 okay hello everyone welcome to um this week's video it's gonna be really chill because my family moved this week which is really exciting but oh my god I'm gonna talk about this but moving is so awful they really should tell you they really should tell you that moving is like the worst thing you could possibly ever do because then everyone would just stay put and that would be it so yeah so I just thought that we would chat because I'm so tired it's Sunday and I'm usually like pretty good about filming my videos but this one I just didn't plan it at all because what I really have to be doing today is unpacking and also like getting rid of things so so I have a system it's full proof the things I'm donating are going on this side of the floor and the things I'm keeping are getting thrown to this side of the floor so um yeah welcome to this this video so some of this stuff is so cute like I had this skirt oh my gosh I have this skirt from like Brandy Melville and I got it when I was like 14 I was my freshman year of high school and I had this friend and I was I was looking to I was buying the skirt like at school which it was like lunchtime or whatever and she was like ew that skirt so ugly and this skirt which is like the most popular skirt in the whole entire world in like 2015 2016 so it was like so funny that like the next year like she they all owned that skirt even though they thought it said it was so ugly so um you know just goes to show you just be yourself okay be yourself guys yeah so with the process of moving so my family put um our house on the market in March right when the pandemic it was super cute giving that to one of this fun fun beanie hat that I only wear like one weekend a year but I should wear hats more often um yeah anyway so my feelings we started we started selling our house during the pandemic which was kind of a nightmare because when you're selling a house like you have to make it look nice and it all has to be clean and you know like the bathrooms and stuff have to be clean so we were all using like one bathroom and you know every day it was like someone could call us and we had to you know clean everything up which everything was like pretty much clean but you still have to like make it look pristine because people you know they want to buy our house and how was just oh my gosh that was so much and then the added on top of that in the pandemic is that people would call us like same day and everyone's working from home and like I have online school so we would like have to go and like sit in our cars because there's nowhere for us to go besides our cars oh my god it was just okay that I'm gonna get rid of oh and then when we finally got home like people looking at our house like sometimes they would only look for like 20 minutes so we'd have to leave the house and um at that point like we were all worried that like you could get COVID from like touching things so then we would like have to go through the house like after people came through it and like wipe everything down with Clorox like it was just it was so much so but yes we sold our house and if you never moved before we looked in a house and all we had to sell like a bunch of furniture because we were downsizing and oh my gosh they like so we had to have like a garage sale and then we had like a pod come if you never know what those are it's just like a truckload of stuff that you put somewhere like in a storage facility so we had to like load that up which took forever and then like when we were moving like it literally took like seven whole days or or more I don't even think it wasn't that long I don't know it felt like an eternity um because you have to like get every single bit of your house like in a box but like you have so much like we have so much stuff like I didn't even realize how much stuff we had until you start moving like I feel like that's just anyone like you just start moving and you're like why do I own this you know oh my gosh I love this sweater so much I got this sweater in Canada it has a moose on it um it's just like such a vibe what else was I supposed to talk about oh yeah so then we moved to a temporary apartment which was um this tight because all of us are home for the pandemic everyone's working from home and we had like a desk in the living room in the kitchen so like you know if someone was like on a phone call or for work or something like you had to like be in your room it was just like doing this in the pandemic like moving itself is already like just a task but like during the pandemic it just like made everything just like you know you just you have to get creative I guess is what you was one could say okay so like when we're moving I'm just gonna talk because I can't I just can't so when we were moving when you are continuously like hauling piles of stuff like you just get to this point where you're like you know what I'm gonna like get rid of every single thing I own and just become a minimalist I definitely want to be more more conscious of it sometimes I find stuff in my closet I'm like I literally haven't worn this in two years why do I hold on to it and I think a lot of times it's because it's like connected to you know like a memories attached to it like oh I wore that here but like I also like some of this stuff like just doesn't fit anymore and or it's just like dated and I want to be more aware of like what I'm purchasing and like how how long I can hold on to an item because I think a lot of the times like when you're shopping like you're shopping for fun or just because you know it's something to do and I think during the pandemic I've shopped oh you know a lot a lot less um the only thing I really bought this year like online is like work clothes and like I I always find that in my closet I always reach for like the same two or three items like literally you guys have seen me wear this exact sweater like I don't even know like five times on this channel it's because I wear it like all the literally all the time and I pretty much only wear like one pair of shoes and like I'm looking at all these shoes like I'm hauling from place to place and I'm like why do I even own these like what's the purpose like so that one day I can wear like a different white sneaker like I have white converse and white adidas I've worn converse in like three years because they're like I love my adidas and I just wear them because they're there so it's like why do I feel the need to hang on to that kind of stuff I don't know it's very it's very strange I think it's also just because of like guilt too like you're like oh I spent money on that you know I should keep it you know I probably bought them because they were like trendy but then I got my adidas like I don't know it's just always it's always something and I'm like I'm trying to like be more aware of like what I'm buying before it's like already in my life because like when you move it's just like it's so apparent like how much unnecessary stuff you have and like I'm sure that like in a week you know we all go back to habits like I really like to work on that oh I have bought one of these headbands um I never wear it because I bought it like two weeks before the pandemic hit and I just like I love it and I think it's so fab but like I don't have anywhere to wear it right now I guess I have to wear it to work but no one even sees me at work and like also that's what I think it's it is too like a lot of my closet is for like going out or like seeing people and like I don't go I don't do anything like I literally don't go anywhere like the most use I've gotten out of my clothes is when I'm filming youtube videos which like half the time in my youtube videos and we're the same sure okay I know what I want to talk about I'm sorry it's just a box of chalk and needles chalk and needles I really don't know how to explain this to anybody oh there's beads in it too like does anyone else just have like random boxes of like stuff like I need this though you know I really do need that oh my god this is a card that my friend sent me we used to send each other cards in the mail our freshman year and she sent me um what is it what's in here she oh she sent me some tea um some her grocery list um her middle seventh grade id and a bookmark so if you ever like want to like spread some chaotic positivity to your friends like send them a card full of random stuff hey I keep getting off track so I was watching this video okay this is what I was gonna talk about in a video I was watching this video Matt Devella he's huge on youtube he does like productivity videos and like inspirational like you know I don't know just go look him up he has a really a lot of interesting topics that's another card full of stickers it's good stuff um and he made there's so many cards of stickers there's like five okay I love this but okay I need to stop for a second so I can get this out um so he he made this video where he wore the same shirt for like a year without telling anybody and it was basically just to prove a point that like he bought 10 of his favorite t-shirts that like fit him really well like he loved the material he was comfortable in them like he felt good in it which like we all have those clothes where it's like when we just want to feel good about ourselves that we just like reach for it and like if you really think about your own wardrobe I reach for the same five things especially during a pandemic like um but he made his video and like no one noticed pretty much that he was wearing the same shirt every day and um like I think part of that is because I don't want to like pull his card but I think part of that is because he's a guy and um like I think that if I wore the same I don't know I don't know if people would care like if I wore the same which I've already done this because like I'm acting and this is like a lot of the way that I live my life too is like I'm sorry this this is such an all over the place video I really don't even know how to like make this cohesive um because my brain is mush from this week um oh I should tell you about this week too because that was just like we moved and we started moving like five six days ago we're still moving today we were still moving stuff with our cars um and today's sunday and um oh but back to the t-shirt things because I think that well obviously like I've made like fashion videos on this channel and like I love clothes like I love getting to be able to express myself like in clothes like that's just such a fun like part of life um but also like there are some days where I'm like I really just want to wear the same outfit you know I just know I don't want to think about it I also I wore a uniform for 18 years so I think that I don't know if it's like a product of wearing a uniform for that long that it's just like I don't really it doesn't really it's not a thought passing through my brain of like I need to like wear a different outfit every single day of the week like to get something done and I don't know if that's because um of my uniform experience like I guess not being judged on your clothes for all those years like that was also like a weird transition in college having to wear normal people clothes all year round um I really didn't know what people wore to which is sort of a weird thing to say but like like I really didn't know like what do people wear to high school like do you wear leggings and like sweaters or like jeans and I'm like I figured it out but um that was definitely like a step where I was like how casual or like dress up do I have to be I also went to all girls high school so like I did not no one put in you know in effort to their appearance which is another thing oh that's the Matty Vella thing I'm sorry I keep getting distracted but um actually did I already finish that up I don't know I really don't know but yeah so I definitely get to a point where I'm like I just want to wear one t-shirt like Matty Vella like every single day of my life and not think about it because I've already done that for 18 years like what's the difference but I also love clothes and I love you know like putting together an outfit and I love shopping like don't we all but also like I don't love stuff and I don't love like what it does to our planet it's just like this very weird like cycle that you get in and um I definitely need to like I think that it's it's important to like talk about these kinds of things because it's definitely so weird having a youtube channel because um a lot of times I don't say my thoughts out loud I have a journal but like I have literally I don't put anything in it this year like I think there's like two pages um because I just couldn't like nothing has happened in my life really um okay I sort of remembered what I was gonna say so I was talking about like having a journal and like like saying my thoughts out loud um and a lot of the times like I enjoyed journaling especially in my you know when I was at college because putting the pen on paper just like allowed me to just like get my thoughts out I'm definitely I wanted to do like a video on like I don't know productivity for like mess of mess people because like my brain is such a mess like I I don't I'm like not I'm like a very tight B per I don't know what type type B for versus type A because like I'm a very clean person and I like everything to be like in its spot but like if you saw my backpack for school or my bag for work or like my calendar it or my notes like you'd be like who like are you okay are you like genuinely are you okay um I have like no organizational skills but like I'm very good at like my own system if that makes any sense so my journal is a mess like I have terrible handwriting I just like get in there and I'm like feelings um so so Christmas is coming up I kind of wanted to talk about this because we we put up our tree last night which was exciting and fun but it's also just like sad at the same time um I was like I was holding on hope like this whole time like to get our Christmas tree because we've been waiting to move so we finally got it last night which is like super late for us we love to get it like the first weekend of December like right after Thanksgiving um and I was like kind of sad about it but then we finally got our tree and it's just sort of like sad because like the whole point of Christmas is that you get to see your family and your loved ones and you know you all get together and like you're loud in a house and like you give each other stuff and it's just it's just chaos and it's so fun and it's just like we also have like a really lovely Christmas like at my grandparents house and like they have like a a real fire and they're just their house is so beautiful and I just I love seeing all of them and so it's just I don't know it's so sad that we're not gonna have like real Christmas this year um and just every day like something new and scary seems to happen like now there's like this new strain in the UK and like everything's getting shut down again there and I don't know if we're gonna have another shut down or what I am like I am so panicked about the pandemic like I really I have like so much anxiety about it and I I know that like everyone does like even if I go to the store and people get like too close to me like literally like my heart starts to pound like I get like so anxious and like I I know that other people you know feel that way I don't know especially now that the numbers are rising like I'm just it's a lot to think about this year um sorry this video was just kind of like a brain dump um but it's just kind of fun to just get on here and talk and it wasn't going to be like this big extravagant extra I'm literally calling my videos extravagant because they're just such a mess anyway um but you know what I just I really love this channel and I love just like having a place to like vomit my thoughts and my feelings and um anyway if you watch the end thank you so much um why but um yeah give this video a like if you want to I post new videos every Monday and Thursday and um you know I I'd like to get a little more cohesive on this channel but I'm new and still trying to figure out like what I want to do on YouTube and um I know I like want to do it because it's it's just like such a fun thing for me it's just like such a fun hobby and um I just don't know which direction so this channel is just kind of like all over the place but I'm just you know I'm figuring it out so uh yeah I hope everyone has um a good day and I'll see you again on Thursday thanks for watching