 So here we are. It always feels like such a mess, history, disintegrating, and then the prevailing culture reintegrates it, and reintegrates it, and reintegrates it faster, easier, and I think a little weirder every day. Well, at least it's dark and quiet, quiet enough. I guess everything makes noise as if to distract you from up. Here comes the Hoover. May you find what you are looking for one day? In the book. Not in the book. The book. I wrote stuff down though, so I could tell you who was in the room. Look at me writing stuff down in my book to remember who's in the room. Yeah, well, that's the strange truth. My book was my mirror of life for myself. No need to share it with anyone, except you. I wish I still had. I wouldn't have to be talking out of my... They care. Oh yes, I recall that they cared about the book, about who's in the book, who's out of the book. About cashier, cultural cashier, yes, really. The only thing left was any value, cultural value. What is that buzzer? We just couldn't believe it had come to this, to this sort of thing, to all this, but it has. It has, Blanche. It has come to this, to this sort of thing. Why? There was going to be understanding. Because she's been nominated for the Beatification process, and we need one documented witness. No. Two... Very seriously. Would you please favor us? With my two crazy eyes. She's getting along in years now. Asked if I'd deliver it. So I put on my best suit. I headed up to 20 East River, the office of the Pope in America. It was on the 7th floor. This session is the letter I just took there. I mean, I'm Jewish. She accepted it, thanked me. They kind of looked up and down, wondering why it works in New York River, down in New York City water systems. Oh, it's forever. Used to be the house of Dee, and that's Dee for detention. Dee for demented. Used to be able to walk by and see all the ladies hanging out at the bars. Calling down the new girlfriends on the street. Often be working in the morning. Condos before. My father's haunted by the ghosts of me. It's a tough situation inside. And my grandma Judith said, Dorothy Day. When Dorothy would go and volunteer her time there for the inmates. See if they needed anything from the families. See if they needed to relay any information. Or if they were being treated fairly. And isn't that how we looked in towards the state? And she starts jabbling about the law and nations. And before you can get two words in edgewise. Penny Arcade. The great, great performance artist Penny Arcade. She turns to it and she has to step back. Because she's standing so close to him in that tiny little room of Jerusalem. And she thrusts her bosom up against Moses. And with her finger up in the space she says, Moses, you'd power hungry. Insogenous, total nationalist loser. You weren't lost in the desert for 30 years. Now for 30 years you just didn't want to be found. Because for 30 years you got to be in charge. And Judith from her bed. 40 years. You just kept being in charge. 40 years in the desert. And we're all in the desert. They come to us to learn more about this point of view. We're getting a change from the bottom up. We're offending for ourselves. For our children. For our families. Computing. For resources. Co-authors to this office. A part of the address point of view. A part of the address point of view. To find the only address. You're the only address. If you're serious, how do you feel? We don't meet for the door. We say go without fail. We say we'll get a welfare check. You sit down, feeding. You lift yourself to us as food. You're sitting down. I was sitting down following the wind and the eagle. As far as you can see, it's placed in your rhythm. You're sitting down. You can see the sweet. The best of two mother and daughter. The disorderly. The moving floor. It's beginning to work from the bottom up. I think it must top down. Everybody goes to the state. One day. The state is supposed to be functioning this way. It's ever seen to. It will be because. It's just that one witness in your home. You are smaller bodies. You're in unions, credit unions, cooperatives. Because. You're aid and working together. To believe. Ideas. That later become. I think that. This is really. It's in itself. We have grown so tremendously. A kind. Scientific to say that. They can get into a way to the fact that they have. Is it just. Me. You. You. You. Faster. You. You. You. You. You. You. You. and stop their song. And the children grew somber for the turn of season. We left the park in quiet procession, down to the water's edge. Two was of the dead, the rest of the day. This year, where the children of today be together to be family somewhere to live. This work includes co-commissioning organizations. The fourth fund is supported by NTV at www.livestream.com. I'm sure you got all that. City of New Orleans. The New Orleans Jazz and Heritage Foundation. And the New Orleans Musicians Assistance Foundation. Thank you so much to our production team. Civic. Warning, there is also a strobe light that is used during oases by NY2 dance. So be aware of that, please. For NPN After Dark, we've got production. Please censor for more information. Take a look at your guidebook app or inside your program. Suggestive donation is five bucks, no change. $5, no change. Thank you, guys. It's been over 10 years, so I cannot think of the name of that restaurant. The restaurant that we were walking out of, when we were detained by the US Border Patrol. I remember the name of the street and I remember how I was feeling. I remember how the street felt. Tense, cop car, US Border Patrol car, meagra, meagra, cops. It was like Pac-Man. It was like Pac-Man as the meagra passed, the meagra of the US Border Patrol, before they got that smug ass name, US Homeland Security. Now, I remember it was downtown El Paso, blocks from the border, closer to the Rio Grande River than we are to the Mississippi. But it reminded me of what LA felt like. It was 2001, the Saturday after that, September 11th. But it reminded me of the Rodney King riots. See, because I remember the of the helicopters. I remember the name of the street. I remember how we were feeling stuffed, more stuffed than buzzed, but both. See, my friend, let's call him Aaron, because that's his name, had come to visit me and there was a joy to that. And I remember how I was feeling. I was feeling more happy than sad. I was feeling both. You can see Aaron, who had been my friend for a decade, and by this point had been like family, in a large part because his mother took me in. Took me into a suburban home that still had the traces of Africa. I remember faded photographs or fading photographs of zombie in skies with tractors that were not, they weren't John here green. And prints of museum exhibits and art books. And art books. It was a nest, but it was the world. And see, Aaron had come to visit me in El Paso. And see, before those crashes, people would just say it. And Paso Pilates, as if it were one word. But complications meant we stayed in downtown El Paso. And there was a sadness because you know, Pilates is the gateway to the world. There's Cuban cigars and Jamaican rum. It's the entry. So I was, I was sad. And I remember Aaron was skinny. He's the first motherfucker to move your arms and move weight. I too was fat. See, every Mexican, you don't need to be a Mexican anorexic to know that flout of Diaz will make it fat. I didn't get the memo. I remember because one of the agents was skinny and the other was fat. One was tall. Now see, Aaron is skinny. And his father African is mother, white American. Café con leche complexion and corkscrew curls. I, Mexican, I mean born in the U.S., I'm on the border of this side. But Mexican. See, but he and I together in the world of face scapes and hair scapes, we're Arabs. Ever, ever didn't ever mean a thing. Wow, mishaps at the gas station. But this night, I knew it felt different. I knew it felt different. The skinny agent, he had this line, the uniform green, unencumbered uniform line running all the way down his body completely out of the picture. And the fat one, it was like the polyester was this girl pushing in his stomach and making his back feel relaxed. I remember, I was fat. And I remember before they asked a question, I took out my ID. Hi, my name is Antonio Garza. I was born in west of Texas, U.S. citizen. Where were you born? Nusaka Zambia, Nusaka Zambia. On that day, it might as well have been how to stand because that night was different. You have to understand something. If you grew up on the border, you know. If you don't have your green card, you say my dog ate my green card, you say something. There's a difference between Aaron and I. See, I was born on the Texas-Mexico border. And before you reach adolescence or before adolescence hit you hard, you learn one thing that these agents, border patrol agents, custom agents, they have a right to seize and search in ways that are different from your garden variety police. They have a right to search. They have a right to strip search. They have a right to ask you to open up your butt cheeks and peer in. Before we distributed the fund, we were scared. Aaron, who grew up largely in Houston, in the suburbs of Houston. And I think that when your father makes twice what any law enforcement officer makes, you feel that on some level, a policeman is inches away from a rental car. Why are you being so antagonistic? It's antagonistic. Yeah. No, no, no. See, at this moment I had one goal in my entire life and that was to correct the English of a U.S. border patrol agent who was Anglo. I didn't know this was my dream, but there it was. Aaron took it. Hey, then he took this. So I don't understand the subtleties of white guilt jujitsu, but I saw it. I saw it for the first time this night. You wouldn't have stopped us if we were white. He kept talking, but he was off kilter. See, because if a black man tells a white U.S. border patrol agent, you stopped me because I was black, it gives you a moment for pause. But I realized that that moment that I stepped in some round versus border of education shit because I was feeling very separate and very unequal. What was I supposed to tell him? You wouldn't have stopped us if we weren't Mexican. That is his job. With attention and benefits to stop Mexicans. And at that moment, I'm not saying I felt ashamed. I didn't feel ashamed. I felt a little bit tired because, see, how is it that he's been here a week and felt comfortable and more comfortable in the streets that I started to call home? I was tired of asking for permission because you see, if you live in El Paso, you can't go anywhere without asking for permission. And we don't think about this, but why not? No, you can. You can go south into Mexico. They don't ask questions. But if you want to come back to your house, you have to ask. If you want to go to what we call up north and y'all call regular the US, we have to ask. There are people who have spent decades, decades in El Paso without having left. Because of this, I was raised to think that I was free. All I had to do was ask. I wasn't ashamed. I was tired. I don't understand all this attitude. This is the freest country in the world. The freest country in the world? This is the most police city. We're just trying to do our jobs. Trying to do your jobs? What, like the lady from McDonald's trying to do her job? Or like the Nazi doctors are trying to do their job? I did, I said it, Nazi doctors, just like that. The Taliban's trying to do their jobs? I said that too. And when I said it, you see? Hi, and maybe on some level, every single Mexican-American feels like we're the understudies to blacks. You know that if the Black Civil Rights Movement were to catch a cold on opening day, we'd be there. We would be there saying, you are wrong for that. You're wrong for all of this. And there I was, on stage, and I forgot my lines. I stumbled and I stuttered, my father stutters. I improvised bad, and I know that I fucked it all up with that one word. So the next time, why would you not? Or at least, no. Come on, no, no, what do you want to- Please don't go over there. Yeah. It is easy to do that. You know, you can just see the difference, right? Yes, you know. Is there any slur on the area? No. I don't know. I know. Of course it's okay. I mean, it's okay. It's okay. So, I think about coming up with a recipe. Yeah, exactly, so that's how my main word is. So, it's okay, I'm pretty sure the way I do, You just make it happen. 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