Okay, so I have been making videos for a while and I have finally made and uploaded my 100th (Public) YouTube video to my Channel.
First off, 100 is a big number, it means that I have put a lot of effort into this channel of mine. One thing that this made me think about was Why? Why do I put so much effort from my time of day and life into something like this?
At first to be truthful I doubt I really knew. It looked cool, it was something that was fun to do and so I did it. The more and more I made videos with free realms, the more I grew to love the community that the Free Realms Community built, and the more I felt like I wanted to be a part of it and make more videos just so I could be. I think the Free Realms YouTube Community disappearing from my life was the hardest part about the game shutting down, and it still kind of saddens me that its been gone for so long and will never be back.
Some people faded away, while others changed their tactics and made their channel into something new, or similar with what they could manage. At first I was going to stay similar. I was going to make music videos with another game, but that game and that community was small, so I ended up giving up and losing interest. I started posting speed draws, random In real life videos, and video clips of music games and just random stuff, no matter what I wasn't quitting my YouTube channel, still at the time I didn't know why I was keeping at it, I just wanted to, and I couldn't stop.
When I made any of my first gaming videos I really did feel nervous because it was a whole new community on YouTube that I was trying to put myself into. I wanted to be part of that community, it looked fun and I wanted so bad to have my own place in it. After so long I had missed being part of an actual community on YouTube. I can't truly say I don't feel nervous when I post some of my videos still, but I'm slowly getting more confident with these new videos I am posting. They are different from what I am used to but not in a bad way at all. I think I can now say I do know why I post, or at least I have a general idea. I like being part of the community that YouTube gives you. I don't just like viewing and feeling inspired, I want to help inspire if I can in anyway possible. I want to give something and feel proud about it. I know that I will never EVER be able to walk away from my channel and quit, not even if the whole world hated my videos and I had the worst comments ever everyday. It is definitely something that is a part of me, and its who I am.
To some, Blabbercat seems like a weird name, but to be honest it feels just as natural to me as my real name given to me at birth.
to those of you who have been here for a while, Thank you very much for staying here for so long to view my videos. and to those of you who are here even if it hasn't been long but you still cheer me on, thank you very much too.
and to the community that I've always loved that dissipated, if any Free Realms Filmers are here reading this description, Thank you so much for being there, posting videos and even when you commented on my own videos, the shares, the likes and even the dislikes all meant so much to me. I can't say how much I miss that community that brought me here and helped me become who I am today because there aren't even words that can describe it. I almost want to cry writing this because part of me still wants that to come back or that I could go back and enjoy those moments again, but I know its time to move on because it had been nearly a year already. I hope that all of you are doing well, and that you occasionally think back to what we all had together and feel happy you had gotten the chance to be a part of that because I do. Making this montage and going through my Free Realms Videos has made me so nostalgic it almost hurts, but it also helps me move on, like that was the last of it and now I can move on to the future and the new videos that I am currently and will be making from now on.
And to the new community that I have become a part of, I hope that I can enjoy it, and have as much fun and good times as I did in the one from so long ago. I hope that you guys can make me feel like I am a part of something again. I guess I can say I already do.
maybe I got more sentimental and personal than I had planned to be but oh well. ^-^ I'm in the triple digits of videos now! But.. I don't think just 100 videos is enough. So, more videos to come in the future and as long as I have the ability to make and post them which I hope I do for a while ^-^
(and now I have to admit I am in tears after typing this all out)
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