I'm Sorry (dedicated to supporters of survivors)

This is a video I made using a poem by a wonderful friend, Capulet. It's called "I'm sorry". Most of the pictures I took myself, if I don't have permission to use one of the others, please contact me.
Please comment and rate!
This video is dedicated to all those out there who support survivors of sexual abuse.

Her is the entire poem:
Dear Friend,

I'm sorry.
I can't be reached sometimes.
My smile is sometimes forced.
My eyes are often teary.
And when you ask why, it's easier to shrug.

I'm sorry.
I don't mean to be dishonest.
I often lie when I say everything is fine.
But that is only because the truth is so horrible.
I don't think you would understand.

I'm sorry.
For all the times I canceled plans.
Because I was too sad.
I was too afraid you would see my pain.
Or I didn't want you to see me cry.

I'm sorry.
That sometimes I'm a bad friend to you.
I know you needed me at times,
But I needed myself more.
So it was easier to walk away.

I'm sorry.
I know I test you.
I wish I could trust you.
You haven't hurt me,
But that's because I never gave you a chance.

I'm sorry.
I heard you when you said you were there for me.
I want to believe you and I often do.
But I don't let myself get too close to you,
Just in case you can't handle me and my issues.

I'm sorry.
I know that it's not fair to you.
What I put you through.
But I need to do these things,
For they protect me when nothing else does.

I'm sorry.
I do want to be hugged.
I do want to be held.
But when you offer your arms,
I'm afraid because they remind me of someone else's.

I'm sorry.
I need you to be patient with me,
I need for you to understand.
That you need to make more of an effort with me.
I know it seems unfair to ask.

I'm sorry.
I get angry at you a lot.
I don't mean to yell or shout.
I know it's hard to explain,
But most of the time, I'm not mad at you.

I'm sorry.
I don't mean to scare you with my moods.
It's yet another thing I can't explain clearly.
The cuts, the bruises, and the scars,
Are all a part of me that you will hopefully learn to accept.

I'm sorry.
I know I don't appreciate you enough.
I wouldn't blame you if you left.
But I beg of you; please don't.
I need for you to stay.

I'm sorry.
That I have so many emotions.
I'm high maintenance.
But I want you to know that I love you.
I just don't know how to say so.

I'm sorry. Please forgive me.

Category:

Education

Tags:

• abuse
• assault
• forgiveness
• friendship
• healing
• journey
• rape
• sexual
• support
• survivor

[ilive2day2love4ever]

Thank you so much for making this video, and thank you to Capulet for sharing such a tender and heartfelt poem. The combination of both the movie and the words made this very very good. It speaks truth in the eyes of how someone like me, who has gone through sexual abuse, feels and wants those around me to know. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Wonderful job princessoftides87 and Capulet!

[princessoftides87]

Wow, thank you so much for this lovely comment, it really touched me. I'm sorry for what you've gone through, but thank you for sharing your feelings. Take care!

[hiunikel]

such a wunderful video ..noble feelings...

thank you

[princessoftides87]

Thanks so much for your comment. Noble, that word never crossed my mind when I made the video... Makes me feel good that it comes across like this though.

[greenangel99]

amazing. simply amazing, great post!

[princessoftides87]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.

[queenshaina101]

Wow this is like me talking...

[necromancer1138]

A friend of mine on facebook pointed this video out to me, I liked it so much I 'shared' it on there. This was very well done and I think it reaches so many people out there, thank you so much for posting it!

[ScotsLass1960]

Very poignant words, video and sound track, you did a fantastic job, Thank You for sharing this God Bless ALL Survivors, xxx

[chrisnmariska]

thank you for this a friend of mine recently told me of her abuse and this moved me to tears thank you.

[NakedMime]

Sorry to my family in Vegas. I need to face this alone but I love you all.