 go check and see if yesterday's mail ever came anyway. I don't know about you all but the longer this thing drags out and other regular life things happen in the meantime. Harder and harder my anxiety gets to deal with at times. Walking helps, art helps, talking to trusted friends helps, support of family helps. But I'm not going to lie, it's difficult. I can't get the key out. I can't deal with people who aren't supportive in my life. I have absolutely no patience for that. And I have to be very mindful to stay busy and not dwell and take care of myself. Yeah, so if you're feeling like similarly like minded, you're not alone. It's happening to all of us. Even some people I know who've never really had to deal with much anxiety or depression, we're all feeling it. So anyway, the more other things happen, which normally happen in life on top of everything else, the worse it is. So yeah, anyway, everything's okay this morning. But I didn't get any drawing done yesterday because there was just too much other stuff going on. I think I'm going to catch up on all of that today. And mail did finally come here. Okay, I don't think I'm going to edit the vlog. I think I'll do it tomorrow. But I think we're going to stay home, maybe probably go for a walk. Yeah, just like be relaxed, be quiet. Yeah, all of those things. All right, I'll be back. This is for you, my real estate agent daughter. And these are the kind of properties if Bob and I are ever going to move again. We like these, they're on a little bit of a property. I think they're mostly like a quarter acre or half acre. A lot of them are fixers. They're like old mid-century moderns or 1970s houses, but the property is so cool. A lot of them have a view of, is that Mount Hood? Mount Hood Street Hood. Mount Hood, which is on the other side of the camera that way. Yeah, we really like this. Love it. So if you find one of these for us, Becca, let us know. One of the reasons we like walking up here in this hilly part of our neighborhood to get that view of what I believe is Mount Hood, isn't that pretty? It is Monday, morning, January 23rd, I think. Sorry, 24th, the 23rd of a Sunday. Losing days already again, and it's only January. Anyway, things are going okay this morning. I did all the posts and all the Facebook groups, and that's all then that rain keeps going off because the roofing guys are here. They've been doing some roof treatments for us in maintenance. I couldn't do it all in one day because it was raining before and some of it had to be done when the roof was dry, anyway. They're doing that this morning. I'm doing some laundry this morning. I'm going to edit the vlog this morning and get that scheduled. I'm also going to be reinstalling an hour of no electronics time. I know that's shocking. I think it'll help my stress level and anxiety levels and all of that stuff. I'm still on the hunt for new clothing because all my clothes are too big. I'm keeping this shirt, but yeah, it's huge. I placed another order today for something else that I need, and all of it's coming in tomorrow to Thursday, I think. We'll see which things work, which things don't, which things might need to be returned. I think most of it's going to be okay. I did order two pair of pants from Target in two different sizes because I'm not sure which one's going to fit. We'll find out. Anyway, it's going to just be, I think, a quiet Monday at home. I might go for a walk. I don't know before lunch or after lunch. I don't know which probably after lunch. We'll see. We'll get that done. I might go for one by myself and then go for another one with Bob when he gets off of work, just because quiet time. I'm also probably going to be doing like an hour of reading a day or it could be art or something again without the electronics. It doesn't mean I won't have the phone with me, but I won't be actively turning it on. I won't be doing this. It will just be quiet and with me in case of an emergency. If it rings, I'll answer it, that sort of thing. Anyway, I wrote about it in a Life of Art and Self expression today. It's just about 12.30. We're going to spend an hour a day without this on, without the computer, away from the computer, the tablets, all the electronics. I'm going to go for a walk today for at least a half an hour. And whatever time is left over from my walking, I'll spend reading at home or sketching or something again with no electronics on. When you have anxiety disorder, among other things, it is a good practice and therapy to step away from the devices because they don't make, they don't help, they make it worse. Anyway, so we're going to go do that. We're going to, I'm going to see what I can see. I'm going to get some fresh air. I'm going to go walking and I'm not going to take you with me. I'm sorry. But we're going to go walking again later with the husband. I may take you with me then, but I need some peace of quiet for a few minutes. So I'm going to go do that. I'll be back. I took a total of about an hour plus probably a little bit without devices today. In chunks of time here and there, I didn't get a whole hour straight, but I got about 40 to 45 minutes walking. And then I got at least another 30 minutes reading. And I'm reading this one right now. I've had it for a little bit. I haven't read it yet. It is about dealing with anxiety disorder. I probably should have read it before now because I'm only a couple chapters in and I'm already going, aha. I don't know if that's good or bad, hopefully good. But yeah, if you have anxiety disorder, you might want to check this out from your library. It is just before 9.30 a.m. on Tuesday, January 25th, I think. I think it's the 25th. Yes, Tuesday. Anyway, I've got all my morning stuff done. I need to put the coffee cups in the dishwasher. I've done all the social media stuff and I want to do some stitching today. I need to put a clear coat on these and sign the backs, not necessarily in that order. I also need to, of course, make time to read or do my one hour of no electronics today, either all at once or in a couple of spurts. Tomorrow I have physical therapy. After that, appointment in the morning with my, sorry, the day after that and appointment with my new GP on the day after that, another physical therapy appointment. So it's bam, bam, bam. Guys, we are getting ready to go out for an evening walk. I spent quite a bit of time today away from the electronics, reading and doing other things, including I made two more gnomes and I have three more cut out. I do want to set up a Patreon and supporter or art friend live situation and make gnomes live with them. So if you want to be part of that, you should go join my Patreon. Anyway, the two that I made, I made this little guy and these are the felt noses that came in from the Etsy seller that I got. I really loved the size and the colors were perfect. Of course, I have the wooden beads for a smaller nose and I got another felt ball from Amazon that's slightly smaller, supposed to be the same size, but it's not. It's a little bit smaller, but it was a variety pack of colors. So at some point, maybe I'll make gnomes with blue noses. I don't know. We'll see. But the other one I made today is so cute. I think he might be my favorite. Are you ready? I just love him. So anyway, I am doing good mentally, physically. Got physical therapy tomorrow. Then I've got to go. I've been ordering new clothes because, of course, everything is too big and I have to order two pair of pants from Target and the smaller one fits. It's actually still a little bit big. I probably could go a size smaller, but I don't want to. I haven't worn pants, pants, something other than stretchy pants in a long time. I'd rather have them be a little bit baggy, plus I'm going to wash them in hot water. So anyway, I'm going to return the bigger ones tomorrow after therapy. And yeah, then I don't know what else to get up to. Check the PO box. I've got to do that. And I need to pick up some more priority mailboxes because I want to do some purge boxes for sale in the Etsy shop. You'll see it here. All right, we're going to go get some steps in. We'll be back. Good morning, everybody. I'm going to speak up a little bit because until I review the audio, I'm not sure you're going to be able to hear me over the car's heating system. It is Wednesday morning, June 27th, I think, June 26th, Wednesday morning, just before 8 a.m. Oh, just 8 a.m. just now. My car said 34 degrees outside, although it was blinking like this when I first turned the car on. So again, we've talked about how I don't think the onboard thermometers completely accurate all the time when you want this old car. It is icy, so I'm sitting here for a minute. I'm going to let that defroster do its job a little bit. It is icy outside. So I'm going to be careful. I need to go to physical therapy today a little bit, like today. Yeah, I can hear it. Anyway, we're going to go to physical therapy. I've got to go return something out here too big for me at Target and try to find something that my dad needs and pick that up for him before he gets back from my brothers and all of that stuff. It is still Wednesday. It is 5.15 p.m. I'll be off in a little bit, and then later in the library I'll go walking. I'm having a bad time right now with my anxiety, just FYI. I know I've briefly mentioned it. I haven't dealt into it too deeply. There isn't any one thing that set me off. It's just, I think, an accumulation of a whole bunch of stuff. Worries about health situations, worries about my dad. I think it's just a lot of things, and I'm doing what I can, but there's a lack of content on my channel right now. Now you know why. Yeah, I know you all feel me. Anyway, I'm going to continue to read the book I've been reading. I'm actually going to go check the mail right now because I did do that earlier and it wasn't here. I have another medical appointment tomorrow with a new GP, I think, and I think everything's okay, but I mean, you know, it's a yearly checkup, but I gotta point out all the aches and pains and things, and that's always fun, right? Anyway, we'll go see if the mail's here. No mail yet, but you know, it's COVID, and so, some days we don't get the mail. That's actually a thing that's happened a couple of times, even though mail's supposed to come, so I don't know. I'll check later. I'll be headed over to the library. We're going to try to make it a weekly or bi-weekly thing. We do love books. We love the library. Fun fact, Bob likes to rent movies and music. I love to, well, we both love to read, so we're going to make that a thing. Yeah, we're going to make that a thing. They also have the library section where they, like he was just saying, they sell magazines. They always seem to have a lot of car magazines, which he loves. Anyway, I did want to say about my earlier clip, not doing a lot of art in a day or any art in a day doesn't mean I didn't get anything done. That's me feeding the monkey mind. Taking care of myself is getting something done. That's important. My physical self, my mental self, and Bob doing the same. It's important for both of you, or any of you. You, your partner, your kids, like that's just as important as getting all the list of chores done. Yeah, so I will do some drawing later. We are going to do like at least puzzle of the day on our work brain game, but, you know, taking care of yourself and your mental health and doing what you need to to make sure that's okay. It's just as important as the artwork in your journal. Remember that. I'll be back. Thursday morning, January 27th, I think, 30 a.m. I have another doctor's appointment. January is usually my month. Her doctor's appointments and tests once a year and all of that stuff. And as I get older, there's more of them. And as my anxiety like ramps up, there's that doesn't help. And you know, every little acre pain is like, yeah. Anyway, if you haven't read Don't Feed the Monkey Mind, and you have anxiety disorder issues, I definitely would recommend it. It does explain so much about why I am the way I am. And I'm not alone, evidently. Anyway, I'm going to go in and get my appointment over with my old GP retired. So I have an appointment with a new one. And yeah. So we will get that over with. And then I've got to go check the PO box and stuff like that. And so hopefully I'm in a good headspace later and I can do some look upstairs. But we'll see. I'll be back. Okay guys, so everything's all good. Well, physically speaking, it is time for me to deal with my anxiety in other ways other than what I've been doing, not that that hasn't been working up until now, but it has. And I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing. But I need to probably get some medication and I need to see a mental health professional. And there is no shame in either one of those. So we're working on that at the moment. And that's what the takeaway is from today's visit. I am going to go check the PO box now and then go home. I still haven't had breakfast. I've had my coffee but not my breakfast. So I'm going to go home and do that. And they took some labs, of course they took labs and not anticipating anything to come back weird. So all right. Maybe we can get some hard work done today. That would be nice. All right, I'll be back. I saw her out here looking for breakfast. So gave her some food. You know, she's hungry. So why not? All right, back to watching some YouTube and then getting smart. I think it is Friday morning, January 28th. It's 8 14 a.m. in 2.1 and I'm headed over to my last visit for physical therapy for my knee at the moment. I didn't really want to miss my last appointment. I'm feeling okay this morning. This is my first day of taking my new medications and I took them last night before bed. I got some sleep, which is amazing because I've gotten six hours straight or more of sleep and I can't remember when, but I did. I went to bed at 10 30 and read for like five minutes and then went to sleep and woke up at 6 30. Amazing. All right. I did manage to do a few things this afternoon. So I did clean and straighten the journals in progress and ephemera that's on the desk. I know it still looks really full. It is, but I got rid of some junk and things that were in there and I also reorganized the stuff I wanted to keep on there. I also took some of that stuff off the table and refilled my downstairs during daily drawing bag, which did need refilling. And I replaced a couple of storage things in that bag where all the little pieces of paper are. Checked on the emails and the social media, waiting on a few calls back, all of those things for the things because of the things, right? Feeling okay. You know, the anxiety is still an issue. It's going to always be an issue, but yeah, we're working it out, right? All right. I think that's it for the minute. I need to go to start some laundry. Yeah, I'm going to go start some laundry and maybe read because I think that's where my brain needs to be right now. It is Saturday morning, January 27th. All right. I'm only two days behind. That's all right. That's not a medic. In three points. Anyway, day two of the new medications. I feel a lot calmer, which I think is the point of the medication. I'm used to taking said medication in that I don't feel super dizzy or anything, but I feel a little off, a little woozy. And that's, I saw that. And that's me, just my body adjusting to the medication. But so far, so good. I have to go back in a few weeks and revisit the doctor and probably do more blood work and let them know how I'm feeling and all that. And I've got my first counseling appointment next week. So it's all good. All right. We're going to go run some errands. We have to grocery shop for all three households today, ours and both the kids. So we're going to go get that done and hopefully get done and back shortly after lunch because I know Mr. wants to work on his pericuda. So yeah, I want to make sure he has time to do that today. So anyway, all right, I'll be back. Been back for a long while. It is 443 p.m. Bob is finally out working on the pericuda and doing some things on the car that he wanted problem. We got the dishes. I got the dishes done. I got the plants watered. Got a couple forms filled out and sent back to the counselor. I'm going to be seeing next week that I think they need filled out. We also hit a garage sale with the daughter spur of the moment. And I found three interesting books. Monet, late paintings of Giverny from the music. I can't say that in French, it's in French. But anyway, I found this book on Monet, the life and times of Leonardo da Vinci and the life and times of Michelangelo. So three more books to look at and read. I am not mad about it. I said I was feeling good today. Much calmer today, which is a good thing. I've got a few more things to put away. I'm going to sit and do some drawing. We've already done our word puzzles and stuff like that. So I'm going to just sit and do a relax, do a little drawing, something besides the normal daily doodle, I think. And yeah, it's going to be good. All right, I'll be back. It is Sunday, January 30th, 10.06 a.m. I forgot to close the vlog last night. Oops. So anyway, I am not afraid to discuss my health and mental health issues with you all. That being said, of course, I'm going to keep some of the details private, but I'm going to share enough with you all to let you all one, know what's going on and two, encourage you all that if you're struggling that there's no shame in getting help. Things are tough right now between the pandemic and just regular life things. And like, it's hard for a lot of people. And there's no shame in getting help if you need it. So reach out to friends, to family, to doctors, to professionals, do what you need to to get help. Art, reading, walking, my friends and family, my support system do work. But when that wasn't enough, I knew it was time to go get more help. And hopefully you can recognize the same if you need it. Anyway, take care of yourself, be safe, be healthy, be creative. Don't forget to go out and do something nice for yourself, because you do deserve it. And I'll see you next week. Bye, guys.