 I recently met one of my new favorite people on earth and she's over here to talk with me about anxiety. What is up everybody? This is Chris from the Rewired Soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel, my channel is all about mental health and something that I really try to do is get other people to come on my channel and talk about their struggles and successes with mental health. So if you're into that make sure you subscribe and ring that notification bell. So I just realized as I was doing my intro that my voice is sounding weird because I am sick and Tristan and I are moving tomorrow but I wanted to knock this video out before I get back to packing. But anyways I have the lovely, the amazing, the incredible Diane Jennings who came over and we talked about anxiety. It's, it's crazy. It's crazy like I love YouTube and the community and just meeting other people and so real quick backstory like Diane like left a comment on one of my videos the other day. I'm like huh and like usually when all of you leave comments like I'll check and see if you have a channel just because I'm interested I'll like go and watch your videos and like Diane like has a channel I'm like oh my god and I just like started binge watching her stuff. So I'm going to link her channel up in the info card and then at the end screen like go watch her stuff like I know a lot of people who are subscribed to me like you know we struggle we have rough days and all that like if you need a pick me up just go watch Diane's content like she is hilarious she does a lot of like top 10 lists and like Ireland versus America and like just I've even gone through all her content yet but every time I watch it I just smile and laugh it's just an adorable dog named Chewy but anyways why am I talking so much but yeah like I mentioned in the intro like um Diane and I we were we were talking and I think it's important like I I love having people come on my channel because like I'm not the only one who struggles with things like anxiety and other issues and stuff like that so I love talking to other people about their experiences with it but Diane also has some awesome like just suggestions and embracing it and staying weird and all of that but anyways I'm gonna shut up and here is the conversation that me and Diane had like explained to me you were in my live stream and you were talking about shaky hand I think you called it anxiety tremor like when yeah that's what it's called when did this that's why I called that I didn't name it um yeah when did it what when did what damn when did the whole thing start when so I was like in school and I think a teacher yelled at me or something and I don't even really remember like the instigating moment but it started to turn into like I was afraid to go up to the blackboard and ride on the blackboard and it just became like focused on not wanting to ride on the blackboard and I come up with like really creative ways of not doing it so like I if somebody asked me to go up and and do an answer on the board I'd be like I don't know the answer and I was like I know the answer I don't know so I'd say I don't know but so that was like not great and then or then they'd be like um Diane do you want to come up and draw the chart for you know the map of Ireland and I'd be like I have to I I'm gonna throw up I need to leave you know like stupid stuff like that because as soon as I got up there my hand would be like just shaking and then it turned into weird to go to chapel every morning in my school it's like weird but anyway so we used to have to hold a hymn book and like I loved singing growing up like I used to love singing and just holding the hymn book because suddenly I was able to do it for years and years this was years after the blackboard thing started one day I just looked down I was like the hymn book was shaking I was just like oh no no no and then all I could think about was like you're gonna do that every time you hold a hymn book you know like so then I turned into I pretend I forgot it and I'd be like I forgot my they'd be like you forgot it again I'd be like yeah let me ask you this so something I haven't even talked about on my channel I used to I struggled with a lot of social anxiety and my thing was reading reading out loud like I can read like I am pretty great at reading right but when it would happen and I had to like read in front of my class my brain would go a million miles a minute like I'd be reading and I'd be like okay you're doing good Chris you're doing good you knocked out that sentence you hit that hard word I'm like but what if you screw up this next word and then I would screw it up and then I'd like get embarrassed like so my question is like when this when this was happening especially after you know the first incident in school then as it went on like was your brain racing like were you like worried were you like worried like what people were gonna think like were you worried that people are gonna say oh there's Diane with the shaky hand yeah it was weird because like I loved like even going to mass and stuff I was like I'll do the reading like I'll I'll do it I'll be merry like you know because I loved performing I loved acting in front of people and for some reason my hand would never really shake when I was doing acting because I was like that's not me that's a different person um you know but uh yeah so like I don't know what I was when I was younger it was just one of those things I was like anything that makes you a bit strange now I embrace the weird I'm like stay weird but back then when I was younger I was like I don't want to be like that girl who's like because people would be like why is your hand shaking I don't know like you know um but then like as I've gotten older I've just been like yeah deal with it like like my friends will notice like they'll be like oh your your hand is shaking yeah it is yeah so like when you like that was something I was wondering so you got into you got into acting right so because what I think is you know part of this is like a social anxiety thing but acting is like putting yourself out there in front of an audience and everything so did this shaky hand everything happen like when you were holding stuff while you're acting or yeah rehearsing that was another actually a funny thing because like when I'd be in character as something my hand wouldn't shake like it wouldn't shake but if I was like coming out of it like in a rehearsal or an audition and holding a page and they'd be like you know okay an end scene and just like you know so I used to have to be like really really really good at memorizing scripts and so that I'd walk in and everybody else would be like I'm not off book here you off book and I'd be like I'm just like really conscientious and you know so I'd be like I learned the whole script off my heart because you know so now I have like a million scripts in my head that I don't need but um yeah so I'd do that or I'd bring um uh what's it called a board like a like a clip board yeah a clip board they met me um into an audition or whatever or if they turn around and they'd be like um okay we're actually gonna give you another side which is like a scene we're gonna give you another side to read and can you can you can you take a look at that and and do it and I'd either have to just like memorize it there and then or I'd be like I have a reading like I've dyslexia or something I need to take this away for a few minutes like you know isn't that interesting like let me ask you this like I just I get fascinated by so many things so so you all you you were worried about people seeing your hands shaking right yeah because I feel nervous I didn't feel nervous but my hands but but but you were okay with people thinking you were dyslexic I know I don't know how does that okay I'm just very sorry for them um yeah I don't know but then I think of other things like ways around things in like in the in the scenes and things in case I had to break during rehearsal so somebody would be like okay and Diane can you pick up the glass and then walk over to the other side and I'd be like I think it'd be much better if I left the glass like or if I had a straw you know that's great you're like kind of like working them around around that so yeah at what point did it start either getting better or did you start embracing it like what what happened or did you have like an aha moment where you're just like I just yeah well a couple years ago like a lot of stuff changed and I just kind of like my friends would be like it was just all the time because I was very anxious and my friends would be like your hands shaking and I wouldn't even notice and I just began to realize I was like oh this is making other people more nervous than it's making me like inside I feel fine but my hands shaking I was like yes it is I don't really like or you know I just funny want to be like if I go on a date I'm like oh no I don't want to explain this on it like just you know I have this thing where my hands shake for no reason it's not because I like you no I don't know it kind of just as soon as I kind of decided if it shakes and shit like you know I've seen other people do a lot more weird things they don't focus on you or you know people just have nervous habits I was like it's just a nervous habit it's not a thing that affects my daily life like I don't drop trays all the time not like a surgeon but um yeah it doesn't really happen on the daily but now and again it'll just I'll feel fine and then I'll notice my hands shaking and I'll be like oh maybe you're not fine maybe you need to take a little u-time you know wait let me let me ask a question look because one of the one of the co-hosts of your your channel is chewy do you ever shake when holding chewy no I'm actually yeah no he's he's like really good because yeah he's kind of like a little comfort blanket in a way um but yeah I don't know in like a weird way you're like I've got to keep it together for him so honestly that's an interesting question because I don't think I've ever when I have him around I don't do it really yeah I know I think it should qualify for that and I should be allowed to bring him to Texas but um yeah uh no I we don't have emotional support animals in Ireland really and no uh as far as I know like you couldn't be like it's an emotional support animal and everyone will be like that's nice it doesn't give you any legal you know that's interesting real like real quick fun fact um so I have my beautiful cat Maya sitting behind me but uh like we're Tristan and I are moving into the new apartment and um like there's it's like hundreds of dollars to have just a cat right and I went to my doctor because I you know I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression and she gave me a little form that says emotional support animal so we don't got to pay into that so any of you watching if you're moving into a new place see if your uh place will cut off some fees for an emotional support animal well wish we could have that here because we don't I get them on my hands and everything trying to say yeah there is I love it I love it by the way by the way and I'm gonna link to all of Diane's stuff but there is like a princess Leia inspired type design you have and I love that so so much I love it but did you ever like seek help forward like did you ever like go to your doctor and say hey what the heck's going on with me why does this happen yeah well when I was like about 12 I think it was really really bothering me because when you know when you're like 11 12 anything that's like out of the norm is just bothersome like I remember being really upset because I used to sleep at a teddy and I'd have to hide that you know so it was like that it was like oh god and I told my mom I'd be really upset about it and um she brought me to see my GP my GP actually put us in touch with a hypnotist which was like for then we were like I'm sorry what like a hypnotist like in Ireland in like back then you're just like it didn't make any we're like all right but the GP was great so we trusted him and went to see him and it was more like a meditation kind of thing what we call now mindfulness and so he kind of went through that and he'd be like picture yourself in a safe space you know like anything and I was like it didn't it didn't really work but um he got he prescribed beta blockers which I just it didn't it it was kind of it did work it does work if I take them but because I more often than not don't need them I'm like there's no point and literally when it happens it's just like happens for a minute like why would I be on something that controls my heart right for my living every living moment when all that happens is that and a lot of people get that when they get nervous it's just mind is maybe a little bit more pronounced yeah a little bit a little bit more noticeable yeah just breathe down how do I go yeah well and it's it's crazy too because something that uh we were talking about a little bit ago like here in the in the states they will just they'll prescribe like harder like more potentially addictive medications like I don't even know like do they prescribe like Xanax and Valium and like those really like strong anxiety meds out in Ireland they do but um like first of all just to be clear like if it works for you that is awesome like there were times when I did go on the better blockers because I felt like I didn't need it because I was always really like like that all the time just periods of my life and you know I think that if you need it and if it works for you that's great like do it it's just for me I felt like I didn't need it that much but yeah no they do prescribe Xanax and Valium and stuff but from what I understand of the American system it seems a lot more difficult to get here um like they've kind of exhaust other resources before they give it to you um however like I think like if I went to my GP and I was like I need Xanax he'd be like why and you go blah blah blah and they'd probably be like well we think you should try this first um but I mean there probably are doctors out there who do just prescribe it it just doesn't seem as readily available as it does in the States but I mean I'd just be media spin or whatever no no no media spin at all like here you can go to your doctor and say hey I gotta go on a trip planes making me nervous and they're like here's some Xanax like that's how crazy it is and that's one of the things that I try to you know bring awareness to is like we don't a lot of physicians out here like there's definitely good ones right but a lot of them are like here medication first then we'll try other stuff rather than try these other things first and then try medication you know so it's real real big thing here but we could talk for hours and hours and hours on end about that no we definitely need to do some more so anybody watching this all of you beautiful people like Diane and I are gonna do a collab over on her channel and maybe we could talk about health care differences yeah what about like turtles yeah I don't know yet I don't know what we're gonna do tonight so Diane Diane before I let you go what's what's going on on the amazing world of Diane what is happening on the Diane Jennings channel because exciting stuff is coming up pretty soon I'm coming to Texas so that's a that's the big thing that's gonna happen and I'm coming for Thanksgiving I'm gonna my first ever Thanksgiving and what's that about I want to sit around and break bread with the Americans and be like I'm thankful for and yeah that's what we do so uh I'm coming for Thanksgiving to Texas that is awesome awesome and and yeah like uh so everybody knows you need to go check out Diane's channel I was I was fanboying over here because I love her content so go check it I thank you first Chris I know but you did it in secret though you were just hiding in the shadows because you never know who's watching you just never know who's watching your videos somebody sleeping like me yeah but yeah thank you thank you so much for this and I hope this inspires the people to you know either A live with it B go get help or C just do you baby all right you like little kids it's okay if you're weird it's good stay weak stay weird I love it I told you I told you Diane was awesome you thought I was playing with you but Diane is awesome right but anyways uh real quick note after we got off the call she mentioned so something else that uh we forgot to touch on in the call was her her parents actually um sent her to get a neurological test as well to check out the um the shaking right uh but nothing like really like came with that but anyways I just want to add that in there so yeah like like go out there and get help and like I love how Diane like kind of like jump back in there and was talking about like there's nothing wrong with taking medications okay like nothing wrong like I talk about like I'm on uh you know antidepressant anti-anxiety medications and all of that you know but if it works for you but you know if there's something else you can do go for it you know what I mean uh but anyways anyways I I'm so glad that Diane came over here and you guys got to go subscribe to her channel like she's about to go to Texas and like her and I were talking on Skype for a while before we actually recorded this and like I am so excited to see her experience in Texas over Thanksgiving and Black Friday like it is something that I am waiting for like it's Christmas so make sure that you go subscribe to her and her adorable dog Chewy all right but anyways I would love to hear from all of you down in the comments below like do you struggle like embracing some of your like anxious like things like I like me for me like it's just something that I do I leave a lot of errors and screw ups in my videos because that's something that helps me overcome and embrace my anxiety but let me know what you guys all do down in the comments below all right but anyways that's all I got for you with this video if you like this 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