 Go into something real, real deep, because last night we started to get into hypothetical thinking and this whole world is hypothetical thinking. In fact, what I would say is that this whole cosmos is over and gone and that the step towards that would be to say that it's all simultaneous. It's simultaneously over. It happened in one instance and it was corrected simultaneously by the Holy Spirit, by the Spirit within and so effectively that this entire world is passed, simultaneously passed. It's like it's not like a big long timeline, it's really spread out over millennium. That's the illusion of the hallucination. Along with hypothetical thinking, which is, we were, we were at Iris who was talking about you know, what if somebody comes in and attacks you or wants to stab Evelyn and how could it be practical and this and that and so we started just to touch the subject yesterday of hypothetical thinking but I would say another word for that because that can, everything's potential potential but it's nothing's actual and another way to look at that I would call it situational thinking that we were just talking about how you behave with certain situations or how you react that situational thinking is the problem, that the ego is entirely situational and so what happens is it takes what is already over and done was already just one thing which is the past and it springs it out on a timeline and then it breaks it into little time segments which we could call situations you know, some people may say that this is a little gathering situation even though gatherings are really continuous just like the mind is continuous you know, your mind goes with you wherever you go but the mind, the ego mind tries to break it up into situations and I used to ponder, I would say when people would say this is the beginning or this is the end, the beginning or the end of the relationship and I would say, well how do you, how can you mark really the beginning of the end of the relationship or a song or a day or whatever these are the artificial increments of seconds and minutes and hours and days and weeks and months so situational thinking is the problem in fact in Course in Miracles, you know, he says in no situation in which you find yourself do you perceive your own best interest that's a, that's a radical statement in no situation, no meaning zero you mean to tell me I've never once, ever been in a situation and I knew my own best interest and this is what the Christ says right, that's what I'm saying here in no situation because situational thinking is the problem and as long as you see yourself fragmented into separate meaningless little persons human bodies that are in separate meaningless little disconnected situations he says that is madness, that is chaos, that is distortion and what you take to be human life just basic situational thinking A B C D E F G no, that's not possible so the next thing is, okay how do I get out of this and what I would say is the practical advice in the Course is the rules for decision section where he says here, if your mind is untrained so I'm going to give you some real basic steps this isn't going to be real theoretical, this is going to be highly practical decide kind of day you want that's the torch because you're asking me how do I get this environment and this torch reconcile decide the kind of day you want not specifically, you know, not how I want to meet with these people I want this to happen, I want to get that raised and I want to make sure I make the train on time but experientially I want a joyful day, I want a happy day I want a peaceful day, I want a loving day I want to be totally free all day decide the kind of day you want and then say to yourself, if I make no decisions by myself this is the day that will be given in other words, by myself meaning if I make no decisions apart from my higher self from the Spirit, from the Holy Spirit whatever you want to call it that's exactly the day that I'll get and it's guaranteed if I'm staying my intuition 100% it doesn't matter what it looks like I will be happy because that's the torch so what I'm saying is the torch is completely uninfluenced by the environment in fact Jesus goes on to say in that section that this also means that you cannot judge what anything means in any situation and that takes a lot of willingness because if your self-concept is tied into being at best by and having this particular position and your job is tied into making judgments or fashion design if you have to make judgments in terms of evaluating how models look, how clothing looks and this and that most every profession you could imagine other than maybe the savior of the world which you are which you are the savior of the world but if you have any other profession other than that and you see how it fits with family relationships like here with my sponsor I'm really feeling more of my savior's shift coming through here really feeling free and authentic I can just let it rip without worrying about consequences but with my father or with my sister or so on and so forth that that's again going to be filtered through that lens of personality I'm Ivan I'm a son or a brother you know so on and so forth and that little personality again is weak and frail you don't want to rock the boat too much or there can seem to be a lot of heat that gets put on intensity that gets put on to that personality so the rest of the rules for decision are really just like if you get off the beam if you he says right away it's easier to just go through a day with the one-two punch the kind of day you want firmly in your mind and really willing to make no decisions by yourself and what I would say is what will happen if you follow this simple one-two is that the self-concept that you believe you are will dissolve away very quickly because of course you are much more than Ivan the worker or Ivan the 12-step participant or Ivan the brother or so forth the son those are constructs and personality things that have been built that the mind believes that it really is but if you start getting into this higher purpose those things will start washing and dissolving away and you will be given other concepts by the Holy Spirit nothing will get yanked away but let's say you're a course student and you think of yourself as like a teacher of God or a minister of God or a messenger of peace or however it fits in your mind that's going to be more expansive you're going to feel much more fluid and much more happy it could even be belly dancing in the sense of from where you've come from you feel more free belly dancing and of course the doubt thoughts will come like you can't make a living with belly dancing you better not give up your day job you're like I want to get going with this this is where my passion and my joy is you know that's the way the Spirit guides you and more and more miracles happen like grandmother paying off all the debts somebody signed over an apartment for you oh my gosh I've got a healing center going here yeah I like this and then you get into your joy then people start seeing your joy and they say I want to support that joy I want to contribute this I want to help out here can I help you in any way you're joyful I want to be like that I want to hang around that energy then the ball is rolling and the Holy Spirit is like expanding those self-concepts to more of what your true function is and your true function only is just a state of mind it's people like to always tie it down to how's this going to look and you know do I have to stand on street corners and give out horse and reckless pamphlets so you know where is this going but what the Course calls your special function is just how it seems to look but there's really no judgment placed on that you could be in your joy of belly dancing or in a pulpit or sitting under a tree somewhere you know there's nothing saying ritualistically is a formula that's going to have to look a certain way you'll just know by your joy that you're totally in your sense of being and that's really what it's all about that's what it's all about are you teaching statistics? yes teaching statistics I was a grocery store