 All right guys, so I just had a shoot by myself and I think it came out pretty good. Someone was supposed to come with me, but they didn't. So, which I'm okay with, but this is just gonna be a quick vlog and I'm going back home. I hope I don't hit my car against this thing. You guys don't know, I'm not like the best driver in the world, but I'm hungry, so I'll probably try to grab some brunch somewhere, not exactly sure where, because what is this genie's doing? What was your point? This is why I hate driving this Georgia. People do stupid shit, like stupid shit. We like backed up in like full fledged speed and even caring about who's around. I think I'm gonna go to, cause it's nice out. I'm trying to think where can I get some vegan food from? And I'll probably end up going to this little spot over here and getting probably like a salad or something. Nothing too big or anything like that. But that's probably what I'm gonna do, cause it's really nice outside today. It's really nice. I'm gonna go home and work on my blog and that should be launching guys on the 15th of April, which is what, next week. So that'll be launching. And I think there's gonna be like some, it's gonna be geared towards tall women, fashion and lifestyle, just probably stuff that I do. I mean, I know that there are a lot of blogs out there. So just something to do, just some place to have all of my papers and stuff and, you know, I forgot I was, see, I'm always getting lost guys. I promise you all the time, but I think I'm going to head over to, I would head over to the mall. I wanna be really smart with my shopping. Listen, ladies, I know you guys love to shop, but what I've been doing is I've been a little bit more strategic with it. So what I would do is I would, I would pretty much get the shopping list. They changed the name. Now it's called Karma. So you just place all your stuff in there that you want. It'll let you know when everything's going on. So I totally forgot the original name of it, but they literally just changed the name to Karma. And I think I've been doing pretty well with that because what I've been doing was just anything that I wanted, I will go back to that list. If it popped up that it was on sale, wanted it, I would just get it. The stuff there, like I said, is stuff that I actually want in my wardrobe. And it's things that I feel will last me and I will get a lot more cost per wear out of it. So that's what I've just been doing as far as shopping, being a little bit more responsible. Now I'm not going to say that I won't impulse buy because I still will often as what I was doing before. So that was today. That's the only thing that I did today was take a couple of photos for the blog and, you know, and I'm probably gonna go grab brunch. Little vegan spot. If I go back to my, looking is like very weird to me because one, people are always staring at you when you're out. So I kind of got over that a little bit. It wasn't that bad today, but where I was, there's a museum over there. I kind of picked like a day where it wasn't that busy, but there were a lot of, a lot because I know that they haven't scheduled now. So if you wanted to go to the museum, you would call, they would schedule you a time. So it's not too full because of COVID, of course, but I think gotten better with the people staring and stuff, it doesn't really bother me as much as before. So, but the pollen is like ridiculously high. So like I feel my nose is like, sorry. The pollen is like really, really high. So I feel like my nose is like kind of stuffy, but I can just chat with you guys while I'm on my way back home and get some good conversation going. So let's talk about people, let's talk about users, okay? Users and friends and stuff like that, right? So I am a person who, I don't know, but I don't know why I let this get to me guys, but I have a friend or a family member or whoever, somebody that I know that I'm close with. I get it, you probably all like, oh, let them deal with your friends and stuff. You don't want people to use them, right? And it's like, sometimes the person is just being so nice because I don't know if they're yearning for that friendship with that person or whatever, but I do feel like it's, you know, it just does something to me. And I've always been like this and I don't know why because genuinely I meet good people, right? Well, not genuinely, normally I meet really good people and, you know, if they have a situation like that where someone is using them, I try to mind my business, but it's so hard. I'm just like, well, you know, what do you think about this? Cause I think that they're trying to get over on you, some type of thing. I don't know. And the thing is like, normally people will go through things and feel a certain way about something because people got over on them, but it really, it's not the case for me. It's just where my heart is at with some situations with people that just, I don't know, it just does something to me. Like it makes me mad. So I'm going to try my best to mind my business. Even though I love my family member or my friend or whatever, you know, sometimes it's just simply just minding your business and just, you know, or at least maybe giving a little too sense and just don't really get wrapped up in it because it's easy to get wrapped up in it. And I guess that's when it, you know, when you grow and just, when you start to grow. Sorry guys, cause listen, I don't even understand the driving in Georgia. Like what do you guys think about that? Like people who are users who take advantage of you because they know that you're nice, you know, do I mind my business? Do I just, you know, give my friend or family member some words of wisdom and not saying that I am the smartest person in the world, but I've kind of energy don't lie and good at reading people's energies and knowing if that they're true to what they're trying to do. So you guys let me know, let me know what you guys think about that and people who use people and people who just continue to allow them. And it could be a boyfriend, it could be a friend, it could be a family member, it could be your mom, your dad, you know, sometimes these people, these users, they know who they can do this stuff to, right? And it's like, I believe in karma so I do feel like it will eventually come back to them and that same very person that they use, they're going to need them in the future. That's my motto because I feel like what you put out would boomerang back to you. So listen, all of us are not perfect so it's not like we will, you know, put out good energy all the time. We get upset, we feel a way about things but when you purposely do things to people and you purposely use them, that shit will come back to you. I don't care what nobody's saying. So that's that, that's just a quick little challenge. I think I wanted to just get out of my chest because I feel like I'm sometimes always like in the mix with some of my friends and my family and I'm just like, I'm just too involved but I guess it boils down to like I said, loving your friends and your family, wanting the best for them and you know, not wanting people to do things to like hurt them. But you know, I'll do my best and just maybe not say anything or just give a couple of words. I'm like, well, maybe you should just look out for this, you know, it seems a little sketchy or whatever. Maybe that I could do that without really like not really being true to myself and not being too nosy into what they have going on. But yeah, guys. So I don't know, it was just on my mind today about that just people being users and stuff and you know, shit, I know some families, like their mom and their dad is like users. And it's funny because I will tell you this, sometimes people, you can have a whole family of your own, you can be a single mother and people will still ask you for stuff knowing that you have no support from nowhere else but they don't care. That's my thing, people just don't care. I'm sure I mentioned this before guys of breast cancer so this is why I'm vegan because I'm trying to just do things different from what my mom did and stuff. So, but I remember when she passed away and I have a family member who, listen, me can be anybody, you can be a friend who's not biologically related to you. But I have a family member who this person, he's always been like a user in my eyes but when my mom passed away, listen, for the life of me, I couldn't understand when he came to my home and I was still in New York guys, he came to my home and I guess he liked the way my house look or whatever and he comes around and he comes in the living room and he says, he calls me Naya. Naya, you think you can help me pay my rent? And hear me out guys, I was taken aback by it because I just buried my mother. Like I literally, we just came back from Florida from burying her. Mind you, he never asked me how we pay for anything. He never, none of this things. So I was just like, now you guys know me, you guys don't know me on how I am. So the look that I gave this man was like, what? The look that black people do. And I said, well, who's Lafayette Mon? Just like that. That day, I never fooled with him because I felt like at the end of the day, you didn't care about what I had to do. Like I literally just put her on the ground like two days ago and you're not even worried about what I'm gonna do, what my next step is, nothing. And he did something to my mom some years before and I just, I really wasn't feeling him since then but when he asked me for money, because I know him. And here we are in 2021, he's still the same way. A user, but I'm telling you every person that he used that he was able to get over on, he's gonna need these people. He's gonna need them and they will turn their backs on him. I'm almost 100% sure. Listen, you want good things to happen, put out good energy. Stop having motives when you need help with stuff and it's one thing that genuinely need help. That's something different. That's something different. But when you're trying to get over, you're trying to make people feel guilty for having their own. Ju-ju-ju. Guys, you know what, it's always some short stopping. Sorry, I could sidetrack. I'm surprised I didn't even curse it because they can make me have row rage out here. Like no one cares, no one. But he's just a user and I'm like, why is he like this? It's to the point where I cannot have any dealings with him. And some of my other family was like, oh, that's so harsh. Listen, I'm telling you guys protect your energy, protect your space. You have control over who you want in your life. Bottom line, sometimes not everybody is not all into the energy and the universe and all of that. But I'm telling you, energy don't lie. If you notice when you're on the phone with somebody and you're in a really good space and then someone calls you with some drama and your whole inside is just like, you feel weird. That is your mood changing and that is somebody nudging you saying, okay, it's time to get off this phone with this person and go back to your positive way. And you don't have to be rude about it. You can just tell this person, hey, can I call you back? And just kind of let the conversation go. And that is because you're protecting your space and your peace, I'm sorry. I choose that over everything else. And I think the reason why I'm like this too is because when my mom was sick, oh man, I was so stressed out guys for like six months straight. She was on hospice. It was just a lot for me to deal with by myself. My dad wasn't really like doing what he was supposed to do. Even though they weren't together, they was technically still married, but he didn't check on his kids to see if they were okay. And this is why he is where he is. I'm telling you people who use people, it comes back to them 10 fold. You get all of that back. And this is not a video to make you change but it's just an eye opener. And I use my dad as an example because he is back in Jamaica. He can't come back. And I said, this whole time he was in America, you have a bunch of children, but you didn't do it right by none of them. Not one, but you preach the Bible. So it's just, it's just, it's just weird. It's just crazy to me. So like I said, when you put things out, it comes back to you. You don't know when it's gonna come in said, just be, put out good energy. Everything is not gonna be perfect. Do everything with good intentions. Don't be an effed up person, period. You're in a relationship, right? And say your man cheat when your girl cheat. You're cheating on your left and right. You stay with them. And then you finally actually break up, completely break up, right? And the person who cheated ends up in a new relationship because they found the love of their life. And what normally happens, that person ends up either not cheating them good or cheating on them. It's just, it's like, it's a cycle. You put it out and it will come back. It will come right back to you. I'm trying to tell you. It will come really sad though, because people don't realize it. They don't believe in karma. At the end of the day, we don't know when our last days are gonna be here. And you just don't know. Can't why you're here. I'm not saying be out there saving trees and stuff. It ain't for everybody. That's not what you was called to do. But try your best to put out good energy. Be good to people, be kind to people. Do what you can for this world. Everything counts, every good thing counts, I'm telling you. Especially when I'm driving. Perhaps we'll have you stressed out. Drivers will have you stressed out. That's it, nothing really much. I just wanted to kind of chat with you guys. I normally don't do vlogs, but I'm gonna try to start incorporating them. I know it's very early on in my channel. You guys don't really know me. And it may be a little bit boring, so you have to have stuff in my mind that I just want to talk about. Put it up my chest. And it may help. It's so funny. It's like second nature for me to tell people that my mom passed away from breast cancer. Give it a touch with your story. I know that she was sick and how she fought it and stuff like that. And it helps people. And they're like, well, I don't know what I would do if I lost my mom and I'm just like, you'll live your life. Cause that's one thing she told me. When I'm dead and gone, you better live your life. And that's what I ate. Cause at the end of the day, we have different lives, right? We have different lives. And each one of us has a different story to tell. We have something, we each have something different to give to this world. And like I said, it can be something extremely small. Maybe you're the best freaking supervisor at your job. That's what you're supposed to do. And you do it with kindness in your heart, you know? I mean, drive, cause you know, dealing with a staff is a big much. But in kind of cultures, visit other countries, you know, and I, you know, I really want to travel by myself, but nervous. However, there are a lot of YouTubers, black women who travel by themselves, making videos on safe places to travel and stuff. I did drive to Orlando by myself and I had a good time just to do some shopping, but I bought absolutely nothing when I was out there. But it was good to just take the drive and go. I'm not really ready to get on a plane just yet. I don't know, I'm just a little nervous still. Yeah, just do stuff, do stuff to make you happy. That's where I'm at right now, you know? Don't worry about people trying not to let things bother you. I know a lot of people talk about being unbothered. It's not that easy for everyone, but you know, it will help you eliminate some of the everyday stresses that people deal with or that we deal with. Be kind to people, be good to yourself. If you're single, spoil yourself. Self-care, meditate, pray. All these things to me will help with what we spoke about in the beginning, about you kind of being frustrated with a family or a friend being used by someone. Cause it really shouldn't bother me. It really shouldn't, it shouldn't bother me, but it does, cause I'm human. That's my family, that's my friend, I love them. So, you know, you don't want anybody to do anything to them. Especially if their intentions are good and the other person's isn't. So, but yeah guys, that is this quick little chit chat for you guys. It's not too long, I didn't wanna make it too long. Just to let you guys hear my voice today. And so, just wanted to chat with you guys. But anyway, guys, please comment below anything I'm on this journey, this YouTube journey, it's new. So, let me know what you guys want to see. I'm sure I'll be interested in doing a video on it. You guys know I do focus on beauty fashion and lifestyle. So, it's a very new channel. So, I'm just trying to fill my way around and still get really, really comfortable with making videos and editing and stuff. I'm still learning. It's fun though, it's fun. I'm not even gonna lie. It's fun, it's fun. So, I will catch you guys in the next one. I'm gonna go home, probably get some dinner or something. I'm sorry, not dinner, some lunch. And kind of chill out for the rest of the day. And probably work on the blog, another article for you guys. And just kind of get it rolling, you know. I'm gonna be 41 this year guys. So, you guys will see my celebration on what I'm gonna do. But I will catch you guys in the next one. And comment below, Cocoa, we see you if you listen to this neat ramble on about people and life. All right guys, bye.