 The soul is your guide, it's the impulsing force of your existence. You don't have to identify with it, you simply have to be its servant, flow with it, moment to moment. That is the purpose of your life. You said you have no purpose. The purpose is to be a servant of the soul, just an instrument. To perfect yourself as an instrument in each moment, in surrender, in surrender, in surrender, in surrender. Even if you don't feel anything, you still can ask the question, it's not going to hurt, because you are not alone. You want to be alone, but you are not. The soul is with you, you can't get rid of it, you're not alone.