This is a one-take music video, shot in one take with no cut-aways or footage edits. I wrote this song after a very hard 5,000 mile tour of the southwest United States. Between making no money, lack of sleep, and desperately missing my family, I nearly went insane. To preoccupy myself during the long drives through the desert, I listened to audio books, including "Wishful Drinking" narrated by the author, Carrie Fisher (aka Princess Leia, Star Wars). Her humor, wit, and ability to laugh at the sadness and insanity in her life gave me hope. This song and video pays homage to Carrie, and is a commentary on terrible state of the music industry and the often emotional, unpredictable life of an independent musician.
Directed by Melissa Cox & Gregg Rummel
Concept by Melissa Cox
Actors: Matt Smith, Ben Gutierrez, Kristina Goverts, Ryan Goverts
Tech support: Karen Rummel
Written and composed by Melissa Cox.
Lyrics - Copyright 2011 Melissa Cox.
Three degrees from P.M.D.D. to insanity
Diagnoses and psychotherapy
Either too crazy or not crazy enough
It's true: it's the artist's catch 22.
Well I love your was-band but just for his words
A short little bald man with a sexy tight verse.
Could he give my man a pointer or two
On how to love a woman who's loosened her screws?
Did you get my postcard Carrie from the edge of my heart
The one I mailed to you right before I jumped?
It's a million miles from Denver to Newark.
Will I ever get there before I fall apart?
I'm an imposter at an Al Anon group.
I need something stronger than this chicken soup
To heal my addiction to anonymous praise
To halt my quest for elusive fame.
A million miles, a million roads,
One princess, a million toads.
I do the show, I go home alone.
Carrie is this just how it goes?
Well do you like this song about my mental state?
Too bad it won't see any radio play.
Guess the only way to get famous these days
Is to go Gaga half naked at the cabaret.