 is that the other roles start to recede because you've got this commitment and you're holding your purpose out front. Then it's like you move from the trickle into the stream and there is kind of a flow. I mean for me the experience was like wow it seems like it's all orchestrated and we've all had glimmers of that in restaurants and here and there and grocery stores but then as the commitment grows then it's like you're being carried along on a stream and it seems like a pretty quick stream and then before you know it you find yourself in the river. Well by the time you're in the river the body does, is perceived as quite apart from you. I mean that's where the concern for it, all the plans and the preparations and the care for it and everything has so receded from the mind that the mind is so riveted on this purpose and everything and there's so much of a joy and a flow that then I think to me there has been that experiential shift of not identifying myself as not thinking of myself as his body so that for example when I was on or traveling towards Whidbey Island one time and standing there on the front of the deck kind of looking out over the water just real centered in the moment and this thing went blaring off and it didn't jump or anything and I know that that was a good witness to me of where my mind was. Things flying at you or sharp things going off or the temperature extremes or whatever that all just becomes just fading into the background because the body is not a focal point. It's more like a pencil.