 Hi, it's Bridget. Welcome to Above Life Channel. The purpose here is to inspire your spirit and to fill you with hope. Today's video, I'm going to be talking about and to. A little bit different than what I normally do. I'm going to be talking about and to this afterlife celebrity, Kurt Cobain. Now if you are hoping for some major breakthroughs and some conspiracy theories and some insight into the final moments of his life, you will not get that here. You won't get that here because the purpose of Above Life Channel is to give you hope, to inspire you, not to aggravate, stir up energy, not to make you feel depressed, give you anxiety. And so that's why I stay away from the intensity of conspiracy theories. Well, I try to, let's just be clear. We all know that some of the videos I've done with, oh, let's say Natalie Wood or John Kennedy Jr., I had no idea there were conspiracy theories around their deaths. Not really, anyway. I mean, maybe I, maybe somewhere in my brain, I maybe knew that, but that was not my intention. Whoo! Don't want to touch that stuff. But I am inspired, motivated to speak with Kurt from the afterlife because there's something really sweet about his connection, something genuine and something there is some heartbreak energy around his spirit. But I also think that he has some things to offer, especially for people who are dealing with things like depression, intense anxiety, paranoia, or other mental health disorders. I think this may be a light, a positive light for some of you, or if you have relatives, family, or loved ones that you know are dealing with some of these intense issues, intense emotional issues, intense mind issues. Just, I think that perhaps this video may be of comfort and perhaps give you some hope. So that's why I'm doing it. So Kurt Cobain, he's really kind, he's very nice, he's friendly, he's quiet. He kind of looks like he could be my brother, to be honest. Because of the way he looks, like we look like we could be related. And back in the day in college when Nirvana was like a big thing. I actually had a high school boyfriend, or I'm sorry, a college boyfriend. Let's be clear. College, back in the day when I was in college, Nirvana was really cool. And my college boyfriend used to tease me and said that you were my buddy, Kurt, that you were my buddy, that I had some kind of a draw to you. And I gotta be honest, I'm not like attracted to you or anything. Like it wasn't like a crush or anything like that. But it was, there was something about you and I think it was this quiet depths of your soul that I felt. And not just through the music, even if you're a music fan. If you are a music fan of Nirvana, type the title of the music, the song or the album that you love the most. And if you have multiple ones, you can put multiple ones, but try to keep it to a minimum place because there's like other people that need to put that in the feed. Don't put links though. If you guys put links, YouTube catches it and takes it off. It thinks you're spamming me, so don't do that. But put the title of the songs or the album that really you just, you really connect with. And if you want, you can write why you can do that. All right, so I had some kind of a connection to you and I have had a lot of requests to chat with you, Kurt, in the afterlife. And I honestly, I didn't realize, like I can't, I don't remember. It's been like 20 some years since I've been back in college, 25, something like that. I don't want to date myself too much, but it's been a long time. So I didn't remember that there was a huge controversy around your death. And so when people kept requesting that I channel you, I didn't realize that there were like ulterior motives going on there about, oh, you know, break the mystery about his death. So first thing I'm going to ask you, is there anything in particular that you would like us to know or share surrounding your death in particular? He's smoking a cigarette. He leans forward and kind of puts it out. It looks actually like marijuana, to be honest with you. It looks a little different unless it's a cigarette that's hand rolled. I'm thinking it might be marijuana actually. He leans forward and kind of pushes it out. He says it's legal in Washington now, you know? He says to me, it's legal in Washington. He says that because it's not where I live. This was so funny. Yeah, he's being polite. And he says, nope, nope. People let people think what they want to think. He says people are going to think what they want to think anyway. He says, so let them let them think what they want to. All right, so thank you. I appreciate that too. And we connected beforehand before the channel. So I knew that you would probably not say much about it. Otherwise, I don't know if... I mean, maybe I would channel you, but I don't know if I would share it because I don't want to like stir the pot, you know? He says, yeah, he's like, there's a lot of mind games with that. Isn't there a lot of mind stuff? He's not super, super chatty, you guys. So I know that I could feeling beyond the layer of the energy that's around you right now, Kurt, that I can feel. When we speak of time of death, I feel the energy of around you at the time of transition or before, you know, the last days or weeks of your life. I can feel that energy there. And I feel like there's a lot of... Depression isn't quite the right word, but there's a lot of darkness. And it feels like a lot of withdrawal and detachment and a lot of kind of like wanting to fall into a hole, you know, just to get lost and not be here. And so I guess I would ask you, did you want to die? Did you actually... I mean, you were so young, you know? And your crew was just kind of just taking off and really doing great, you know, had a few good pieces of momentum around that and with the band and everything. And it seems like you were kind of at this good spot, you know, from a musical standpoint. He says, yeah, he says, ironic, isn't it? So you want to talk? You want me to talk about my mood? Or what are you asking me about? I'm asking about, you know, he says, you want to ask if I was suicidal? He says, who's not? Who isn't? He says, who isn't? There's a lot of pressures and things. And I think that people could maybe make that assumption that I maybe couldn't handle my fame, you know? And he says, you know, in a way, you know, I'm not going to call them liars. He says, I'm not going to call them liars. But there's definitely a state that I would enter into when I was creating, you know, making music and beyond imagination. And it does get pretty dark there. There is a lot of depth, as you said. There's a lot of depth there. But so did you want to die? Like that's the question. And he kind of says, like, who doesn't, you know? If you're asking me if I was suicidal, he says, I suppose, probably. But I wasn't really aware of that. Like, I didn't think about it. I didn't think, oh, I want to kill myself. I didn't think about that. No, I didn't really think about that. And if I did, it was kind of a passing thing. It wasn't really a, I'm going to do this kind of a thing. But that's not to say I wouldn't have been surprised if that happened, though. That's the thing, you see. It's like that outcome, you know. So did I will my death? Yeah, you know, I suppose on the way I did, I created an out or an outlet, depends on how you look at it. For not being here anymore. I do feel like, Kurt, and I spoke with you about this just previous to channeling, is that it feels like there was a lot of... So how I would describe for the viewers and you can correct me if I'm off on this, but energetically, it feels like you felt like you just wanted to be in a band, play in the music, live in life. You didn't need the big lights and the big stages and the big... It doesn't feel like it was really your dream. Like you didn't really necessarily expect that to happen. You just wanted to make music. And I could see you as a writer, a songwriter, writing a lot of music and seeing you write for other bands. I could see that. That could have been your trajectory, you know. And I feel like you just wanted out. Like you didn't want to be there. You didn't want to be part of the main event. You didn't want all that fame and notoriety, but I don't think you were scared of it. I think it was unexpected to you. I don't think you set out to do music to be famous. Is that accurate? He says, pretty much. Pretty much. He says, yes. Did I like being famous? Did I like the stuff that comes with it? You know, it's pretty nice, some of it. It's pretty good, but you got to be careful. That can really corrupt you. You know, there's a lot of corruption and greed. And I didn't see myself really in that scene. Did I benefit? Yes. He says, yeah. Yeah, I benefited, but I also, he's trying to, he's almost saying he's possessed by it. He's possessed by the greed and the momentum and the corruption around him. He doesn't feel like he was the driver of it. He feels like he was the puppet of it, like he was controlled by it. And I feel like there's a feeling of energy of feeling. He feels like he's manipulated by his own emotions. He's being manipulated and controlled by the desire, the need to escape his emotions and the way he's feeling about things and how incredibly awful. It almost feels like he's having panic attacks, having to go on stage or having to go on tour. And he doesn't feel like he fits or he belongs. And it's not because he doesn't think he's good enough. You guys, that's not why. He's showing me, I just, it's not my scene, like it. You kind of get caught up in this and pretty soon it becomes bigger, larger than life. And then it swallows you whole. And he says, pretty soon you owe this person. You owe that person. Everybody owns a piece of you. And then where's your soul? You sold it. It's gone. He says, it's gone. There's nothing left there to save. There's nothing left there to save. So Kurt, I did feel a lot of what I would describe as like paranoia around you. And I don't know if that's caused by drug abuse because I know you used heroin. And you're showing me that you smoked pot, obviously. But I can't tell the difference. I can't tell the difference. So is a paranoia because of the need for the addiction or is it you're trying to numb something else? He says both. He says both. Both are true. He says the numbing is like, I just wanted to fall. Like I kept feeling like I was falling. And I just wanted to get to a place where I could just, where everything was just quiet. You know, where there was no more noise, no more extra stuff. I just wanted everything to stop and everything just to be quiet. Just quiet. That's all I wanted was quiet. And he says there were days when he just lost, like no time, like when, didn't know how many days had passed, didn't know what day it was, what time of day it was. And he'd lost time in those days that wasn't, he says, you know, it should be unsettling, right? It should like freak you out when you wake up and you're like, whoa, what time is it? And you don't know where you've been or who's been around you or what's been going on. And you don't even care. Like there's no, it's like, oh, okay. So you kind of wasted that time in a good way. Like you don't have to think about things. You don't have to be responsible for other people. You don't have to show up at stuff. You know, you can just kind of disappear. And I think that that's what I was trying to do. That's what I wanted. He's like, I didn't want to be Kurt Cobain Nirvana anymore. I didn't want that. Didn't want it, you know, it's, but it's not because of, it's not like I was scared of fame. He says it's not like I had stage fright or anything, but he shows me this, like his heart, like just wanting to rip out of his chest, like panic attacks going on stage and stuff, not because he's afraid of the music or himself, but the crowds, the intensity of the crowds, he feels super, super sensitive. And there's almost like this paranoia, like everybody's like wants a pieces of him. Like they're going to kill him or something. That's how it feels like. And he keeps, he tells me that he feels like people are going to kill him, you know, like everybody wants something from him and they're just going to take until he describes it kind of as vampires, like, you know, like ripping at his flesh. I know that's super graphic and gross, but that's kind of the way Kurt is pretty direct, you know. I feel like though this energy of, I don't want to use the word anxiety because that's not quite deep enough, you guys, and anybody that has anxiety, whether it's general anxiety disorder or social anxiety disorder, it's a very, those are very serious things. And those are very common for highly sensitive people and sensitive types and people who are artists and musicians. And like this, not a surprise. That's part of what makes them so incredibly imaginative and expressive because they can tap those feelings and those emotions and their intensities, right? But it's too much at times, it's too much. And so it feels like that, and it feels like it leads you to the edge of paranoia. So you're telling me that the heroine made that scenario that was already current, present there, worse. Yeah, he's like, yeah. For anybody that has any kind of anxiety or anything, like, you know, you do smoke a little pot, it kind of mellows it out a little, but you go beyond that and you can get crazy. So you get crazy. You think like you're going to jump off a cliff and stuff, and it doesn't matter because you think you're flying. And you don't even feel real anymore. You feel like just some character in like a video game or something. It doesn't seem real, you know? And for those of you who've been in those situations, you know that I'm talking about. And it's not healthy for you. It's not healthy for you. And so did you know that? Did you know that using drugs like that, like heroin and stuff, was unhealthy? Did you feel that? Were there times when you felt this? Yeah, sure. Yeah, but I tried not to think about it because I needed it. I needed it to cope, to handle things. And, you know, I couldn't trust anybody. It felt like the walls were closing in, you know? And he's kind of like the billy collectors are at the door knocking on the door asking for money. And you don't got any kind of a thing is what he's making me feel like. And he says, you know, it's the dark side of the fame. You know? It's the... And he says, we weren't even that big yet. We weren't even that as big as it could have been, you know? And I know that I know other people would think that I just threw that away. And, you know, he like leans forward and takes a smoke. And he says, you can't understand unless you're in my shoes, you know? So do you have advice for people who are dealing with addiction or who have been in situations where their loved one has addiction? Because clearly if you didn't have the heroine, how would things have been different is my question. So if you didn't have the heroine, how would things be different? Let's ask that first. And can you respond to that? What would I be clearheaded? He says, would I be clear-minded? He says, I probably would have found another way, you know, another vice. But my music might have been better. He says, my music might have been better. I would have been around for a while longer. But he's referring to that there's some sort of an imbalance. I don't want to necessarily say mental illness because I'm not sure which I'm not going to diagnose that kind of thing for the afterlife. But he shares that it's his mind is messed up, he says. And to get that right, you know, you probably need counseling and things. And I wasn't really willing to do that, you know? And I felt like I should be able to sort things out, you know, for myself. But if I didn't have the heroine, yeah, it's hard to say. He says, it's hard to say. I could have gotten my head on straight, you know, probably. He says, but I think I'd need some kind of help, you know? So I know that some people around you did some kind of intervention, like a week or so before your death. And I didn't know that. I think it was a week. It might have been longer that at some point, trying to get you to go into rehab. And you didn't respond real well to that. You know, you tried to do it and then you left and that kind of thing. So how do you feel about that, that whole thing, that whole situation? Well, I think people mean well, you know? And I think the person has to be ready. The person, you got to want that for yourself. You got to want to be healthy for yourself. If you don't want to be healthy for yourself, then it's not the time, you know? And then you're on borrowed time. You kind of buy time. And he says, I would give advice to family, to friends, to those of you who are dealing with that when you have somebody in your life that's an addict. He says, I would say, try again. You know, keep trying, keep trying. And know that it's not a reflection of you. It's not because the person doesn't love you enough to go to therapy or counseling or rehab. It's really not about you, but you could make a difference. You could. And I think it's worth a try if you really love somebody to keep on it and keep trying to get them to recognize for themselves, to care enough about themselves because that person has to care enough about themselves to want things to be different, to want more for themselves. You know, you can just remind them of what could be, what life could be like if they were healthy. And I think he says, focusing on the health part of it and I think is important because the whole labeling like you're an addict, you have problems and you're damaged. You know, you're never going to be right in your head. It's not something that is going to convince somebody to go to rehab. It's not going to convince them to get help. It needs to be much more caring and understanding and know that it's, you know, they're going to make mistakes. Anybody, you know, an addict, the person that needs help is going to make mistakes. That's how they got to the situation in the first places. They need that support, right? And they don't know how to ask for it. They don't know how to get it for themselves. They don't think maybe they don't think that they have a problem or it's not bad enough or they're not good enough to get help from anybody because they're too messed up. You know, maybe that's what they think. So there's a lot of things, you know, he says there's a lot of factors and he says I can't speak for everyone but I can say that for me, yeah, my career could have been different. My life could have been different if I had went to rehab and it might have also just prolonged, you know, the inevitable, so to speak, he says so to speak, might have just prolonged the inevitable but I don't really believe that anyone, Kurt speaking, I don't really believe that anyone wants to commit suicide or, you know, to kill themselves, murder themselves, however you want to see it, whether they, you know, do it with a needle or a gun or however they do it, right? I don't think anyone really wants that. I told Bridget I wasn't going to talk about my death. Specifics, you know, but, well, let's say, let, well, Kurt, let's be honest with people too and let's say I will share with you all here at Above Life Channel as I'm talking to Kurt Cobain and you know I'm not going to bust any conspiracy theories. I'm not interested in drama, trauma, stirring the pot, making your life more stressful. I want to clear that for you guys, heal and clear that anxiety, that sadness, that depression, that energy. But we will say, Kurt and I, we will say that he was not alone at the time of his death. We will say that there were other people around, at least one specifically that I can see. I can actually see two for sure and there might be a third. But that's why I can see others around as well. So he wasn't alone. So you don't need to be worried about that. And, and he says, so I do want to ask too, Kurt, are you in the afterlife? Like, are you in heaven? Heaven, so to speak, like that geographic location of heaven. He says, well, if heaven is sea, Seattle, does heaven look like Seattle? Does it rain a lot in heaven? He says, oh, you know, my heart will always be in Washington. I really like Seattle. And it's kind of my place. And it's my home. And I love music. I love the vibe of a club and just kind of being there, you know, just being like a regular guy. It's really nice. And, but yes, if people are curious about if I'm in heaven, I'm trying to feel you guys if he is because he's not answering the question. So are you an earthbound spirit? Which means like a ghost, you've chosen not to leave, or are you in heaven or on the other side fully? Kind of smiles and looks at me like, do you want me to answer that? He says, what do you think? Kind of likes a mystery. I think he kind of likes that. Kind of like the mystery around that, don't you? He says, I travel back and forth. I'm in both places and many times. I literally see him hanging out by his old house and like the red brick place. And I see him just wanting to be a normal person. I see that. So are you not incarnated? I don't think you're incarnated. You don't feel like it at all. I said, no, I'm not back. Are you kidding? He's like, are you kidding me? Do I look like I'm back? No, you don't. You look pretty solid too. Actually, if I had to say on a scale of earthbound spirit, ghost, and afterlife heaven, I would say you're closer to the earthbound. Like you like human life, ironically, even though in your human life, it was really, really tough for you, like emotionally, mentally, whatever. You like staying close to the humans, to people. And I feel like you're here. And it's not because you have unresolved business. You guys, he doesn't have unresolved business. You guys might have unresolved business, but he doesn't have that necessarily. He's like, he's okay with mystery. He's fine with that. He doesn't have a problem with that whatsoever. But he likes to be around the humans, the people in human life. But he says, but don't tell people that. I don't want people thinking I'm stuck in some kind of purgatory because I'm not. He says, I'm not really in between. I just, I choose where to go. He says, I have a free pass. I got a backstage pass I can be in. He says, you're heaven anytime I want. He says, but I like to be by people. I like to be around. I think of it as kind of maybe a therapy for me. Maybe it's something I can do. I can help somebody. Maybe I can help somebody out. Interesting. So I don't really know a clear answer for that, you guys. As a psychic, I can tell you, he's not stuck anywhere, that if he is more close to the human life, it's by choice. And he's writing a lot. It looks like he can communicate through writing a lot. He can, Kurt Cobain, can communicate with you through writing. If that's the way you're, if that's something you want, if you're a fan, if you want some advice or guidance from him about your life, about life in general, you could write and ask. So you could do like journaling. That's what I'm talking about. Like journaling, have a conversation, write him a letter, do that. Try that because he writes. He communicates a lot through writing because it's like this unspoken lyric. I mean, it's just, it's nice. Like he doesn't, he's not super chatty, as you can tell, but he says a lot and feeling and emotion. He genuinely cares about people, about humanity. You know, he loves, he likes this idea of the young people. You know, I feel like, did you have a kid because I feel like there's a child that you're, I don't know, I should probably know that, huh, you guys? I feel like there's a child that you kind of highlighting for some reason. I don't know if it's actually your, your son or daughter, or if it's somebody that you're noticing in your, that was interesting. That's kind of random. All of a sudden, boom, I just see that right at the end here. It's interesting. All right. So in the comments below, please be sure that your comments are appropriate. They add value. They're hopeful and positive and not stirring up controversy or creating drama for anyone that watches the video. 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