These are vieta procofievna. What are you thinking of? cried the prince, almost leaping to his feet in amazement. Why, you very nearly were, anyhow. Yes, I nearly was, whispered the prince, hanging his head. Well, then, have you come here for her? Are you in love with her, with that creature? I did not come to marry at all, replied the prince. Is there anything you hold sacred? There is, and swear by it that you did not come here to marry her. I'll swear it by whatever you please. I believe you. You may kiss me. I breathe freely at last. But you must know, my dear friend, Aglaya does not love you, and she shall never be your wife while I am out of my grave. So be warned in time. Do you hear me? Yes, I hear. The prince flushed up so much that he could not look her in the face. I have waited for you with the greatest impatience, not that you were worth it. Every night I have drenched my pillow with tears, not for you, my friend, not for you. Don't flatter yourself. I have my own grief, always the same, always the same. But I'll tell you why I have been awaiting you so impatiently, because I believe that Providence itself sent you to be a friend and a brother to me. I haven't a friend in the world except Princess Biola Gonski, and she is growing as stupid as a sheep from old age. Now then, tell me, yes or no, do you know why she called out from her carriage the other night? I give you my word of honour that I had nothing to do with the matter, and know nothing about it. Very well, I believe you. I have my own ideas about it. Up to yesterday morning I thought it was really Yevgeny Pavlovich who was to blame. Now I cannot help agreeing with the others. But why he was made such a fool of, I cannot understand. However, he is not going to marry Aglaya. I can tell you that. He may be a very excellent fellow, but so it shall be. I was not at all sure of accepting him before, but now I have quite made up my mind that I won't have him. Put me in my coffin first, and then into my grave, and then you may marry my daughter to whomsoever you please. So I said to the general this very morning, you see how I trust you, my boy. Yes, I see and understand. Mrs. Yepanchin gazed keenly into the prince's eyes. She was anxious to see what impression the news, as to Yevgeny Pavlovich, had made upon him. Do you know anything about Gavrila Ardelyonovich? She asked at last. Oh yes, I know a good deal. Did you know he had communications with Aglaya? No, I didn't, said the prince, trembling a little and in great agitation. You say Gavrila Ardelyonovich has private communications with Aglaya? Impossible. Only quite lately his sister has been working like a rat to clear the way for him all the winter. I don't believe it, said the prince abruptly after a short pause. Had it been so, I should have known long ago. Oh, of course, yes, he would have come and wept out his secret on your bosom. Oh, you simpleton! You simpleton! Anyone can deceive you, but take you in like a… like a… aren't you ashamed to trust him? Can't you see that he humbugs you just as much as ever he pleases? I know very well that he does deceive me occasionally, and he knows that I know it, but the prince did not finish his sentence. And that's why you trust him, eh? So I should have supposed. Good Lord, was there ever such a man as you? Pull, and you are aware, sir, that this Ganya, or his sister Varya, have brought her into correspondence with Nastasia Philipovna. Brought home, cried Mishkin, Aglaya. I don't believe it. It's impossible. What object could they have? He jumped up from his chair in his excitement. Nor do I believe it, in spite of the proofs. The girl is self-willed and fantastic, and insane. She's wicked, wicked. I'll repeat it for a thousand years that she's wicked. They all are just now, all my daughters, even that wet-haired Alexandra. And yet I don't believe it, because I don't choose to believe it, perhaps. But I don't. Why haven't you been? She turned on the prince suddenly. Why didn't you come near us all these three days, eh? The prince began to give his reasons. But she interrupted him again. Everybody takes you in and deceives you. You went to town yesterday. I dare swear you went down in your knees to that rogue, and begged him to accept your ten thousand rubles. I never thought of doing any such thing. I have not seen him. And he is not a rogue, in my opinion. I have had a letter from him. Show it to me. The prince took a paper from his pocketbook, and handed it to Lisa Vieta Prokofievna. It ran as follows. Sir, in the eyes of the world I am sure that I have no cause for pride or self-esteem. I am much too insignificant for that. But what may be so to other men's eyes is not so to yours. I am convinced that you are better than other people. Dr. Renko disagrees with me, but I am content to differ from him on this point. I will never accept one single co-pec from you, but you have helped my mother, and I am bound to be grateful to you for that, however weak it may seem. At any rate, I have changed my opinion about you, and I think right to inform you of the fact. But I also suppose that there can be no further intercourse between us. P.S. The two hundred rubles I owe you shall certainly be repaid in time. How extremely stupid! cried Mrs. Yepanchin, giving back the letter abruptly. It was not worth the trouble of reading. Why are you smiling? Confess that you are pleased to have read it. What? Pleased with all that nonsense? Why, cannot you see that they are all infatuated with pride and vanity? P.S. He has acknowledged himself to be in the wrong. Don't you see that, the greater his vanity, the more difficult this admission must have been on his part. Oh, what a little child you are, Lisa Vieta Prokofievna! Are you tempting me to box your ears for you, or what? Not at all. I am only proving that you are glad about the letter. Why conceal your real feelings? You always like to do it. Never come near my house again! cried Mrs. Yepanchin, pale with rage. Don't let me see as much as a shadow of you about the place. Do you hear? Oh, yes, and in three days you'll come and invite me yourself. Aren't you ashamed now? These are your best feelings. You are only tormenting yourself. I'll die before I invite you. I shall forget your very name. I've forgotten it already. She marched towards the door. But I'm forbidden your house as it is without your added threats, cried the prince after her. What? Who forbade you? She turned round so suddenly that one might have supposed a needle had been stuck into her. The prince hesitated. He perceived that he had said too much now. Who forbade you? cried Mrs. Yepanchin once more. A Glya Ivanovna told me. When? Speak quick! She sent to say yesterday morning that I was never to dare to come near the house again. Elizaveta Prokofievna stood like a stone. What did she send? Home? Was it that boy? Was it a message? Quick! I had a note. Where is it? Give it here at once. The prince thought a moment. Then he pulled out of his waistcoat pocket an untidy slip of paper, on which was scrawled. Prince Lyov Nikolaevich, if you think fit after all that has passed to honour our house with a visit, I can assure you you will not find me among the number of those who are in any way delighted to see you. A Glya Yepanchin. Mrs. Yepanchin reflected a moment. The next minute she flew at the prince, seized his hand, and dragged him after her to the door. Quick! Come along! she cried breathless with agitation and impatience. Come along with me this moment. But you declared I wasn't. Don't be a simpleton. You behaved just as though you weren't a man at all. Come on! I shall see now with my own eyes. I shall see all. Well, let me get my hat at least. Here's your miserable hat. He couldn't even choose a respectable shape for his hat. Come on! She did that because I took your part and said you ought to have come, little Vixen. Else she would never have sent you that silly note. It's a most improper note, I call it. Most improper for such an intelligent, well-brought-up girl to write. I daresay she was annoyed that you didn't come, but she ought to have known that one can't write like that, to an idiot like you, or you'd be sure to take it literally. Mrs. Yepanchin was dragging the prince along with her all the time, and never let go of his hand for an instant. What are you listening for? she added, seeing that she had committed herself a little. She wants a clown like you. She hasn't seen one for some time to play with. That's why she is anxious for you to come to the house, and right glad I am that she'll make a thorough good fool of you. You deserve it, and she can do it, oh, she can indeed, as well as most people.