 Good day, May 40 here. So I like to start my day with Uplifting material Something inspiring Something that helps me to overcome my my habitual tendencies towards selfishness. So I Figured I should listen to this this 12-step talk on building relationships and intimacy and in the 12-step talk. I Was hearing stuff about containment This is a healthy representation. What is containment about the relationship between divine masculine and divine feminine? This masculine clamshell is creating a safe nourishing space in which the female can exist or occur It enables a woman to be soft open receptive and to grow if you imagine removing that masculine shell the female immediately Contracts goes rigid and into a state of defense. I mean, that's great. I wanted to know what What what a container was bloody hell This Google me that they're always giving me You know stay in the call Do you do you want to do you want to leave the call? Remove you from the call. It's just like they automatically remove me from the call if no one else comes in there And here I am trying to produce a high quality show and I'm getting those those bloody dings So, yeah, I was listening to a recovery talk this morning about emotional intimacy by Danielle de Bray it was at a sex and love addicts anonymous group and Seemed like healthy stuff to start my day So she's talking about It's a lot of confidence It's using I language. Yeah What misses what the gap is that's missing is being able to go in and really Be what I call despicably honest. Yeah Despicably honest now see things to yourself that you don't want to hear that you do and actually saying they're not allowed to somebody else Takes a lot of confidence and what that process does is starts creating an internal container You know what you're feeling. I wanted to know You know what you're feeling right now Hi, I don't know what I'm feeling. I'd like to connect with you. Why don't you tell me what I'm feeling? Oh, how dare you? And it's a set of her failure So I want to create that kind of container Is it we don't have a good listener if we don't have a good listener I want to go where love is like I'm hoping you'll show me I Want to see where love is, you know, I know you'll take me I want to know about creating this this container of love. So so YouTube directed me to Teal swan who is quite striking a coping mechanism instead of a natural state in and of itself and Whenever there is that lack of masculine container the female actually has to cope by becoming masculine herself Right. So I'm thinking wow I need to create more of a of a container so that the woman doesn't have to become masculine herself Now when she does this this has a negative impact not just on her mind on her emotions, but also on her physical body Okay, so I need to be the man creating a container. So I Figured I need to learn more about creating a container. So I put in the name of one of my favorite YouTube Therapist Katie Morton and and I said what does Katie Morton have to say about containment and I went there and I see I see Katie Morton needs a break Her and I shared a lot of random things like oh Wow, I wasn't I Wasn't expecting this. I mean what the heck's going on with Katie Morton. She always just seems so so bubbly and happy. I mean, huh Huh Yeah, it's like we're gonna take a shower No, and I think that's it. I've talked about a lot that you can't force anyone into treatment because you can't make them get better I just want to take the time to address all the hate and Confusion really that Shane and I ever see for our video together that came out last Thursday I think it's interesting that she herself says No, I would never intentionally create contact that would ever hurt or upset anyone again my goal That's nonsense like when you hear people Talk about, you know, they never do anything to hurt anyone We deliberately do things to hurt the people that we love the most all the time All right, so Well is to educate and empower you and I was honestly shocked that people were upset about the video that I did with Shane because If you don't know how this was set up Shane called me and asked if he come over and just film me telling him how I would go about diagnosing a sociopath Come on, I don't need Sketchy YouTube therapist And I'm still a male welcome to 2021 and today I'm kicking it off by talking about yeah now Now this seems like reliable quality Psychological content good old uncle Herman YouTube therapists one particular YouTube therapist called Katie Morton Now he might have seen her in Shane Dawson's documentary series Or on her eponymous YouTube channel or even the videos that are starting to come out about her slightly dodgy activities on the platform Now when a therapist starts making YouTube videos, they can reach the right people and be helpful and I have nothing against therapy I think it's an amazing thing But there's something about Katie that has never sat right with me and a few of the ways in which she's been conducting herself online Recently have raised some issues with myself and fellow YouTube viewers alike So today let's have a look into the dark truth behind Katie Morton and see why and how she's suddenly being turned On online. So Katie Morton is a licensed therapist according to her website She runs her own private practice and aims to share mental health information across social media and de-stigmatize Okay, so this morning I want to get started on a positive note I want to learn about creating a container for love. I mean this is how my day started and very quickly however When I wanted to look what Katie Morton had to say I see her crying and breaking down in a video and then I see How she's sharing her depression story for the first time it's not Not what I was was looking for so so I End up with Teal Swan who I've never heard before but she's got over a million subscribers Essentially this causes a flippin polarity and that flippin polarity is not only a healthy for her It's to blame for so many of the relationship issues that are happening between men and women today With that image in mind now Let's look deeper at containment to contain a woman in this context is to actively not passively create a safe space of Well-being for her. Okay, that that seems healthy. I mean, okay, it's like all right here. I go I've got I've got an online guru is gonna teach me about how to create a Containment, right? I want a love container All right. I mean when I was younger I wanted other things with regard to love but now I'm 55 and I want a love container and And so I start looking for a little more information about Teal Swan and I find out that she's the catalyst of suicide That's not really what I was looking for So we've got this Gizmodo reporter Jennings Brown He he was looking for help on YouTube and YouTube sent him to Teal Swan. All right, the guru of suicide And he does a six-part series called there are hundreds of videos and posts like this where people are saying they want to kill Themselves and I see the value of having this kind of immediate support But it's still jarring to me the amount of post about suicide is staggering and I'm far from the only person who has noticed this There were a lot of posts of people saying that they were feeling suicidal This is Catherine Breen. She used to be a member of the Teal Tribe It concerns me a lot because of things that Teal has said about suicide and things that she said about Past clients who have like well specifically one past client who has committed suicide this one past client who committed suicide That's Leslie. You heard Joyce the belly dancer talking about her at the beginning of the episode She's come up in the Teal Tribe before and on critics blogs I found one Facebook post from August 29th, 2016 It says I know that a lot of you might not like this post and believe me. I love Teal so much She has helped me a lot, but why do Teal haters keep saying she led a woman to suicide? Can anybody please tell me the whole story? It ends with parentheses. This post is not against Teal and parentheses followed by two hard emojis Okay, so I'm trying to get my day after a positive uplifting start and and and the first first YouTube guru I turned to Katie Morton is You know really going through some pretty severe mental health issues and then the next one I turned to I think oh Oh Teal she sounds swell and then I learned that she is the guru of suicide Not exactly Kind of Teal influenced Leslie's decision to end her life Like just about everything else with Teal It doesn't take me long to find a video of her addressing this specifically this video is from back in 2013 the year after Leslie died I actually Interestingly enough lost my first client to suicide this last year That would set me back like if like I lost my first Alexander Technique client or any client to suicide Yeah, that'd be tough and this was a woman who was absolutely miserable This clip of Teal at a workshop in Santa Fe this short clip This is what Teal Swann's critics point to as the most damning evidence that she pushes people to kill themselves So we had that very serious sit-down talk where we had to say alright We're either committing or not committing to life because every time I gave her a suggestion She'd stop in two days doing the suggestion. So then we have to ask the question. Do we really want this to work? And what's interesting is when she asked herself that question the answer was no I'm done So there's nothing that any healer could ever do for that type of vibration Which is totally fine from source energy. There's nothing wrong with that from that perspective So she chose to commit suicide. Interestingly enough it took her about two days before she was reincarnated again Teal uses a lot of spiritual jargon that I don't get But saying that there's nothing a healer could ever do okay I was starting to feel down about all this and Start feeling a little skeptical about Teal Swann but knowing that her first client committed suicide But then was reincarnated two days later. I'm feeling so much better now Right, so like tell me more about the container of love Right. I maybe I just don't have to sweat the the whole Suicide catalyst for that type of vibration. What does she mean by that? Oh? Her messaging on mental health it in a word reckless There are so many people who love Teal Swann, but she also has a lot of critics like Levan Slavin She was never a follower of Teals But she says that she was in a spiritually abusive relationship with a guru and it reminds her of how Teal interacts with her followers So Levan writes blog posts warning people about Teal. She has repeatedly said that death is a reset button For a life that's become too miserable and then it may be the best option for some people She's said that death feels incredible That it's a gift you'd give yourself if you knew how wonderful it was Jessica's shop is another one of Teal's critics Jessica used to be a spiritual leader herself But now she tries to expose what she sees as spiritual abuse Jessica warned me about getting too close to Teal in her inner circle Jessica and Levan have been attacked online for speaking out against Teal Some of Teal's critics were nervous about talking to me because of the potential backlash Some didn't want to meet in person. They preferred phone or email After hearing about all their fears and allegations. I wanted to talk to the spiritual catalyst herself It's the godwitson live news alert now We made a video covering Millennial Woters today. I get a hold of Teal And afterwards they come back from the dead with the new grift Millennial Woters a guide to culture This is what he's planning on doing right now with his time. He's going to give you western man a guide to life But before he fully embarks on the new grift, he wants Okay, so it's it's perhaps Millennial Woters a better guru. Will will he teach us more About how to approach life. It's the godwitson live news alert now We made a video covering Millennial Woters law yesterday and then Sargon afterwards They've come back from the dead with a new grift Millennial Woters a guide to culture This is what he's planning on doing right now with his time. He's going to give you western man a guide to life But before he fully embarks on the new grift He wants to tell everyone That he is a free innocent Exonerated man and whatever godwitson's telling you whatever accurate law godwitson is putting out into the ether is to be completely turned away Call godwitson a liar An enemy of the people. I think he actually does use the word enemy of the people. So we're going to get into this I'm not going to press see this with anything beyond. This is the first time that Millennial Woters has gone on record with a public disavowal of the accusers And the women that have come to light So he's going to dismantle their truth in what seems as though it's a half hour video It was uploaded after my video. So I mean, I'm perplexed. I'm perplexed Was no one fucking calling Millennial Woters out on this Did it take godwitson to come back from the dead to lay out a a five-year caseload of law For Millennial Woters to actually go shit. I need to actually talk To my audience and the people that are paying me money and say wow I'm a free man So let's get into that. This is insanity. Just to begin with. Let's go Hello at the end of april 2020 I was accused of sexually assaulting a young woman This allegation triggered a set of other rumors and accusations including ones dug up from the past I don't think things trigger. I don't think it was trigger. I think all of this stuff was in the ether anyway It was a cacophony of noise surrounding woes forever But he tried to make it seem as though nothing nothing was going on that he wasn't a scottish neat who was a rent boy We're not even going to get into the law because that's in the previous video, but this is not A sexual allegation comes out of the woodwork then suddenly everyone else starts piling on and making up stuff No, there was a consistent pattern of behavior long before this woman came along With credible evidence that Millennial Woters was what he's been accused of. Let's go. Let's go Let me first set your mind to rest on the most important matter The allegation is false So, okay, so if this is an innocent man and the allegation is false, right Surely the video should end here at 28 seconds in Surely all he needs to say is i'm an innocent man get fucked. Goodbye Goodbye accusers but There is a word salad that proceeds to follow this a world a word salad counter I can only describe this as as for the next 25 and a half minutes he He confusingly and bafflingly seems to simultaneously corroborate this woman's story and the other stories that are around him And say that he's still in that he's still clean anyway, and he's the victim of a me too and it's left Okay, this is a god one god Winston video from december 4 2020, but he's touching on something important here that It's hard to take people seriously until they take Take responsibility when when they they admit bad behavior when they don't just Seem to learn nothing from their their travails So like a richard spencer doesn't seem to have learned much from all his travails He hasn't seemed to have taken much responsibility for his behavior and so too with with millennial woes So this is just a preamble to more of what I want to talk about But I think god Winston is on something important here just sort of doing this and There are enemies he makes he makes his enemies your enemies which is evil and That's a loss quite frankly as to why if he were innocent completely And everything was baseless And a falsehood why he wouldn't just end the video at 28 seconds, but you're gonna hear why So don't harass anyone I'm not guilty of any criminal wrongdoing. You are your guilty guilty your honor Has a history of look you can behave like a pig and not be guilty of any criminal wrongdoing I have I've behaved like a pig at times towards men and women and Not guilty of criminal wrongdoing, but you can also be quite the bastard as as I have been through Let me get specific just through through being grossed through being Imported through being unnecessarily confrontational through Through being inappropriate through being needlessly shocking through being presumptive needlessly aggressive Through I remember there's one woman that I hit on really hard in the kitchen at a shabbat dinner and apparently she was still crying about it years later and I think I played a significant role in her unhappiness about that event Other times like I showed up on a woman's doorstep who I thought I was had I was either sleeping with or I thought I was going to and I'm thinking of two women that appreciate in particular said hey, you just can't show up on my doorstep You know, I can't just like show up at 9 p.m. At night for a booty call even if it's shabbat so Let's get uh, let's get a little bit low barry. Um, hello pafa. Hello hapa. Hello woodlander. Hello magic tech Or whatever in order to make it look like it's from this war So the photo is from this one It's not I mean that's things that resemble it good life and things that are tangentially connected to it Get memory hold or banned so that they won't offend people so that people won't be shocked and troubled by the sight of The letter z because I might remind them of the russian army Now the alternative explanation is it's not because of people's emotions. It's not their emotional reaction to seeing the letters It's the fact that it is associated with the russian militant. Okay, I agree with was and ever since it has been pilloried as an example of brain dead right wing warmongering stupidity And yet here we are now with the letter z the entire fucking letter z Okay, I agree with that. We're obviously a beautiful girl and all that but just not my type Now the other one that I did fancy was the german actress imagine amic If he used the letter z I mean i'm sorry to The scenes have heard but they are expected to be this fragile And so they're just acting in accordance with that expectation I think that's the more likely explanation here So, yeah, we'll we'll move on now. I just wanted to talk about that because I'm staggered by it Bloody hell magitek. Thank you very much for that very generous superchant Bloody hell That's uh, that's by far the the largest one so far. So thank you very much Um, okay. Well, yes, everyone can be everyone can thank magitek for that. Um Um So, okay, the I'll do magitek's one first He says I couldn't think of a real question. So here it is Who was the hottest twin peaks female character and why was it audrey horn? Well, um, I have Come on God, that's a bloody big question turned on Because I don't know and I can only speak for myself The thing that started me was I I moved into a multicultural environment To say it very briefly that that's what happened. And so I went from rural scotland Uh, well, then I'd lived in edinburgh and and then I'd lived in a northern town Which again was very white. It was all my life up to the age of 19. I'd lived in very white areas. Then I moved to a very multicultural part of london And I just clocked immediately but this just doesn't work It just simply does not work. Uh, there's there's suspicion. There's paranoia. There's a low level tension everywhere And then it was also the same within the student community the halls of residence where I was living It was also very multicultural loads of japanese loads of chinese students And no one talked to each other no one it was all just So this this whole thing about people mixing was just just a myth and uh so We tend to see the world as we are not as the world is so i'm sure that plenty of those Multicultural students were mixing and were talking to each other But millennial woes who has mild tendencies towards isolation To withdrawing from other people and certain social awkwardness He doesn't mix Now true the less you have in common with other people the more difficult it is to mix and communicate with them I don't know if it's different now. I mean that was 20 years ago Maybe it's different now. Maybe there is more mixing. I'm not sure certainly in daily life I mean you've got the whole cliche of the millennial And now the gen z Everyone's got a girlfriend of a different race. Everyone's got a mixed race friend and Friend circle of all different races I mean that that's what you see in the advertising I dare say that the reality is actually a lot starker and a lot more old-fashioned than that But also so yeah, the reason I said all that is For me it was just effortless. It was just obvious and and that my prior beliefs were mistaken So people would rather look outside themselves than inside themselves for their troubles. So I think it it's fair to say that millennial woes is problems and inability to You know hold down what's traditionally regarded as a manly role you work for a living All right, and you navigate your way in society And anything is primarily because of multiculturalism. I think it's primarily because of britain's economic and immigration policies I mean my primary problems are caused by me Richard Spencer's primary problems are caused by Richard Spencer millennial woes is primary problems are caused by himself But it's so much easier to say. Oh the problems with society problems with our immigration policy problems with multiculturalism Okay, multiculturalism and diversity is no excuse not to get out there into the world and to Or down a job to pay your taxes to make friends to gather with friends To form community and to get along with people to the best you can and uh, and I did try It wasn't just like I arrived there and then the next day I Had become a bigot And you know even after I concluded that it wasn't working. I still So we'd rather when people in general rather look at themselves and say, hey, maybe there's something Off about me. Maybe I need to recalibrate. Maybe I need to approach other people differently Or would people rather say oh problems with others and Our nation's immigration policy Right, many people are struggling. We'd rather say, oh my problems with other people The less engaged you are with real people The less energy you have to get out into the world and interact So these things become so fulfilling prophecies. I mean, I'm still nice to them. I mean, it's not like I was You know It's not like I got a swastika tattoo or something like that Obviously not. Um, I was still perfectly nice to them and I did try to make friends But it just I just realized I don't have anything in common with them. Uh, that there are these annoying language barriers Everything is a chore like a fucking normal Okay, so when you're around people who are more similar to you Are you making friends? Are you holding down a job? Are you taking on masculine responsibilities Now conversation is a chore And of course, there's no feeling of commonality. Uh, so it's just nonsense. It's it's just onerous and unrewarding so I mean, I tried it but I think it was about three or four months in when I just realized When I sort of conclude it this just isn't going to work But it wasn't an intellectual battle for me and it wasn't difficult for me to it was difficult for me to give up On the idea of making friends because I wanted friends But it wasn't difficult for me to realize oh bloody hell multiculturalism does not work That wasn't so much easy to say multiculturalism does not work rather than I don't work My approach to living doesn't work Let me be honest here. My natural instinct is to be much more isolated than is good for me right my natural instinct is to back away from community and from other people and to Try to restrict all my interactions with other people just strictly on my terms Right these natural instincts of mine somehow hardwired in me as I would assume a response to the chaos of my early childhood I reacted to that by becoming overly rigid in my reactions with other people and trying to make Most of my interactions with others strictly on my own terms Which does lead to isolation and misery. So The way I'm wired does not work to my benefit if I just follow my natural inclinations I have to do all sorts of things to push myself To get out there be more social because naturally I'm isolated. So It's much harder to admit. I'm broken Rather than to say oh society's broken, but I am I am broken I'm a broken person whose natural tendency is towards isolation, which is not healthy difficult it was very obvious to me and You know, my only concern was am I wrong about this? If I miss something It doesn't sound like he's really that concerned about whether he's wrong about it and whether he's missed something And whether that's something that he's missed is him But yeah, that was the first thing that and then thereafter it was other one issue at a time I just sort of fell out of agreement with the mainstream on one issue after another Um, so it wasn't difficult for me So what I'm actually hearing is the mainstream fell out with millennial worse Like most people didn't want to have much to do with him And so he was feeling in the regular world, right? He's never held a job according to him So he was failing in real life. So when you're feeling at real life, you can say oh the problem's me I need to take a very painful self-examination and I need to admit that I've got a problem and I need to Ask for help and I need to become willing to take direction from other people Even though it goes against all my inclinations, right? That's a very painful thing to do Does it sound like it's the path that uh, woezy is taken? I don't think there was ever because I always just thought well Am I right or wrong? And I think this is really the crux of the matter. You know, there are people who Just think well, is this true or false? Is this right or wrong? And then there are other people who think of the social cost of believing it Again, there's not much introspection here about what is his own role? What's his own programming? What are his own influences? How has his own record of failure in interacting with other people? predisposed him towards an anti-social worldview predisposed him towards a an ideology which will allow allow him to isolate and to loathe larger society just as he seems to perceive larger society Loads him what am I expected to believe and that will override everything else? They'll even find ways to believe things that they Know are false So that they can retain the favor of their peers Yes, yes, the happiest marriages are people who believe false things about their spouses All right, that's what goes on the happiest marriages people have unrealistic perspectives on their spouse They put their spouse on a pedestal when people start to get a realistic view of their spouse All right, the marriage is is in trouble right so there are all sorts of non true beliefs that service And if you want to take a completely secular perspective The belief in the transcendent belief in God belief in religion From a an atheist perspective is a false belief that serves a lot of people so that they can retain social acceptability And so for them There's never been a group There's never been a society where you don't need to make a set to false things to Successfully get along That's the way human nature has always been It is very difficult to change their views Unless the the mainstream changes its views and then it's extremely easy for them to just snap into line just get back into a synchronicity with the mainstream But to defy the mainstream Is extraordinarily difficult for those people and I think we're talking about a good Yeah, to defy the mainstream to defy the people around you to defy your culture Right to defy most people. Yeah, that does not tend to create happiness It does not tend to create a life that works the big percentage of the pot more than 50 percent of people For them, it's extremely difficult. I mean, I think if you were stuck in a desert island with one of them Yeah, you could probably talk sense into them Yeah, but once you were rescued or once you got all yeah, maybe millennial woes could talk sense into them Right Does he have any mentors does he have any is there anybody that millennial woes respects? Because if there's anyone that he he respects Then he should look to them for some help should look to them for some guidance Seems I really like your video on the multimoral society. Do you stand by that or or do you have any further thoughts to add? Well, the multimoral society was one of my very first videos I think it was in the first like five that I actually filmed if I recall correctly So it was obviously something that was on my mind that was obviously a priority for me to talk about that and the the crux of it was that and it sounds pretty Pretty bad saying it now, but the crux of it was that it's not right to have the same expectations of different classes of people And therefore the rules should be in in a sense different for different classes of people Now I did not mean there shouldn't be a quality before the law because I think equality before the law is actually a good idea Uh, mostly, I mean, maybe that's a symptom of me being born of a democratic age and despite myself, you know But nonetheless, I think it is good that the law is as fair and objective impartial as possible Well, you know because it's the pursuit of truth after all the pursuit of justice So I didn't mean that but the what I meant was that there should be leeway in the sense that And I was really blessings to Elliott Blatt. How's it going, right? Uh, blessing shabbat shalom So I didn't expect uh, didn't expect a stream fluke So, uh, uh, look, uh, do you think that you uh, that you sort of Kind of punish yourself unnecessarily Oh, sure I'm sure there are plenty of times I punish myself unnecessarily and but I I'm not sure that it exceeds the number of times that I I uh, let myself off the hook unnecessarily So you feel like there's a score, right? Well, I want to be in reality and so There's certainly a time to forgive yourself And then I think there's a time to let yourself know. Hey, you're falling short here And you can do both you can admit that you're flawed like I I don't think you can watch my show and think oh, here's a guy who's just burdened by guilt He's just burdened by shame He he can't leave the house because he's got so much self-loathing No, I can admit that I've acted like a pig that I've been despicable And it doesn't reduce my happiness level. In fact, I'm happier because I can admit the truth and I don't hate myself for being flawed Okay, fair enough. I mean um Now is this something that you only do when you're on stream and you don't really carry around with you or Uh, it's just something you carry around with you all the time like this sort of running dialogue that oh, I've been a bad boy I need to flog myself It's all it's all contextual if I'm going to critique millennial woes And he says something that I can resonate with and something that I've struggled with Then rather than coming from the perspective, I'm better than you, you know, I'm high and haughty it's like, oh, I've struggled with the exact same thing and This is what I realized about my life. So a lot of my critiques begin with Okay, I've struggled with this. I've failed in this area Uh, you know, this is this is my experience and then this is what I'm thinking or this is what I've read This is what I've heard But I think if you're going to talk about yourself publicly It should probably be along the lines of things that are shameful, right? Usually there's not much point in boasting about yourself publicly Yeah, that's true for sure. But uh, but then but uh Millennial woes seems to just kind of flog himself all the time. He's uh, I don't see him as somebody that's uh You know aggrandizing himself in any way. I think he's the opposite. He's sort of Uh, just lamenting his circumstances in a way that's kind of Uh, you know, it's a little bit unbecoming I I just find him out of touch with reality. So His response to the sex pest allegations Or a perfect illustration that there's absolutely nothing to them Uh, but yeah, maybe I've you know been being a bit inappropriate. So He he just he's obviously miserable And so he he admits his misery and he's relatable on that hand, but he doesn't Doesn't seem to Take much responsibility for his own role in his own misery And he's very quick to say, you know, my misery is caused by our multicultural society Rather than there are plenty of people out there in our multicultural society who are connecting and creating a good life It's it's not just our immigration policy. That's the the primary cause of my problems So I it it rings false to me like there are parts of it that ring true, but a lot of it just rings rings false to me Hmm, okay So it's like it's like Joe Queenen. His father was an alcoholic You apparently treated him really badly and then his father started working the 12 steps But it didn't really work them. He'd just like mumble something to Joe and his brother You know, if I've ever been unkind to you, you know, please forgive me. No, that's that's not making amends Yeah, making amends as you you've got to get specific and so So I don't I don't hear woesie getting specific about You know where he needs to make amends for other people and wear his own selfishness His own unnecessary fear his own inconsideration His own dishonesty has caused his problems instead. It's just You know, I've screwed up. I'm miserable But he doesn't seem to come to terms with the reality of what's happened And I don't think people should hate themselves or blame themselves Like millennial woes did not ask to be miserable So he shouldn't berate himself or down himself for being miserable But there's no recovery until you can start to come to terms With the exact things that you have done to to create your misery That's true. That's all true um I I guess all right Mully was sort of created a persona around being miserable and lugubrious, right? Yes And and this is sort of in the same way that Ralph has created a personality of being sort of bombastic and crude, you know, and in a weird way their livelihoods are are tied to Maintaining this persona their incentivize to keep going and then disincentivize to sort of unwind these narratives that they tell themselves so, um I don't know. Yeah, it's interesting to observe But I think they've ingrained patterns so deeply. I'm not sure that the real rational incentives Leading them to the state that they're at. I think they're more stuck in their own patterns That they can't get out of them Racial incentives would would say to them you got to get off the internet and correct and build a life but they They they're their internet life has so contaminated their real life And the way they conduct themselves in their real life that It's going to be incredibly painful for a while even if they quit the internet because Everything that you say and do online it feeds back and recreates you in the real world and so It's a very long path ahead Yeah, so Um But I noticed okay, let's talk about you a little bit Um like I noticed that you have a way of All of your misdeeds are really seem really foremost in your mind now. This may just be Something that you display when you're online, right and that you you you're sort of setting an example by Confronting your own failings publicly right and yes Now but um Which is fine. I'm not grisa. I'm just simply trying to understand now you do this to sort of set example This is me theorizing to set example for others to sort of Give them space to do the own sort of their own self-reflection Well, primarily I'm setting an example for myself like I I so easily become pompous I so easily become a pompous asshole and so to To the reality of my own pigish behavior And then use that as the the place from where I where I stand and where I launch because otherwise I'm just you know a pompous a-hole much of the time Okay, but is this you is this a function of your sort of um strict religious upbringing that feels as though um You know you need to sort of abrate yourself full the time And if you're not doing that you are a pompous asshole. There's no sort of calm neutrality of Of neither being pompous nor being uh Punished right. There's just sort of uh, this was the past. This is what I've done. I've accepted it Is there a path towards sort of neutrality and acceptance? And then progression Oh, I'm sure there is and and I am profoundly shaped by you know, my father and And yeah, my my religious upbringing And uh, I'm not just the you know, mr. Calm and acceptance like calm and acceptance takes takes work for me You know, I've known other people that grew up in very strict religious Households that grew up in a very strict religious Upbringing and when they soon as they got out of the house, they sort of rebelled in a very strong profound way Uh in a way that sort of contradicted all of this their religious indoctrination and they sort of made mistakes on the other end They sort of screwed up their lives becoming by becoming Uh really sort of just libertines of you know sex drugs rock and roll and so forth Yeah, that's that's me. I mean without the drugs. I mean, I just became incredibly reactive and rebellious yeah, and And then they then you know, they sort of take that to the extreme and it's sort of like The discipline that they've accrued Through their strict upbringing Only served them it only served because they were sort of More cunning and determined in their rebellion. Do you know what I mean? Like did the skills that they learned as With their structure they applied to becoming Yeah, yeah, that's a there's a new movie out called axe It's set in 1979 in texas and a group of people rent a home in in a remote area to shoot a porn movie And the the lead character a woman starts the movies like snorting cocaine Looking in the mirror and say, you know, I deserve better And so they they rent this movie and they shoot this this porn movie In this remote house, but the older couple nearby Who they're renting the the house from don't don't know what's going on And when they do know what's going on the movie turned Oh, look you dropped out I I'm back. So I'm here. Oh, so okay. Sorry. All right. You're back. All right. Yeah. So so anyway, uh This this one woman she has to you know fight through a horror show where everyone else in the porn movies getting getting wiped out but Her father's a preacher and she she uses her discipline and her I deserve better to to navigate her way through this mass murdering scene To make it out alive. So it's it's actually a pretty good movie. It's a it's called x Uh, not the story of x Not the history of x Which I also hear is just completely superlative as well. It's an erotic slasher film Yeah, interesting, but it's actually fairly It's well done It's one of the best erotic slasher films I've ever seen Yeah, so the list is long uh, all right, well I know that was just sort of I guess the point is like Like uh, Jewish life Seems to be sort of both more accepting and more strict in certain ways, right? Yes. It has different boundaries Yes, and sort of allows more Within a certain radius Yes, the radio And therefore It doesn't create the reactions That go outside the radius the radius So you get sort of a wider scope That's clustered around the center. Do you know what I'm saying? Well, there's no Generic Jewish life. There are so many different parts of Jewish life. And so I've navigated to to those parts of the best fit for me Um I'd be a terrible fit for many different Jewish communities They would hate me and I would hate them Now have you found home in your church community? Yeah, no, I found a home in hotherdack studiism Yeah, and and I'm happy here. Now. I'm sure there are some orthodox synagogues where I wouldn't be a great fit either but uh overwhelmingly I feel very comfortable among orthodox Jews and then orthodox synagogues and Orthodox events for one thing. I don't know how to dance with women So at orthodox events, you know blokes only dance with blokes and I'm very comfortable dancing with other blokes I Yes, I'm sure that's a joyous experience, you know dressed a three-piece suit and Staying alive Yeah, yeah, do you do you feel more comfortable dancing with blokes or with sheilas? Neither I'm not a dancer at all. You're not a dancer. Oh, no, bro Hey, are you at home in your body, Elliot? I'm not my body sucks, Luke. My body sucks I feel I it's the foremost, you know, like I'm doing so much. I'm trying to keep my body together and every day it's sort of like I feel myself being a little bit older and just not The decline of my physical fitness has been a real Real bummer in my life, Luke Are you being a good friend to yourself, Elliot? Trying to be bro, but So what does that mean? How are you a good friend to yourself? um How am I a good friend to myself? I'm a good friend to myself because I I listen to what I feel I need And I allow myself what I feel I need and I don't sort of Torment myself for needing what I need So it's not like a serial killer Really? You give yourself what you need. You don't torment yourself. You just if you need it you need it No, no, if I need to sleep in I sleep in You know, if I need to eat a proper meal, it's expensive. I'll buy the ingredients. You know, I'll make a proper meal. I'm really um I I don't I don't starve myself and I don't punish myself, but I'm trying to walk the line between asceticism and Epicurianism I'm trying to find the comfortable balance The the neutral I'm my goal is to be neutral And even in a piece and um So You know, I I try to find balance and keep balance So I don't know if that makes any sense. Sure. Sure. Uh, so Did you see my uh video yesterday morning? I think checking out of the national project Uh, is that like a five three in the morning? Yes. Yes I did, but I was so groggy. I didn't I don't retain much. You were wearing, uh, the sticks Yes, I went I went on sticks and hammer Yeah, but I was sort of semi conscious. I don't remember the content Okay, so the content was that a lot of people don't care About the news don't care what's happening in in the wider nation or the wider world And the more happy you are the more engaged you are with the outside world And the more unhappy you are the less likely you are to care about what happens in the outside world And so I got a got an email from from an acquaintance and he says, you know, you're stream here very close to home I I've been feeling like nobody at my Community that we we just joined. I'm paranoid that I'm being judged I I should go see a therapist about my anxiety and depression Uh, but I need people other than a therapist to connect with and from from your videos You sound like someone who understands how I feel more than most people Uh, when we spoke you said I sounded depressed. Nobody ever tells me that so straightforwardly, but I am so Yeah, so it's just that that stream seems to really hit home with some members of the audience Uh, is it still up online? I'll go back and watch it again. Uh, and I'll try I'll retain this time um Hmm Because I you know you say when you're about your your your happiness is sort of dependent on The quality of your relationships with other people from that mistake. Yes, right. Yes, and my happiness in contrast is How I feel within my own body and my own head space so I I don't I don't Relationships are far secondary to me And I'm not saying that this is a good thing or a bad thing. I'm just telling it as I perceive it and that is a contrast between You and me and um I I wonder if Okay, I see relationships human relationships. I know this is gonna sound similar, but I see them as sort of a past time I don't see them as um The assets of life Yeah, I see them as sort of a a peak experience, you know a source of Amusement and enjoyment, but they're at the end of the day. They're not really there. They're very ephemeral because I'm changing the other people are changing and we're sort of You know, we meet at a rest stop and we're all thrown together for A few moments or a few days or a few weeks, three years but then, you know, sort of time marches on and then we're sort of We go our separate ways, you know, and uh Make, you know, and this is very well to be, you know A pathology of my part, but I I uh It's very hard for me to invest in things that I know are very temporary Is that make sense? Yeah And I I I'm not saying this is the correct way to live. I'm just saying These this is how I see the world right and um Other people most people don't see the world the same way and I'm fully cognizant of that uh, but then they're sort of um And they seem to be blindsided by life when people die and people move away and um Well, they form attachments and then therefore they feel lost. You're a rock You're an island and a rock never cries and an island feels no pain Exactly Luke and I don't like this. I don't like the fact that this is how we see the world, but this is in fact How I do you see the world? um Part two part two is It's people that can be alone Are the only people that can be of service to other people In their times of need You know, I mean like There's a certain independence and and uh objectivity That comes from the ability to be alone And you've built walls of fortress deep and mighty that none may penetrate You have no need of friendship because friendship causes pain. It's laughter and it's loving. I just stay What is that? Is that a song or is that the bible? So I'm in a garf uncle. Don't talk of love I've heard the word before I went to stir the slumber of feelings that have died if I never loved. I never would have cried Yes Hiding in my room safe within my womb. I touch no one and no one touches me Yeah Well, you know tonight I was going to go down to the beach This is Friday night and there's usually a big gathering as a beach swimming and so forth and I just wasn't into it. I didn't feel like it today. So I just stayed home now partially because I'm feeling a little bit off physically, but um It's it would just be another sort of chaotic group setting where There's just lots of conversations. I don't really want to be in that happened and I sort of I evaluated My expectations and I said well, I just don't need that tonight. So I'm just going to stay home and listen to Luke Excellent, you're being a good friend to yourself. That's what I'm here Yeah, but it's sort of sad in a way like uh, it's sort of like this, uh You're in a prison of your own Of your own ingrained habits that have become so perpetual you don't see them Yes, it's like well, no, it's me with internet culture like I get to choose whatever experience I want at every given moment, right? And I can't endure anything that's not feeding me the steady diet of dopamine that I'm accustomed to And going out to this in-person iRL gathering Creates moments of of non Dopamine I don't need that in my life, right? There's just just this escalation of expectations that just being a passive internet consumer has created me Yeah, sometimes I don't want to listen to a live 12-step meeting because there are unexpected interruptions or people will disappoint me So if I just go to the tried and tested recorded talks, then I know I'm not going to get you know, something that I don't want Right, you want the distilled essence and what none of the none of the messy like Tangled ends that goes on with real people with real lives, you know Yeah, their their stories are just boring. They've all been said before You know, like who needs to listen to that crap when we can get like really like well Processed pros. It's been thoroughly edited. It's like why make a salad when you can keep process food around the house That may be years old, but it still works Why go shopping when you can have amazon bring it to your door, you know I went for a walk the other day And I saw all these people that I knew and they're all like gathered together and laughing and have a great time And I just couldn't go over there. I just kind of kept my head down and and walked off I just I surprised myself. I just wasn't ready to engage Yeah, that's me. That's me. That's me like more often than I'm of uh willing to admit like, uh So what are you doing for Passover? You know what I'm doing tomorrow I'm doing my taxes Luke I'm gonna do it tomorrow got the whole day blocked off And I'm not gonna allow myself out of the house if I've done my taxes Bernard is in new york city, bro Yeah, should I just hop the flight and go in and hang Go get some pizza some falafel Talked about the luke fortune. We should all gather. We should all like their rent a mountain cabin Yeah Alone, hopefully at different peaks I have a convention Do you think you'd enjoy hanging out with uh people like Leponius and Half Galicia and I don't know It's 50-50. I mean, it's very likely that we can just cage it like literally viscerally hate one another. You know Like why risk it, Luke? We got a good thing going, you know No, there's something to that because there are a lot of people who I've had good relations with But then I got a little closer to them and things just blew up So, you know at a nice remove, you know, everything was great. And then I got too close and things blew up We want the filtered distilled essence of people At arm's length What the up in your grill Exactly, you know Yeah, I know so this is yeah, I think about that often like Who knows they could get a fist bike probably now, you know Bernardo and Leponia's right, right That would be interesting content Anyway, bro, that's all I got. That's all I got. Okay. Blessings. All right. Cheers. Okay. So I'm reading this uh rereading this terrific book the extended mind And so so much only happens when we're face-to-face with people like what we're doing now is great and has its place But it's really eye contact that opens the gate between the The brains and the hearts and the minds of two individuals and then information flows So the easiest way to get new information to learn new things to broaden your your worldview is to have Contact close contact human to human eye contact with with someone else Right, you know that the eyes are like a gate And and you don't get the same same degree of intimacy when you're not looking in someone else's eyes, right? We want we want social exchanges In which what we're saying are directly responsive to what the other person has said and then When this contingent communication is absent We we don't learn nearly as well. So we learned best from other live human beings Right and we learned best from teaching other people so IQs 2.3 points higher for first born children and researchers think that the first born child's higher IQ stems from Family life older siblings engage in teaching younger ones So engaging students in tutoring teaching other people doing a youtube show where you try to teach things That helps you to learn Even if you just like Speak to a camera And and try to teach something that you've been reading, right? So when I do this show, there's a tremendous physiological arousal It can be absolutely exhausting, but it's very rarely makes me sleep Right. I'm I'm fully alert and alive and pulsating And uh, it's it's incredibly challenging But you You are then pushed to learn things that you wouldn't learn otherwise if you weren't going to be all exposed on on a show so Explaining something on camera. Even if no one's watching That really helps you before improve your performance improve what you're learning and It generates a persuasive feeling of social presence the the idea that someone is watching and listening So explaining yourself why you're being recorded It measurably increases your physiological arousal. You have more memory. You have more attention more alertness The extended mind we do much of our best thinking socially At times other times we do our best thinking sitting down other times We will do our best thinking going for a walk going for a walk alone being with others being alone behind four walls Right. There's a time and a place for all of that Speaking of our greatest thinking here's more from millennial ones by a video by Davis arini when he made the point that upper class couples can do things that We destroy a working class family And I don't really well Adam Smith made that point in the wealth of nations that all sorts of vices that the middle class and upper classes can engage in Would would be fatal for the lower classes Because the lower classes generally speaking aren't as disciplined aren't as intelligent and don't have as many resources And family and friends and community and schools to fall back on for help You know exactly why that is But it makes sense to me just intuitively it makes sense that Wealthy family are not going to have the same pressure So when I collapsed into chronic fatigue syndrome I had my family that I collapsed onto and I had friends who were also there for me And then my family sent me to doctors and I was able to reach out and place a lot of singles ads and met a lot of women And one girlfriend led me to a doctor who changed my life for the good 1993 putting me on the medication Nardil was on them. They're not going to have the same sense of precariousness As a working class family or indeed a middle class family So they can withstand more but I mean obviously that that's a very There's a huge gray area here because it's not that simple Because in other ways a working class family will be more robust But I think that the point that arena was making was so upper class people Can do things like have a drug habit and yet it doesn't destroy them now as I say these words obviously We will all know or know off A wealthy person who got destroyed by drugs Right jack Nicholson seems to be a bloke who can engage in drugs and all sorts of vices and it hasn't apparently destroyed him They've done tremendous damage to other people around him. It happens um But at the same time there does seem to be a correlation between wealthy people having a drug habit and yet they have a career And it does this drug habit is just something they do on the side and it doesn't matter They've got it under control whereas a stereotypically speaking a working class person is far more likely to If they get into drugs it might well dominate their life. It might well fuck them up um now I don't have anything particularly invested in this being true Right, my some people might think that I I I'm a snob and I enjoy this idea that superiority and inferior Okay, here's what is the on And that was actually another thing that I wanted to bring up to me that you know, we say that and I see I have said that There has been cultural stagnation cultural freeze since the year 2000, but that's actually not true It's true in the way that we mean it Which is that aesthetics music film tv Art literature all of these things have stagnated But it's not true in the broader sense now And we need to be specific here because it's in the broader sense culture has actually transformed since the year 2000 And that's that's exactly what we're all despairing about And I'm also saying that we all love the year 2000. We thought it was just fucking great. You know, obviously Obviously, we know better than that but clearly there is constant decline and We can remember a better time even though it wasn't perfect. It was better and it was I mean it just was Uh, I mean there are zoomers. It was better in some ways and worse in other ways Come on ways to give me something man So to get back to the multimodal society, I think I've yeah, I think that uh, a sane society would Not just not have equality. It would explicitly reject the concept of equality For reasons that are just so obvious that I know that they're obvious to you and me but to a great percentage of the public It's not obvious that I think a great percentage of the public would be horrified to hear me There is an equality that inherently goes with nationalism Right, if you're a strong nationalist, then there is a sense of equality with fellow members of your nation Saying that a sane society would reject equality. I think it's become Like a religious thing for people just an axiomatic truth That the races are equal cultures are equal, but it's also a fucking exciting and interesting There could be ways that we're equal. We can we can believe that we're equal in the eyes of god We can believe that we're equally members of our group We can believe that we equally Have have a mission But certainly we don't have equal skills Even though no one is actually interested in other cultures Um, but it is all There's incredible realms of possibility of the cross-pollination to different ideas But no one is actually interested in other ideas. It's nonsense. What they actually mean is that Okay, i'm not getting anything else told to check out this latest woezy Production and there's just nothing in there making false allegations against me So quickly just classic Instantly blame the victim now here on the gordonson channel. We love our we love our women God is a female We are paid up ardent feminists who pray at the shrine of Anita sarcusian and zoa queen And classic victim blaming occurs We're not even rounding out the first minute, but he's instantly going to go straight in with the kill own up to zero Of his faults. He's just admitted that i'm not going to earn up to any of my faults I'm even i'm just going to claim their applications and lies And instead he's going to dismantle this woman Right, and this woman's claims but not in any detail because if you are actually privy to the woman's claims It's indefensible. It's indefensible Deliberately entraping men and of being obsessed with men as sex predators Yeah, i've got to admit that i've grown from the me too movement. You know, I realized just some of my aggressive approach of women was incredibly off-putting and one specific area where i think i've grown that When you ask someone that you're an intimate relationship with to do something or even someone you're not in an intimate relationship with The the default that we have is often to say yes And so by putting women in an awkward situation and and manipulating them into having sex Yeah, they they bear some responsibility if they consent if they put themselves in that situation But you also bear substantial responsibility like if you introduce drugs to someone Or you introduce say unwanted sex to someone if you prod or push or manipulate You bear some substantial moral responsibility. I didn't I didn't really think about I didn't I didn't take cognizance of how when you're asking and manipulating or pushing someone to do something And then they they give in that's not that's not 100 consent. Maybe 100 legal consent. It's not 100 moral consent and so When we are something of someone when we manipulate someone We have to take responsibility for that and if it's something that's against their self-interest Then That's on us like