NICKS POV FROM NOW ON
I hope he holds her. Not just holds her, I know he holds her, but I hope he circles his arms around her waist, just below her ribcage, and squeezes gently. I hope he kisses him. Not just kisses her, I know he kisses her, but I hope that he puts his lips to the right corner of her mouth and lingers there long enough for her dimples to come out of hiding. I hope he whispers to her. Not just whispers to her, I know he whispers to her, but I hope he pulls her close and whispers poems softly into her ear. I hope he speaks to her. Not just speaks to her, I know he speaks to her, but I hope that he speaks to her gently, in English, in French and maybe even in Italian, she loves Italian. I hope he listens to her. Not just listens to her, I know he listens to her, but I hope that he listens with his ears and his heart. I hope he looks at her. Not just looks at her, I know he looks at her, but I hope he catches her eyes with his and gazes at her fondly, as though she's the only person in the world, without breaking eye contact for a long time, minutes even. I hope he knows her. Not just knows her, I know he knows her, but I hope he knows what she likes, that she likes to have back rubbed after a long day, that she likes to have her hair played with as she falls asleep, that she likes to have an arm draped protectively over her waist as she sleeps, that she likes loving silence after sex, that her favorite food is peanuts, that she likes crying in movies because it makes her feel human, that if you stroke the side of her foot with your finger she'll laugh...always, even when s he's upset. I watched as she walked down the aisle towards him, her long train behind her. I watched as she met him at the altar, smiling shyly, blushing almost. I watched him take her hand. I watched them look at each other, both apprehensive and excited at the same time.
I hope he loves her. Not just loves her, I know he loves her, but I hope he loves her right. I hope he thinks of her all of the time. I hope he lets her know how special she is. I hope he brushes her knee with his hand under the table as though by accident. I hope he never raises his voice to her when he's angry, she hates being yelled at, it kills her slowly. I hope he loves him like I do. I blinked back a tear, I couldn't cry, not here...when I was alone maybe, but not now. "...speak now or forever hold your peace..." We were at that part already? Don't, just don't. I shook my head, it would kill him if I ruined this, but I couldn't watch him marry her, I just couldn't. I stood, but I didn't object. I looked at him for a split second and turned, running from the church. People may have gasped, people may have wondered why I would do such a thing, why I would run out on his wedding. None of them knew, none of them. I ran and ran, not knowing where I was going until I was there. I was at a school, a closed down school with an overgrown yard. There were vines crawling up the poles supporting the swing set and the seats of the things were soaked with the rain that was falling on me. I pulled the top two buttons of my shirt undone and bent over for a second to catch my breath before slumping down to the wet, muddy grass, my back against a tree, not caring if I ruined my suit, I would never wear it again. My knees pulled in against my chest and I buried my head in my hands, letting the tears fall that I had been keeping in. I hope he makes her happy. Not just happy, I know he makes her happy, I hope he makes her ecstatic. I don't know how long I cried, maybe it was a minute, maybe it was an hour. I didn't know and I didn't care. Nothing mattered anymore.
"Nick..." I ignored the voice, it was just in my head. "Nick, I thought you were happy for me." I looked above me. She was standing there, her dress hugging her body, looking as beautiful as ever. The rain beat down on them.
"I was happy for you..." I sighed, looking away from her. "But not for me." I just wanted her to go away, to leave me alone.
"You said you were ok with this."
"I know. I lied."
"We were two years ago."
"I know."
"You ended it Nick."
"I know."
"You said your feelings were gone."
ok making it clear- alexa is getting married to someone else and nick is upset??.....just want to be sure
seema8899 3 years ago
si, but who shes getting married to is gonna.
blow.
your.
socks.
off.
hayleyjblove 3 years ago