 Yeah, the the ego Made this cosmos that made this world in other words, you know, some of this It doesn't matter what theology we grew up with. I grew up in the Christian theology so in the Christian theology was in the Genesis in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth and It took me a while to start to go. Hmm I'm being taught that God created the heavens and And the ego projected Time and space and including the earth So when we see things like like disabled children or disabled people that that seem Extremely dependent on others around them. That is a projection of this belief in lack This whole cosmos of time and space is a projection of lack There's never enough to go around. There's not enough air You get out into space and there's not enough air to support life. So to speak human life There's there's not enough money. There's not enough resources There's they're always struggling to redistribute the resources in this world, you know So that to even it out a little bit so the rich don't have it all and and it's spread out more easily you know, we have socialism and all kinds of different isms and Psychologies and political systems So I I can certainly relate I ended up working at Ohio Valley Goodwill and I worked with with people with a range of disabilities from physical disabilities like blindness and deafness to mental disabilities with different ranges of IQs and mental retardation and So I had quite a lot of experience with what you're talking about and the people that I was relating to were young adults That that seemed to reflect that belief the more I got deeper into the spirituality that I started to realize was Was that as long as we're looking at the world of specifics and we're seeing specific problems like dependency like We are still misperceiving everything We are we are looking at a world of unreality that is totally coming from a distorted lens I came to the course of miracles. It's like High stuff basically it's saying. Oh Your perception is distorted. You see nothing clearly. You're completely in the dark and You are completely clueless and everything you perceive in the world is a projection of the thoughts and beliefs in your minds You are perceiving a world of lack. You are perceiving a world of fragmentation You are perceiving separation Everywhere because of the filter the egoic filter that you're looking through and I'd been an activist and I'd been involved in social services and I'd put paid my dues and done all the work and and did that for years and It was humbling To be told by this little blue book seek not to change the world Seek rather to change your mind about the world So the first thing I would say in any authentic spiritual pathway will be To begin to open the mind to be convinced that the problem is a Perceptual problem Perceptual problem. What do we mean by that? You know, well first of all in psychology and psychiatry We would say that somebody who hears many different voices speaking in their mind would be schizophrenic This Christ saying everyone who comes to this world Everyone without exception is schizophrenic They're listening to multiple voices in their mind. They can't make up their mind what to do They have to listen to the committee every morning You know, it's it's like the committee can't agree and We wonder why human behavior is so inconsistent It's because There are multiple voices going on in there it is a schizophrenic state and the ultimate basis of that schizophrenia is That the mind that believes in this world is sleeping and dreaming and is trying to listen to two voices that don't have any meeting point and is trying to listen to them simultaneously the ego and the spirit are Inside our sleeping minds and the spirits trying our intuitions trying to guide us Out and guide us to peace of mind and joy and love and happiness and the ego is sabotage Everywhere. It's it's a death wish. It's trying to sabotage us. It's it's it is sickness itself it's we think of Physical disabilities as sickness. No, it's the ego in the mind that we believe in that's the sickness So that's a different take than I was raised with I went through psychology. I went through psychiatry I Spent years and so social services and finally I get to the master Psychologist Jesus who's actually transcended this world completely and he says listen, I'm gonna make it really direct to you You're schizophrenic We got a lot of work to do to get out of this schizophrenic and it's not only your schizophrenic, but your psychotic Okay, psychotic to I'm schizophrenic and psychotic. What does that even mean? well psychosis if you look at the definition in psychology and and psychiatry psychosis is a break from reality and Everyone who believes in this world everyone seems to come to this world and be identified as being a human being is psychotic Because reality is nothing like this place. I mean absolutely nothing like this place It's not even kind of like this place There's no war in reality. There's no sickness in reality. There's no separation in reality There's no pleasure and pain in reality. There's no age in reality There's no time in reality There's no competition in reality. There's no male and female in reality. There's no masculine and feminine in reality There is no duality in reality because reality is one That's why the first commandment is love the Lord thy God with all thy heart sold might it's it's the Lord God and And our true reality as we were created is pure oneness and now even quantum physics Is realizing we're all connected beyond this veil of separation that we all are completely connected So the first thing I had to do and it was extremely humbling was start to realize my gosh Every time I'm seeing a problem on the screen of the world That requires some kind of judgment or diagnosis or some kind of category or some kind of label Which is what this world is all about It's total distortion. It's total distortion. There's no truth in any of it So after ten years of university Full-time I might say and after degrees and after really doing the Renaissance thing and really studying up on the world I actually got a dose of reality through some mystical experiences Where I began with spiritual practices with a course of miracles and so forth And I had such blazing mystical Experiences that on three different occasions the entire perceptual world just disappeared It just completely vanished. I just pierced completely through the veil of time and space And it was the most blazing light. It was almost like in one sense kind of Getting hit between the eyes with a loving fire hose of love. It was it was just spectacular and And and that was I always knew there was something fishy about the world But until I experienced what was beyond this world. I never could say for sure I just thought there was something fishy going on here And when I experienced those mystical experiences, then it was like aha It was an actual experience a taste of what lies beyond this world of distortions and At that point it was like, okay This was not like a near-death experience. I call them near-life experiences anyway I don't think anybody ever has a near-death experience. They have a near-life experience They go into this glowing unconditional love and light that sounds like a near-life experience to me And it gets described in this world as if oh the body was dead for three minutes or an hour or whatever But once I had an experience of that then I began to attune my mind to it in a more regular way In a more consistent way and what that did was it opened the channel up for the spirit to use this these lips and this tongue To speak of reality to speak of the bridge to reality To be a living example of that I would have people that would start inviting me all over the world just because I was so happy Just because I never have a bad day. That's the reason to get an invitation. Just think of it If you never had a bad day You might start getting some invitations from people that said I like to hang around this energy of joy of love of freedom of happiness and I was content to be invisible. I was happy Feeling one with the universe. I didn't have to go anywhere do anything I'm just content to just be And yet the spirit was like No, I've got some speaking assignments for you. Okay your show You're the one I give it over to you And then I ended up with speaking assignments in 26 countries And then I ended up with writing assignments that had been translated to five to six different languages I ended up Going on television. That was not part of my plan ever I get ended up going on radio I ended up getting interviewed and all these different things and just for one simple reason is because I'm happy Isn't that a nice reason to exist Just plain old pure happiness But what it did was I had to give up everything I believed about everything All the problems on this planet earth that appear in so many degrees and so many variations in so many different forms that To try to fix the problems of the world on the level of the world Would be like trying to plug a dam when a dam was breaking loose, you know getting some rocks and some clay We'll say you've got this long dam that's half a mile long and you're trying to plug it With rocks and pebbles and clay It is impossible to solve the world's problems on the world's level Even einstein said you cannot Solve a problem from the level of the problem You have to transcend the level of the problem to find the solution Of course Absolutely, of course And the good news that I'm sharing is that there is a spiritual solution That's within all of us. That's available totally accessible Totally there for us every moment of every day If we want to let go of thinking we know What we're doing how to run the show Thinking we know anything Sometimes the christians use this word salvation as I was growing up christian I mean, I I didn't I never really liked that word salvation Because it was always talked about is Saving people oh so and frida's got to be saved. Why does and frida have to be saved? She looks Okay to me. She's not saved And these people over there aren't saved I I just did not like that idea of saving people Uh salvation I mean it's one thing to save somebody who's drowning but but to talk about people They're just sitting there at the dinner table like they have to be saved. I thought that's ridiculous Well, I started to realize as I got deeper into a course in miracles Jesus said it in one sentence. He said salvation is for the mind And only for the mind and it is attained through peace Oh, that puts a whole different light on salvation Salvation is for the mind. Oh that mind that's sleeping dreaming of exile that mind that's sleeping having distorted perceptual images and distorted Sleep in a sense of it's upset that mind needs to be saved from what from the ego Of course, that's what salvation is