My heart feels so empty without you [Memorial]

I started this when she died but didn't have the heart to even look at it for awhile so I took a break from working on it for about a month or so. I still can't believe she's gone even though I saw her lying there in the hospital. I know I'm going to feel like that for a long time. Everytime I think about that day...about her, I cry. She was my family and someone I loved very much. I'm not the only one who's lost someone this year. Me and 3 of my friends have each lost someone dear to us. Two lost their friends, Lizzie and I lost the same member of our families in the same month. I'm thankful that we understand eachothers pain because it helps us.

I've turned off comments because this isn't something that needs them. This is for her and a way to help release some of the pain. I had originally wanted to make her a video to cheer her up in the hospital but it wasn't meant to happen. I wanted to do anything to make her feel better but all I could find were sad songs. For me that was another sign that she wasn't going to make it. If my dearest friends want to say anything to me about it just pm me. I know I didn't get a chance to talk to all of you and let you know why I wasn't around for awhile but now you know. I couldn't care less about my computer. All my thoughts were focused on her. I wanted her to make it through but she was having so many problems and in so much pain that, as much as I miss her, I'm glad she's not suffering anymore.

The only message I have for everyone is that if you love someone dearly, spend as much time with them as you can and cherish that time before it's too late or you will live with the pain of that regret for the rest of your life.

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