 Not sure the date It's not even a night. I think it's like, I don't know. It's like a 10th or something, but I am a little bit just Disheveled disheveled is that's how you said I'm a little bit perplexed at the amount of suicides That have been occurring um For when I understand suicide the suicide rates is up in the past two decades Those you in the states know that cakes spade the famous designer mostly known for her purses and shoes committed suicide a couple of days ago and then I got online today and heard that Anthony Bourdain we owned chef has committed suicide I being a kitchen cook I Am a huge fan of Anthony Bourdain So to hear about that I Was like What I was expecting to hear maybe he passed away from cancer didn't tell anyone cuz he was a smoker Maybe it was a heart attack, but to hear that it was an actual Suicide y'all But let me just tell you the ignorance that I see Going around and especially in the black community because still mental illness is Seen as something that's a white people a white person problem white people problem mental illness We don't do that, you know, we just need to pray about it Absolutely, baby. I believe in prayer I'm an example of what prayer can do However, people who are going through depression who are in depression. That's the last thing they really want to hear um So I Guess Anthony Bourdain those of you who don't know he was a chef. He had a show on CNN But I was a fan wait wait before the show on CNN But the the reason why I love that show is it brought together food and culture You know, I see CNN and these other news outlets every now and then posting the suicide hotline That's great and all Absolutely provide the resources, but I think that we as a people have a Responsibility like I've said in the past to check up on our friends to check on my family members to ask people How they're doing to be that person? Be there for people To be that support system to to be that comfort for someone I'm pretty sure these people hear it all the time and they're they've gotten to the point to where was someone asked them How they're doing they have an automatic response. I Don't know what I'm trying to say y'all. I know I'm rambling. I guess long story short We need to start checking up on our friends and family a lot more often and Just a little kind gestures just to call up someone think social media Like I said has given people a false sense of closeness Getting on Facebook liking a post is not communication Pick up the phone Call even texting is no and I I'm guilty of it. I'm guilty. That's something that I will do I'll text a girlfriend and say hey, I'm gonna call you in a couple of more days So anyway, you guys I just want to bring I didn't want to you know be on negative So today is my first day volunteering at church. Oh girl. The girls are looking good. Yeah, I need to I need to Get down some First time volunteering at church. I'm gonna be with JB's group. So we shall see how it goes I'm gonna kind of be in the dark, but y'all can see me. You can you can read my lips girl Today was the first time that I had volunteer for my church and I am volunteering in JB's room, which is Five and under and it's called Kingdom kids. This is the these holes ain't loyal church. Yeah so Okay Yeah, I had to sit down. So it was interesting for like a bit of words and These are a lot of them were inner city kids Actually, it was a mix. It was a mix of different kids from different different social economic statuses different races ethnicities, etc but the thing that I Immediately noticed where how the teachers were acting and then there was different age ranges from Mid-20s to early 50s. I was like You can't be treating blue kids like this. I mean they were screaming at kids from across the Room and y'all this is my thing. I yell at JB because JB is my child I would not want someone treating my child the way that they were treating those children And I'm pretty sure these people treat their children the same way Um, but when you are continuously screaming at other kids in front of I Don't know how many 20 other Small children that's gonna change the tone. Do you see what I'm saying? So if you continue yelling and yelling yelling and it wasn't at all the kids It was three or four that were really they just weren't listening Another thing is that at this age is not Just from the literature I've read because you guys I've read a lot of modern-day discipline stuff and believe I do Have some old school some old school methods too Best believe that coming from Texas girl. So it's not best at this age Well, it's not recommended that you yell at a child at this age from like across the room That's not gonna do anything for them. You have to walk over get down in their face and talk to their asses That's what you do you talk to them you move them away from this situation. You talk to them distract distract distract So they were yelling a lot one of the little boys. I don't know which one it was I could tell he hadn't had a bath in a few days Some of the kids I could tell are probably being Spranked a little bit too much. I can tell some of the kids are possibly on the spectrum And one little boy in particular who was kind of getting attached to me I could tell that he already at three years old is exhibiting a lot of anger, okay? And if his if I don't know what type of home he's coming from but him and his brother were exhibiting a lot of Vint of anger and yeah, but anyway with the first 15 20 minutes. It was going over rules Praying and just talking These are three and four years old three and four years old. Okay? They had five rules up there where you had they you had to read and repeat them And I'm thinking to myself did anyone not look into early childhood development? You cannot put words up on the board for three four and five years old and expect them to you read it and repeat it It will it will make more sense if you had pictorial images after that. It was time for crafts and then snacks The crash was the hot mess girl. The crafts was to take this circle Cloud that had a Bible verse not on it and the kids were posters was supposed to super glue these three sticks on the back Okay, cool. She didn't even go over with the kids. She just said this is what it's supposed to look like Bluts her heart. She's a she was a sweet lady, but I'm like these kids need some More instructions than this is what it's supposed to look like glued on here You somebody has to sit around with them and show them right so She's going around, you know helping them do it real quick and I'm thinking oh my god We have two glue sticks you have a class of ten kids and you only have you have a limited They hacked them, but she didn't have them out good She tells me okay We need to make sure that all their names are on the little cloud so that will know to have who to hand them out at the end of the day and I'm thinking to myself Why couldn't we have these two babies are three years old? They don't know half of them don't know how to even spell their name Why couldn't someone have done this another teacher could have been writing their names on this While that other helpful was spending 15 minutes going over the class We'll go get it, baby. We'll go get it. Okay, the third group couldn't even go in and do the crab So I'm like, oh my god, so yeah, I don't know y'all. I'm gonna give it one more chance and Maybe this is what those kids need because some of the bad kids quote-unquote Most of all of the problem children were gravitating toward me They wanted me to hold them and I know it's because I'm new a new teacher and it's a new face, but Most of the ones that they kept yelling it kept coming to me I don't think they were trying to make they weren't trying to manipulate me because you know at this age They can start a young age girl. They weren't trying to manipulate me to do something a runaway They were just I think they were just attracted to that different type of energy. I was putting out Yeah, it was too much yelling for me too much yelling The kids were okay. It was the adults the adults too much yelling at the kids without explaining to them what they were doing and Why they were getting yelled at That's what discipline is about trying to correct the behavior not just barking orders. I'll give it one more week I will so you guys let me kiss on to stados homie to stados that is using some corn tortillas Trying them to their heart. I'm also making my home my own refried black beans This is a can of black beans drained I need part of garden powder taco season and two slices of jalapenos going to blend that and then in this skillet I have some JB in this skillet. I have some corn Red bell peppers. This is going to be vegetarian clearly Some this is the order the beans Tomatoes no no beans corn Cheese tomatoes jalapenos. I have some sour cream. They're gonna put on top when it's done see me I'm gonna show y'all some products here in my hair and the There we go, there we go, there we go What's gonna say y'all I Forgot what I was gonna talk about. I mean, I know I'm gonna talk about but I forgot where I'm gonna start We low-key. I have an attitude problem this morning for a warning because it's Monday My husband's off all this week and I heard him make an appointment for massage like You really gonna make an appointment for massage. I even went in there and was like oh So you made an appointment for my massage. I know he's taking this help as crazy as hell. What's so Yeah, I have on this shirt again, I wore this shirt in my it's clean now Don't be thinking of people, you know wearing dirty stuff What is this stuff up underneath here? Yeah, this today has been a good a good Monday I got so much done today, and I'm feeling really good about the rest of the week the rest of the year Etc. Now so this was gonna say so I am Facebook friends with a couple of other YouTubeers you guys so one of them is Linda from from New Orleans, that's not from New Orleans. I'm sorry sis. She's from Louisiana, but she's not from New Orleans She had posted a couple of days ago That a blog post because she has a blog and basically how she no longer do product reviews for free and I'm like, yes Yes, now so I wrote back or responded to her post And I was like I need to remember to do this and she responded. Well, you know go ahead and get you a What did you say sis? She said you should go ahead and create you a social media kit. I already have one girl I'm just so damn lazy. I already have one I created one a couple of years ago because Shari Jay had made a video Which I really do wish you would have kept with it both her and Yolanda Renee had these great videos on how to be a YouTuber and cut you know content creators what they call us now YouTuber or how to be a youtuber and some things you should do and Because they you know have huge followings. I wish they would have kept up with those type of videos But anyhow, I will be linking Shari Jay's really video down on how to create a social media kit But yes, I have one So what I did yesterday was I made sure that I updated it I mean the one I had was I was at 10,000 subscribers. I'm almost at 16,000. Amen and I also created a Rate sheet on how much I would charge for shout outs for which is like be on Instagram on my social media accounts reviews for blog posts and then reviews for For product reviews for my for my channel now one thing that I don't charge Because I just don't think that I'm at that level and it's something that I like to do It's writing articles and I the last time I wrote an article is two years ago for Natural happy hair magazine based out of out of Dallas. I believe they are but I've written for you know natural I've written for several magazines y'all. I don't you know brag about it on my channel or anything I think I've only mentioned it once or twice. This is possibly the third time But I have written articles for magazines and for blogs and all that and yeah I was very I'm very surprised when someone reaches out to me for that because I don't think I'm a great writer This is free marketing and now this is going to be a downfall of charging is that Excuse me These companies are going to be able to find someone else who's not going either not going to charge them at all Or who's going to charge them lower and I'm okay with that because this is about my worth and my time You have no idea. I'm just gonna name them because I don't care at this point tga in Jane Carter cream of nature new net These are all companies. They have sent me products and I literally have reviewed for free design essentials Well, I could look at the back At least I would say at least half a dozen top Brands out there. So I guess my point is that they took my reviews and put them on their channel on their website So that's like free marketing free advertising, you know, I got a couple of subscribers from those reviews But still I guess my point is You know, especially if you're new with this know yourself worth I charge now. I even charge my cousin. They wanted me to Let me get back. Let me bring it back bring it back again focus focus I was watching a young lady and I can't remember her name. It begins with a B Breany Brenda anyway, she's based out of London. She lives in London, but the title of the video was influencers are broke Something like that. I won't go along the terms and this was a you know Fresh a breath of fresh air from her perspective. She was basically talking about excuse the noise the truck going by basically seeing how as a youtuber She's not making any money but then it brought in a different a different layer or another perspective because apparently there's certain videos for the you know youtubers who are Overseas there are certain videos that they have that may not be monetized in other countries So they may not make as much money as say someone who lives in the US or one who lives in, you know Wisconsin may be making more money on the videos So but to the girls point if you want to do haul videos, you have to go buy clothes You know unless you use clothes in your closet that no one had seen you before if you want to go do a Dollar Tree haul where your ass got to go to the Dollar Tree and buy that stuff So it takes money. This is why you know when it comes to being a youtuber, you can't come on here What reminds it of I'm gonna make money if you are you have to treat it like a business It takes money to make money. You got to have lights cameras Good background clearly. I don't have one right now. So I think so many people still get on here thinking that they can make money Another thing she was saying how you know people assume that she's bawling and all this because of the stuff She posts on on her social media. It's just that I live with my mama. I live in London. London is very London is possibly isn't the most expensive city So i'm in my office and i'm going to show you guys what I have been doing Those you don't know I do I call it school. It's supplemental homeschooling with JD. We are not full time um and I doubt if I ever will be just because um Yeah, it ain't happening around here, but I do supplement at home and well I found a great school for JD. I I absolutely love the school I know plenty of people who go to who attend this school But I have a lot of material at home that I've been starting to collect since My child was honestly one years old. Hold on y'all get I'm working too Jess this right here alone is some of the workbooks that I had and I purchased these workbooks primarily through um The dollar store don't sleep on the dollar tree. Excuse me dollar tree. Yeah dollar tree Um on the dollar store. They're used interchangeable so What I did is I wanted to have a um, I created a curriculum for JB. I created a seven-week curriculum and we have uh, divided things by days Tuesdays and Thursday And we have reading writing math Science slash geography music and art um And then on fridays depending on we have social studies. I know They're like, how old is your child? He five. He five, but you got to start soon So, yeah, I created a seven-week curriculum. Um, it it's I try to do as much African-centered as possible. Y'all it is hard. It is really sad that Parents who want to have an African-centered curriculum have to either make they make their own or scramble to find some resources There are a couple of people who have created some curriculums like that, but they're less than 10 whereas you can find Hundreds of other types of curriculums of them, but anyway, I created my own. So I'm just gonna give a little rough I know y'all can't see that what we do on a weekly basis again. It's Tuesday Thursdays and friday um He's since he's five years old. It's sometimes we don't go over everything on one setting I mean, whatever we don't do I move over to the next week or if I see he's struggling with something like right now He's struggling with if I tell him to write a number three He can't remember what it looks like. So he struggles with that. So, um, one of the things we'll be doing this week Is practicing writing one to ten and he knows how to write it once he sees it But we're going to be practicing that. So anyway, we start our our day off of a bible verse Um, most of the time it is has to do with education learning knowledge And then we also started with an african proverb. Okay, and then for example for tomorrow We will be um reading a poem from this book That got from the library a full moon is rising I try to get as many books that have brown people because Representation matters. Okay. I literally go through and if I see someone that looks, um, you know, maria curian darker. I get He's clearly going to be reading tons of book books that are, you know, uh full of different type of people But I purposely try to find as many books with brown children on the front because y'all we like I said before We live in an area where he doesn't even see a lot of black children So to see that in books to see him somewhere represented in those books. I think that's important So anyway, we're going to be reading a book. We're going to be doing sight words Now when he was at school, he had his own sight words or a list of sight words that they had I should say they had two lists. Oh mama created some own So I have a list three here and a list four then based on those sight words. I created Flash cards and then taking it another step further. Hold on another step further we may read And these are from the Dollar Tree books that have those same sight words So again reiterating and I think that repetition would help him to remember that and he's doing really good We have a collection of Bob's books that I have somewhere over here So as far as music and art music and art will be mostly African centered So right now we are in West Africa Um, I'll probably bring him bring up instruments pictures of instruments We'll listen to different type of music from Nigeria from Mali just from different countries and again West Africa Well, you know possibly bring up, you know famous artists famous musicians But then I also want to introduce him to a different genre of music every week So last week was classical music listen to Mozart listen to Bach This week is rock and roll, but that's where it started from right. So introducing him to some classic artists like um Elvis which is also Chuck Berry Chuck Berry, what is his name? Um, little richer My ex must gotten out of control. So about a year ago I was getting a small little patch about and it was round. I'm thinking of course me being extra I'm like, oh lord, I got the ring girl. If you don't calm down. It was eczema. So If you know, you can never get rid of eczema. There's no cure for it And with asthma and allergies it all all tides in so every now and then it will go away or come back It'll go away and come back ironically doing my surgery. It completely Hold on baby Doing my surgery and shortly afterwards Yeah, doing my surgery and shortly afterwards it completely went away, but the last Week and a half It has been the worst it has ever been. I have tried everything. So anyway, y'all like I said, I've tried all my DIY He has an eczema cream that I literally been lathering on wet wraps Which is what I typically use on him when it's really bad. I know baby I've tried gasoline wet wraps. I've tried gasoline No, it's not I mean everything and it's still no relief. So one I made it I went ahead and made an appointment with dermatologists for Monday and two I'm doing an apple cider vinegar slash mud And this is the best it's felt all week. Um And I'm just gonna start I had stopped taking my probiotics Three days three days ago. So I need to get back on it. I have to treat this internally because at this point I don't know if it's stress related That's making it flare up like this and it has been very hot here in phoenix 2 3 3 degree weather This is just and it's starting to crack and bleed And yeah, I know you're not supposed to itch it, but it it's just so bad. I've tried every I'm gonna pray over my leg. I'm not playing. I'm gonna lay hands on my on my eczema. You watch and see