 Unless you stay moment to moment vigilant about your patterns, they will re-assert. That has to be kind of scary because it's like you keep walking away from the cliff edge and then you turn it right just to check and see how far away you are and you realize you've just been walking along the cliff edge for 15 years. It's a good metaphor. Thanks. Well yeah but we are all walking along with cliff edge in a way the addiction just makes you address it. All of us have just one decision away from destroying our lives really. You can in traffic get in a fight with someone, you punch them, they hit their head, they die, that's your life now. Or like you cheat on your wife because someone is nice to you and you feel vulnerable in that moment or you take drugs and you overdose. You're never, you know, it can happen. So in all of these but I think you can guard against these things by having a kind of a spiritual awakening by being connected.