 I talked so negative about other people. Why am I so concerned about other people all the time stop it Get some help Yo, what's popping welcome back to another video if you're new here my name is Cara Do not forget to like comment and subscribe to this video So today we're gonna get into a little car rent a little You know in car blog I haven't did a in car blog in so long But what's the in car blog without stopping us Starbucks first? Hi, can I get an ice child latte with oat milk, please with a brown sugar syrup. I got you. What else for you? That's it Well, can you make it a benti? Thank you I'm showing out for y'all today. I need a benti So y'all I just got my coffee Just got my coffee and now I'm just trying to go to a parking lot because if you know me I do not have a car mount yet because I'm waiting for my new car or whatever which is Girl, it's it's coming. I'm trying to find like a little parking lot So I can stop at so we can have a little car rent little girl chat to you know catch up on and self reflect on what I Have, you know sat back and was like damn. I really went through shit this year And I just like to share my experience with y'all. I like to reflect and share my experience with y'all because obviously grown into The woman that I am today and still becoming still a process So within my process, I like to share with y'all y'all aren't not alone We have come to a stopping point y'all we is in a parking lot Okay, and I'm about to just sit here and talk to y'all have a little chat When I did my assumptions video, obviously I had a lot of things come in my way Of course, and I've learned to really control my emotions when it comes to people saying things about me on the internet or You know just really negative things come in my way that I really want to react to well It's really an internal thing because I really don't put feelings behind words anymore Like if somebody calls me like a a b a b word a bitch whatever Or somebody says oh your eyes are far apart your head is so big. Well Fight well, baby. I guess I can look at you from different angles since my eyes are so spread apart I know myself already. So I really don't put any Emotions behind words anymore. I just say okay. It is what it is I know who I am and I know what I'm not already noticed about me So what else do you have to say? Because initially when it comes to controlling your emotions it starts with why are you putting Emotions to these words that people are saying it's triggering you and then you just be like damn Why did I just let that get to me get the best out of me and I react And initially I didn't like how I was reacting to something I had to have a talk with myself and be like hey, I really don't like this about myself and I want to change it initially I had to accept who I was at that moment And then I started to want to become a different person. Do you see what I'm saying? It's not even like um One a step by step thing It's just how you want to become and how you want to present yourself to Anybody else that comes your way for you as well You want to become the person that you want to be Because you initially don't like how you react to things or how you do things. I'm gonna use me as an example. Obviously people would People would like not like me and I don't know why like I would be like, oh my god. Why Why does person don't like me? I'm so nice. I was looking for acceptance from anybody I had to define who I was in the mirror And be like, this is you. This is who you are. Who gives a fuck? That's why I know how to control myself when it comes to people talking about me People saying retarded things on the internet about me people Say things to get a reaction out of you just like, you know, for instance You want to see if this nigga really care about you and you gonna like hit him where it hurt You gonna say whatever to see if he react to see if he really gives a fuck about you Initially people look for any reaction in people To see if they really care you gotta show people That you don't care you you're not worth being noticed. You're unnoticeable You want to be noticed so bad. You just want me to notice You just want me to care and i'm not i'm not giving you That much energy. You know what i'm saying people People want a reaction so bad and just want some attention. It's it's sick. It's sick how people Want attention so bad. What is this car doing? This g-wagon literally just creeping up like it's weird But yeah, so like I was saying I just feel like people like to do things to react and it just comes to a point where You cannot put emotions behind words on what people are saying because Like I said, they're not worth being noticed internet trying to do subliminals somebody just going on the internet making up things And that's literally clown activity. Know what you are? You're a clown I'm a clown and that's just something I do not react to I do not react to clown activity period somebody made a post about me wearing fake whatever that shit is comedy That shit is That's the laugh of the day baby donkey of the day goes to you donkey of the day I feel some type of way of course because i'm human I'm a human being and i'ma feel some type of way because everybody has feelings And it will not be normal if you didn't I mean some people are like that don't get me wrong But i'm emotional i'm a bike seat so I get a little emotional, but I never stay in that place feel it Felt it let it go let it go. I just can't let that get the best of me You know what i'm saying? I have to be in the right state of mind and sometimes that stuff is comedy to me The only thing that i'm doing is paying admission to the circuits, baby. That's it. That's it That's all i'm gonna do. I'm a laugh from afar from a distance, but that's it I'ma only laugh for a good five minutes. That's all you that's all your worth You cannot put any emotion behind what people say people say Anything on the internet just to get attention You're a victim And like you want haters boo you want people to hate on you You won't like you need to embrace your haters at the end of the day embrace them Because haters are really what helped me build myself up like the bad relationships the good relationships The good and the bad you need good and bad in your life. You can't always have good, baby It's not gonna happen in a fantasy world. Yeah, but that's why we have opposites Bad and good so we know how to approach both Everything is not gonna always be good haters are the reason why you fuel yourself To want to become a better person and want to build yourself up Haters have built me and my character and how I want to move and I don't really care anymore what people say about me I really don't care. I know people be like, oh my god Ever since she moved to Atlanta and got her bbl She's so not relatable blah blah blah But at the end of the day, I got my bbl for me. I look in the mirror and be like I did this for me Not anybody else. I make videos for me I do everything for me And that just how happens that people Well, it's a blessing that people really take from what I put out for me. I went through my bbl for me But it did touch a lot of girls, you know what I'm saying that went through the same things as me So I really be walking through The process. Oh, I can show y'all and tell y'all That you are not alone in this process. But yeah y'all this year I went through a lot and I had to look at myself in the mirror and be like Who are you? Who do you want to be as a woman? And I initially had to Think about who I really wanted to be because sometimes some of the things That I did I did not like about myself. I had to be like damn I don't like how I do that because I'm a very like I'm not confrontational at all I hate drama if I had a problem With somebody close to me I would just be like forget it. I don't care. I don't care. I'm not talking to them but now If I don't like something I'm gonna address it because I'm a grown woman now And I'm still learning don't get me wrong. I'm still learning. It's still a process But now I've really come to a point where I'm like, okay. Well, I'm gonna Say this I'm gonna speak up and speak my mind because that really hurt my feelings When I did something wrong to somebody I would make excuses for me not to be wrong And I didn't like that because that's not how I want to be So now I'm just like, okay. I understand where you're coming from Moving forward. How can we fix this? How can we You know move forward as friends lovers whatever I would just look at it From an understanding point of view, you know, so controlling your emotions is initially on basically Changing who you are as a person Just not putting emotions behind Words Because at the end of the day, that's just what they are. I'm gonna get to a point where you're just like, okay I know who I am. I know what I'm not Your words cannot hurt me as long as you not As long as we not squabby or nothing Baby, you can say what you want. Say whatever Say whatever say my head big Say my feet big. I don't care. Oh my gosh. You get so many lip injections I get a full lip for me, baby So that cork That honey love can be sitting on my lips. Okay So do things for me and I really don't care how people Perceive it and at the end of the day, they need to really look at themselves in the mirror and be like damn Why I talk so negative about her all the time. Why? Why do I why do I talk so negative about other people? Why am I so concerned about other people all the time Stop it Get some help They need to really look at themselves in the mirror and be like I have a problem a lot of things have been said about me. It's just built in me now that I have to You know brush everything off my shoulders and everybody isn't walking the same path as me But I just want you to know it's definitely a process when it comes to stuff like this Everybody wants to be successful the the luxury lifestyle whatever whatever I want to know who I am so nobody can ever hurt my feelings I just so I don't ever get depressed about what somebody says about me What somebody think they can take from me is initially you want to be Good within yourself. You want to be able to love yourself enough to work on yourself So that nobody can ever bring you down Because depression or anything like that is something not to be played with because of course I want my money to grow But initially I want to grow as a person where nobody can get To me, you know what I'm saying? I came a long way like I said I definitely got got a lot of advice from my mama I'm glad I have the mama that I do have in my corner when it comes to like certain things Of course, I am still working on myself with patience. I used to not I used to want things instant instant instant But now I'm just like, okay Let me sit back especially with this car thing girl. I have to I was I was a little I have been so patient And it's really testing my patience these y'all know I'm really not secretive when it comes to anything in my life. I tell everybody I'm on a car Like okay, and so what they'll say oh my god, you're buying this in your new mallet car. Yeah Yeah, I am buying it But I can still get a car though like you're not saying nothing else like what else can you say? That I don't already know about myself. Yeah, I know I got to get a car, but it's not Necessary right now because it's a process You just have to not like I said you just can't put emotions to things That are being said about you because you already know what it's what's up You already know who you are when it does get to you I mean you could feel it you can definitely feel it like I said everybody has emotions I keep working on myself because I love myself so much Where nobody can say anything about me Or get under my skin and if they do and if they do I'ma be like issa issa insecure I'ma look in the mirror. You know how she be talking to herself in the mirror I do that all the time girl. I do it all the time. I be like girl Get it together. Stop it. Stop it. You got this The bitch is that the bitch is back You got this period who cares about what they say Okay, and and It's initially on who you want to be as a person and how you want to carry yourself and how you want to Control your emotions based on Who you want to be in life? It doesn't it's not a step by step thing or anything like that It's initially on Who you want to be as a person get a lot of self-reflecting Because I'm almost been in Atlanta for a year by myself from living at home with my mama Sheltered and to come in here and be like just a A smack in the face on what I need to change about myself Because stuff is just coming at me left and right left and right left and right And I'm just I don't like how I'm reacting to this stuff. I need to get better Let me get my mom on the phone Like I said, it's still a journey. I still have a lot of things to work on don't get me wrong I definitely do But yeah, y'all that is it for this rant and just remember everybody grows at a different pace Like I'm growing at a different pace than anybody else And you're not going to be the same person as you were You know today this year You're going to be a whole new a whole new woman or man Next year, you're never going to be the same person period all we all have Work to do and it's a process not overnight, but as long as you're willing to put the working Baby, it's gonna work out. Oh, yeah, y'all that is it for my car rant. It's nighttime now Um, and I gotta go run some errands So Yeah, and I'm really mad. I don't have uh ox cord in this car So now I can't even play no music Because I was gonna put y'all on this song I really like from Beyonce. It's called alive. It's from her new It was from the new film king richard. I don't know if I'm the only person like this, but I really love listening to the soundtrack of A movie I just watched or looking up the main characters But anyways y'all that is it for this video and also, um, if you aren't new Or if you just watched my last vlog, you know that I'm giving away a hundred dollars every single day So for my holiday giveaway, well, it's really my 300k giveaway But I wanted to you know help out for the holidays And you know a hundred dollars you never know who could use a hundred dollars when it comes to the holiday season So I was like, let me just give money because I wanted to initially wanted more than one Winner and I'm like being like what way can I do it without going to the post office? multiple times because maybe that's a lot of energy So I was like, okay, I'm gonna do it this way and then I'm gonna have like a grand prize Something got me wanting for the grand prize for the grand The big old green So that is it for this video. I hope y'all enjoyed I'm gonna go home and edit it now and post it So hopefully it's good