"I finally, completely, love myself. My name is Eva and I'm an Ex Mormon."

http://www.i-am-an-exmormon.com/

http://www.postmormon.org/

http://www.exmormon.reddit.com

http://www.LifeAfterMormonism.net

In April of 2005 I married a wonderful returned missionary in the Temple. We had a good Mormon marriage and did all the things we were supposed to. We were faithful and obedient.

In January of 2007 he told me about how he had started looking into the origins of the church. He had started reading the history and because of many accounts and facts which were never taught to us, was starting to have doubts. I was horrified because anyone that really truly understands LDS doctrine knows that if your spouse doesn't live the standards, you can't be with them forever. There is some clause about possibly keeping them regardless but it is a gamble for the eternities; you can't drag someone to "heaven."




By April of that year it became abundantly clear to me that my husband had lost his belief in the LDS faith. I started talking to my bishop about what to do with the situation. I started asking questions myself and got his parents involved and also made the situation known to my family.

Everyone hoped for the best; we all wanted to keep hoping that my husband would see the error of his questioning ways and pray "for real," after which he would of course get his testimony back. He did pray for real, he did give it a real shot, and nothing. He was sincere, and I couldn't understand why he was not getting the answer he was supposed to. I was shocked and by then was having panic attacks regularly because this man was in essence, immediately or at some point in time before the eternities, going to destroy my marriage and my eternity with him.

It was horrible and I wouldn't want anybody to go through what I did — a true nightmare.

My stake president told me that likely my husband was hooked on porn which made my situation undesirable and inhospitable for future babies. But he didn't say the words "leave him".

My bishop also had concerns about possible porn addiction (not at all the issue) and that there was possibly likely any number of issues as well as porn addiction. Heaven forbid that Joe was actually reading the history of the church and was actually having doubts for legitimate reasons. I told him that I had decided to leave, and in a blessing he told me that I had made the right decision. But he didn't say the words "leave him".

My parent's bishop told them to bring their daughter home, to get her out of there. Their stake president also didn't say to have her "leave him" but you get the idea.
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To finish reading Eva's exit story, please visit the link below:
http://www.iamanexmormon.com/2011/02/my-name-is-eva-and-i-finally-completely-...

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[lpsbullion]

yawn. Why did the text have to say they were back together? How come she did not say that?? LIke most videos from this group they cannot state any facts. Just feelings

[iamanexmormon]

@lpsbullion I put it in a title because people complained that it wasn't clear enough when I edited the other footage together and it was the most important point of the whole video.

[FredDummiDokiWinbii]

no there is nothing you can help me with the only reason i found this was beacause i was being silly and started looking up mormon videos

i dont understand how you have a bad life beacause of the church

i am a mormon

so this make no differnce to me because i believe in this church

you should take the time to understand how come you feel confused or angered. dont just leave the church the more and more my family read the scriptures the more i feel the holy spirt come to me im only 12 years old

[iamanexmormon]

@FredDummiDokiWinbii Doesn't it bother you that Jehovah's Witnesses and other churches teach children lies from a very young age? Why are those children so sure about their religion?

[FredDummiDokiWinbii]

i dont understand

[iamanexmormon]

@FredDummiDokiWinbii Anything I can help with?

[FUwogs]

idiots jump from one fairy tale to another... let me guess now your a born again moron right? 

[AntonTheSpot]

@MrFitzwilly oh please!

[MrFitzwilly]

And the battle for souls continues. Even the very elect will be decieved. We are promised that the world will love us if we turn from the church. Prophecy fulfilled in Eva.

[kraorh]

@mrskatayers That's a very mature attitude. One sadly that isn't common, either for Mormons or non-Mormons. I'm not sure I get the "testimony" notion, which seems to keep people immune to facts and reason they don't want to hear, but I think in your own way, you get it - the essentials, I mean. Seeing the forest for the trees is often more important than the details. I hope that made sense! It was intended as a compliment.

[kraorh]

Conquering cognitive dissonance is one of the most difficult and painful things to do. It takes courage and intellectual integrity of the highest order, and I admire that you've done that. You set a great example for others, whether you realize it or not.

[MrMFHORN]

''Oooh!, those mormans are so bad!!!!!!!, They messed up my life so now I'm gonna be an EX-MORMON. I'll fix them mormans, I'll do a youtube vid on 'em and show 'em how happy I am ''

Good luck, EX MORMON

[rocpet3]

the Mormon church thinks its ok to treat people like trash, but I don't. I was called a bunch of nasty names by a few Mormons just because I told them I didn't believe in magic underwear. names like Nazi, Antichrist, Hitler, things like that. not to be judgmental but I thought Mormons were taught to respect others. I mean how am I suppose to have respect for people who trash others, doesn't matter the circumstance, I always try to treat people with some level of decency but guess Mormons don't.

[winterwolf5]

@FredDummiDokiWinbii im 12 and banned from swtors

[atdd22]

Really pleased to hear you managed to get back together.