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SORRY! Sorry I guys I havent posted. I got in a HUGE fight with my bro yesterday and I slept over at my friends house. Things were said, feelings were hurt. Im at my friends house again today and I cant sleep so Im going to post. I have the worst writers block right now cuz Im sad. So if you have ideas feel free to send them over. CONGRATS KEVIN AND DANIELLE! So happy for them! They are so cute! Im gonna make a vid. Hahaha sorry for the random vid. My laptop is broken. "say anything...but say what you mean." ------------- I played with Bryans fingers as they were intertwined with mine. It was nice having him back. It was comforting knowing he was there for me and still willing to try this. He ran his fingers slowly through my hair giving me random kisses on my head. This was nice. I missed it. For a moment I forgot I was in the hospital locked in these four white walls. But that was quickly ruined. "Cassandra honey we need to go do your scan." Stacey sweetly said as she walked into the room. I groaned. I hated those things. They freaked me out. "do I really have to?" I asked pulling away from Bryan. "yes honey we have to see how your brain is working." "gosh you make me sound like Frankenstein." I pouted. I felt like a freak. Like I was made wrong and had to always be tweaked to get fixed. I didnt feel normal. "cassie you had a big seizure. We need to find out why." but I knew why. "fine. Can Bryan come with me?" "I dont know." Stacey said helping me up out of the bed. "please. I hate just sitting there. Alone." "he cant Cass. Because of the radiation" "I wait outside for you. he said grabbing onto my hand. Ill be right there when you get out." "promise." "I promise." he smiled and gave me a kiss. "fine." I sighed defeated. I wrote a small note for Elizabeth because knowing nick hes going to show up and I dont want her to freak out. Bryan grabbed my hand and walked with me down the hall to the Lab. "why do you hate to be in there?" he whispered curiously as we slowly followed Stacey. "cuz Im scare of what Ill think." I replied honestly. "what?" "I have to sit there and stay still. Then I get all these thoughts running through my head. My mom, my dad, Michael, nick, selena..." I trailed off when my mind headed to Joe. I felt bryan get tense but he didnt say anything. "dont worry. I'll be right here for you ok." I smiled up at him and saw the sincerity in his eyes. "ok" at that moment I knew everything would be ok.
[Joes POV] We sat in the car in a comfortable silence. She reache dover and turned on my radio. "hmmm.. John mayer. Cool." she said quietly. [get it???] "yeah. Hes one of my favorites." "you dont look like the john mayer type." she said switching the song. "Ive been told that before." I said quietly. We finally reached the restaurant and nicole got out slowly. She turned to me confused. "ESPN?" she asked in a chuckle. [i dunno its 2am and i'm delirious] "you said you like sports." I laughed back. "ok yeah...but I mean...I dunno." she shrugged. "come on it will be fun." I said taking her hand. She stood still but soon squeezed back. Something about this girl has me giddy inside. And I couldnt put my finger on it. We walked in and we got a seat in the back. It was perfect. "order whatever you want." I said after I noticed her eyes widen at the menu. "we can just go grab a burger or something joe. Really." she said. "nope. We are eating here." "fine." We ordered and I couldnt help but chuckle when she got the steak. At least she didnt order an appetizer only. "so. Where have you been lately?" It took me a second to actually process the question. "um..." "sorry. Im too nosy." she said embarrassed. "no its ok. I just needed to get away I guess. Clear my head." She nodded in agreement. "I hear ya. Ive been wanting to leave this place since high school." she sighed and slouched in her chair. "I havent lived my life yet." "yeah." I said. ----------------- Ok. Its horrible. I know. Im sorry. Im tired but I cant sleep. So if you have an idea feel free. Maybe Ill post the next chapter of guardian angel. THANKS FOR READING!
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my brother apparently thinks its a good idea to drop my laptop. im at my friends house so that explains the random vid. song is unhearted by juliet simms. one of my favorite. i'll try and post FAA but im not sure. i work tomorrow so if i come to her house tomorrow too i'll post. we r gonna watch PPP right now! lol ------------- "Hey Chlo..." I whispered. "I miss you." The lump in my throat was unbearable and I felt my chest give in. My head was slightly spinning with what I could possibly say. I felt slightly stupid knowing that Abby was probably watching. "Abby this is stupid." I sighed getting up. I didnt hear from her and I looked around. She was no where in sight. A slight breeze embraced me with what felt like a hug. Id know that feeling anywhere. I felt it every time I came home from a long trip. I stayed still as it left tingles all over my skin. It quickly went away and I looked back over to Chloes tombstone. I knew it was her. "Chlo?" I whispered. It was completely silent but I swear I could hear her. In my heart. I looked at all the flowers on her grave. I know my mom always brought her a fresh batch of daisies every morning. She always offered if I wanted to go. But until now I never would have thought I would step foot in this cemetery again. Then there was a bouquet of pink roses with a card. I pulled it out and saw a small note. 'I know youre still around.' it looked like nicks hand writing. He was the last living person I knew who only wrote in cursive. "He really misses you ya know." I began out loud. "I think hes taking it just as hard as I am. I just want my little brother back. I havent had a real conversation with him in a long time. With anyone really. No one understands like you Chloe. I dont want to be mean, I just want this pain to go away." I stopped to catch my breath as all these emotions took over me. "Im so sorry Chloe." I sobbed. "Im so sorry. I shouldnt have let go. I should have gone back...its not supposed to be like this. Youre supposed to be here with me. Remember? A house. Kids. Forever." I was now a mess. I havent let any of this out in months and it was now just overflowing. "I dont know what to do anymore." I sat there and took a deep breath closing my eyes and just thinking. I remembered the day I asked Chloe to be my girlfriend. [flashback....pretend it gets all fuzzy lol] I was a nervous wreck. Today is the day I am going to make Chloe mine. Today I will tell her how I really feel. I just hoped she felt the same way. I dont know what it is about her that has me going crazy. She the complete opposite of what anyone would think would be good for me. And I loved that. "Hey you ready?" I jumped when I saw Chloe standing at my door. She was beautiful and I just stood there staring at her. Joe? "Oh. Yeah sorry." I walked up to her and gave her a hug. I pulled her close to me. The smell of her hair was always so comforting. You look beautiful. I whispered into her ear. "Thanks." she chuckled quietly and sweetly. She pulled away and looked up at me with her big beautiful eyes. "Sooooo, where are we going?" She asked in her little voice that gave me chills. "Nice try. Its a surprise." she groaned and her smile soon turned into a frown. "Youre prettier when you smile." I said laughing. "Lets just go before it gets to late." she slipped my hand into hers and I felt a spark run up my arm. Even after all this time I spent with her she still makes me feel all these emotions. She headed to my car but I pulled her back. "What?" she asked confused. "Lets walk." I offered. She looked at me like I was crazy. "Why? She groaned "Youre not going to die." I teased. Now that I think of it, I regretted saying those words. "Besides the stars look cool tonight." Cool" she mocked raising an eyebrow. She looked up and smiled. "I guess. They do look pretty...COOL." She snorted making fun of my lack of a better adjective. But she always had that effect on me. I was always speechless around her. I held out my hand and she fit hers into mine perfectly. We walked for a bit in comfortable silence just enjoying each others presence. I looked down at her and watched how she looked up at the sky. She felt me looking and blushed. "What?" she squeeled. "Did I tell you how beautiful you looked tonight?" "Yeah." she said quietly. "Well I'll tell you again. You look beautiful tonight." I said. "Thank you Joseph." my heart skipped a beat. It does that every time she calls me by my first name. we finally got to the small park down the street from my house. I led her to a small patch of grass where I had set up a blanket and nicks guitar. "Joe, whats going on?" she asked cautiously walking over to the blanket. "Just sit down ok." I said nervously as all of this finally caught up with me. She sat on the blanket and looked up confused. "I wrote this for you. just listen." -------------- tell me what you think!
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check out 4:02 for a nice little swipe at joe jonas! "is this how yousay good bye?" ;)
FEARLESS TOUR 6/11/09 Columbia, Maryland
Justin Timberlake cover :)
no infringement intended!
LYRICS! (mixture of the two songs)
All this time I was wasting, Hoping you would come around I've been givin' out chances every time And all you do is let me down And it's taken me this long baby But I figured you out And you think it would be fine again But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore I won't pick up the phone This is the last straw Don't wanna hurt anymore And you can tell me that you're sorry But I don't believe you baby, Like I did before You're not sorry. Oh no, no, no.
Looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn't know Could've loved you all my life If you hadn't left me waitin' in the cold And you got to share your secrets And I'm tired of being last to know And now you're asking me to listen Cause it's worked each time before
But you don't have to call anymore I won't pick up the phone This is the last straw Don't wanna hurt anymore And you can tell me that you're sorry But I don't believe you baby, Like I did before You're not sorry. No, no, Oh. You're not sorry. No, no, Oh.
You had me crawling for you honey And it never would have gone away, no You used to shine so bright, But watched all of it fade
Don't wanna think about it Don't wanna talk about it I'm just so sick about it I can't believe it's ending this way Just so confused about it Feeling the blues about it I just can't do without ya Tell me is this fair
Is the way it's really going down? Is this how we say goodbye? Shoulda known better when you came around That you were gonna make me cry It's breaking my heart to watch you run around Cause I know that you're living a lie But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around Yeah
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around Yeah
So you don't have to call anymore I won't pick up the phone This is the last straw There's nothing left to beg for And you can tell me that you're sorry But I don't believe you baby, Like I did before You're not sorry. No, no, Oh. No, no...
You spend your nights alone And she never comes home And everytime you call her, all you get is a busy tone What she's doing to you What you did to me Tale as old as time Boy, you got what you deserved
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Nice job commenting guys. posting this before bed just for you!! make sure you've read 5. *NO COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT INTENDED. ALL CREDIT FOR THE PICTURES, VIDEOS, AND SONGS GOES TO THE RIGHTFUL OWNERS* --- "Is she okay?" I asked quietly. "Well, the nose bleed has stopped and we've transfused enough blood to make up for the loss, but she's very sick. Blake, how long ago was your bone marrow transplant?" "About 6 years ago...why? Does she need a transplant?" "It's looking like it. Who gave you your marrow?" "Riley." "Was Rebecca a match?" "I don't think so." "What does all this mean?" I asked. "Well, if you were a match to Blake, and Rebecca wasn't, that means neither of you are matches for Rebecca." "So what are we gonna do?" "Well, we look for a non-relative match. It's more risky, but it's the only way, and many people come out of those transplants just fine." "Okay," Blake said. "Where's our mom?" I asked quietly. "With Rebecca. I'm afraid since you're not 18, you can't go see her yet. Blake, you can if you want." "Maybe later. I don't wanna leave Riley alone." "Okay, we're moving her to a room so you'll both be able to go see her soon. I'll let you know when that happens." "Thank you, Doctor," Blake said before the doctor nodded and walked away. I let the tears that I had been holding back come, and Blake quickly hugged me. "She's not gonna be okay, is she?" I wailed. "She's gonna die, isn't she?" "No, don't say that. They'll find a donor. It'll all work out." "I can't lose her." "I know, and you won't, okay?" "Why is this happening to us?" "I don't know." "It's not fair!" "No, it's not." "You know, you can go see her if you want." "I'll go when you can go too." "Thanks Blake." "Nothing to thank me for. And try not to worry. Our family has gotten though a lot. We'll get through this too."
{Nick's P.O.V.} Joe didn't tell any of us what was going on. He said he didn't even know anything more than that something was wrong. And I'm not sure how he did it, but he got us all some time off. Before I knew it, we were getting off the plane in New Jersey and were on our way to the Coopers'. When Riley answered the door, she looked sad and tired. When she saw it was us, however, she brightened up just a little bit. She immediately hugged Joe. "What are you doing here?" she asked. "Well, we were worried." "Thank you so much for coming," she said, hugging me and Kevin as well. "Hey, Rye, who was it?" Blake called, walking in, but he stopped when he saw us. "What are you guys doing back early?" "Well, I could tell when I was talking to Riley the other day that something was wrong, so we wanted to come back," Joe explained. "Have you told them?" Blake asked Riley. She shook her head. "Rebecca didn't want me to." "Where is Rebecca?" I asked quietly. Riley looked over her shoulder at Blake, unsure what to do. Blake sighed and said, "We'll take you to her." So we got back in the car with Riley and Blake, and Blake took the wheel, unable to say where we were going. I didn't even know what to expect, but when we pulled off towards the hospital, my heart started beating faster. "She...She's in the hospital?" I asked quietly. Riley, who was sitting between me and Joe, looked at me sympathetically and nodded with tears coming to her eyes. "I'm sorry," she managed to choke out before breaking down in tears. Joe put his arm around her and pulled her into himself. "What's wrong with her?" I asked. "She didn't want us to tell you. I think it's best if she tells you herself." ---- okay, i know you guys are like dying, but like i said it's hinted at in this chapter and it'll be explicitly stated in the next one if you still don't know I PROMISE. but what's wrong? and what will happen when they get to the hospital? Will they find a donor? will everyone be okay? questions questions questions. so COMMENT AND RATE please! i'll say 20 comments for the next one but remember I'm going up to Boston for the Demi concert tomorrow, so we're leaving at like 1 and won't be home till like 5 in the morning, so i'm not gonna be posting tomorrow (i'm sleeping until I absolutely have to get up so if i get like 3 hours of sleep tomorrow night there'll be a chance that i'll be somewhat functional at work on saturday since i have to be there an extra hour and a half and i have to help kids do an art project it took ME like half an hour to do... it should be interesting but that's another story haha) but if you guys comment i'll try my hardest to post as soon as i can. don't forget to check out both parts of chapter 11 of Waiting to Begin Again which i posted earlier. it's already gotten like 17 comments but i don't think i'm gonna post another one tonight since i'm going to sleep. but if you want more on saturday don't forget to comment! thanks guys! i'll let you all know how the concert is... I'm so excited!!
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A tragedy and a sick twist of faith bring two broken hearts together. A strong feeling of anger and hate fill their hearts as they blame each other for the loss of the closest ones to their heart.
He lost his soulmate. the one he knew he was going to marry. She lost her father. The only person she had in the world.
Will these two lost souls need each other to make it through?
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