 This teaching is what spirituality is going to be in the future. Not just me. Already there are teachers starting talking like this all over the world. Because there is no other way than there, to the center of the being, to the truth of the system. I have a question about how to disconnect to a former lover, to which I now still feel a very strong negative connection energetically. It comes up sometimes out of the blue that I suddenly feel miserable and get fever and all that kind of symptoms. And then I kind of make the conclusion he's meeting with other people. So there's kind of energetic movement with him going on. I really would like to disconnect from that negative relationship. Yes, maybe fed by still having emotions about that. The other thing is that you once said that when you have an active Kundalini Shakti, that one would have to take very much care about whom to partner up with. I've been in a state of spontaneous celibacy for seven years or so. And then when the Shakti moved, I got really interested in sex. Kind of also a very strong pull. Now I figured out that I should not follow the pull actually, because it's not the pull of the soul. But I still kind of suffer from that connection. And I really like the guy, the person. I really like him. I would like to cut that. There are questions that I would have about this because it's not clear exactly what kind of connection it is. And because it could be a same soul connection in which case it's quite a big challenge, tough challenge and it can be lifelong. And if you want to get out of this mess, apart from the whole Kundalini issue or story, the only way immediately, right now, no discussion about it in the sense that that's how it is, is to tune into the soul every time even the thought appears of that person. You go inward and you go into the surrender state immediately. Why I'm saying that is that you're suffering. It doesn't mean that it's a toxic connection or it's a negative this or that. Just because it's causing you suffering doesn't mean it's negative. It could also mean that that is the key for you to go into the Self-realization fully, to move into the Self-realization process, into surrender and into oneness with that core at center of your being. Because when you're in that state, the more you are in a state of surrender to source, the less negative that connection will be. You are suffering because he's with somebody else. That's all not important in this story. He will give you 100,000% like it might take a year, it might take two years. Even if you don't want him, he'll come because that's the point. No, when a person is with themselves in that truth, then there's no suffering. Then everyone is attracted to them. Who wants to be with somebody who's in pain? Would you like to be with someone who's continuously in pain? No, you'll run away unless of course you have that side to you which is empathetic and wants to help somebody. But that's then a different paradigm. No, there is no way around this. Life is telling you it's all you've got to get to the cheese. Like in Hindi, cheese means the thing which is the soul, the source. It's also like a mouse has to get to the cheese and eat it. And then it's trapped in eternal love. You have to go inward because life is pushing you in there. It's pushing you in there because it has found no other way to make you do that. Because the ego, if you do that right away, today, by the time the next satsang comes, you'll already be in a different state. Remember, go inward. The pain strikes, push it out, go inward. And I know that that can be horrendous, that pain. It's not something a person can describe in words and it goes over years. How long has this been going on for you? For three years, I was trying to convince the guy to have a sexual relationship with me because he is not really in the body. But I felt a very strong pull to be with him sexually. But it didn't work out energetically as well. No, it can't work out. It won't work out. Those things never work out because then, if it works out, then you're again out of yourself. You're not in surrender. Life is pushing you into self-realization. Bend down. It's saying you can't go anywhere. There is nowhere else to go but inward, nowhere else for you left. And when you make that step, you'll see what will happen. But it's challenging. The other alternative you have is that you're 90 years old and the same story is going on with the same guy. That's the other alternative. You can choose what you prefer. I would suggest take the root inward. Do the kriyas, whatever you hear and see. This teaching is what spirituality is going to be in the future. Not just me. Already there are teachers starting talking like this all over the world. Because there is no other way than there to the center of the being, to the truth of the system. And when you're in that truth state, you are not in a pain state. When you're not in a pain state, then everyone that rejects you turns around and moves towards you. I'm not saying he's going to jump into bed with you. But that's also not what you actually want. What you want is the experience of that oneness. And because it's not happening in any of the other realms, that's the one that seems to you to be something you can try out. He's going to run away from you as long as you are not with yourself. Life is telling you that. Life is pushing you into self-realization. And the more you self-realize, the more the person will turn towards you. Don't let it go on for years and years. It won't stop. Don't think, oh no, it'll be fine after two years. No, it won't be fine after two years. This doesn't sound like one of those. It will be fine the less I think about him. No, no. You can't stop thinking about him. You cannot. You cannot stop it. It will continue unless you are in a surrendered state. The truth, the truth, the truth, the truth, the truth, the truth, truth, truth, truth, truth, truth. Every time that thought of him comes, you go into the truth. Every time the tears flow, you go into the truth. No other way out. Otherwise, you're 90 years old and it's still going on. Don't think you want that.