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(4 days ago)
Sixth track from the
2008 album
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Hold on tight
Wrap your arms aro...
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Sixth track from the
2008 album
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Lyrics
Hold on tight
Wrap your arms around me til your knuckles are burning white
All your tears
Couldnt match the bitter taste of all these wasted years
You take take
Everything that wasnt even yours
Wait wait
You dont got a hold of me anymore
In a clear view theres a silhouette
And I watch you and I cant forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breakings what the heart is for
When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for
For so long
Ive had to bite my tongue but whats the point if the feelings gone
I turn my head
Learned I only see some memory but all I see is red
Dont dont
Say it didnt happen that way
I wont wont
Believe another word that you say
In a clear view theres a silhouette
And I watch you and I cant forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breakings what the heart is for
When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
And not a soul sleeps
Another heart skips a beat
Its every note that you wrote and I hope that you choke on the lines
Youre wasting my time, another heart beats tonight
In a clear view theres a silhouette
And I watch you, no Ill never forget
Knew we were done when you locked that door
Yeah I figured it out now
Breakings what the heart is for
When I see you in a silhouette
And you hold close
Do you feel regret
Keeping me down when I hit that floor
And I figured it out girl
Breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
Yeah breakings what your heart is for
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(1 week ago)
Another Heart Calls Ch. 4
I was woken up by little hands and feet crawlin...
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Another Heart Calls Ch. 4
I was woken up by little hands and feet crawling on me. I opened my eyes and saw Alex's cute, little smiling face.
"Good morning, Mommy!" He exclaimed. I sat up and laid him down next to me and started to tickle him. He screamed and laughed while trying to get away.
"What are you doing in here?" I asked still tickling him.
"I want to go swimming!" He screeched. I stopped tickling him and he crawled to the edge of the bed for saftey.
"Honey, get away from the edge. You're going to fall and hurt yourself." I opened my arms and he crawled into them.
"Can we go to the beach?" He asked sweetly, "Pease." He gave me the cutest face ever. I gave in.
"Oh, alright. Go get your suit on and grab your beach toys.
"Yay!" He jumped out of my arms and ran out of the room.
I got my swinsuit on and threw a coverup on over it. I grabbed a couple towels, some sunscreen and Alex's hat. I walked out of the room to get Alex. He was sitting on the couch watching The Fairly Odd-Parents. I opened my mouth to tell him to come and put on sunscreen but my phone started to ring. I walked over to grab it when I saw the caller i.d.
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I stare at my phone while it rings for the fourth time today. His calls are getting less frequent over time. He might not call as often as he used to but his messages grew more and more pleading. It rips my heart into pieces to do this to him. But he had it coming.
"Rebecca, answer the phone. I know you're listening." He pleaded. There was a silence, "I'm really sorry. I don't know what happened. I love you and you alone. Please come back. Please." I could hear him start to cry, " I'm a wreck. I've screwed everything up. I know that, but please come back. I need you. I feel empty without you here. Please come back..." He ended with a final cry.
I looked down at my growing stomach and let yet another tear fall down my cheek and onto the fabric of my shirt. I took the phone away from my ear and pressed 7, or delete. Even though I had easred his messaged, his pleading words rang clear in my ears. Tormenting me. Tearing at my heart and soul. I took all I had not to catch the next flight to Los Angeles and run back into his arms.
I pulled my knees up to my chest and put my head in between them. I cried and cried until I couldn't cry anymore. Until I fell asleep, hoping that something, just something, good would come out of this.
That was the last time he tried to reach me.
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I looked at my phone in complete shock. Why was he calling me? It's been three years since he gave up. How does he even know I'm here?... Joseph. I'm going to have to hurt him later. I let the call go to voice mail. I kept looking at my phone until the cursed little blue person with the sound waves coming from his head popped up. I hit 'yes' to listen and put the phone to my ear.
"Rebecca, I know you're here," A door closed on his side of the line, " and I want to know where. Joe told me you were at a beach party and he talked to you. Listen, every word that came out of his mouth that was about me, was true. I've been thinking all this time that I was fine and that what I was going threw was normal heart break. But now I realize is that I can't live without you. I've tried and failed, miserably. I need to see you. I don't care if it's for 5 seconds or five years. I just need to know that you're ok. I know I should've went after you the first time you left but I'm gonna do it now. Better late than never." He chuckled sadly, "I love you. So much. More than I have ever known. More than I probably should, but I don't care. You know that."
The line went dead. I did know that too. Half of me wanted to find Joe and get him to tell me where was so I could hold him in my arms and feel his lips on mine. The other half of me wanted to run as far away as possible, never wanted to see his face. I saved his message instead of erasing it. He was here and I didn't care.
I turned around to get Alex. Alex. Oh, no. I loved his father with all my heart but after three years of keeping his son a secret, not knowing what he would do scared me. I don't know why. Maybe I was afraid for Alex. Afraid that bringing his father into his life would do something emotionally to him.
"Mommy, are we leaving now?" Alex said, interrupting my thoughts. Standing there looking at my son showed me that, I didn't care for anyone or anything as much as I cared for my baby's saftey. I smiled at him."
"Yea bud, Let's go." I grabbed my keys and opened the door.
Alex ran out the door, with all of his stuff, with the happiest face I've ever seen. I t was like we never went to the beach. I laughed and followed him.
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AHHHHHH!!!!!!OMG KEVIN IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY I CAN'T EVEN TYPE. HE PROPOSED TO HER ON HER DOORSTEP!!!AWWWWW SOOOOOO CUTE!
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xojbfan4lyfxo uploaded a new video
(1 week ago)
Another Heart Calls Ch. 3
Jocelyn and Carrie dropped me off at my apartme...
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Another Heart Calls Ch. 3
Jocelyn and Carrie dropped me off at my apartment. I stood in front of my home and watched them leave in their cars. I unlocked the door and flipped the light on. I set my purse down on the table in the entry way. My babysitter came from around the corner from the office.
"Hi Becca! How was the party?" She asked cheerfully. I put on a smile.
"It was great. I saw someone I hadn't seen in a while. How much do I owe you tonight?"
"$20.00. I'm glad you had fun." She said as I handed her the money.
"Me too." I lied. "Thanks for watching Alex for me, Carla."
"No problem. He's a realy sweet kid. Does everything he's asked." Carla smiled, "Goodnight." I shut the door after her.
I walked down the short hall and turned the nob of the door that led into my son's room. The hall light dimly light the room through the crack in the door. I saw his dark, curly brown hair poking out from under his covers. I opened the door futher and walked into his room. I knelt down by his bed and kissed him on top of the head.
I walked out of Alex's room and into my own room. Joe doesn't know about Alex, who the father is, the fact that he's an uncle, or that one of his brothers is the father. I planned to keep Alex a secret from the Jonas family. That secrect was going to be tought to keep do to the fact that Alex looks exactly like one of the Jonas boys.
I got dressed for bed and pulled the covers back. I sat down on my bed and pulled out a small shoebox from one of the drawers in my bedside table. I opened it and shifted threw the pictures. A tear slid down my face and onto one of my favorite pictures. I quickly wiped it off, then wiped my eyes. I remembered this picture so clearly, it felt like it was taken yesterday.
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I awoke to a flash of light and the sound of someone laughing. I opened my eyes and saw Joe hovering over me with an old fashioned camera in his hands.
"What the hell guys! How did you get in?! Get out!" The handsome man, who was laying bare-chested next to me, yelled at Joe and his brothers, sitting upright.
I quickly pulled the covers tight around me and sat up. I watched Joe laugh and leave the room, shuting the door behind him.
"Ugh, brothers. They never stay out of your business." Handsome man said, pulling on some pants.
"Yes those dirty little pests." I teased. He laughed.
"And pests they are." He agreed.
"But they are your brothers."
"Yes and crimnal masterminds. I'm still wondering how the hell they got in." He came over and sat on the edge of the bed next to me. I shrugged and he chuckled.
"I love you." He said, kissing me. I pulled away and laughed.
"Didn't you prove that you loved me last night?" I asked, smiling
" I can't prove to you enough." He kissed me agian.
"Go kick your brothers out first." I mumbled agaisnt his lips. He groaned.
"Right."
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You would think I would regret that night, but I don't. For two reasons. One, I loved him with all my heart and I still do.And two, without that night, Alex wouldn't exisist and I would be living here all alone.
I put the picture of me and my child's father back into the shoebox and back into the drawer. I layed back and pulled the covers over me and reached to turn out the light. I closed my eyes and thought, 'I miss you and love you, so much.'
I had thought his being here was bad, I still do, but my heart has it's own mind. It skipped a beat when Joe had told me that he was here. It almost stops dead when the disire and yearning for him reclaims my body. It's instinct to want him around me. To touch and hold me. To kiss me.
I hand made the decision 3 years ago not to ever fall in love with him agian. But I can't fall back in love with someone I never stopped loving. My decision was made by my head and a broken heart. But that very decision is starting to come off of the ground and rise into oblivion.
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