 up there mate. Not even, I'm sober as well so, senile falling. Olympus has fallen, Azo has fallen. Get Gerard Butler to pick me back up again. Yeah a lot of people were reaching out and seemed to be going through a hard time mate so I thought what perfect time to just cook up a steak, we'll make it quick, we'll just talk about what we've found hard, what we've enjoyed, like you know how we have bettered ourselves, what we like about lockdown and a couple of things that we are doing to help help our noggins and help us through lockdown and then I'm gonna tag three people and send it out there. Not bothered if you tag me back or mention me at all, I just want it out there so it encourages, it encourages us, men of a certain type, you know, there's a certain type of man that finds it hard to talk about their emotions. I'm clearly not one of them, the blubbering wreck. But if it encourages people and not just men, women can get involved as well but if it encourages men, them sort of men, I don't know, like you know what I mean, you know them men I mean, tough as hard boots, they don't say out and then but really it's hurting on the inside. So it's for you lads and yeah just to encourage people to talk about it, you might not talk about it yourself but you might find a little bit of, you might gain something from listening to other people talk about it and that and you know, problem shared and all that. Right sir, let's get on with it, let's get a fire going and let's crack on. Right sir, Chris was in a rush and I've only got, I've only brought me a little osprey bag, I've forgotten my fire steel, I've forgotten my fire steel, I've done a Joe Robinette and I shout out Joe Robinette and lost my fire steel so that's gonna be an issue, that's gonna be an issue. I've also and this is absolutely mad, lockdown's getting to me mate, I can't remember, it's been a while I'm not used to it, I've forgotten my steak as well, I've made a mistake and forgot my steak. So I've come to cook a steak in woods to do a show as you say, lockdown challenge and I forgot my fire steel and I forgot my steak so I can't really talk, I can't, unless we're doing some bushcrafty or summits I can put it in thumbnails so people actually watch. How can I, what can I do? I'll tell you what I can do, what have we got, we've got, there's a lot of, there's oak, there's not much variety in here, there's oak and there's a lot of silver birch, I could use silver birch and we could try and get burglarial going, I could use my shoelaces, should we do that? See if we can get a fire going at least, I don't have a steak, see if we can find some wild edibles or I'll make a fire and we'll have a little chat-round fire, that's that's what we'll do and if I can't get a fire going, I'll put a load of sticks together like in a little TP formation and we'll have a little chat around the sticks. There's a nice straight piece, look, nice innit? That's a nice piece, look, yeah? Why do I keep, Jesus, I'm better, more stable when I'm pissed. Come up here you, stop slouching, stop slouching on my watch, whatever I told you. So here we go, look, this would be what I'll use as my spindle because this straight bit here, so the thing about bushcraft and survival is you've got to film it and put it on internet otherwise it hadn't happened, only joking. The thing about bushcraft and survival is adaptability and it's the same as I have at work mate, if I'm you know if I'm designing and building a big garden and you know you don't have a certain material and you've got to use something else, you adapt, it's adaptability to overcome your situations and that's what I'm doing now mate, real-life adaptability, obviously you know what you should do is plan ahead, plan meticulously and then you won't have to think on your feet but you don't always have that luxury so you know in a survival situation you've got to make do what you've got. Well the knife of choice is my custom, get out my face, is my custom SE3 customised by my mate Luke over at York Knives, bought for me originally by my girlfriend so it's a very important knife to me, I love it dearly, love it dearly. Right so what you want is nothing too thick in your thumb, nothing smaller than your little finger and you want to be, if you do that, surfs up, it wants to be roughly there, somewhere around there and as I don't have a saw, why would I have anything with me, it was one of them, I just chucked it in bag, you know when you feel, you feel inspired, you feel like you want to just get out and do something, it was one of them, so my little Osprey Viper 9 bag, which is, I tell you what mate, I'm getting sidetracked here, this little thing, the Osprey Viper, use it for cycling and stuff is an absolute beast, I love it, I love it. We're pushing it in with our thumb in one direction all the way around and then turn it the other way around and if you just work it the other way you can, I'm not even showing you, and then you take off quite a lot of material doing that and if you don't have a saw, you'd be surprised, it takes a little bit longer but you'd be surprised the size of the, the size of the bits of timber you can get through, keep it in focus, Daniel's son, there you go and then it'll just break off. So both want a point on but the point that's going on your bearing block, which is going to be in your hand, wants to be ever so finer, come to a finer point so it doesn't have, it doesn't create as much friction and then obviously you, the other side, sorry if I don't know terminology, also sorry to all you, get down there you, sorry to all you, you know, professionals out there, if you're a bushcraft teacher or whatever, I might be doing, there's a lot of things I do that are wrong, loads of things mate but, you know, I'm like Tesco's own brand mate, like I do everything but nothing particularly well, do you know what I mean? Gardening, spearfishing, wild camping, figure skating, I've got a lot of, I've got a lot of things that I can do but I don't really, I don't really do any of them very well so if you're a bushcrafting instructor or, you know, you take this shit seriously, then I apologise, I don't know the terminologies for stuff and then, and I might, you know, my techniques might be a little bit wrong so maybe don't learn from me, maybe just watch this, because I'm loop, this isn't about this anyway, this is about having a chat with you a lot about stuff anyway, this is a shows you stay challenge without a stake anyway, you want that to be a bit straighter if I was you mate then so, because you take that curl out, out the end there, that's the, that's the badger so that bit, that'll go on the pointed end there as you can't see there, that'll go on my bearing block that I'm gonna make, luckily as well I had these gloves in the van, my work gloves in, in my van so that's another little booth you've owned this might, and then that side that'll go, so it'll go that way up basically and I'll just take these little nodes off, now we need to get a half which is going to be the, the, the bit of wood that this sits on and drills into like that so, let's have a look for one and we'll have to batten it down with, with little knife, I don't have an axe or a bigger knife so let's go, let's go sort that out, right sweepstake what's gonna break first, I reckon this, I don't know, I'm in, I'm in, I'm in, I'm in how punky is it though, you know what, it's very punky, steady, steady the eagle Edwoods right so we've got our, our half and we've got our spindle that's just, that's not gonna work though because that's too punky, sorry for everyone who suffers from motion sickness, there's a few of you out there, look at it you can see, you can tell by the land anyway that it was very, very wet, you see this, the discoloration of the leaves here, it's a lot darker and in fact you can see it there's still swampy bits kicking about, you got me, you looking at, there you go, whatever and that was a live tree as well and that takes some doing but I've been training and I'm locked down, it's a bit small, what I'm gonna do, do I even know what I'm gonna do, so just how I, just like how I chiseled into me a spindle I'm just gonna do that on here on the bow, just go once round either way, either side and that'll just create a nice little area for the, for me shoelace to, to nestle into so it doesn't slip out and whatever nest and dorma, get around there and we can maybe just attach it on to the Y at the end, why, because I forgot my fire steel didn't I, like an absolute doughnut, hold my thumb underneath it and when I come back round again that's created a little loop that I can then go under and I can tighten that up nicely, so you want something live for you you're bearing block, something that's a little bit less punky that I've split down because I don't think that other thing's gonna work, see, be honest, this is a little bit of live oak because I can't chop anything bigger because I don't have a saw and I don't have the time to be chopping out bigger with it, so a little bit of spit and a bit of green leaf worked into the hole there, just makes it a lot, makes it slide a lot, doesn't catch, so a little hole just to get us started, okay, that's how I like it then you can rest hand against shin or come off it mate, not the best bearing block I've ever made, so slowly, slowly does it, so what we're gonna do is you see if it, I mean, that's the action we want, put a bit more pressure on, right and so now what you want to do is create a V that works its way into that hole, are you all still there, you haven't done one have you, that's a sheer boredom of watching me trying to get a fire going, smoking my ghee, they had it but I lost it, story of my lockdown, right, that is a metaphor for life, add it and lost it, that is the story of my lockdown, add it, going well, lost it, and then to stay with story at lockdown we're gonna get it back, we are getting it back even if I have to stay here until I die of either starvation or thirst, I'm staying in till I get this, so you can see the smoke already, so I think it was just because my V was a bit too big, she said, so I wasn't concentrated enough, so I'll just have to do it for a little bit longer than normal, you can see that smoke hopefully you can see that smoke anyway, ah get it over, get it over, come on, come on you can see it, oh come on, go on catch, go on, turn it, turn it, there we are, get it down up, get it down on deck, turn it over quick, have a look, it is fire I promise, there, go on, there it is, that's fire isn't it, you can't deny it, I'm a street rider, oh yes sir, oh mate, I don't even warn a fire as well, get it back on fire from from whence it came, it served its purpose, that was a show as you stake challenge, I do apologise that I didn't show you mistake, oh damn me, the thing is though I'm going to have to have a steak in thumbnail aren't I, so what I'll do is over at weekend I'll go into back garden and I'll cook a steak up, Bob's Uncle there's your thumbnail I got my steak, it's a couple of days later, I've got my steak with me so I'm just going to quickly rustle it up, I've come back to the same spot mate, just putting a bit of effort in, I thought what do I do in garden, I'll just come to the same spot and I've got everything I need to start a fire easily, so I'm not going to piss about with this bit, I'm just going to show you that I've cooked a steak, maybe brief some fire on it just for a bit of theatre there you go, that's how I like it, charred, this is what should have happened a couple of days ago, I'll take you back to Hazy in the past when I sometimes get emotional it's not because I'm like losing my noggin, because I just can't handle joy and goodness, the goodness of mankind sometimes just makes my eyes sweat so that's that, it's not a sign of weakness, because I once knocked out a bear with a left hook, it was in a zoo and it was tranked up but it's not the point, the point isn't right handed and it was a left hook anyway I'm digressing here, sometimes I wish I could just turn my camera on and have a chat with you but I have to sort of sandwich that chat in between two loves of bushcraft or whatever and that's why I think I'm starting a podcast mate, I'm going to start a little podcast as well as do these me outdoor videos and stuff I'm going to start a podcast and you'll get a video version on YouTube and you'll also get an audio version wherever you get your podcast from and the first episode is going to be, the trial episode is going to be recorded this weekend and it's going to be with Joey D and it's going to go on my patrons page just because I imagine that there's going to be all sorts of technical issues so it could be funny, it might be tragic, who knows so many people reached out last time on my last video with stories of how they'd struggled or missed their partners or their emotions were going up and down, they didn't know what to think, all these sorts of things so I thought the best thing to do is just address it on a video and then let's all talk about it but first of all I'd just like to give a shout out to Simon a bloke in the woods who tagged me in a challenge of cooking something with three ingredients well there you go Simon, I've cooked with less than three ingredients, I've cooked with no ingredients but shout out to you Simon and I was feeling bad about not doing that but I do get asked to do a hell of a lot of challenges and stuff yeah it's hard enough doing my own thing man, so I do apologise Simon and that's for you in a way and I am going to tag some people but not just to cook something with three ingredients, I've sort of hijacked it in a way just so that we can just get a bit of a conversation going I'm not bothered about getting tagged in it, you don't need to mention me or anything like that, I'm not bothered let's just get a bit of a dialogue going because I really believe it will help some people out there because the people who've reached out to me especially and so this is it man, the same as last time you go out cook us up a steak, I've done it in my garden I'll even do, I'll briefly fire on it again, there you go just to make it a proper show as your steak challenge this is mainly to men, this is mainly to men who struggle to talk about their feelings and their emotions we've all got that mate or that dad or granddad or uncle or it could even be yourself who just struggles to be honest with themselves and bottles it all up and it ain't healthy mate so this is just a good excuse to talk about your feelings really and I know it's all, it's quite trendy now isn't it to talk about men's mental health and people jump on bandwagon and it's like avocados isn't it, they came out of nowhere but it's important to me and I grew up around mental health I suffer from mental health myself, I've got ADHD, chlamydia, I've got all sorts of like my brain races and I've had problems with drugs and alcohol in the past and stuff so I'm coming from a place of understanding now also just after before I go on there is a difference between mental health as in suffering from social anxiety, depression and then mental health as in schizophrenia and things like that, there is a difference and I aren't qualified, probably not qualified to talk about either but seek medical help if things like changing your diet and exercising and all these sort of things aren't helping please do seek medical help, go see a professional but always speak to your friends and family okay right so what it is cook a steak and we talk about just quickly what you've found hard about quarantine like the hardest things you've found what you've enjoyed about quarantine and what you've done to sort of help yourself through it and that's that basically so I'm going to start with what I've found hard about quarantine and it was missing my family, missing my daughter, missing my girlfriend missing my friends, contact, human contact not being able to go on my adventures so that my mind starts to not play tricks on me but my chimp brain takes over and I did speak about this last time but my chimp brain takes over and I start drinking a lot things just go out of control with me, I've got no, there's no middle ground I'm still trying to find that middle ground to have all or nothing in it you know throughout the for a couple of weeks in the middle of lockdown I really did lose it mate I was just, not batshit but I just couldn't get a grip on my drinking and I started smoking, I never smoke, I got the lungs of an athlete and a free diver I started smoking again and that door you know just I was really unhappy and my emotions were all over the place mate because it's a weird time in it and I wasn't used to being locked away on my own and so I really did suffer mate but I have to spoke about this that I got to see my daughter, see my girlfriend that really helped and I reached out and spoke to my dad things like speaking to friends, even speaking to the camera it breathes life into it, that's what I struggled with what I've enjoyed, really enjoyed, taking a step back from everything seeing the veil being pulled back on things like celebrity, commercialism, capitalism all that sort of isms and being out I just have been doing yoga and just meditating and appreciating the finer things in life like nature and just finding a different pace in life and I've really really enjoyed it and there's a part of me that doesn't even want to go back to normality how it was before because I've sort of found a balance now that is just it's really nice, really nice yeah I did struggle with work a little bit, money situations so I do thank everybody who bought a patch and sticker that helped immensely so thank you for that and what have I done to, how did I pull myself out my own ass mate how did I sort my head out I spoke to people, I spoke to friends, I spoke to my dad I wrote a list of the things that were niggling me, the things that were doing my head in and just started to tick them off and work on them meditate, eating good, trying to get sleep sleep is so important to get a healthy sleep with no alcohol or drugs involved which in lockdown I know we're all struggling with so yeah I mean sleep is the bedrock mate, it's your foundations for which you can build a good healthy outlook on life and a healthy attitude on that so yeah sleep man, sleep, diet, exercise and I came out the gun so quick, once I'd started made out I came out the gun so quick, I'd give myself shin splints what else mate, there is a lot of stuff, so I started reading reading books, not so much self-help books but things that make you think differently so I guess they do help self-help books self-help books, podcasts, anything positive get rid of anything negative on your timeline, on your Instagram or your Facebook if you ever swipe past something and it gives you a pan of like oh I don't like that or I feel an emotion that's not good like you feel jealous or you feel left out you feel, anything negative, delete it gone, gone, gone, gone any acquaintances that you have that you have that same feeling with maybe think about stepping back from that any toxic relationships, stepping back from that and surround yourself with only good and positive things cut back on the news, I ain't doing your no favours at all TV, just instilling, just making you scared just feeling you full of fear and desire scared of things that aren't there and desiring things that aren't essentially going to make you happy and content and that's just a few words mate, I could go on for a long time about it but I'm going to pass the torch on to free other people from here lads, I want you to do it not just for yourselves or for me, just do it for other people for the people who maybe look up to you and watch you and all you need to do mate is cook a steak if you're a vegetarian, mushroom, anything really but it's the shows you steak challenge get it cooked up and just a few words on how you're dealing with the lockdown how your mental state is during lockdown the first one is my friend, my boy, you all know him it's Mike from TA Outdoors I'm tagging you mate because you've got a massive platform and you've got a younger audience as well because young people are struggling mate, my daughter's been struggling going being naughty and stuff like that young people are struggling and they need to know and you've got a huge audience mate so I'm hoping that if you just say a few words cook up a steak tell us what you've found hard what you've enjoyed and what you're doing to get through it and then just tag a couple of people, let it go my second one is someone who is regularly in my comments and always leaves a very nice comment and it's Andy Wardell he always leaves a nice comment and he messaged under my recent video saying that he's just had a bereavement and someone very close to him and he seemed like he was cut up about it and so I felt bad for you mate and so I'm sending you a lot of love and positivity and I've lost someone, we've all lost people well not all of us but I have and I know it's pretty raw for you at the moment but the only advice that I can give you for now is that soon the sadness turns into pride so you'll be heartbroken and sad that they've gone and then that slowly will give way to an immense pride of knowing that person and they'll become an inspiration and when you think about them they'll encourage you, they'll inspire you and they'll become a part of you in that way in a positive way it might not feel like it now if the wound's still fresh and it's still kicking your dick off mate but trust me in time that's what will happen so I'm sending you a lot of love mate and I'm sure everybody else is as well shows you a steak mate, talk about it talk about quarantine and tag a couple of people and also this is just a cheeky one but I'm putting it out there just in case I want to tag I want to tag Foxy Jason Fox from S.A.S. Who Days Wins I know he's a big advocate of mental health and I'm gunning to get on his podcast so if you watch it I don't know why you would watch this mate but I would love to come on your podcast and have a little chat about mental health and about how the outdoors can help with men's mental health plus your podcast is sponsored you're sponsored by Whiskey I'm sponsored by an ale and a brewery we could have a laugh together so Foxy if you're watching mate you can just be an Instagram thing mate just cooking a steak couple of words on how you're dealing with lockdown in your own way just a little sound bite or whatever you can muster if you can and if you do a turnly grateful mate so yeah so if and if you can do us a favour go over to Mike T. Outdoors and go over to Foxy and just tell him I've tagged him and if he wants to show us his steak and just have a few words about mental health thanks again as always for the support and take care of yourselves and your loved ones Namaste Namaste safe mate in fact I'm ending this I'm gunna do about 150 press ups I think I've got but it'll be boring for you I won't even time lapse it no point mate so we'll just end it here shall we one, two, nine hundred and ninety eight nine hundred and ninety nine grand absolute grand that's how you do it you're gunna keep healthy mate put knees on it cos healthy body equals healthy thighs let's go I better show you me putting me fire out so that any of you there's a bit wumbles out there leave a mark and leave a trace we leave no trace look at all that juice get it all on into a mush and then we're gunna scatter plow the fields and scatter and we'll even cover our cover where I've been pissing about mate pissing about pissing about there you go leave no trace so yeah tea outdoors Andy Wardle and Foxy shows you steak I'd love the chance to go on Foxy's podcast to have a word about men's mental health and about the shows you steak challenge and about just about things like that and it'll be a laugh cos he's sponsored by whiskey and I'm sponsored by beer kind of ironic really talking about mental health and then getting slashed on whiskey and beer but it'll be a lol take it easy stay safe love you by the month