 I'm at a point where I can say whilst I've written this book anybody that's got clean time could have written a book I still like I still have to spend and enjoy and love spending time with other recovering addicts and recovering alcoholics and people with issues around all manner of compulsions and When I go and spend time with them like I'm not like sat in the middle like with a blanket drag around me and Dramatically lit under another one of them and it's a relief to be another one of them And it's a relief to know that I'm still like you say on the cliff edge and I could fall over at any moment I'm not better than anybody else. I don't have that illusion. I lost that now Sometimes I can be a bit grand and show up, but I know that I'm no better than anyone else But the relief is I know I'm no worse than anybody else. I'm just a normal person