 Good day and welcome back to the Asperger's Growth YouTube channel, the home of your autism dating theory of autism related content. Yes, I haven't quite nailed down that tagline but we're going with it. So I just thought I'd make this video because it's been some time since I released my last video of my dating and autistic series. The thing is is that over the well to be honest throughout my life I have had a lot of difficulties with mental health. I have quite severe depression, anxiety, dissociative disorders and also quite recently we're at really big issue which is a binging disorder. All of this kind of stuff compiled into one as well as me starting a full-time job as well as me trying to go to the gym regularly to kind of keep my mental health. I really haven't had a lot of time and energy to create content. The specific part of creating content I find difficult is the stuff around it. The actual thing of me just getting in front of the camera chatting to you, chatting to everyone, it's easy for me, it's not a task, it's the setup, it's the trying to get all my lighting, three-point lighting sort of set up properly or my microphone and my camera sort of sync together. Oh god, there's so much stuff in that preparation stage that due to my difficulties with executive functioning, mental health tends to make it a lot worse. I really haven't had enough energy to start that process. You know if I had someone who kind of came in and just like shuffled the room about and sorted out all the lighting and got me and just said, hey Tom sit down you're going to record a video then that would be fine for me. The second thing that I really struggle with in terms of sort of scheduling myself and scheduling content is the amount of time that I have during the day. I have a very limited amount of time and if you've followed my content for enough time you'll realise that I heavily gravitate towards that longer form content. Not on purpose, just naturally because of the way that my brain works, I'm quite a slow thinker, quite complex and I like the detail in conversation and so they tend to be a lot longer and one of the downstream effects of that is that editing is much harder. Even if I was to edit stuff down to about 10 minutes I'd still have to go through the entire clip and sync the audio and do all of this stuff that most YouTube creators do and perhaps that would be easier for me if I didn't have a full-time job and I didn't have these mental health conditions and I didn't have anything else going in my life. The other part of this video, other than me complaining about how hard it is to create YouTube videos and get them out on a regular basis, is also a video for me to say, right, I've got it in my head, I know what the difficulty is, I need to try and cut out the preparation and editing a little bit more. I need to try and cut my videos down a little bit more so that I can produce on a more regular basis and not miss these deadlines that have set me and, you know, get anxious and get depressed about it because I didn't, I haven't managed to stick to my schedule. So in order to try and tackle this I've ditched the whole tripod set up, you know, with me with my desk. It's very messy right now, it's one of the other preparation issues that I have. I have to clean. God, I have to clean my room. Disgusting thought. And so I have invested in a smaller ring light that I can have on my desk. I've got one of my other lights which is sort of over there. And for the time being I also have this new camera. I have a new phone, I got the new iPhone. I thought it was a brand about time for me to start investing back into my media work. I've been investing a lot in terms of public speaking and my time. My time's been a big part of my investment. And so I've splashed out and I got a good camera basically. And you'll have to let me know it's got three lenses on it. You've got one in the free tri-bid, tri-bred Illuminati camera set up there. And I've got it on 0.5. So if it looks a bit weird or different and you don't like it, please let me know. And if you really, you know, share with me your thoughts, please. Do you think it's a good trade-off for me to get rid of that aesthetic setup and maybe sort of looking to get like a green screen or something along those lines to put behind me? That is more preparation. I try and make as many adjustments as I can. I just realise that, you know, I've started up the YouTube join button and things like that and I really want to get into content creation again and try and build my work through my videos, through my podcasts. And, you know, this camera and this lighting system and this setup, it's a lot easier for me to kind of just jump on and record. So please let me know down in the comments. I've got something else that I need to address. Oh, I don't need to, but I can let you know. I am also going to be starting a series of different videos that I'm going to try to do. This is a test period. It will either make or break me. But I really want to put the effort in for you guys. And throughout the, I don't know, the past couple of months, past year, there's been a steady rise in the amount of people who are following me and commenting and emailing. And I really feel like I should, you know, do my part and try and produce content on a more regular basis. And well, I want to. So we have three different videos that I'm going to be including. I'm going to keep the Dating an Autistic series as a running thing because I feel like it's, you know, a lot of the views and a lot of the people who are coming on to comment on and share my work, it's always around these videos. So I'm going to try and keep this as a running series, maybe release it every week or two weeks depending on how the timing works out with this new schedule. So we're going to keep those. I'm also going to be doing a bit more of a fun video which I'm going to be reviewing, actually Autistic TikToks. I got inspiration from a YouTuber that I really like. I'm not going to mention their name because I'm sure that there's quite a few people who don't like them. But they do, they do have a good format. So we're going to be dealing like, yeah, actually Autistic TikToks with a little bit of a Reddit story. And I'm going to be commentating on that for the best of my ability, giving my reactions, etc. And yeah, at the end, go for a Reddit story and sort of reading it out and giving you my thoughts on it. So that's one part of it. That's one sort of video series that I'm thinking about. Another one of the things that I'm thinking about is short videos on autism content. If you follow my Instagram account, you know that that's, that's the place where I've been the most in the past year or so, trying to grow my following online and on Instagram so that I can get a few, few higher, higher profile guests for the podcast with the, with the follow account that I had. And also to, I guess, just give myself a little bit of a break and try and figure out what I want to do with my life. So we have those autism videos and they're going to be short and they're going to be based on the Instagram posts that I do. It's not going to be word for word, of course, because that would be like a two minute video. And I don't know if I can handle uploading a two minute video other than the YouTube shorts. So we've got two of those videos, the actual autistic TikToks. We've got the autism content. And I'm also thinking of doing a Q&A, specifically a dating Q&A because I get a lot, a lot of messages, a lot of emails, a lot of comments asking me about specific situations. And the thing is with, you know, any, any type of stuff that you do online to an audience, it has to be somewhat generalized. And so not every piece of information that I give out is applicable to every single person. It's just how it goes. You can't make general statements without it not applying to some people. So we're going to do this, try out this Q&A and I'm going to release some videos this week, hopefully if I, if I can back up my words and we'll see how that goes. But yes, thank you. Thank you to anybody who stick, stick around through my long, I think three month wait between videos. It's absurd. I'm so sorry. And thank you to, to anyone else who's joined in and, you know, join the channel and saw these cool videos that then came to my page and went, oh, where's the videos at? Well, you'll be looking forward to them soon. And yeah, if you've got any questions that you want me to answer in the next dating Q&A, then stick them down here as well. There's going to be a lot of comments on this video for different things. Anyway, I will stop rambling. Thank you very much for tuning in just, just even though it's just a little update about myself and kind of stuff that I'm doing, but I just wanted to put this out there just for any of you who are wondering and also any of you who are kind of a little bit more interested in, in my plans for the channel. Take care, stay well, get showered, drink some water for God's sake, you dehydrated, dehydrated. My God, you're turning American. Not to say there's anything wrong with it. It's just not me. I'm a Yorkshire lad. I do what I can on a bloody well, do what I want. I like what I want. And I like what a bloody well want. It's not the right one, is it? 10, 10, 10. The 10 isn't in the 10. Yorkshire 101. Right, I'm sorry. Just, um, I see, I'll see you in the next video. Okay. Just having a mini breakdown here.