 It sounds a lot like sociopathy, sociopathy. I don't even know if I can say it properly. It sounds a lot like you're a sociopath. And it's a lot, behaviors can be very linked together. And a lot of Aspies can be diagnosed wrongly as sociopaths and vice versa. And especially with narcissism as well, which is an inflated ego, which seems to be wrongly diagnosed with Asperges all too commonly. And these ways of interacting with people can be refined, and they can work, they do work, and they definitely work for me. I'm not saying that I manipulated anybody in any sort of sense. It's just I needed to understand things logically. And learning about those kind of things is very helpful in order to make up for the lack of inherent social skills that we lack in everyday situations. A good example would be the eye contact. So there's something that I read a very long time ago about the importance of the amount of eye contact that you have with someone that you're interested in. So that would be like 60% eye contact and then 40% looking away, 46% in, and then depending on the levels of intimacy you can scale it up and all those kind of things. This sounds a bit weird when talking to you about it, but it was very important to make up for those differences that I had and that we have. As we get older and going to about the age of 16, 17, 18, the differences between us and other people who are artistic are very, very in your face and apparent. Maybe not to other people, because there is a tendency in teaching autistic kids to learn body language and learn certain social skills that makers pass, which is basically passing the test of someone thinking that you are not autistic. And in general it does work and is one of the things that I'm pretty good at. I wouldn't say that it was a good thing when I was younger. I do think that we should celebrate our differences a lot more than we do, but obviously that has to be worked on in the long term. As well as the issues, we do start depending on how much we've thought about it and in how much research and cognitive thought we've put into it. We do start to understand emotions. I am starting to understand my emotions a lot more. I'm learning to attach certain events with emotions that I felt a lot of the time, events and emotions for us are very detached because events, logical piece of information, emotions, not logical, parts of our brain don't seem to make the connection. So a lot of the time when we're younger we just think we're feeling bad and all of this bad stuff is happening as well. But for some reason we can't make the link between them. Especially during our teenage years we even get to a point where we believe that the thought process that we have are flawed and that we've got a disease and a disability, which is hard to deny considering most people call it it is classified as a disability despite people's thoughts about it. We may even become at the mercy of our peers and their opinions and completely conform and not have a lot of self-esteem and a lot more shy than usual or we can go the opposite and think our thoughts are the only way of thinking and everyone else is silly and my thoughts are a lot more important than everybody else's. We still find it difficult to relate to things and it can make us feel alien a lot of times especially if we're in any down, down areas of our life and social talk can feel like we are some kind of sociopath to us and it can make us feel very uncomfortable in those kind of situations because sometimes it's hard to justify to yourself whether your reactions and your emotions and your interactions with other person is fake or real. It's very difficult to tell sometimes. We do learn all of it and all those facial expressions and contexts and stuff like that they get refined and we get better we truly do. Being autistic is almost like jumping into a Sims game and playing about having a character that is you where you can do and interact based on other things around you but it still feels like a Sims game and although you understand everything it doesn't make sense to you as your being so it can feel very alien and strange to us forever I guess. Some people try to give up feeling like an ex-people or being more like an alien during their life and going to sort of social isolation mode where they observe people around them and they confuse them. I like to think there's a better way and I feel that we are very highly related to each other very, very, very similar and that's the kind of things we need to be focusing on when we're talking about building bridges and getting people to interact and realise that they're not alone even though people might be more different and maybe a bit more different than everybody else and it doesn't mean that they're not human as well. Depending on the person they will reach a stage where they logically understand a lot of the world that they need to and they decide to kind of accept all the differences that we have and try and live with them. At our age the social training will start to finalise and we're beginning to reach the point of being able to talk to other people as well as they can with each other and then I guess that is the final passing I guess. Emotional sensitivity associated people is starting to become a lot more manageable it's still a lot more difficult but our mechanisms of solving those difficulties have improved a lot and their copingisms help us slot into society unnoticed by little autistic ninjas and some of the issues in our childhood are going to be a lot easier to accept move on with and solve as an adult and that's going to remove a lot of the issues that we may have collected going on into adulthood and also first of our autism. We become a lot better with the issue of change in people and emotions and just changing general events so we accept so we learn to accept and expect and change in everything and we're a lot more comfortable with it as well. Hatred of autism doesn't always diminish it always it always may exist if people don't really know about those ideas of neurodiversity but a lot of us change our minds and we learn about all these things and learn about the differences between ourselves and others and we learn that mental health is separate to autism and we can finally be comfortable with having the diagnosis of aspergys because we are aspergys we learn that everyone is different in their own way and whilst we can't relate to specific interpretations or ways of thinking the most important thing is to have positive and happy emotions with other human being by helping others to fully understand better ways finding a bridge between autistics and non neurodistics and non autistics by helping others to understand us better finding ways to bridge our ways of thinking we can make life for other autistics just a little better so I hope you enjoyed the video it took me a long time to write and although this is a specific example of an autistic it may not be indicative of every single autistic person although I think it is quite a good accurate representation of that but if I sit on myself it just may not resonate with everybody and that's okay if you have any more views or questions or whatever just remember to stick them in the comments because that's why I'm going to find them and that's why I'm going to answer them remember autistics are three times three times more likely to be bullied than a normal kid a lot more likely to develop mental health conditions specifically anxiety so like sassy we are also more likely to be isolated more likely to not have a job and a lot more likely to take their life this can be solved with the input for the aspies and aspies supporters in a society banding together to take on this issue and hopefully we'll be able to influence politics and the world and make living as an autistic in the future a lot better thank you all for listening I'll see you in the next video it must be so sad like I am so sad that it's over but don't worry there's going to be some more videos coming out for you guys so keep your ass peeled and hopefully there will be a little new video in the corner there depending on what time you're watching this or it might just be a random video from the past who knows make sure to ding that little bell make sure to subscribe I'll see you in the next video bye